How to become Free... like totally fully you...

How to become free.
How to release and receive.
How to know yourself and what you desire.
How to take the steps.
How to navigate the fears.
How to show up.
How to be.
How to...

These are questions only we can answer when we've done them.
And even then, the answer expands and grows as we keep stepping forward.
We don't jump from the matrix, or the job, or the bad habits, or limiting beliefs overnight.
We do it in this second. In the now.
Then we do it again in the next second.
It's discipline. But not the kind that takes a whole bunch of effort and hard work.
It's the other side... the allowing and accepting and relaxing.
Both.
You get further with both wings, both feet, both contrasting parts.





Freedom means awareness.
Freedom comes when we define the cages....the bars...and the energy that makes them up.
It comes as we begin to see past them. Take actions that support beyond what the cage provides.
This means...to know what is causing you constriction and stress.
   to know what parts are not working, not supporting, not embracing you.
   Once we know these things, we can plan actions that help us step away from them.
   This can be done over a period of time, or in an instant.
  What are you prepared for? How desperate is your situation? How much does it really matter?
We plan, we take the step we can take for today.
   if that means putting in a notice, do it. (the next step doesn't show itself until you take the first)
   if that means packing up and moving back home, do it.. (call your family, gain support)
   if that means unburdening yourself from a relationship that isn't working, do it. (communicate)
   if that means resting more and letting go of stressful tasks, do it. (Allow yourself to be cared for)
...your freedom is personal... be personal and intentional about how you want to navigate it.
  
Freedom means creation.
It means defining your needs and responsibilities that you DO want to keep.
   this means setting priorities, making them into your plans, supporting your best pieces of life.
And what can help you support these important things?
What can you delete that stresses them and what can you add that benefits them?
Where can you arrange a balance between the give and take? At least for now?
Where can you allow more, and where can you receive more?
What are you creating that flows to and for these good things?
What are you creating that is blocking those good things?
   I know you know these things. Those times you don't play with your kids because of something stupid. Those times you work overtime but haven't communicated with your spouse about anything all week. Those times you forced yourself to get things done, but couldn't allow yourself to be cared for by others....

Freedom means balance.
   But not like work and play... but like slow ease, and quick excitement.
It means patience and space. Breathing room, lots of cushion. Lots of forgiving and understanding.
It means acting on inspiration, on energy that shows up in the moment.
   not to think about it until it dies off... but to move with action when you are alive and carried with a unnameable passion.
It is an ocean of waves, and sometimes we are at the surface, riding waves and enjoying the sun...and sometimes we are in the depths of silence and repose.
   We can choose to tread water and get tossed by the sea, or choose to navigate what comes with skill, with ease, with intelligence. And we can choose to dive deep into our soul and discover who we are and whether we want to move toward a goal or be satisfied with were we are now.

Freedom means power.
   Saying no to what isn't for us, and yes to what is.
It means having the choice EVERY DAY with what or whom we will engage with.
It means the choice to play with society for today, or not. To create something today, or not. To be someone today, or not. To speak today, or not.
Choice IS power. And if you don't have a choice you have NO power.
Begin choosing what is FOR you.
Begin choosing what you want.
Begin taking actions that lead you towards what you love.
Choose to begin.

Freedom is in the NOW.
   It's not tomorrow or yesterday, or just a mindset thought.
It is right now with who you are being and what you are thinking right NOW.
It is in the choices you are making today.
The thoughts you are thinking today.
The way you are either moving forward or backwards or sideways.
It may seem like it's about reaching it in the future, but we can't reach what isn't built.
We build it by BEING it. Today. Now. In this thought. This action. This choice.
And it grows when we show up and stay consistent with those thoughts and actions.
    If we carved a rut with a not so great mindset, it's going to be a bit of a challenge to stay out of it and carve a new beneficial path... but it can be done...in a few days even, it's about your awareness of your choices, actions, words, thoughts.

Freedom is energy.
Use your emotions to propel you out of the ruts and onto the road you want to create.
If you have to cry and yell and scream and rage to shut up your shit thoughts, do it.
If you have to close your eyes and meditate for an hour to align yourself, do it.
If you have to lift heavy things and run a mile, do it.
If you have to take a hot bath and blast music, do it.
There is no wrong way back home to YOU.





No one can tell you how to do it. Not really.
We can lay out the paths and maps and hand you a compass and a gps...
but sometimes it does no good to those not yet ready.
That's okay.
Some people love their jobs and lives and they are prime examples of success.
Some don't work, have everything they need and want, and love their lives, and that too is success.
Some like the push and pull all the overcoming of trials...and if they are happy, that too is success.
But freedom is usually only sought by those who don't have what they need or want. That haven't found a love for life. That don't experience success.

So what do you want for yourself?
You can change things over time, or you can do it today.
You already have the freedom to choose.
No one gives you freedom... it is an energy that flows from within.
What blocks it is all the things you put between YOU and IT.
the excuses, the 'but's, the doubts, the past, the fears, the victim card...

No one can tell you how to do it. How to be 'free'.
But you can. You can tell you how to do it and you can do it today.
Summon your courage, your strength, your resolve.
Free your self. Your soul. Your ego. Your mind. Your body. Your limitless you.
Take all of who you are, all your parts and pieces and aspects and run with them.
Trust them. There's no cutting any part out when you are free to include them all.
Freedom is freedom of YOU.

~ Jennifer Coots ~ https://www.facebook.com/JenniferCoots

Static clings to those who haven't discharged their electrons...? wtf am I talking about

 I'm here, but I must admit that I'm in the inbetween.
That place of static, where you are no longer on the previous channel...
and you certainly haven't honed in to a new channel either.
So there's static and jumbled music and screeching.
It's been a bit lonely and lost. Although I recognize these spaces and transitions really damn fast now.
However, I'm still working on accepting the time it takes to get from one channel to another.
Patience just isn't doing it for me.
It's been weeks... and rather I feel like I'm in one of those padded cells.
Nothing to see in the Aethers, barely anything to hear...although I can hear far better than seeing.
The Alchemist is around, but the visuals are awol.

He claims I need to decide what I want..
ya know, do the focus and feel the emotional vibration of what you want.
The actual process of manifestation...
But for some whatever reason, I am subconsciously ignoring the steps to meditate.
Like a compulsion to do anything BUT that.

and maybe it's just the new moon...
Or some astrological bullshit.
Maybe I'm stubborn and really do not want to get distracted on a side quest.
Maybe I want nothing... yet everything wants me...
mmm....
That resonates stronger than I expected... interesting...
I shall meditate on it, LOLOLOLOL!  or not, lol.





I'm still sitting here, distracting myself from just closing my eyes and feeling.
Yet, even now, writing about it... avoiding it like the plague.
Not even a type of 'NO' forceful avoidance, but a ...
'look at this other thing to look at or contemplate...don't pick up the phone and call 911...
cause there ain't no doubt..bye bye bye ....
and fuck me...

Going to yard sales tomorrow, just for fun.
Then to best buy for a tablet.
It'll be too chilly for having our own yardsale, so aiming for next weekend, weather cooperating.
There's still many tasks to do around the house.
Still lots of yard stuff.
Still awaiting the day a dirt guy comes and levels the yard for my pool to get set up again.
Still doing the things and showing up... although my workouts have been slacking this week...
we had storage units to move and clean out for two days... and I had errands 2 other days...
and while I did walk the dog today, I got a workout in yesterday....but that was it :(

I blame the fact that the doc is checking shit and I had to wear a heart monitor for 3 days...
and I'm pretty sure it's not my heart causing my physical inconveniences.
We will see...
but I'm betting on fluid build up...a bit of anemia...and/or a pinched nerve/disc in my back.

and I've got eggs. Lot of eggs. 1.5-3 dz per day, lol.

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So I took a chunk of time and meditated...
I did all the things..
I made no decisions, only felt... and felt just energy.
Really soothing and I'd like to go to sleep now.
So yeah, thanks for that. G'night

March update cause whatevs

 I should come here more often, if anything it helps hone my typing skills so I don't have to
'stay in practice' or so they say.
Maybe one day I'll be able to type without hitting the backwards button to go and fix something I spelled wrong, LOL.

Update first.

I painted my latest art piece last night...

and while the pic does not show that oomph power to those colors... I'm in love.
and it's huge, 36" x 50" and I tacked it to the wall cause I needed to do it NOW.
And we listen to the art, yep...we do.

Finished that Atlantis book...
and I've yet to start on another yet, cause I don't know what to start on.
Angel of MidKnight book 8 is still gelling,.. I've got some of it, but details need filled in.
Those are every other year though, so I've got time :)

Have another with space and such... adventure, thing... but I'm conflicted to whether I'm qualified to write sci-fi adventure shit... maybe... the main guy in it is hot... so I could be enticed.

I haven't gotten my porsche yet. It's gelling.
It's finally looking like it will start maintaining a better temperature weather wise so I can work in the yard. Lots to do, lots of potential.

Workouts on par. I can run again, after a somewhere in there ligament strain in my leg/hip. Don't even know what I did, but it said no running for idk, 12 weeks... smh... I'm watching it though, trying not to 'overdo' it... pssh.. I wanna do what I want.

Took the go cart out today and got muddy water in my nose and ears and it was freaking cold. Broke said go kart, but hubs fixed it.

Just been sewing appliques lately, which is fine...
and stepping back from more pet sitting, just doing vacay check ins soon. No more daily's... cause I need to sleep in and not go anywhere before I grow accustomed to road rage... traffic is getting stupid and worse and Imma bout to run a motherfucker over.
I want to stay home, work in the yard, get my pool back set up, and do writing, and art, and clean house.

Doing storage auctions too with Teir. Starting out fairly well, just there's a lot of bidders, so it's sometimes a pain getting good ones. Coming along. Made my money back so far, and still have other things waiting to sell.

Kids are good.
Hubs is good.
Gma is good.
I'm good.
Pets are good, cept for Kitters, we are still working to get her anemia under control and stabilized with her meds. She goes to vet yet again Tuesday.
     This is killing my budget...but it's not like I have one anyway, so fuck it. This cat is a people cat and she gets whatever she needs.
Quail are good. Should get eggs again soon.

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So plans... we don't do plans.

Truthfully, we are working again through the gateway meditation tapes...
cause last time I could predict the future at a 94% rate.
  not that my 86% rate isn't good enough, but I impress myself at 94%.
and well... got to give myself more kudos.

We are working on coming home. Back to me.
And I'm still writing the other book of which I will probably never share publicly, but I will get a print published copy. It'll be on amazon or lulu... but I won't tell you. I don't think.
Lots of things change along with that one. It's all about me and The Alchemist... so it's personal.
Extraordinarily so. but whatevs.

Everything else that comes is great. Whatever it may be.
We're flexible and prepared for everything except aliens.
TTYL

.....not for you


I follow The Alchemist to the forest, down through a small pathway that had overgrown with more bushier plant life and vines, forcing me to move them aside as I travel through it.
It wouldn't have been so horrible of everything was dry, but it was all soaking wet and dripping with the last rain that was probably ten minutes ago. Not that time was a thing here.
   Now I was wet, a bit chilled, and about to learn something profound.

I had asked The Alchemist why I couldn't hold the higher energy or signals, that it felt like a rubber band pulling me back, snapping me back.
He didn't want whatever he was to say in the book I'm writing... so I'm here, now following him through the trees, off quite a distance from the cabin now.

"Close your eyes." He tells me as I still follow him.
I do so... trusting him to lead me through the overgrowth without getting drenched even more. Slowly we make our way further and further. I hear water, moving water.
"Here." He whispers, bringing me beside him.
   I open my eyes. There's towering rock cliffs rising high upwards where a waterfall in the distance drops and creates more smaller waterfalls as it flows downward toward where we are at the bottom of the ravine.
This is the cathedral... I realize, feeling the energy of this place fill into me, through me, with me.
"This is you." The Alchemist says. "All of this is you. The parts yet to be discovered. Inside, outside. Everything is you. All of it."
   I'm silent. I understand.
"So...I will then ask you. Why couldn't you hold the higher energies, the higher signals?" He asks what I asked him.
   I lower my eyes, crying in silence, holding it back. Smothering it under a million blankets, smothering my worth under a million blankets.
"The emotions aren't safe." I say. "Who can see this but us? Who can feel this but us? Who knows the truth, and even if they did, will it be held as sacred?"
"All of this is you. The who is you." He says again.
   I squeeze his hand.
"The world is me? Others are me?" I question, thinking it didn't quite fit right.
"There are no others." He shakes his head. "Go back to the emotions. The energy." He kneels down, now that I'm back to being a child again.

It takes me long minutes.
"They are the rubber band. The blankets." I say softly.
"Who." He asks.
"My own thoughts and perceptions of others." I tell him. "I brought them here." I shake my head. "How do I get them out?"
"They aren't here. You...are there." He confirms. "Come home. All of you. All of your presence moving through this space. With the overflow moving to them." He says assured. "The overflow."
"Fill myself up first. Is this what it means?" I look at him, thinking I knew this, but not at this level of awareness. This level of depth and of height.
"Yes." He smiles, taking my arms gently, almost to the point of tears. "Yes."

"Teach me how."

"Ooohh." He hisses a bit. "Not me. Seiphra."

   I might have froze. I liked Seiphra. I did... but he was a samurai. I was gonna get beat with a stick until I learned, wasn't I?
The Alchemist grabs my jacket and pulls me forward to touch his forehead to mine briefly.
"Seiphra is a friend. His training...his teaching...is guaranteed." He whispers. "Trust him."
"It's okay." I smirk. "I understand." I say, knowing full well that I would give Mustang more trouble than I would ever give Seiphra.
"I won't go anywhere. I'll be with you. Making faces as he swats you across the shin each time you get out of line." He teases.
"Yay." I do mini jazz hands.

"I accept." I say, agreeing to this nonsense. "I accept." I breathe in. "I accept." Cause the third time is the real acceptance.

A rant and a deluxe piece of engineering.

 

2023 Porsche 911 gt3 rs
But I prefer matte black....
the design software didn't have that option...

Just putting this here.
I exchanged the cybertruck for this...
because SPEED
and the new 4runner is already on the list when my current one expires

So I'm writing this book on Atlantis.
It's a collection of interviews from Atlantians.
Hope it makes the cut, haha.

Haven't wrote in the other lately, but it will come when it comes.
That one will take awhile, as it's not up to me...
It's up to the aethers what comes through...
and if I ever get some fucking time to meditate and have a chat.

I just wanted to rant today...
but while I'm speaking of books...
Just yesterday I had this huge influx of shit for book 8 of Angel of MidKnight...
and fuck me if this story ever ends...
Book 8 wouldn't be due til 2024...and here we are not even having stepped into 2023 yet.
son of a bitch...
son of a bitch...

Anyway...rant...
about this time constraint I'm still suffering from.
Suffer as in annoyed, not awfulness.
...
meditation...
that place I get all this awesome intelligence and genius from.
Where insights and unfathomable intuition grows out of.
where I meet the best people ever!!
   hence why real world people are so fucking boring...
so... I'm having the hugest irritation with being consistent.

'They' say to do meditation in the morning...
but that hasn't worked for the millionth time I've tried to do that.
My soul isn't even here...and then you want me to have a conversation or gather up cool stuff...
while I'm half asleep...
NO. I literately fall back asleep... or don't remember one second of whatever was going on..
so that does not work for me in any shape or form.
So mornings are a NO.
There's the afternoons. I love meditating in the afternoons...cause I don't fall asleep, I get to have chats with the aether peeps, or myself, or whatever... I remember it all. Easily can consciously delve into any issue or challenge to bring a solution to it. Manifesting powers are honed here.
  but...guess what... I've got shit to do.. errands, work, other work stuffs... I could do it a few days..
but a few days is not considered consistent.
   I do my workout more consistent than a few fucking days...
So unless I give up the jobs... which what's even wrong with that? (oh yeah.. *money)
the afternoons are a 'great time, but damn it if you aren't always available'.
Evenings... evenings are writing time. Networking time...
  I have gotten in a few meditations in the evenings.. but like the afternoons... not consistent. I get 3-4 on a good week...and that's not getting into the depths.
It's like eating fresh baked bread, but only the end piece... not the center....where it fucking matters...
I get my workout in more than that even!
FUUUUUCK...
I can't stay up til 2am all the time... *sigh.
And there is no such thing as cutting into writing time...I'd just be bombarded with book scenes the whole time...
Fuck me.. I don't even have art time... What the actual FUCK!?!?!?
Now I'm kinda pissed now that THAT realization has hit me...
wtaf...

I want it all.
Every fucking thing.

Especially that Porsche.

now..let's have a inner dialogue...
Say there was money to pay all the basics off and shit..
and buy the car and 4runner.. and hubs a new truck.. and the airstream...
Would I write? Absolutely! More so!
Would I meditate? Oh hell yeah! All the time!
Would I art? Certainly!
Would I workout? Yes! And go hiking at all the national parks, duh!
Would I pet sit?
   HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!  No....
   It's a no.
I already set my Rover account to 'away' so I don't pick up any new clients...
and truthfully I can give current clients to Skylar to handle.
No biggie... I do it for the money and ease and play time with pups/kits and I can run errands while I'm out and about. But yeah.. it buys gas and pays a few bills.
Would I still sew?
   That's a no too.
   Right now I only work one day every two weeks cause slow season... which is rather great.
  But *money
   ....but time...
time to do my stuffs....

We will rearrange my list and just do it.
Create the happening.
I can do what I want.


Peace out.

Nah.

 I've tried 3 times to come here and actually write.
So noww I have a sentence, so I guess that's a win.

When you channel other souls and they want to argue with you while you are writing a book...
that's fun...
when they gotta be draggin you into the story, when you don't want to be in the story to where people
know you're in the story.
But that's what Thoth does I suppose.
Tyrant.
Just like me.
Kuddos.
I may just edit it all out. idk yet.

Words are falling short in other aspects lately, unless you count the book I'm writing.
Which has a title already....and I'm so proud...
   *huffs on fingernails and buffs them on shirt cause it's all that and more.
Hoping it will be a short book, aiming for 10 interviews.
  which may bring it to 100 pages if I'm lucky....
  but that mind probe is saying it needs to be longer... argh... might just yank that out
  cause what's wrong with 100 pages... *sigh

I have a few intentions I've thought about... to up my game.
adding back the focused meditation has already paid off and I will be continuing such expenditures.
Think I'll do a kylego too... cause why not... last time I did that, it also paid off pretty well...
just like the time I posted all those pics of my future 4runner.... *which I also still LOVE.
 and the pool pics *thumbs up... even though we have to relevel it for next year...

so let's start now...
waiting until the new year is for losers.



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Kylego 12/22/2022

   I remember... when the properties we listed for sale sold in the same week for our asking price. It was amazing, one sold and then boom, a few days later the others did. Everything went smoothly and quickly and that ignited our finances to clear out the rest of the debt soon after.
   Things moved SO FAST! and everything shifted amazingly in our favor! We scored some awesome opportunities for quick chunks of massive cash and enhanced our finances for the long term.
It was so fun and exciting to get the publishing contract and finally earn huge checks for writing! That was a great start to an actual career that pays better than all things combined.
Oh! It even sparked my artwork to start working again and made big bucks with that, selling all the originals and still selling multiple prints of past pieces.
Also got an outstanding payment check for the next book that is already in the works! I'm so excited!
I just loved that everything aligned perfectly. I loved it made life so simple and easy.
I loved how quickly things unfolded and how expanded it made things.
I love how beautiful things grew more and more and more.
I love that the older kids found a great place to move that was perfect and affordable and safe and nearby. I love that Teir found a job he really likes and is thriving.
I love that hubs is going hiking and growing his hair out.
I love that I'm rich and the garage is cleaned out so that when I get my porsche, it has somewhere to go.
I love that Tesla stocks went to $1000 per share...and still growing.
I remember when I saw the future and it came true....and I saw the past and it met me again.

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just minor updates so you don't think I forgot about you.

 
So I've been writing this other book...if that's what it's called?
and today revealed a huge dimension of information and insight into some sciency worldly stuffs...
   and I'm not sure if I can write about it... if I can share about it...
and there are no minds around me that are willing to dive into quantum physics..
at east not on a serious level... *sigh.
it totally has to do with some things that are highly controversial...ya know, like flat earth.

Anyway...
besides all those happenings from the aethers which are in my new project book...
   I'm really just trying to get my 'art' to start back up and turn on...
  cause it's not looking good besides the ideas...the images... but absolute ZERO motivation to begin.
and maybe it will one day...but I'll need to reconsider giving handmade gifts... argh.
  which would be great if I had money.

Speaking of money..
what even is that...? cause yeah...
I quit sewing at home...shadowdragon dreams
   even if I am still actively fighting off mind invasions of doing this or that for pay...
   really ignoring and redirecting that nonsense of doing for money...
   rather than doing because I fucking WANT to.
   so far I'm winning....cause I'm writing ... and that's what I WANT to do...
   *I also want to get paid for such too, thanks..
I still have the alterations job at the bridal place...
  still learning stuffs, but only working 1 day a week right now, slow season
   which is fine, cause I like staying home.
////speaking of... still watching pets too...
   have one client I check on twice daily... every weekday almost.
   It's meh... but it's money...
   but like I said, I like staying home....sooo.. I may drop that come Feb.
   I already turned off booking new clients on Rover..soo.. meh...
Otherwise...
  house stuffs, christmas stuffs...facebook stuffs...
...and...
   whateverthefuck...

I was hoping something interesting would come out to play...
but it looks like that only works with books...

bored...gonna go...
can't promise I'll be back here anytime soon, but no plans to quit anything here ;)