Mace as in a spiked war hammer...not the spray, lol

Me and the boss man had a talk last night after my interesting...and rather fun....rage post, lol.
So...He says something along the line of "Speak like a sword, not like a mace."
Lol....He does have a sense of humor, yes?
So basically a sword can penetrate through...into the deep parts of one who is needing a good slaying....a mace on the other hand kinda smashed the outside around and pokes unsightly holes leaving them to bleed in their own filth, but doesn't necessarily allow the obvious truth to get to where it needs to go....kwim?

I'm sure you think I'm ugly and hideous and hateful, but in reality and even in the incurable blog world (namely this one) I'm kinda nice, and laid back, slow to anger, extremely too patient, and obviously have a tendency to forgive in less than 3 hours. Count yourself blessed to really know me, as I'm rather a unique find....
but aren't we all?

So anyway...I realized something a bit astonishing last night too.
So you remember when I was mentioning the photographer guy that reminded me of an angel. That on the facebook page of his I found like 3 beautiful things...
I'm slightly freaking out. I'm not sure I ever wrote about my actual 'angel' experience on this blog (but I think I did on my deviantart journal thing) but I just realized that this dude looks extremely similar to that angel....the real angel....omg....freaking weird I tell you!

Let me tell you a story....

We walked through the city. the buildings were opalescent and glimmered like pearls. The ground beneath our feet was like glass...pure, smooth, unbreakable, solid. I was a child as usual and we walked towards the large building. Pillars spanning high. I could not see the tops of them. A great wide staircase rose up to the front doors of this building. It looked white, but not the color white you can see here. It was different, like alive...different (coral maybe??)
Archangels lined the right and left sides of these stairs, from the bottom step to the top. Each radiated with light and beheld a massive spear in their right hands. It stood aiming skyward and reached from the ground up slightly above their heads. Their massive blazing white wings were folded solidly at their backs....unmoving.
We walked up the stairs to the top and I saw another angel there standing alone. He too had a spear and stood near a large statue.....(I don;t remember what this statue was of??)
Jesus said something to this angel, but I didn't hear what was said. The angel at the top of the stairs kept his eyes averted from mine, I tried to see his face, but he never looked at me. He looked down to my left, slightly lower on the stairs to where the other angels were lined.
Jesus took hold of my hand and we turned to walk back down the stairs to where the one angel had looked toward.
I'm not sure which number step it was before we stopped just in front of one of them.
He was tall and muscular....my god, he was not human, but had the resemblence of a human.... Massive beautiful creature.
His wings began to move and he knelt down in front of me.
I was a child in this place, yet when he knelt, his face was aligned directly to mine.....he was huge...he was beautiful.
He had blazing raging living blue eyes. His hair was dark with slight waves in it...I cannot describe what he looked like much more than that.
He looked directly at me. His spear rested beside him as he gazed at me and me at him.
Jesus said something, but still I could not hear what he said....and I was pulled away from the angel and we walked back up the stairs and into the building.
Inside was like a great hall....pillars on each side of the massively wide room. Ahead of us was a large (like incredibly large!) throne. Light poured out from it and into it....really hard to describe, it was bright enough to where you could make out details, but it didn't hurt your eyes. We walked over to the left side near the front and beside one of the pillars..... (the was no ceiling?? It looked so high I couldn't see a ceiling?)
there was something or someone to my left (Jesus held my hand on my right) I;m not sure who or what it was...I didn't take notice...
Fire...light...moving towards me in a swirl, or living energy....it came towards me from the center of the throne before us.... I stood silent as it stared into me...fire...light...it wasn't scary...it wasn't anything but amazing. It moved in the air...colors of ...all colors. Much orange and yellow like a lit hearth...but there was blue and purple, green in the midst. It was warm. I stared into it.

I don't remember what happened after this (I will have to go back and read what I wrote on deviantart...)
The angel....the archangel was given to me....I know his name, but I will not write it down here....and I know why he was given, which I will also not share. But omg....this photographer guy whom I deemed like an angel freaking looks almost just like my angel....strange....and I just thought of this last night too, while I was in convo with the big man about my pissy post, lol....
I even had to go look at his facebook page to see if he had blue eyes, lol, I'm telling you....there is no such thing as coincidence.


Want to hear something else.... that fancy camera I have had my eye on.....best buy has the best price, but noooooo.....it is unavailable online and in store....just my luck. But it's okay. I'll live.

....and this angel of mine doesn't speak....I wonder why sometimes....but I wouldn't argue...cause you had better believe any one of us could be crushed to pieces if one of those guys came after us....ummm...no thanks. I'll be friends....and we can hang out in utter silence....fine with me.

Yay, for stories! True stories, but stories. I may have to go check my journal pages to see if I can find out what happened afterwards...ugh, it's bothering me now.
oh oho oh oh oh oh !!!!!! This is what my facebook angel guy posted last night - "You may have a blazing hearth in your soul and yet no one ever came to sit by it. Passersby see only a wisp of smoke from the chimney and continue on there way." - - Did I not write about the burning fire on the inside...ahhh!!! See! I'm losing my mind, lol. and then I realized this morning that I wrote about becoming a burning blazing star...fire burns...argh! crazy, lol. I can get the date on that btw, but not tonight, it is late enough and I really just want to go to sleep, lol....and truthfully I continue to freak myself out when I read through that stuff...

Lol...I'm a bit flaphappy and giggly and somewhat excited that stuff in my head isn't all in my head, but in actuality too....yay, I get to share the craziness!!!
and I will try to remember to speak like a sword and not a mace....yikes. :)
Love you all who still decide to see what becomes of me and stick around to be my friends... I really am a sappy girl with the fearlessness to cuss on stupid blogs as well as spend and hour of school talking about forgiveness and God. Yay...that even sounds sappy...ugh.

I didn't say any bad words this round.....be proud ;)