T H R I V E

I will not follow you into your own deprivation.

Shall I stand still and make a puddle of stuckness while you catch up?
What if you never catch up?
This isn't quick sand.
This isn't tar....or glue....

I will go this way.
I will do these things.
I will receive these things.
Look at all my good fortune.

So why you hate?
Why you be jealous?
Why do you critique those things I allow myself to have.
To do.
To be.
To go.
To see.
To feel.

I will not follow you into deprivation.
I will walk forward on my own path.
You are welcome to follow.
You are welcomed to not.
But I will walk forward without fear.

The flames will not burn me.
The thorns will not stab me.
Sometimes the journey is tiresome...
and sometimes it may not be as expected...
but I will go.
I am unafraid
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 the tasty amount of wealth that fills the quantum field is enormous
and it's all just an idea
and there are some ideas greater than others
you can pick from anything....
but like the salad bar.... mushrooms and cucumbers are a 'no go'
while the chicken and tomatoes are a 'hell yes'
and we shall stay the course.... because we are done being famished
EAT your heart out
Your spirit can't get fat

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I'm guessing there's orders going to get paid!
and I'm a great guesser!
I'm also guessing that someone will oblige me about digging up my yard SOON
...
hung out with flowers today!
They happened to love my music ....the louder the better
and truthfully appreciated every time I called out 'railroad tracks'
so they could prepare for the bumps...
they were very friendly today
and I petted 3 doggies
...
Still on chapter 31....
and there's an amazing scene that needs to happen in book 7
and I don't know how or when or if it's going to get there, but mmmm....
...
...
there might be more later, but for now...
that's all you're getting

Speak the wonderous....

"I can't hear you."

Words spoken by a dragon with feathered wings.
and he wasn't about to let those small things you speak about yourself be heard
because you are more than those small hidden words
you are greatness

...and small things fall silent to the ears of god...
call forth the miraculous
summon the impossible
evoke the creation
be the creator
I dare you

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I dare you to love yourself fiercely
to speak boldly
to tell yourself you are a safe space
that you are beyond reach
that you are beheld and brave and everlasting
to say that you are loved, accepted, whatever you need for yourself
I dare you to give it to yourself
whatever you need
whatever you want
whatever brings about satisfaction
whatever brings joy
ALL the THINGS

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There were two horses the other day.
They saw us drive up and they locked their attention my way
and my heart had a fit of happiness
and stepping out of the vehicle, they came to the closest corner to greet me
and I squealed like a little child
because they were horsies!
and they let me pet them
and I couldn't spill out more than enough of lovable goodness for them
I was filled, and I hoped they know they made my entire week

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and it finally snowed!

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Chapter 31 of the book
and my facebook memories announced that many years ago I had just published
book 3 (Kingdoms Between Us)!
How's that for on track!
Book 6 is underway and reaching it's end....whenever everybody is ready, I suppose

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awaiting quotes for the yard still... for my pool, yo!
it rained all week and snowed, so patience is okay
I have a very good feeling about this one person.... sooo *thumbs up

lots of new perspectives for the spirit worlds...
aether worlds are quiet, but deep shit is leaking through
*thumbs up

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Sewing work is almost at the end....
I'm working on that huge tree skirt with all the ruffles...
still have 3 ruffles to put on... O_O
it's 90" in diameter.... so you can imagine the yardage...

1 dress whenever I get to it.
and orders that are on the way, but not paid yet, so they don't count
*thumbs up

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that's good for now, I'm off to go do something else... *thumbs up

Thunderbolts of lightning

Thunder in the night.
So loud you are rapt from slumber and even if the lightning didn't strike you...
you are jolted awake like electricity scouring across your flesh.
Maybe your inner body feels it... the atoms acquiring the substantial electrons
that were cast out from the lightning...
amplified by the inertia of reverberating static
either way... you are awake...
and maybe your ears are wallowing in shock..
was it that loud...
or did it only sound that loud because your ears were sleeping?

and then you roll over...
cause it's way too dark to elaborate the possibilities of waking
and your mind throws out a thought...
assuming it was actually your mind...
and you weren't still connected to some random channel of theta or gamma waves...

~~ "If you jump into another dimension...
 is there a sonic boom? Like when you break the sound barrior.
And if so...does it echo out in the place you left or the place you go to?
both perhaps?" ~~

 Because we need to know if this is a relevant possibility I guess?
Why brain?
WHY
it's like 4am... and it's thunderstorming outside
and we have a brick house
and maybe the neighbors got eletrocuted last night...
because that shit was loud
and it happened twice.
but for some reason.... you must ask questions about this stuff...

not to mention the fact that you also had the thought of thinking....
whether or not each time a loud boom and lightning strike like that happens,
if you get sucked into the fold of the dimensional rift...
and you did switch dimensions..
so you were the one hearing it!
BAM! Thanks for that 4am brain thoughts...
and then you carry on with whether you will you be able to tell the difference
between the dimension you left and the one you traveled to!
and if so, how much would you be able to catch?!
How much would you be able to tell the difference?!


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So today was rather joyful....
and as I write this blog post...
Brain is debating whether we truly did get sucked into a different dimension
O_O
and there's something so wonderfully weird going through today
and it feels absolutely amazing!
and I can guarantee whatever happens...
will work out tremendously in my favor
because it feels that amazing

!!!!

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so that book!!
I'm on Chapter 30
and it's all the hum drum kinda tying things up...
because that future storyline isn't ready yet...
...and my MC doesn't want to play with one of the other situations anymore....
and so I have to leave it to other characters...
...
and it's like this inbetween before other things come to the forefront...
and I'm not expecting a cliff hanger ending, thankfully! (I hope)
more narrative ...which to me is ...boring... but fills in some gaps easily...
without creating conversations where nothing happens...

(because in screenwriting 101
you don't talk the story... you show the story....)
and nothing is happening, so much as giving a rest from the happenings...
and opening a window to future happenings....

I'm considering certain things to end it with, but none of them feel correct
so I'll just do the winging it thing... and let them tell me how they want to end the book

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afterwards it sits for a little bit, then we edit/read through
...edit/read through again...
and spend a god awful amount of time finding a cover image...
and prepping for the printing crap...
....
oh... it probably will need a title (subtitle) too by that point HAHAHA!!
it should arrive *any day now... please

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then I will meditate like every fucking day, cause I miss the magic mojo...
and then I'll write a screenplay in 15 days! Huzzah!

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sewing orders... are like almost done....
and more orders are welcomed (and expected) to arrive
and I can paint a wall anytime I get the impulse.....
...
still have 3d world stuff to handle
flower delivery work next week! (huzzah for cashola!)
and I get to spend time with flowers for 2 whole days
(and my 4runner <3 )

Stuttering gets you nowhere

"Stop repeating yourself."

maybe not just the words you speak...
(((when you are talking with a guru master...and you are far too used to speaking to idiots
who often need it said a conglomerate of different ways until they can grasp it.)))
...
but maybe not just the words...
maybe it's also our actions...
taking the same steps as before...
as our old patterns...
as our old stories...
never moving forward into the new
into the renewal of ourselves...

because it is all unfamiliar
we haven't been down this road before...
we've never cut this trail before...
this wilderness
this wild untouched rawness of where a soul dares to tread

holy fuck, yes
YESSSSSSS

Machete in hand, and acceptance of the trek
certain of scrapes and scratches and a possibility of thorns
might run into a snake or briars, or something poisonous.
might come out on the other side with a rash and hives
...
but you can't find El Dorado taking the road...
You can't discover Parapata while driving on the highway..
or Paititi....or the Goose that lays the Golden Eggs while shuffling around Target.

You won't end up in Paradise walking this path you've carved out to Safety

fuck yes...
Go Wild

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So I'm looking deeper into the pool thing...
and heaven help me if I end up hiring homeless joe to dig me a hole before it's all over with
because...
I've seen it already...
I like the way it looks in my yard
It's always warm...
and I enjoy throwing the cleaning robot into it every now and then... and he has a name
I can afford it
I can have it
and there's no reason I have to believe it's going to be hard
I've included the installation package when I ordered it from the Universal Catalogue.
I will make sure the prep work is included as well, because that's where I'm at right now...
and although I know everything is taken care of...
3d world slowness is trying to dictate that it's harder than it looks...
and I know better than to believe anything 3d world says.
 ....or it's people

you've never met me, have you?
~ "You don't know crazy, until the impossible is squashed by the the creator.
And the created... the manifestation is born out of that which we are." ~

 snap, that was good quote.... and I'm the one who made it
huzzah bitches!



mmmm...this without all that shade, or close to it... or way better...

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book...
on chapter 27
it's getting there to the end! and I'm winging most of it...
 things keep popping up that I wasn't aware of...
neat!
only three things left on my outline....if you could call it that...
it's like three sentences with three words each, lol
no inlet to put them has appeared yet...


aether lands are interesting, although not in leaps and bounds...
some deep oooooooooooommmmm hum sound in sync with this high pitched iiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnggggggg... sound
*shrugs.
need to take more time to meditate, book writing til the am hours is not helping
once the book first draft is done, I'll be back on a roll with it.

Sugar take the time 'cause the lights are shining bright

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Choice is the act of hesitation that we make before making a decision. It is a mental wobble. And so we are always in a dither of doubt as to whether we are behaving the right way, or doing the right thing, and so on and so forth…and lack a certain kind of self-confidence. And if you see you lack self-confidence, you will make mistakes through sheer fumbling. If you do have self-confidence you may get away with doing entirely the wrong thing.

You have to regard yourself as a cloud, in the flesh. Because you see, clouds never make mistakes. Did you ever see a cloud that is misshapen? Did you ever see a badly designed wave? No, they always do the right thing. But if you would treat yourself for a while as a cloud or wave, and realize you can’t make a mistake, whatever you do, cause even if you do something that seems to be totally disastrous, it will all come out in the wash somehow or other.

Then through this capacity, you will develop a kind of confidence, and through confidence, you will be able to trust your own intuition." ~Alan Watts...
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totally disastrous...
yet it all washes out...
evening out the blood stains
the mishaps
the things snafu'd

and we see our indestructability
our immortality
the eternalness of expansion and progress

"What makes you think you are further behind than when you began?"

and what fears lie hidden that tell you there is anything wrong at all?
or could ever be wrong?

What is this grand scheme ideal of who we are 'supposed' to be?
This righteous begin who oozes in goodness?
What the fuck is goodness?
Intergrity, humility...
who wrote these fucking words and dictated they should be at the top of the scale?
What scale are you living by?
The one preimposed upon you...
the saint?
the one without sin?
what the fuck is sin?
the sinner?
playing along with these scales...
because it's the 'right' thing to do?
the highest of the high?

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you haven't met me, my friend....
you haven't met the fire and walked through it
the lower you go on the scale... pssh...
makes the scale disappear...
the higher you go on the scale...
makes the scale disappear...
because you can't dictate with words and images what the truth is
no one can

Microwaves serve a purpose just as much as x-rays...
both on opposite sides of a certain scale...
and who is it that judges these things?
they both could kill you... so which is the more righteous wavelength?
maybe the one that kills you slower, giving you more time?
or the one that kills you faster, sparing you the suffering?

and the vibrations that you carry
that you think
that you act upon
that you witness....
the 'lower' ones that feel like ick...
the 'higher' ones that feel amazing...
both serve a purpose

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don't know where I was going with that...
maybe no point to it...
use what you want and discard the rest...

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3 orders to go...
1 in process to ship Tuesday or Wednesday
2 more ready to be cut out to ship by next Monday
... almost ready to paint the wall

book on chapter 25
I may take a break tonight and just meditate...
cause I haven't done it in a while... at least not effectively...
probably why the manifesting skills are not as good as they could be...
this irritates me, lol
I like my snap of the finger instant gratifications....
(maybe not that instant...but it certainly looks that way compared to recently)
and instant is totally possible too!



Ya know...
some spicy jambalaya
a warm blanket
and a good movie...
...and some cookies...
that's not hard to manifest.....but the actions steps are obvious

all the other things are not hard either...
however, the action steps are incredibly good at remaining anonymous.
people fall short...google falls short...tried efforts fall short...
and the answers, are not answers at all
even the effort and action isn't needed...
knowing this is one thing
allowing it is another...
and even the aether never tells you how long patience will need to be...
but you know the answer... you are the answer
                 (patience in etymology = suffering)
just sit and stay home...
stand in your center
reach the core
breathe
and remain steady
stand true

your hands want to react to 'do'
but you must remain steady
remain strong
and let the world crumble around you
let it fall...
then... when your hands move on their own...
build whateverthefuck you want with the wreckage
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be the whirlwind and the eye within it
grow stronger and wreck havoc
stay on the throne of your kingdom
and know know know.... the king doesn't do the work
he leads the work
by mere words, mere thoughts, mere intentions, mere desires....
                (mere in etymology = pure: undiluted)

~Thy will be done... on earth as it is in heaven...~

be the king, or be the servant...
and know both... serve a purpose
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"If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you."
~Gospel of Thomas

STAY HOME

~~ ***  Stand true little Spirit Dragon *** ~~
        ~~ *** Stay in your strength *** ~~


All day, every day... we can easily find ourselves in others...
but we only need to find it within ourselves.
And we read these energies and try to gather our answers...
is this right?
is this correct?
how is this?
is this acceptable?
am I close?
...
but we are the answer
look outside the window...or beneath the trees
or scan your friends list...ask your fam
feel free to ask your spirit guides...
or the Christ
or your god...
all things are mirrors to you...
all things are mirrors to you...
and you are the only source of the light...
you are the only source of the light...

~~ *** COME HOME *** ~~

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Mmmm...
and Source is where your power resides...
and all the reflections are merely what can only be you...
like the green reflects off the leaves... everything else passing through
so the leaves are green...

it is all you
all you
all the things
all the fucking things
and it is a beautiful thing to behold
ecstasy with creation
what a brilliant plan this was built to be...

Oh, how I would hope to never forget these things
how I would live with this day by day by day...
but we are creations that create and expand and no longer fit our old selves
and we move and change...
and our creations move and change...

How perfect a design



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Chapter 22 I think...
Some neat happenings are occurring that I didn't know were coming!
I love when the book writes itself and I find out new things!
Ahh! I just want to squeeze all these characters!
and I'm curious what's going to happen with it....
and I'm sorry not sorry... but it just so happened that I may have leaked out
information that will not be covered in this book...
which in turn may fortify a book 7....
I'm not sure how I feel about that...
(like I have a 'later' story....but it doesn't need written... cause it doesn't follow my MC)
((( but now it's recommended I take it further than what book 6 could adjust for...
and anyway... I'm sure in 18 months I'll be freaking out with all the new things
to write about once again... and I kinda opened a whole rabbit hole with my MC
and there's much to be discovered... uncovered... cause it told me things that were never never
never in my outline to begin with... ))))
meh..

Sewing work... I still intend to ship two orders out Friday
two orders mostly made over the weekend....
1 more order done next week...
and then we can get serious? LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!

I just want to play my ukulele, yo
and write...
...
I'm gonna go get some ice cream...
and write....
cause it's already 11:30 pm... and I'm late...
not that I have a schedule at all...
maybe I'll just meditate...
hmmm...
I'll decide after my ice cream



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Pour out....

One to One.
Two by Two.
Three for Three
Four and Four
Five is Five
and Six times Six
....
We set the gauge to burn
and we incinerate the flesh
melting away the lusts and the grime
forever being changed and rebuilt
leaving behind a diamond
long after the flesh has flaked away

and we grasp out at the seen
forgetting the unseen
and we watch it disintegrate from the fingers
and where does it now remain...
but inside the essence of memory
and we carry it with us
never forgotten

and the crisp spark that lights the night
radiant and true
everlasting vision forward to expand
we take another step and recreate
forever choosing this journey
like night chooses the dark
and we wrestle with the splitting
and we tear ourselves
wrought usunder
there and here, here and there
and everywhere
forgetting

until we no longer are forgotten
and we travel home

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Could I show you something which words can not embrace...
where the drop in your heart isn't a falling but a breath
and we float upon the galaxies of creation
a sound can take you there
an image can take you there
a song can take you there
a sentence can take you there
all the ways...
yet who follows the path unending
but the fearless
the one who is willing to be rapt
willing to let go
willing...
and able to loose is all
to lose it all, knowing nothing is ever lost

and I saw it today
felt it today
and all the things that hit that chord
that blissful chord where you stand...
I saw you
and I know you are here...even in the mix of others
so much noise...
so much creation dancing to and fro, to and fro
yet, today I saw you
and you were still there
beautiful as ever
and where was I...
...but in the midst of it all

I will never forget your song

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just a thought....
pour out = poor out

no more of that!
Let's be RICH!
RICHE