Scorpio.... flowing with a sword in hand.

Think about it.
There must be higher love.
Down in the heart or hidden in the stars above.
Without it.
Life is wasting time.
Look inside your heart and I'll look inside mine.
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When you understand the universe.
And you understand the power you are able to wield.
.....
then you rise to the highest.
but you are also equal to it's humblest.
You see the truths, even if they are unreadable.
You know them, but can not speak them.
You see the possibilities, but know that in order to
step forward in one direction, you are taking a step back in the other.
You are not moving... the universe is.
This is the balance.
This is the truth.
This is the secret.
Which isn't a secret.
Never was.

The more light you step into...
the more your shadows are revealed.
and those ancient things that hide in the crevices and corners...
they come out... confused, angry, fearful...
but the light... even though it blinds...
the darkness must flee.
You must look upon those shadows of old and you must be their light now.
Ignoring them isn't an option.
Supressing them isn't an option.
Slaying them.... never.
You must carry them... love them.
Bring them into your sight and make them whole once again.
Wholly. Holy.

Like the seraphim and their thousand eyes.
These places you will see too.
There will be no where else for them to hide.
No more darkness for them to sleep in.
Wake up.
Wake up.
Time to rise with the sun.
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this is challenge week.
which I don't like the name...because a challenge implies
that it might be hard or a possible failure..
ha ha ha....
this is the week these things will get done.
I'm on a schedule.... as much as you can call it one??

Victory is getting add-ins. - Will be done by end of week.
The Fox Prince - like 3 tweaks... yeah simple I KNOW! - will be done by end of week.
RC script (it's a collab) beat cards - will be done ....tomorrow.
Clean out the other house on mtn. - will be done this week.
Edit pics - will be done by end of week. There's a lot, yo.
Got work tomorrow... which is why the beat cards will be done. haha!
...
I think that's it.

I have a book I'm reading I want read.
and a novel I really got to get started on soon.
I figured I'd get to it as soon as I'm able to stay up late consecutively.
At the latest it will be June 22nd, I'll start on it. 5 hr flight, yo. Writing time!
(and my little laptop won't run Final Draft on it....sooo yeah, Book 5 time!)
I finally got a frame for some artwork I'm planning.
and other stuff.
I would tell you more about the cool stuff.... but would you understand...
hmmm.
Actually nevermind.
The Universe said ... no.
Not no to me.... no to you.
But I'm so excited!!!! Cool cool cool cool manifesting party going on here!
And anyway, Full moon in Scorpio? I think... My moon and ascendant is Scorpio!
Make way, make way!
I'm flowing, baby!
And I carry a big sharp stick.

Cascading like rivers of light....

"I am the stillness in which these things move."

The teacher comes forward when called.
"What do you need?"
"Tell me."
and words flow out from the cosmos
they flow out and form into sentences
and they carry the message meant to be spoken
and the teacher hears them...
"Why is that important?"
"Is that necessary?"
and these questions are the answers
and you remember the greatest teacher
the first who answered in questions...
then realization as it unites with the all...

oh dear one... the ripples change and the pulse speeds and slows...
but you, you never change.
you are the all
you are the substance that carries them all
you are the all
The Firmament.
The waters pour through and the rain falls.
The wind blows and the skies carry the light.

and we sit here beyond the threshhold
beyond the touch of the turbulence and echoes
and we stand beneath the cascade of energy
..... it's like standing under a waterfall...and you're superman.
and the voice that isn't spoken greets the tongue with a 'yes'
"yes"
"more of this"
"yes" 
and the earth is far away yet ... we are the earth
and the stillness.... this uncreation, this creation, this silent light
lingers through the all.
the all lingers through it
pouring down
pouring down
this is greater than superman
greater than a super saiyan
greater than the jedi
and the alchemist
this is the land of gods....
and we stand among them....
bathing under the same moon
the same waterfall
we are the same
.....
we ARE.
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Something is coming....
Holy fuck, I hope you're ready.
I am.
I can see it coming, just like the sunrise....like the sunset.
The shock waves haven't even gotten to us yet....
but I can see them too.... I can see them too.
She stands there at the beach. Her hands clasped in anticipation.
A smile beaming across her face.
She can't help but make tiny jumps with her feet.
Barely able to stay on the ground, she is.
She sees it. We see it. We all do....
She's not afraid, but already knows how amazing it is.
She makes sure we're there with her, but constantly looks
back to the horizon. Do you see it? Do you see?
We stand with her. And we watch... and we wait.
Let it come unto us all. Pour out. Fall upon us. We accept.

I can't even think of a metaphor to relate to....
This requires more than words...
words can't even compete with ......this....
If I could hold it in my hands and show you....
it would be the Universe giving birth....
it would be Christ returning....if you're into that.
It would be your birth.
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What do I do in my day.....
I write screenplays....
I edit screenplays....
I cook food, clean, watch videos,
read posts on facebook groups,
I watch movies. I watch anime.
I linger around seeing if the fam needs my attention.
I coddle to the cat's wishes and tend to the dogs.
I write down numbers that have to do with finances.
I remind myself not to think the word 'how'.
I try to stay here...
I try... i do well until the night falls and the bed calls.
(hey that rhymes!)
then i am gone...far from you.
I'm with them...and myself too.
 (Limerick anyone?)
lol....

So I have this huge ass subwoofer in my 4runner....
but I can't get it to turn down...
so...hmmm. I might need to sell that one and replace it with
one where I can still hear the actual music and get the base too
without getting just the base why too damn much....
yeah.... first world problems....

A challenge to right...

So I've been doing these challenges lately.
All have been accomplished...

I'm not quite sure I want to start another challenge yet.
Still need to do level 33...
but I'm collaborating on another script and it's been
challenging enough trying to do one and then refocus on another.
This has been an issue.
I don't think I will be collaborating again any time soon...
it's not hard, but I need time for my stuff...argh.
I guess I'll just decide to do my stuff first from now on....
yeah, we'll go with that.

I was thinking the weather was going to be good,
so I can go hiking, biking.... driving in my new 4runner...
but alas.... it got cold again....so now I have to wait until
at least next Wednesday.... warmer with no rain.

There are things on my list that
I would like off my list... so I think I might get those
completed and scribbled out.
I supposed to get a free coaching call today too....
but not sure what time? 2:50pm... but now that it's
past 3:30....I'm assuming that it's pacific time...or something.
I guess I'm okay with surprises...
what is that time difference...3 hours I think.
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So the universe has been quiet.
Like it's recharging. Reloading...
Whatever it is, it is good.
I'm cool with it.
I accept.

I keep finding my mind wondering and trying to think up ways
to make money. And I keep stabbing those thoughts with my sword.
I know what arises from such bullshit...and I will not have it
take root in this kingdom. This garden will not have weeds.
Only flowers....only fruit. Even if the harvest isn't until the fall.

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Watched Ready Player One.... it's alright.
Watched Downsizing....that was 4 big movies shoved into one 'tiny' one, lol
idk wtf the director/screenwriter was thinking. The answer = no.
Might watch Justice League... maybe... doesn't sound appealing really.
I'll try to watch it though. 'try'


I don't really want to tell you anything else....
I've already said too much.
and not nearly enough.
there's only one paragraph here that is really 'real'...
so I guess I'll come back later when I'm inspired
enough to write something that's only real.
want to get down to the rawness. the truth.
the heart. the darkness. the brightest spot in the universe.
but will you recognize it?
....?