"Why are you trembling?"

There are mirrors surrounding me. I'm not sure what exactly they are for, but I know I could just ask to get the answer...maybe my delay is that I don't want to hear the answer just yet.
Ultraviolet.
The light you can't see, but is imperative for life.
The invisible light that boarders between xrays and the rainbow of visual lights.
Ultraviolet.
What do I do with this?
The mirrors face me and I see myself looking back.

What are you looking for, little star?
High upon the tower, with views of the sea, of the mountains, of the waves, and of the heavens.
You can't find what you don't carry with you....
....but you carry it all....don't you.

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So there's this thing he said that keeps reverberating....
"Do you think I made a mistake?" He asks.

   oh yes, always asking questions to my questions....but answering them too.
and we won't play their games.
We won't take sides and divide ourselves like them....like you.
We won't tell you that there is light you can't see....
   ...it may look dark to you...but no....the light just vibrates at a higher frequency.
maybe a lower one. Neither matters.
All is light....even in the dark.
    like how on a snowy night, it seems to glow, even if the moon is nowhere to be found....
....do you really think the snow glows?....
You can choose sides if you will. It's okay.
I'll take them all.
You can see the darkness in a flag if you will.
I'll take it as a symbol of rebellion. Because I won't comply.
You can see darkness in a rainbow of colors that was hijacked by certain groups.
I still see a rainbow, regardless what you try to make me believe. roygbiv ....
It doesn't matter when you see with ultraviolet.All will work out in the end.

the end....


Sewing appliques.....still no fun.
Painting appliques....even non-funner.
Selling fabric.... I sold some more.
Need to take a few days to get some things planned out for THP,
...but I still have orders to finish.
Lots of busyness to take care of these next few weeks too.
...and need to catch up on sleep. I tired.

I will not comply.
I will not be assimilated.
I am not Borg.


Don't let these storms rock your boat.
Don't let them crumble your foundations.
All will be well.
All is well
Take refuge.
Rest.
...or are you on a boat out at sea without Him.
He will come to you if you allow it.
Fear not what the world may become....or is.
He has overcome the world.

Who's birthday is it? Doesnt' lighting candles get wax all over your icing....?

It's funny....that little things slowly reveal themselves bit by bit...stone by stone...until you realize that not a single thing stands alone.

There's a fresh cool breeze gently sailing into the spiral corridor. I can see that the light has shifted from a dreary grey to a sunnier demeanor. There's a doorway now that stands just ahead. It's open and I can see the blue sky that teases for me to hurry. Only a select number of steps lie between me and it's threshold.
   He asks if I'm ready to continue....I say yes...but I look down to the step beneath my foot....those steps...these hard, cold, concreted firmaments of solid mass...and of strength.
   "Ya know..." I begin...though I know He already knows what I'm about to say. He smiles, but is trying to hide it. "These steps are pretty strong...they are solid. I trust them." I pause. "I'm not the tower, am I?" I shake my head smiling to myself. "He is."  I stare into those steps... They may be hard and cold and compacted with rocks...the walls built with stones and beaten by waves....but they are strong, solid, built to last generations. Firm, dependable, trustworthy.....this tower shields me from the rain....from the waves....carries me higher.
   I look over to Him as He watches me come to this revelation. He waits.
"I'm the lightkeeper." I say quietly. "You're the light.....and he's our tower."
   It's beautiful....this chaos. And no matter what we try to do....there's still the conclusion that we are all for one another. Even if you're a harsh cold wave....beating upon a tall stone tower who is cold and damp....who shields a little star and her light from the rain.... climb hard....because those last steps are going to be the hardest.
 Climb, climb. Light the tower on fire...

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I have $67...and bills due that are much higher than that.
I have some pretty awesome fabric sitting here though.
I sold 3 yards so far though. Hey....better than nothing.
I have a few orders left that I could care less about. I want them to disappear. I don't want to sew anything. Took me a 4 days to sew 1 princess....and 1 to sew 4....still not done.
I feel like I'm in a dream. Things are converging into sync...and this is so weird.
I am excited to see what comes of it. What lies beyond that door.
Let it Go is playing on my itunes.... and this gives me a huge inkling of what these last few steps will require of me.
Going to see a cheapy $1 movie tomorrow.
Awaiting a few photoshoots to prep for.
Kids finally got their blackbelts in TKD.
And nothing else too new....I suppose.