So before they really do pick the next pope guy....my off the wall random guess based solely on the freaky picture of this guy.....may be Cardinal Angelo Scola. I only say that because of the freaky half faced, dark eyed man in the background of the picture looking straight at the camera.....um....weird. --- http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/lookout/white-smoke-pope-black-smoke-nope-live-video-174900106.html
Now also off the wall random thought is this smoke issue.....either black for no vote, or white for a new pope....not that I care...I'm not catholic, I don't think, haha. -- Anyway....I hope nothing comes out looking like blue smoke.... because of that dream I had...of the blue smoke that foretold of nuclear disaster....really really bad messed up dream and we don't want to hear anything of any kind of blue smoke ever. Got that.
As we all know this dream I had ended in death. (after I of course clicked the button that caused nuclear power plants to explode to kill the demon people trying to kill me, lol)and I saw the percussion blast and it disintegrated the demon lady in front of me and I ducked and covered but still kinda died, but wasn't dead....kwim? NO BLUE SMOKE ALLOWED!
Ok...back to this current world scenario....
Kids like their taekwondo classes and their school co-op classes....I like staying home, lol. And If this predicament of not wanting or physically working keeps up, there are bound to be issues! UGH!
Too much going on, and no time to write about it.
I'm a bit excited and sad and crazy and lonely and happy and overly awake and extremely tired..... you know when I mean.
Too much to do and I can't rightfully get it all done in less than a month, so I just won't do more than absolutely necessary...if even that. I keep asking the boss man to handle it all, since I can't seem to do anything or bring myself to do it anyway....ugh.....Need to go have a chat with the boss man and my very good friend.....maybe that will work. hrmmm...
btw....He looks really astonishingly amazing in armor.... fyi. s.p.e.e.c.h.l.e.s.s.!
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Friday, March 1, 2013
idk, little bit estranged....
This song reminds me of something... -- http://www.godvine.com/American-Idol-Contestant-Sings-Powerful-Song-About-Jesus-on-National-Television-2872.html -- something in depth and particular and exact and beyond a shadow of a doubt the base existence and truth of all of this life, the realest part of existing, even more so than this reality we live in. This song reminds me of this certain short (everlasting) moment I was beyond blessed to experience and remember with clarity....as it is everything.
I didn't get to see it on tv live though, even though I try to catch some american idol when I can, but I find myself going back to look at this video clip often.....hmmm.
So much more out there and I find that so much more has just recently opened up and poured out and I'm at a loss as to why there are so many out there who can't see it, taste it, feel it.....are they dead? How do we waken them? Look at these wonders....sleeping and they do not see....and how are we to show them if they have their eyes closed, tell them if their ears are closed, share with them if their hearts are no longer beating....?
Time is short....and I wouldn't be saying this otherwise if everything wasn't already shaking under our feet...if the skies weren't crying out, or if the wind wasn't wailing with something remorseful...yet eager...
Anyway....about eagerness...I'm eager to get my garden area cleared...and still waiting for a break in the weather to dry out a bit....to hit up lowes and build some boxes....
Eager for spring and some warm weather as well, I miss the sunshine and heat! :)
I'm not going to get into conspiracy theories tonight....boo! But maybe for another time, lol.
Kiddos are now taking taekwondo and enjoying it...they like the co-op school group too, and the fact that our homeschool curriculum is based on their choice instead of mine. I think they are doing rather great though, I think maybe refraining from dangerous science experiments may be suggested though.
There's probably lots more I can't think of that I was thinking of earlier that now I can't remember what I was going to write about, so I guess I'll just not write about it and just write more about what I think I could write about or not..maybe, somehow..whatever...
Bubbles' ear is all stitched and healing now...but he hates taking his meds. The dogs are bad and if you want to adopt one, please get in touch with me....they are sweet little cuties, you'll love them ;)
I can't remember what happened the last few days other than the basic rounds and sewing....yeah I sewed...and even finished some very very last minute sets today about 1 minute late of having to post them for sale ....I think I did great, lol. Sold enough to pay for groceries next week! Whoo hoo!
Other than that....watching American idol, my regular youtube channels when they actually post something interesting, and have finally broken away from the Judge Judy videos and now its a mix between refusing police authority and those retarded Harlem Shake videos....ugh! Why do I watch crap, lol....stupid I tell you S T U P I D! Don't even bother with harlem shake videos!
sigh.....my neck is all pressurizing again...ugh.
tired, going to bed early...yeah, it's 12:50am right now...yes, that is early.
taking family out to see the Monster Trucks tomorrow.
rumble rumble, jump and tumble, squash those cars down....boom.
I didn't get to see it on tv live though, even though I try to catch some american idol when I can, but I find myself going back to look at this video clip often.....hmmm.
So much more out there and I find that so much more has just recently opened up and poured out and I'm at a loss as to why there are so many out there who can't see it, taste it, feel it.....are they dead? How do we waken them? Look at these wonders....sleeping and they do not see....and how are we to show them if they have their eyes closed, tell them if their ears are closed, share with them if their hearts are no longer beating....?
Time is short....and I wouldn't be saying this otherwise if everything wasn't already shaking under our feet...if the skies weren't crying out, or if the wind wasn't wailing with something remorseful...yet eager...
Anyway....about eagerness...I'm eager to get my garden area cleared...and still waiting for a break in the weather to dry out a bit....to hit up lowes and build some boxes....
Eager for spring and some warm weather as well, I miss the sunshine and heat! :)
I'm not going to get into conspiracy theories tonight....boo! But maybe for another time, lol.
Kiddos are now taking taekwondo and enjoying it...they like the co-op school group too, and the fact that our homeschool curriculum is based on their choice instead of mine. I think they are doing rather great though, I think maybe refraining from dangerous science experiments may be suggested though.
There's probably lots more I can't think of that I was thinking of earlier that now I can't remember what I was going to write about, so I guess I'll just not write about it and just write more about what I think I could write about or not..maybe, somehow..whatever...
Bubbles' ear is all stitched and healing now...but he hates taking his meds. The dogs are bad and if you want to adopt one, please get in touch with me....they are sweet little cuties, you'll love them ;)
I can't remember what happened the last few days other than the basic rounds and sewing....yeah I sewed...and even finished some very very last minute sets today about 1 minute late of having to post them for sale ....I think I did great, lol. Sold enough to pay for groceries next week! Whoo hoo!
Other than that....watching American idol, my regular youtube channels when they actually post something interesting, and have finally broken away from the Judge Judy videos and now its a mix between refusing police authority and those retarded Harlem Shake videos....ugh! Why do I watch crap, lol....stupid I tell you S T U P I D! Don't even bother with harlem shake videos!
sigh.....my neck is all pressurizing again...ugh.
tired, going to bed early...yeah, it's 12:50am right now...yes, that is early.
taking family out to see the Monster Trucks tomorrow.
rumble rumble, jump and tumble, squash those cars down....boom.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Dreams and the living
Do you know those times when you really really want to believe in something and you are to the point that it sounds great and fantastic and way too good to be true? Times when you let yourself fall into this illusion of amazement or amusement and you let yourself get carried by the tides and you feel your so close....but yet you still stand outside yourself and watch how you are being deceived and just have to wait for yourself to wake up from the delusion, no matter how grand a delusion it may be.
And then when you finally manage to remember the only thing that really has proven to bring truth and you use that method...you wake up...and you sometimes are sad that you can no longer revel in a dazed bliss of ignorance like everyone else seems to still enjoy, but you have to go on and continue with a better plan....the better plan that was there from the beginning....and you're still happy, but you know you failed to distinguish things in the first place and you wonder if it will happen again...because of this amnesia of forgetting truth....forgetting it over and over...
We forget our teacher...and we start listening to ourselves, and it's when we rely on that...that we fail.
I haven't heard that Voice in many a long time....I could say it has been months, but maybe a week or two....it all feels like eternity either way, and every now and then there's something...but perhaps not the something we hope for...like that radiant joy or unveiling life altering event, sometimes it's just the quiet peacefullness of it, and it's like a calm stream, and we bask in the light of the sun after the rapids, and before what is to come.
We have this way of seeing what our minds cannot see...this stepping outside of ourselves. Here we can see where we've been, where we are, and even what is to come. In this place we can see Him...hear Him. The knowing of the truth and the trial and the thanks. Only when our minds remember this place do we realize we are never alone or forgotten....or ever left in the dark....
It's this world that casts a shadow over our memories and realizations and makes us forget where we came from and where we are going. ...... ...... do not fall asleep in this darkness.... we are not of this world. Stay awake and shine the light. Shine the light. Shine the light.
I've been lazy. I asked the boss man to handle everything for me. If it's complicated, I ask Him to handle it. If it's hard, I ask Him to take care of it. If I just don't want to do it, I ask Him to do it for me.
This seems to be working.... amen.
Oh...and if we love something....even if it's insane and irrational and totally impossible.... love it anyway. God is Love.
Not going to share regular everyday stuff with you this day....not that I don't want to or care at all....but I guess there's just too much to update on and I'm tired. It's now 2:53am and it's bed time and I kinda like sleeping, lol.
ya know.....I think there's something going all wacky lately.... I hope that weird sickness thing I had didn't go and change my dna for the worse.....hrmmm,...... I feel different somehow.... ... oh wow....look, no one to talk to about that....how nice....well....except for my very good friend....so...maybe....
g'night. Love you all. <3
And then when you finally manage to remember the only thing that really has proven to bring truth and you use that method...you wake up...and you sometimes are sad that you can no longer revel in a dazed bliss of ignorance like everyone else seems to still enjoy, but you have to go on and continue with a better plan....the better plan that was there from the beginning....and you're still happy, but you know you failed to distinguish things in the first place and you wonder if it will happen again...because of this amnesia of forgetting truth....forgetting it over and over...
We forget our teacher...and we start listening to ourselves, and it's when we rely on that...that we fail.
I haven't heard that Voice in many a long time....I could say it has been months, but maybe a week or two....it all feels like eternity either way, and every now and then there's something...but perhaps not the something we hope for...like that radiant joy or unveiling life altering event, sometimes it's just the quiet peacefullness of it, and it's like a calm stream, and we bask in the light of the sun after the rapids, and before what is to come.
We have this way of seeing what our minds cannot see...this stepping outside of ourselves. Here we can see where we've been, where we are, and even what is to come. In this place we can see Him...hear Him. The knowing of the truth and the trial and the thanks. Only when our minds remember this place do we realize we are never alone or forgotten....or ever left in the dark....
It's this world that casts a shadow over our memories and realizations and makes us forget where we came from and where we are going. ...... ...... do not fall asleep in this darkness.... we are not of this world. Stay awake and shine the light. Shine the light. Shine the light.
I've been lazy. I asked the boss man to handle everything for me. If it's complicated, I ask Him to handle it. If it's hard, I ask Him to take care of it. If I just don't want to do it, I ask Him to do it for me.
This seems to be working.... amen.
Oh...and if we love something....even if it's insane and irrational and totally impossible.... love it anyway. God is Love.
Not going to share regular everyday stuff with you this day....not that I don't want to or care at all....but I guess there's just too much to update on and I'm tired. It's now 2:53am and it's bed time and I kinda like sleeping, lol.
ya know.....I think there's something going all wacky lately.... I hope that weird sickness thing I had didn't go and change my dna for the worse.....hrmmm,...... I feel different somehow.... ... oh wow....look, no one to talk to about that....how nice....well....except for my very good friend....so...maybe....
g'night. Love you all. <3
Thursday, February 7, 2013
maybe one day
Wow. Gotta love this country and it's president. God save us all.
So that's a a huge chunk we no longer get.....and it looks like there might be ample reason to head on over to the human resource department and get some of those handouts they seem to give away all the time over there. Paying for it all anyway, so whats the difference.
Times like this when I really want the world to go to hell and burn in hellfire flames and take our departure into somewhere where there isn't any bullshit crossing the road. You will know exactly what I'm talking about when you receive your paycheck.
Anyway.... other than that predicament.... hubby is broken, I'm brokenish....and now financially broke as well. But, on the good side....I'm very thrilled to announce that this can only get better :)
And I say that with a bullshit smile on my face, haha.
Cause we all know....if this chest issue doesn't go away soon, I'll need to go see a doctor...and then I'll have heart failure or something radical which I can't pay for and then I'll die and then what will you have to read, lol.
Of course, there's ample supply of Judge Judy youtube videos and conspiracy theorists, and rapture people to watch...which I admit that I do watch them, lol. Unfortunately the rapture thing keeps getting pushed back further and further...I'm not sure we'll ever make it to that day ;). The conspiracy people are right on the mark for the most part though. It's like reading a book and already knowing how it ends....and then you turn the page because something just happened to confirm it....hmmm.....but then again, I can say the same thing about some of those end of the world rapture videos too. Judge Judy is just for fun...that and those stupid funny cat videos.
Well....I'm not quite sure what happened with that job....haven't heard back from them....and I'm not going to do anything about it. No longer care. I'm suffering at the moment right now anyway.
In other worldly news...the boss man is on hiatus. Can't seem to locate Him.... :( ... but maybe it;s just me and my amnesia or something.... I luckily have a very good friend though who keeps me in check.
...do you realize that its a bit strange that I sometimes talk about things on here or especially my deviant art page and then they end up happening....weird.
Need to start talking about departing, so we can get on our way already.
I'm about to go crazy dealing with people....and I do not think I will ever do anything for anyone ever again. I'm so frustrated! Why do people do what they do and just not give an ounce of consideration to anyone else?! Really!? I can try and try and try to be a selfish ass all damn day, but that isn't going to make my moral consideration disintegrate. I can talk shit all day on here, but I'm not going to purposely cause a disservice to anyone else. Damn people....what is wrong with you?!
It would be like someone reading all this horseshit and trying to figure out who I am, lol. I'm multipolar....like a star....and truthfully, I'm an outcast of many sorts and there's probably something wrong with me socially and lately physically, and even though I would like to be someone else or act differently, I'm pretty happy being me anyway....(except for this current issue) and once I start feeling better I can share more....but tonight, I'm just out of it. And now I'm tired and sad and I need to finish my list so I can get what I need tomorrow.....
So that's a a huge chunk we no longer get.....and it looks like there might be ample reason to head on over to the human resource department and get some of those handouts they seem to give away all the time over there. Paying for it all anyway, so whats the difference.
Times like this when I really want the world to go to hell and burn in hellfire flames and take our departure into somewhere where there isn't any bullshit crossing the road. You will know exactly what I'm talking about when you receive your paycheck.
Anyway.... other than that predicament.... hubby is broken, I'm brokenish....and now financially broke as well. But, on the good side....I'm very thrilled to announce that this can only get better :)
And I say that with a bullshit smile on my face, haha.
Cause we all know....if this chest issue doesn't go away soon, I'll need to go see a doctor...and then I'll have heart failure or something radical which I can't pay for and then I'll die and then what will you have to read, lol.
Of course, there's ample supply of Judge Judy youtube videos and conspiracy theorists, and rapture people to watch...which I admit that I do watch them, lol. Unfortunately the rapture thing keeps getting pushed back further and further...I'm not sure we'll ever make it to that day ;). The conspiracy people are right on the mark for the most part though. It's like reading a book and already knowing how it ends....and then you turn the page because something just happened to confirm it....hmmm.....but then again, I can say the same thing about some of those end of the world rapture videos too. Judge Judy is just for fun...that and those stupid funny cat videos.
Well....I'm not quite sure what happened with that job....haven't heard back from them....and I'm not going to do anything about it. No longer care. I'm suffering at the moment right now anyway.
In other worldly news...the boss man is on hiatus. Can't seem to locate Him.... :( ... but maybe it;s just me and my amnesia or something.... I luckily have a very good friend though who keeps me in check.
...do you realize that its a bit strange that I sometimes talk about things on here or especially my deviant art page and then they end up happening....weird.
Need to start talking about departing, so we can get on our way already.
I'm about to go crazy dealing with people....and I do not think I will ever do anything for anyone ever again. I'm so frustrated! Why do people do what they do and just not give an ounce of consideration to anyone else?! Really!? I can try and try and try to be a selfish ass all damn day, but that isn't going to make my moral consideration disintegrate. I can talk shit all day on here, but I'm not going to purposely cause a disservice to anyone else. Damn people....what is wrong with you?!
It would be like someone reading all this horseshit and trying to figure out who I am, lol. I'm multipolar....like a star....and truthfully, I'm an outcast of many sorts and there's probably something wrong with me socially and lately physically, and even though I would like to be someone else or act differently, I'm pretty happy being me anyway....(except for this current issue) and once I start feeling better I can share more....but tonight, I'm just out of it. And now I'm tired and sad and I need to finish my list so I can get what I need tomorrow.....
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
............never mind me.....I'm just an outcast
I just don't know what to say. Some people are just lunatics. Why the heck I continue to allow these piss whippy shitnessy people into my beautiful happy glow of sunshine I will never know....but I assure you it will be the last. This goes all the way back to my resolution....to be selfish...but not just selfish....a selfish ass. The ass part of it is imperative!
Other than that reply to a oddly placed comment....all is sunshine. :)
Besides the fact there is still too much to do and far too less time to complete it all in. I'm a bit po'd and annoyed and fire blazing 'someone's gonna get it if they look at me the wrong way' sort of 'ish. Just tread lightly....
Anyway.....so far so good with that new resolve I posted about yesterday?? I'm feeling all accomplished...even though I did absolutely nothing. Sweet.
I lucked out as well....and really need to use this time to make good on some most excellent set of circumstances, so I can't talk long.
In other news....I need some help...like with stuff that needs done, and this, that, and the other. So send someone to do odd jobs for me....without cash pay....but I can bake you cookies or pizza, or something easyish like. ...ok, no not pizza....very hard to share that.
.............nevermind. now that I think about it I don't think I can even write anything else. Good bye.
Other than that reply to a oddly placed comment....all is sunshine. :)
Besides the fact there is still too much to do and far too less time to complete it all in. I'm a bit po'd and annoyed and fire blazing 'someone's gonna get it if they look at me the wrong way' sort of 'ish. Just tread lightly....
Anyway.....so far so good with that new resolve I posted about yesterday?? I'm feeling all accomplished...even though I did absolutely nothing. Sweet.
I lucked out as well....and really need to use this time to make good on some most excellent set of circumstances, so I can't talk long.
In other news....I need some help...like with stuff that needs done, and this, that, and the other. So send someone to do odd jobs for me....without cash pay....but I can bake you cookies or pizza, or something easyish like. ...ok, no not pizza....very hard to share that.
.............nevermind. now that I think about it I don't think I can even write anything else. Good bye.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
my life is....
"I will not steal this from you."
And it has been settled.
That one little issue I still won't speak of.
All settled because one more lightning strike flitted it to it's destruction....and one more spark of glowing ember sunlight radiated it into its resurrection....into something better.
I'm now in the process of analyzing this new found resolve.....all based upon the quote above.
We may tweak it here and there, but do so gently and without any such form of struggle or remorse. Heck, most of it allows rather an epidemic of sunshine and happiness...lollipops, and rainbows...everything that's wonderful ;)
We got this, and I will not be the one to steal what they have from them....like many others choose to do with their own.
Studio flooring is in!! :) backdrop is up! lights are ready except for one the hubs needs to get put on the wall clamp thingy.
Room is partly cleaned, sewing room is a mess and I have orders that should be mailed out tomorrow but are nowhere near finished and I haven't got the slightest idea how I'm going to get it all done tomorrow! ARGH!
Possible sewing lady meet up this week, other helping cut out lady meet up this week, kids stuff this week, and who knows about that job thing this week since I've no clue when that will start....all I have to say is they better let me know...cause I'm already booked it seems....hmmm. :/
House needs cleaned, photo sessions need scheduled for possible next weekend if I get the other things I need finished finished, which I must anyway, but there seems to be this issue with only having 7 days in a week....and I don't remember which day was supposed to be the day of rest anymore...
Just wanted to stop in and write that first sentence...cause it means so damn much.
Goodnight my lovelies.
And it has been settled.
That one little issue I still won't speak of.
All settled because one more lightning strike flitted it to it's destruction....and one more spark of glowing ember sunlight radiated it into its resurrection....into something better.
I'm now in the process of analyzing this new found resolve.....all based upon the quote above.
We may tweak it here and there, but do so gently and without any such form of struggle or remorse. Heck, most of it allows rather an epidemic of sunshine and happiness...lollipops, and rainbows...everything that's wonderful ;)
We got this, and I will not be the one to steal what they have from them....like many others choose to do with their own.
Studio flooring is in!! :) backdrop is up! lights are ready except for one the hubs needs to get put on the wall clamp thingy.
Room is partly cleaned, sewing room is a mess and I have orders that should be mailed out tomorrow but are nowhere near finished and I haven't got the slightest idea how I'm going to get it all done tomorrow! ARGH!
Possible sewing lady meet up this week, other helping cut out lady meet up this week, kids stuff this week, and who knows about that job thing this week since I've no clue when that will start....all I have to say is they better let me know...cause I'm already booked it seems....hmmm. :/
House needs cleaned, photo sessions need scheduled for possible next weekend if I get the other things I need finished finished, which I must anyway, but there seems to be this issue with only having 7 days in a week....and I don't remember which day was supposed to be the day of rest anymore...
Just wanted to stop in and write that first sentence...cause it means so damn much.
Goodnight my lovelies.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
seedlings are hard to crack....
So the sun is shining again. That bright vibrant star full of lightning blinding rays. Warmness coasting at it's tips just before the air flow steals it away. You know it's warm, but somehow that blizzardly breeze snips it off suddenly...and you escape back inside.
Let me tell you of my week....the past 2 days anyway, lol. It's only Tuesday.
I snagged me a job with the photography company.....I wouldn't say this is being accomplished for money though...as I'm afraid I didn't even ask that part, ha. I do however want to use this leverage to learn a bit here and there and help pay for that vacation coming up fast. I'm hoping it doesn't steal so much time....because then I'll have to abandon that venture. We shall see what becomes of this part-time seasonal charade I've set afire...
Joined a school group for the kiddos. So far it's okay. only 2.5 hours, so not an issue on my lack of time management. Not any crazies that I've noticed so far either.
My backdrops arrived today!!! And I will attempt to set them up tomorrow and get this space ready for the photoshoot.
Today I was supposed to finish cutting out and prepping appliques, but well...I did...just not the ones I really need to do, lol. Damn, I'm good at this working without working crap.
I still have time, though I'm pretty sure I'm going to bed early and then really get on the ball with that in the morning instead.
I'm also still lingering on the edge of this predicament that I didn't really discuss before...and I just need 3 hours of uninterrupted time to sort through it all....time that does not remind me that I have real work that needs finished.
Also want to say that Jesus is awesome. Let me tell you a story....
Once upon a time in a land north east from here and about 15 ft higher....there was a heart that was lamenting and travailing due to the ever changing heartbeats of struggle. These were the times of not just the rains, but the stretching out and growth of new shoots and the splitting open of new seeds. This harsh world had made this heart once again forget of the purpose..the meaning...the goal... The little heart ached because of the turmoil of its environment.
"What do I do?! Which do I choose?! What can I do?! ... What do I......"
"Let me." The voice spoke....interrupting the barrage of uncertain questions that plagues the little heart. The voice....the one so longed for and desperately missing after the time of silence....the voice that one never forgets....
"Let me."
The little heart shivered....and laid those questions and trials and struggles and uncertainties at the feet of the one who spoke.
And the sun rose....the rains thundered...the seeds cracked open in fury.....and the stretching out of new growth spanned upward into the atmosphere.......what a great tree this shall be....
:)
I still like stories...yes I do. Especially these....since they are so caustic....like throwing gasoline into a supernova....and the voice...well, let's just say He whom speaks..is freaking awesome. <3
Moral of the story...... 'we' do not have to burden ourselves with this foolishness of the world. 'we' do not have to choose or suffer, or struggle, or search for ways to fill in the gaps.....'we' can never fill those gaps.....no matter how much we pour into those holes, they still remain empty......and 'we' continually forget.....only one thing can fill them.....only one....remember......
'we' have freak outs when we fear we might forget His voice....we freak out if 'we' think He has forgotten us, or 'we' will forget His face...'we' spill out when we are flooded with ourselves....full or holes and empty....scattered out upon the cold floor...
But...We will not forget His voice....and after an eternity when you feared He won't bless you with that voice...He speaks and you remember all of a sudden. We know He won't forget Us. We will always be held by His face....and when We spill out....He lifts Us up and fills Us with more than We ever thought we could hold....
....do you like my rants....lol.....I find it rather odd I sit here when I should be sewing and tell you my stories about Jesus Christ and His awesomeness at 11:15pm and even if something needs mailed out tomorrow....there isn't anything that would keep me from writing about Him...when I need to anyway. Sometimes I even forget what He says after I write it...and I go back and look at older things and consider myself a freak, lol. I relearn stuff...again and again if I must...some I don't remember writing at all and I go 'ohhhh!!' like I just learned something new for the first time... I'm such a dork.
So anyway...lots and lots and lots to do. I must go now...and I really hope that after watching a fair amount of youtube and spending way too much time.....I hope aliens are not real, the boss man is coming back soon, the shootings at the school are a hoax (ahem...government set-up for sure right there), the government isn't trying to control earth's grid network, and we can reach spiritual enlightenment sooner rather than later.
Happy days my good pals of jiggly freon. Don't inhale the bs
Let me tell you of my week....the past 2 days anyway, lol. It's only Tuesday.
I snagged me a job with the photography company.....I wouldn't say this is being accomplished for money though...as I'm afraid I didn't even ask that part, ha. I do however want to use this leverage to learn a bit here and there and help pay for that vacation coming up fast. I'm hoping it doesn't steal so much time....because then I'll have to abandon that venture. We shall see what becomes of this part-time seasonal charade I've set afire...
Joined a school group for the kiddos. So far it's okay. only 2.5 hours, so not an issue on my lack of time management. Not any crazies that I've noticed so far either.
My backdrops arrived today!!! And I will attempt to set them up tomorrow and get this space ready for the photoshoot.
Today I was supposed to finish cutting out and prepping appliques, but well...I did...just not the ones I really need to do, lol. Damn, I'm good at this working without working crap.
I still have time, though I'm pretty sure I'm going to bed early and then really get on the ball with that in the morning instead.
I'm also still lingering on the edge of this predicament that I didn't really discuss before...and I just need 3 hours of uninterrupted time to sort through it all....time that does not remind me that I have real work that needs finished.
Also want to say that Jesus is awesome. Let me tell you a story....
Once upon a time in a land north east from here and about 15 ft higher....there was a heart that was lamenting and travailing due to the ever changing heartbeats of struggle. These were the times of not just the rains, but the stretching out and growth of new shoots and the splitting open of new seeds. This harsh world had made this heart once again forget of the purpose..the meaning...the goal... The little heart ached because of the turmoil of its environment.
"What do I do?! Which do I choose?! What can I do?! ... What do I......"
"Let me." The voice spoke....interrupting the barrage of uncertain questions that plagues the little heart. The voice....the one so longed for and desperately missing after the time of silence....the voice that one never forgets....
"Let me."
The little heart shivered....and laid those questions and trials and struggles and uncertainties at the feet of the one who spoke.
And the sun rose....the rains thundered...the seeds cracked open in fury.....and the stretching out of new growth spanned upward into the atmosphere.......what a great tree this shall be....
:)
I still like stories...yes I do. Especially these....since they are so caustic....like throwing gasoline into a supernova....and the voice...well, let's just say He whom speaks..is freaking awesome. <3
Moral of the story...... 'we' do not have to burden ourselves with this foolishness of the world. 'we' do not have to choose or suffer, or struggle, or search for ways to fill in the gaps.....'we' can never fill those gaps.....no matter how much we pour into those holes, they still remain empty......and 'we' continually forget.....only one thing can fill them.....only one....remember......
'we' have freak outs when we fear we might forget His voice....we freak out if 'we' think He has forgotten us, or 'we' will forget His face...'we' spill out when we are flooded with ourselves....full or holes and empty....scattered out upon the cold floor...
But...We will not forget His voice....and after an eternity when you feared He won't bless you with that voice...He speaks and you remember all of a sudden. We know He won't forget Us. We will always be held by His face....and when We spill out....He lifts Us up and fills Us with more than We ever thought we could hold....
....do you like my rants....lol.....I find it rather odd I sit here when I should be sewing and tell you my stories about Jesus Christ and His awesomeness at 11:15pm and even if something needs mailed out tomorrow....there isn't anything that would keep me from writing about Him...when I need to anyway. Sometimes I even forget what He says after I write it...and I go back and look at older things and consider myself a freak, lol. I relearn stuff...again and again if I must...some I don't remember writing at all and I go 'ohhhh!!' like I just learned something new for the first time... I'm such a dork.
So anyway...lots and lots and lots to do. I must go now...and I really hope that after watching a fair amount of youtube and spending way too much time.....I hope aliens are not real, the boss man is coming back soon, the shootings at the school are a hoax (ahem...government set-up for sure right there), the government isn't trying to control earth's grid network, and we can reach spiritual enlightenment sooner rather than later.
Happy days my good pals of jiggly freon. Don't inhale the bs
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