"Shhh" - BOOM!

"Stay out of it."

the time you try to tell that to someone,
but just as the words leave your lips...
you realize...yeah, that's great advice, I should take it too.
and then...
You do

and it helps to repeat it in your mind as they try to wrangle you in

and it all works out...
not your circus, not your monkeys...
not your battle, or project, or idea...
stay out of it

unless you really feel like taking on other people's shit...
then by all means, go for it...
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and I wonder how brilliant I actually am...
if I would only follow my own advice way more often
Ah.... the possibilities.
I guess I could play that game...
the game of listening to myself...
because afterall... I AM the genius...
  (( genius in etymology =  'attendant spirit present from one's birth'))
the overseer... the ruler... the godhead... the captain... the driver... 
all in control of this avatar.... this body... and mind...who knows nothing but patterns...
a nervous system built to react.... and sometimes reacting badly...

turn off your auto-pilot...
and take the reins, or joystick, or controls, throttles, wheel, or whatever vessel your driving
(take the flesh!)
 and try not to crash

it'll be fun

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oh...life could be a dream...

Oh, life could be a dream
If I could take you up in paradise up above
If you would tell me I'm the only one that you love
Live could be a dream, sweetheart...

 

just learnt that on ukelele.... fyi...

 pretty simple...

T H R I V E

I will not follow you into your own deprivation.

Shall I stand still and make a puddle of stuckness while you catch up?
What if you never catch up?
This isn't quick sand.
This isn't tar....or glue....

I will go this way.
I will do these things.
I will receive these things.
Look at all my good fortune.

So why you hate?
Why you be jealous?
Why do you critique those things I allow myself to have.
To do.
To be.
To go.
To see.
To feel.

I will not follow you into deprivation.
I will walk forward on my own path.
You are welcome to follow.
You are welcomed to not.
But I will walk forward without fear.

The flames will not burn me.
The thorns will not stab me.
Sometimes the journey is tiresome...
and sometimes it may not be as expected...
but I will go.
I am unafraid
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 the tasty amount of wealth that fills the quantum field is enormous
and it's all just an idea
and there are some ideas greater than others
you can pick from anything....
but like the salad bar.... mushrooms and cucumbers are a 'no go'
while the chicken and tomatoes are a 'hell yes'
and we shall stay the course.... because we are done being famished
EAT your heart out
Your spirit can't get fat

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I'm guessing there's orders going to get paid!
and I'm a great guesser!
I'm also guessing that someone will oblige me about digging up my yard SOON
...
hung out with flowers today!
They happened to love my music ....the louder the better
and truthfully appreciated every time I called out 'railroad tracks'
so they could prepare for the bumps...
they were very friendly today
and I petted 3 doggies
...
Still on chapter 31....
and there's an amazing scene that needs to happen in book 7
and I don't know how or when or if it's going to get there, but mmmm....
...
...
there might be more later, but for now...
that's all you're getting

Speak the wonderous....

"I can't hear you."

Words spoken by a dragon with feathered wings.
and he wasn't about to let those small things you speak about yourself be heard
because you are more than those small hidden words
you are greatness

...and small things fall silent to the ears of god...
call forth the miraculous
summon the impossible
evoke the creation
be the creator
I dare you

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I dare you to love yourself fiercely
to speak boldly
to tell yourself you are a safe space
that you are beyond reach
that you are beheld and brave and everlasting
to say that you are loved, accepted, whatever you need for yourself
I dare you to give it to yourself
whatever you need
whatever you want
whatever brings about satisfaction
whatever brings joy
ALL the THINGS

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There were two horses the other day.
They saw us drive up and they locked their attention my way
and my heart had a fit of happiness
and stepping out of the vehicle, they came to the closest corner to greet me
and I squealed like a little child
because they were horsies!
and they let me pet them
and I couldn't spill out more than enough of lovable goodness for them
I was filled, and I hoped they know they made my entire week

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and it finally snowed!

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Chapter 31 of the book
and my facebook memories announced that many years ago I had just published
book 3 (Kingdoms Between Us)!
How's that for on track!
Book 6 is underway and reaching it's end....whenever everybody is ready, I suppose

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awaiting quotes for the yard still... for my pool, yo!
it rained all week and snowed, so patience is okay
I have a very good feeling about this one person.... sooo *thumbs up

lots of new perspectives for the spirit worlds...
aether worlds are quiet, but deep shit is leaking through
*thumbs up

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Sewing work is almost at the end....
I'm working on that huge tree skirt with all the ruffles...
still have 3 ruffles to put on... O_O
it's 90" in diameter.... so you can imagine the yardage...

1 dress whenever I get to it.
and orders that are on the way, but not paid yet, so they don't count
*thumbs up

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that's good for now, I'm off to go do something else... *thumbs up

Thunderbolts of lightning

Thunder in the night.
So loud you are rapt from slumber and even if the lightning didn't strike you...
you are jolted awake like electricity scouring across your flesh.
Maybe your inner body feels it... the atoms acquiring the substantial electrons
that were cast out from the lightning...
amplified by the inertia of reverberating static
either way... you are awake...
and maybe your ears are wallowing in shock..
was it that loud...
or did it only sound that loud because your ears were sleeping?

and then you roll over...
cause it's way too dark to elaborate the possibilities of waking
and your mind throws out a thought...
assuming it was actually your mind...
and you weren't still connected to some random channel of theta or gamma waves...

~~ "If you jump into another dimension...
 is there a sonic boom? Like when you break the sound barrior.
And if so...does it echo out in the place you left or the place you go to?
both perhaps?" ~~

 Because we need to know if this is a relevant possibility I guess?
Why brain?
WHY
it's like 4am... and it's thunderstorming outside
and we have a brick house
and maybe the neighbors got eletrocuted last night...
because that shit was loud
and it happened twice.
but for some reason.... you must ask questions about this stuff...

not to mention the fact that you also had the thought of thinking....
whether or not each time a loud boom and lightning strike like that happens,
if you get sucked into the fold of the dimensional rift...
and you did switch dimensions..
so you were the one hearing it!
BAM! Thanks for that 4am brain thoughts...
and then you carry on with whether you will you be able to tell the difference
between the dimension you left and the one you traveled to!
and if so, how much would you be able to catch?!
How much would you be able to tell the difference?!


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So today was rather joyful....
and as I write this blog post...
Brain is debating whether we truly did get sucked into a different dimension
O_O
and there's something so wonderfully weird going through today
and it feels absolutely amazing!
and I can guarantee whatever happens...
will work out tremendously in my favor
because it feels that amazing

!!!!

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so that book!!
I'm on Chapter 30
and it's all the hum drum kinda tying things up...
because that future storyline isn't ready yet...
...and my MC doesn't want to play with one of the other situations anymore....
and so I have to leave it to other characters...
...
and it's like this inbetween before other things come to the forefront...
and I'm not expecting a cliff hanger ending, thankfully! (I hope)
more narrative ...which to me is ...boring... but fills in some gaps easily...
without creating conversations where nothing happens...

(because in screenwriting 101
you don't talk the story... you show the story....)
and nothing is happening, so much as giving a rest from the happenings...
and opening a window to future happenings....

I'm considering certain things to end it with, but none of them feel correct
so I'll just do the winging it thing... and let them tell me how they want to end the book

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afterwards it sits for a little bit, then we edit/read through
...edit/read through again...
and spend a god awful amount of time finding a cover image...
and prepping for the printing crap...
....
oh... it probably will need a title (subtitle) too by that point HAHAHA!!
it should arrive *any day now... please

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then I will meditate like every fucking day, cause I miss the magic mojo...
and then I'll write a screenplay in 15 days! Huzzah!

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sewing orders... are like almost done....
and more orders are welcomed (and expected) to arrive
and I can paint a wall anytime I get the impulse.....
...
still have 3d world stuff to handle
flower delivery work next week! (huzzah for cashola!)
and I get to spend time with flowers for 2 whole days
(and my 4runner <3 )