Exulansis (you'd be glad to hear that you still have a few more days with me)

I must stay conscious
Through the madness and chaos
So I call on my angels
They say

Oh, ye of so little faith
Don't doubt it, don't doubt it
Victory is in your veins
You know it, you know it
And you will not negotiate
Just fight it, just fight it
And be transformed

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I had a rather disturbing dream last night....
aliens...ugh. that and a few sick dogs (not mine, they were huskies)
but at least the neighbor didn't get buried by books, the other neighbor's house didn't
get damaged and a blue ferris wheel didn't fall apart, hurting some girls.
but I really dislike alien dreams....this was the second in 2 days with aliens.
but at least I managed to compliment them in both dreams...
the first I broke the code and told the one lady that she looked adorable, like an
old lady couch, one guy looked kinda like shrek, which he was just annoyed with that compliment, another boy was a bit scared of me because I was invading his personal space while examining his eyes.
.....last night I complimented the alien lady and said she looked gorgeous....
because I wasn't sure if she was going to kill me....she gave me a hug and then asked my question about whether 'they' (her kind) were going to hurt us...
she said 'no'....real friendly like, but then hesitated and said.. 'well, maybe.'
and I said... you mean people who want to be altered, right? that us humans need time to adjust...
and she said that 'it really wasn't up to her.'  --- ugh!  then stupid ufos appeared outside and they were using a liquid gas to appear invisible in the skies, but the gas was released from their mirror like cover and they started turning their correct black color. Ugh...I couldn't move when I saw them like a gravitational immobilization thing was happening...and woke up.
there were also two small little insect like aliens that 'woke up' - I was yelling that to at this general dude, but he didn't seem to care. Johnny Depp and Tom Hanks also managed to be in this dream along with some sketchy guy. idfk.

Ok, so today I was given the answer to this thing...sorry can't tell you....but I'm 100% positive I am in fact not losing my mind. It is almost beyond comprehension and I'm still absorbing it....on top of certain occurrences that have been leading me....I'm somewhat terrified and in awe.
This is cool....almost like how it was actually seeing a real UFO a long time ago...that awe and an underlying fear....
let's add in this song above.....but now...I can't really tell you that either...nevermind.
I'm not here to tell you anything.
But I will know here shortly. Soon. very soon...I can feel the fluxation.....it's going to be a blast. And I'm just over here like .... here's your popcorn...lol.
I hope no one takes that as a bad pun....see what I did there and I haven't even made it to the future yet.
well, I have...but not in the conscience of this material dimension....kinda...? I've been seeing things...
I recently realized that by the time the ships that carry passengers to the space port (or moon/Mars) I'll be a young teenager (again) on a bicycle. I've already seen them. Not to mention a few other things that have been spilled onto my side of the glass.



Exulansis:
(n) The tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it.

^^ see that....just found it, ha. perfecto.