What is it that you really want?

~ "Sometimes the simplest one is the right one." ~

...and overthinking on the enormous abundance of all the other options...
scrambles the single, solidified, pure tone signals
no need to effort and try and make all these things be...
just take it easy
be simple when there's overwhelm
be courageous to know that all things are working out for you
so the simplest to the most challenging and any in between... IS the right choice. Every time.

and so it is.

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we don't need to overthink our wishes
or over analyze our dreams
...the only prerequisite needed for doing or having anything is 'want'
so what do you want?

this isn't WishMaster where your words are obliterated into horror
nor is there any judgement or looks of disdain...
when your own vibration is that of a pure thought
nothing can ever be misconstrued or taken out of context...
It's never the words we actually speak that spell out the manifestations
and nothing can deter or interfere with a signal you send out that is solid
one that is singular in essence
it's simple
and in being so...
it is the right words... the right choice... the right everything

“And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.” -- The Little Prince

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We don't have to save the world
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Or everyone we know
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Just ourselves....
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and in doing so.... the whole world is saved

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3d world...

carpet in, furniture back in place
looks like I'll have to sew later because I feel soooo far behind now, haha
behind what? idk... I don't even know what day it is

book mid way through chapter 9
and I didn't realize how awesome some of these side characters are...

tasks and crap

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aether world! 
I miss you...I'll pay attention during the day I suppose
that might be the only way to tune in when I'm writing a novel into the wee hours

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There's only ONE world

The truck unexpectantly unloaded today...
they stuck all the packages and new things in the middle of the house
and I've yet to begin opening 'all the things'
but I feel their presence
Oh, I feeeeeeel it!
all these things handed to me and delivered and even set in my face
thank you...

ooohhh, to be a piece of magic for the world...
and all I ever have to do is be present for it, with it, with myself
and keep from doing that thing where you try to get in the way of the signal
that crisp prime signal that moves from here to there and there to here...
and all the time we muddle it up when we try to interfere...
Complete allowance.
could you do that?
it's seems like a hard thing... and sometimes we forget to NOT help
but the Universe doesn't need our help...
and when we try to step in and look at how the process is going..
we mar the signal and things get throw into a traffic jam...
jamming the signal...

stop doing that
everything is always working out for you
stay out of the way
and wait for the delivery trucks
they know what they are doing and you don't need to know which route they need to take
or how to load the trucks or how to package the goods...
all you have to do is place the order and wait...
2 day shipping happens... or 3 month shipping...
but it all comes when you stop trying to reroute the trucks
and you stop trying to think think think!
just allow

it's like radical unschooling but with energy
and you want to force your kids to do this or that
but you mar the signal and they rebel
they resist
....
but by allowing....even when the world is falling apart
they show up for themselves
and you didn't have to tell them to
... they told themself to...
trust is the name of the game

and I trust the Universe

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so that's figurative and frankly, I have enough craft room stuff jammed in the hallway
right now that packages would not be prime at this moment
Carpet is coming, I promise....
tomorrow if it's not raining

and I've remembered how to get back on track...
its like being lost in the woods a bit because you were chasing a fairy...
and finally made it back to the path that takes you where you want to go
and we are on our way

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so aether lands...
I did that weird DMT meditation thing again...
and it was different this time, but still no OBE or astral projection, which is fine...

and I totally made a wish today by partial accident...
I watched myself saying it...
and I watched as Mind was doubting whether it was gonna be honored...
well...
it was... so maybe that's 1 down... 2 to go, haha
I intentionally also said 'fuck it' to myself and wished for something more exciting
... O_O
I don't think I should tell anyone...
yes it feeds Ego, Mind, and Soul... as she explicitly mentioned getting her cut today
in a different aspect... which involved that first wish....
Everyone is fucking excited to see this play out!!!
 so am I...

Soul informed us that her productions could be larger... and we all cheered that prospect.
Mind is extremely excited to have new fodder to munch on
and Ego is like... 'Yes' That will suit me.'.... I'm not sure about her intentions just yet.

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(really now... I did start this whole blog post on ALLOWING.... and that includes
allowing yourself to have and USE what's available to you. Even wishes offered to you by big blue guys with long hair, jewelry and wavy stuff at the bottom.)
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book is half way through chapter 8
....and I read through what outline I do have and I'm so excited to see what happens later !! Eek

I DID do sewing work today... congrats to me
Got all the Frozen appliques cut out and pinned...and the 2 others...
depending on the carpet situation....tomorrow those will get sewn...
or at least I can print off the other ones I need to do next

Marketing day is Friday... who even know what that means?
but like said, Soul wants her cut...

I'm already anticipating getting started on this wall.... ART! COLORS! PAINT!!!
OH THE JOY!!!


PIC! for the win!
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I wanna paint soooo bad now!!!!

yikes!
it's almost 11pm...and I'm late for writing a book, yo!
outta here !


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Embers in the rain.....a rising in the pain

~ "Anything that comes to you, summoned or not, will never be a lower vibration than your lowest vibration. If you have trauma or ill intentions, or guilt/regret/etc that you have not healed...those entities can trigger those and make you feel the emotions linked to those unhealed things. It is all vibration. It is not any more 'evil' than you carry inside of you. The more you heal, the less and less any negative things can even touch you...because they will not be able to exist on your frequency plane." ~


Mind you this was a reply comment I posted in one of the groups I'm in...

but there's something deeper here...
while I was merely rectifying the obvious error about 'evil' things in the world... or unworld...
this could be a revelation that is definable and utilizable on other life aspects...
like relationships
like finances
like family, and tasks, and jobs, and things you hear/see....
like life and all the things it entails
all the things
...

for example...
I'm wondering myself why I'm emotionally traumatized by looking at Australia..
like, I've only been obsessed since I was little little...
and it's on fire...
but it's not the flames that burn
it's the unknowing of a place I'm energetically somehow linked to
and while things happen all the time everywhere...
I don't usually care about them...
they don't bring me to a deeper place
...
but down under...
this is a different story
and this story hurts, is filled with all the things...
...
and what amazing things it's revealing for me...or will reveal

perhaps for everyone.
...and you thought the Amazon rainforest was devastating...
but this hits home
home country.... even if we've never been in this lifetime
down deep...
down under those layers we've built

clear the surface and find your gold....
there will not be things that can take you this deep everyday
witness...
witness yourself before the rains come to heal the wounds...

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not even summoning rain
or demons
or the gods
can bring you the gift you are receiving when you are faced with raw open wounds
a bleeding out...

so summon yourself
and look at your mess
that beautiful glorious mess
... dig out the splinter... the sty.. the rage... whatever is hidden beneath your layers
 truly heal

 (summon in etymology = to give a hint)
 SO TAKE THE HINT!


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I'm sure there's far deeper we could go with that...
and while Mind could take off on five different perspectives easily...
we will let that alone stand as a place of stillness and witnessing
After all... it is whatever it means to you
and all the things in the world... are for you...

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3d world adventures 101
...
carpet is up... and I found some online I might pick up, if they get back to me before I've lost
patience...
most furniture is out of the way except the heavy table... and the fold up table I have work stuff on.
...which I should probably get to work on... but I found a blog post to write instead...
I am procrastinating... and I love that. Nothing is such a rush that I can't find time to write
...the bird still needs put to bed too...and I hope I don't have to do it again

book... I'll be starting chapter 8 tonight... (like in a whole 30 minutes to an hour)
the cat still has an issue... which is neither better nor worse...
I'm tired of making decisions for all the things except things I've instigated myself...
not even my cat... but where's the owner.... hrmmm?
'4am mom' is about to go whack...
Even I don't want to do damage control because of her... *sighs

 I also painted the wall.... like base coat...
I'll start the art part of it eventually rather soonly and all...
but I've got to do some sewing stuff so I don't feel like I actually skipped 3 days worth of progress
LOL
we'll do that tomorrow... first thing... *nods with a slight shrug
look at me being a wavering ball of unfocused energy...
exactly what I tell everyone NOT to do,   LOL

I don't even know what else right now...

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Aether world adventures 101 ...or Ether....whatever... I like aether and I don't even know why
...
so... I released both me and the djinn from any obligations or bargains...
like... they don't have to give me wishes... or give lessons...
but all in all, the last thing I learned was a lesson...
and now I'm feeling like I jumped like four levels and we both are surprised...
does that make sense?
like..'whoa, didn't see that coming'... and now I've gained some fans it seems... blue ones.
I don't know what I'm talking about...

but I'm 100% certain that the whole ache and pain things were my nervous system trying
to align with the new level.... of course you never see that until afterwards....unless
you were paying more attention beforehand... which I may not have been...

interesting...
I don't know if they will stick around and still teach me things...
or if I still have access to these wishes... which I'm starting to get the sense they
are not what we think they are... ? ? ? (*question mark)
~ fascinating! ~

PIC!!! <3

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 ..yep!
that'll do it for tonight!

Quality perceptions

Let's do exercise... ya know, so you don't keel over when you
are challenged to run up the hill... because you don't know how to say no sometimes...
...
hey, look at me being consistent doing exercise...
why is my hip out of alignment...
why the fuck does my back hurt!
ACK! I can't lift the water bottle with my right arm...
is there a reason my thumb hurts?
...
*contemplates
...
maybe exercise is not for me
I will just get the pool installed and go swimming lounging in bliss

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new carpet for the craft room is in motion...
in other words, I'm waiting for the store coupon before I go get it...
I may or may not begin the clearing out the room process of the stuff touching the floor
there's far more stuff on the walls than on the floor, so that's good

and I need to prep the wall... for. an. art. project  O_O
I don't think the word 'project' is appropriate.....
more like an overhaul of extreme imposition of color and magic...

it was going to be the wall or the kitchen table first...
however I still haven't, and will not, inform the family of said plans on the table
They are most certainly assured to get the drift when they find it in the garage getting sanded...
or when they find it tilted and surrounded by paint colors...
and chairs blocking it from getting touched by the pets
It'll be fun... in like 3 months when it's a bit warmer and I've recovered from the wall 'project'
...
but the wall is first...
and it'll be primed this week...

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hmmm...
other stuff in the real world...

book is on chapter 6
it's been so enjoyable hanging with my peeps

sewing orders... on schedule (question mark)
have some waiting to be paid for...
have some pre-ordered so they will get purchased when done most likely

have to venture out to Dunlapia this week sometime...
for closing on a property sale and updated pics on the house...
which is a whole other consensus of things that will need handled shortly
I'm sure the buyers will arrange the needed requirements for the insurance...
and I'm ready for all possibilities on that matter...
except paying a higher price for said insurance... that's the least prime of noted options

house is a disaster and needs someone to clean it
I'm not sure when this person will show, but if they would hurry up...
that'd be nice
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aether world....
I have no idea
I contemplated what I would wish for again with those 3 wishes...
not because the learning is hard... or I don't remember some of it
but there's nothing wrong with easier and quicker...
I can get wishes anytime I choose in all honesty...
I'm curious as to why we think there's some arbitrary limit to our ability to receive
grand and amazing and near impossible things and desires....

it's another test in perception I suspect...
because I wouldn't need anything from them...
and I know they know that...
the learning is in the learning, after all
not in the polarity of questions and answers ...
but on the whole frequency of such matters...
law of polarity - Kybalion 101

so mentally, this whole being and soul knows all the things already...
and our shifting of vibrations and frequencies determine at which perspective...
or which dimension, at which we are able to determine and define what we see....
and seeing it all from the highest one can reach at the moment, is the best we could ever do
...
the best we could ever do

so don't be hard on yourself for doing what you do or not doing or knowing what you don't...
no one has ever chosen the lower step on a ladder when there were four choices....
the one who's standing on the fourth is at their best...
even if you stand on your mighty 6th rung...
give them a break
be nice
be kind
and keep climbing...
they might pass you one day...or always be two steps behind
and that's fine...
all ladders take you higher
and the higher you step...the more you can see of the lower...because your feet aren't in the way

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pic! I'm doing so great at remembering!! huzzah!

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there's a considerable amount of science I could ramble on about...
but no....
too many words... trying to describe what can easily just be felt
look at that glorious jacob's ladder... dna double helix...
which I'm confounded why there weren't more relevant images of...
... relevant as in amazingly pretty with colors... fyi
I suppose they haven't linked the two yet in his slowAF 3d world...

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so Imma go do some moving of stuff around
and take up more carpet...
and then...
....dishes, dinner, maybe something sewing related...
measure the hallway while it's empty, move more stuff,
locate gallon of white paint we are sure to own...
write, meditate, bed...
*thumbs up

Who's in the receptive mode? This girl

I'm going to jinx it and say that this is the third blog post of the year!
And it's Jan 3rd, yo!
Look at me being consistent. LOL

I randomly just thought of like 20 things I didn't know I wanted!
How cool is that!
Not sure whether it was because my whole day involved sewing and cooking
or because I listen to at least 10 Abraham Hicks videos...
or because I listened to some weird DMT meditation sound thing last night...
or because there's this beautiful fog covering everything outside
...fog is just pretty, yo

There's also a sense of a 'something' to look forward to in about 5-10 years
yeah, perhaps that's a long time to some....
but I don't want it right now.

anyway... so I did do the meditation thing...
and even if I learned something then, I don't remember what it was now...
soooo....
if anything they were chatting with each other about how weird the sound thing was
*rolls eyes

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here's a pic before I forget!

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Gah, love this pic with all the colors!
why can't I do stuff like this....
I can... but do I ever think about it before I 'try some other technique'
no.....
I do the stupid thing and try something new instead of do what I love
which is draw weird designs and things and then plaster brilliant colors all over it
with stars ;)
There might be a time when I remember this as I start a new painting...

(of course this image is most likely all digital...)
and I don't do digital art... there's enough computer projects already
I don't need another something to do 'on the computer'
... and then it's not real enough for my liking...
and who really needs another picture on their computer...
when you can put it on your wall instead (or sell it)


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whilst I was transmuting something.....
I had a grand idea!
omg! who knew there were so many cool things that are possible?!
it's like, hum drum...
and then BAM!
a crazy idea pops up out of nowehere
and then you feel this tinge of insanity and bliss wrapped into one
my kind of idea!!!

HA!
it's a huge project and will take a long while to complete
but I get to bring home more pretty paint colors... and that's always enjoyable
and I get to draw weird designs and plaster brilliant colors all over it!
Umm... YES please!
Sign me up for that near impossible task no sane person would outright agree to!
Thank god I'm not one of those people!

when I say huge, that equates to the size of an entire wall....
when I say a long while... that means like 100 days....
non-consecutive...
cause I still am going to do sewing orders
and write a novel
and meditate
and write blog posts
and play ukelele
and I will still have to cook dinner and clean house
and go shopping
and organize plans for the yard
...
everyone will get their turn, I suppose

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Etymology is the root of all truth

Feeling a bit behind, so we are going to pretend I'm making this a quick blog post

I thought of something cool...which had to do with yesterday's
"The magic is in the heat." sentence I accentuated by writing it 3 times...

Did you know that you have to rub the lamp to get the genie to come out...
not call it forth
not shake it
not blow in it
not fill it with oil or hot tea
but...
rub it.... and rubbing is friction which produces --->>> Heat

just a random thought

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when you try to silence all the words..
and only focus on vibration..
you get colors, you get images..
sometimes words that accompany those things as well
You get feelings, you get to a layer just under the skin...
if you go deeper...
you enter these pools... where there are still colors..
but it's more of swirling eddy's that more often than not try to swallow you
(you, the observer)
sometimes you can let it...
and then it's all this movement... you are the swirling... you are the colors
and what you observe is the oneness... that it's all you...
from the outer to the inner and back...
all the layers are you
it's only the perspectives that make one believe there was ever a divide

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I knocked out about 15 pages yesterday
(I totally wrote a whole chapter, yo!)
and even though I intended on writing more tonight...
my aether friends are enticing me to join them instead
...yes, both the Alchemist and the big blue guy
 so I will oblige them... get to sleep hopefully at a more decent hour than 2am...
and depending how the weather looks tomorrow...
debate whether I can delay another day of not going to the stores

I did actually leave the house today...
but ONLY because the youngest came downstairs and asked for Five Guys
and he rarely hunts me down.... soooo
I once again confirmed for him that the world does comply with his wishes...
sorry world.... you're going to have a wonderful time with him in a handful of years.
...
a true manifestor, he is
I'm only sad that he has such ease and non-thought about it...
which actually makes it effortless for him...
and I have to think... and feel it all out...
(gah! I do too much work....)
maybe that can be the subject of the evening.....





anyway... here's a pic...

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they said that "That's not the kind of lamp it all refers to."


lamp in etymology = torch
there's you another fancy reference for heat, yo...
and I'm not making this up...
I literately and figuratively just follow along
this is the stuff I receive...
and I find it significantly a *thumbs up

also this-  'vessel containing flammable liquid and a wick to lift it by capillary action when lit'

keeps coming back to expressing
and ferver
and passion  (which happens to = suffer)
but not as in the bad way (suffer = to bear, from below)

I'm pretty sure it has to do with our human bodies
and the fact we are grounded into them (soul to body)
and as receivers, our intention is to express the heat that is within us....
'heat', as in our expression of that particular soul...
like how a specific radio channel expresses it's own specific music
and a different channel expresses something else entirely
in the simplest words and terms I can think to use...
that should explain a bit
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if you don't want to bother researching, behold
I did it all for you...
the simplest simplest I can get it

"The magic is in the heat"
equals...
"Greatness is in the suffering"

which means the beingness of your soul in a manifested body
is the ultimate expression of God.
(God...which is Soul, which is energy, which is the universe, which is everything, which is YOU)


well....
I hope you enjoyed all that,
I have other places to be



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Partaking in the rituals of glass shattering

It's been a few days of contrast.
A whole day of living without electricity
as well as a day to discover all the things that aren't so important
there's also a dash of today
which included tackling those things the previous days would not allow
come to find out, those things were easier than predicted
...
and it's a place of getting back on track (as if that is actually is a thing)
without doing much at all

I want to do everything in my power to ignore the idea of doing a new year's post
to refrain from resolutions or plans
since after all...
I make plans when the inspiration comes
and I break them without another thought
and today... the first day of the new year
is just as great as yesterday, or the day without electricity
or christmas, or a hot summer day with nothing to do

it's a being
a presence inside of the space that allows
a stillness as the world moves around and does it's things

I did catch myself making a stupid wish...
one which an 'oh, shit." followed directly after
so I'm hoping it was disqualified
don't you just hate it when your mouth just blurts out something
without realizing you actually do have wishes available to you...
and to beat it all, I also noticed I should have added the word "like a master"
at the end of it... that way, if it did come true,
it would be phenominal rather than mediocre ...

I haven't checked in with the ascended masters on the matter
(and only because I'm writing a novel and what is time... specifically time afterwards when you just want sleep and do not have the attention span to converse with otherworldly beings in the aether)
so it's been a few days of whack.
overall good whack and good contrast...
but I realized I fucked up blabbing on and saying those words "I wish" very haphazardly
argh...
it's like getting a note to go to the principle's office...
and you don't know why...
but it feels all messy and strange
Am I in trouble, or is someone here to pick me up
all a conundrum until you actually go to the office and find out
I've had both experiences
isn't that a shrodinger's cat anomaly... idfk

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 Meditation session 101 -- You are Allowed here
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 btw, they said that pic is highly exaggerated

"What is the power button?"
When you are looking to express
like a toaster plugged into the wall
The electricity is the source...
and you are the apparatus ...
the toaster expresses heat, creating toast
but when it's you...
what do you express?

If you know the energy
If you know the ways to express..
that is one piece of the purpose...
but to turn on...
to input the power...
what exactly is that, and how does it look?

You're plugged in... attached to source
and you flop out toast all day...
but the magic is in the heat...
the magic is in the heat
the magic is in the heat

and the heat is the fervor, the passion...
supernatural art... of the magi
(fucking genies, yo
I'm just sayin')

so what is yours?
technically, what is mine?


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His name is Mothrehk
and while meditating and conversing with him
he asked that I write along as we progress...
and so...
we are here.

I don't know if we will continue this new trend
however I find it as something that cracks the glass (aka, the windshield thingy)
and we become a place of refuge for both you and I
(AND I get time to meditate before writing on the novel...) win/win/win!


...and it's the small things...
the trillions of small details that line the corners and enhance the color
this heat that is a sanctuary of space
this overlooked energy...that does more than you notice


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oh....shit
...
it's about to go down
and I've got a front row seat
hell to the yes

Soul is on stage...
Ego is ready, with her blanket and waterbottle and bag of chips
Mind is waiting to analyze the first thing that begins the scene... impatiently at that

But I watch them all...
and I see the color green on the edge of the blanket, I love the color green
and I see the curve of the chair... I love curves
I see the way Soul is unafraid of being phenomenal, or fucking it all up
I love Soul.
I see how Ego is being so considerate of Soul's work
her expression... her heat...
and maybe Ego isn't such a narcissist as she thinks she is
I love Ego. She is awesome.
and I see Mind, how Mind wants something to think about...
all the time
...even if it serves no purpose or forward motion...
I love Mind too.
and the stone color of my coffee mug
and that splattered messy composition book of black and white
and the green on the highlighter that marks a darker green than the what it should be
and big white birds who talk
all the things