There was a pretty great thought about a blog post the other day...
but then it wasn't written down..
and I waited a whole extra day, hoping it would revisit...
but it didn't...
so... I'm guessing I'll have to make something up on the spot...
Another wave of energy is coming.
I can tell you that.
Some things may get thrown out of whack for a short time,
but it won't be destructive or painstakingly horrid.
It'll be rather welcoming...
like cleaning out an old drawer full of last year's clothes...
you get to find things you love and forgot about..
and you might find a spider too.
Time to discard that which has met it's vibrational end ...
and make room for the new things already waiting at the door...
..
and truthfully... much has piled up and is waiting to be let inside your life.
Just the same as the piled up junk that no longer serves you...
Get rid of the old and allow for the new...
but like on black Friday... there's a limit to how many things can enter at a time..
the doorway is small...even if the room is large...
so take this time...
this lovely calm moment of silence...
and make room.
Company is coming.
This new energy wave carries much with it.
Prepare.
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Tasks, errands, steps... all the action based things...
some get met with actually doing the action..
while some do not.
which is totally awesome...
because nothing is a rush... or for that matter soooo important.
and grateful that there is ZERO reason to wake early in the morning.
...unless I'm at Disney
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Distractions are abundant lately...
and having the ability to see yourself coddling such distractions...
is a very funny and interesting thing to watch.
Soul keeps asking...why?
hahah...
I say distractions..
but I just got distracted and submitted 3 scripts for online reading...
I guess that's progress.
who knew it would be so freaking easy when I wasn't trying!!!?
ME, that's who.
that's why trying is stupid.
Trying IS resistance! Haven't I already told you that!?
read that again....
Trying IS resistance!
Stop trying... just DO IT
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fyi...
book 6 outline is up to 15 or so pages...
and not even half way through.
sweet
Here's a tidbit of awesome for you tonight....
~ "Speak what you Seek, until you See what you've Said." ~
Spell -- sp-EL = speech of God.... fyi ;)
Monday, September 30, 2019
Friday, September 27, 2019
What the jackrabbit?!
L@@K at this blog!
I did an update!
Cause we all need to refurbish our *ship* from time to time!
There might have been something to write about 30 minutes ago,
however, I got distracted...
so... I'll leave the rest of this blank for your enjoyment :)
(blank in etymology = white; colorless) yay education!
.
I did an update!
Cause we all need to refurbish our *ship* from time to time!
There might have been something to write about 30 minutes ago,
however, I got distracted...
so... I'll leave the rest of this blank for your enjoyment :)
(blank in etymology = white; colorless) yay education!
.
Thursday, September 26, 2019
Got to get you out of your cage
"Don't look outside of yourself for your rewards.
Reward yourself.
There is no gatekeeper to your treasures.... other than yourself."
Vibrational boundaries...
those invisible fences that hold a certain power at bay...
either to contain and to keep from growing...
or to keep out, thus containing yourself.
Barriers that are made of nothing other than subconscious beliefs.
Beliefs made from some past life programming.
This leaves your now conscious mind with a choice.
~ ~ ~ Choose the boundary... Or choose freedom. ~ ~ ~
Choose staying tamed... in your secure fence line, where the wild can't grow.
Or untamed and untethered... in the wilds, where the wolves howl.
If you believe your the sheep... this could pose a problem with fear.
But you are exactly who and what you believe you are...
not what they told you....
It's not what they told you.
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"You get what you think about whether you want it or not."
You get what you think about whether you want it or not.
Take command.
Then Command.
Stop playing their game.
They made it so you would lose... every time.
Stop playing their game.
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________
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According to a study by Microsoft,
the average human being now has an attention span of 8 seconds.
did you also know... it takes an average of 8 minutes to learn something...
some say 18 seconds of undivided attention...
can bring about a change...
but you got to focus without breaking your attention...
on something you want, of course... not on what you don't want!
for a full 18 seconds.
Ready,
Set,
...
GO!
...add some good feeling emotion.... for some fire power
education for you...
"focus" in etymology means = hearth...
domestic hearth to be exact..
the fire place of home/family....
your heart, duh
light it up
Reward yourself.
There is no gatekeeper to your treasures.... other than yourself."
Vibrational boundaries...
those invisible fences that hold a certain power at bay...
either to contain and to keep from growing...
or to keep out, thus containing yourself.
Barriers that are made of nothing other than subconscious beliefs.
Beliefs made from some past life programming.
This leaves your now conscious mind with a choice.
~ ~ ~ Choose the boundary... Or choose freedom. ~ ~ ~
Choose staying tamed... in your secure fence line, where the wild can't grow.
Or untamed and untethered... in the wilds, where the wolves howl.
If you believe your the sheep... this could pose a problem with fear.
But you are exactly who and what you believe you are...
not what they told you....
It's not what they told you.
_______________________________
____________________________________
_______________________________
"You get what you think about whether you want it or not."
You get what you think about whether you want it or not.
Take command.
Then Command.
Stop playing their game.
They made it so you would lose... every time.
Stop playing their game.
_________
________
_____
According to a study by Microsoft,
the average human being now has an attention span of 8 seconds.
did you also know... it takes an average of 8 minutes to learn something...
some say 18 seconds of undivided attention...
can bring about a change...
but you got to focus without breaking your attention...
on something you want, of course... not on what you don't want!
for a full 18 seconds.
Ready,
Set,
...
GO!
...add some good feeling emotion.... for some fire power
education for you...
"focus" in etymology means = hearth...
domestic hearth to be exact..
the fire place of home/family....
your heart, duh
light it up
Tuesday, September 24, 2019
Yo ho, yo ho... a pirate's life for me
Step out of line
Don't wait your turn
Don't ask
Don't share
Be radical
...or
be tame
____________________
and the world has enough tamed beings
living within the conditions they see fit
creating conditions for lack of them
always following where other's have led
.......
you are too heavy for me
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I tried to educate another today...
on the matters of physics..
about constructive and destructive wavelengths..
I'm not sure they got it... but it shouldn't be that hard to understand
and it's okay if you and another are creating destructive interference...
eventually, you'll be coherent and constructive again... even for a time
It's like someone playing note C on a piano... and the other playing note G
...but we all float between all the notes all the time...
and sometimes we are in tune with one another...
and sometimes not...
it's all good.
We can create a chord... and play together at times
Or we might end up both on note F for a time... in different octaves.
That's when it's all constructive... and we are in sync... in love... in coherence.
So when we are on F minor and B... and there's no appreciating that mess...
it's a fun time to just sing your own tune...loudly
___________________
__________________________
I kinda wish there was more to write about...
I could go work on the outline more...
or I could tell you secrets...
or I could throw a bunch of information your way...
or some more insights...
or a rant, that really isn't a rant at all...
or tell you all the plans...
of which I haven't done yet...nor am I obligated to do
it's 11:11.... (choose the door in the middle)
I invented this game called 'Ring-Around-The-Dog'
but I can't remember what I used last time I played it... ???
I'm thinking it was an embroidery hoop... but I don't think we actually have one big enough
sooo... I need to find a substitute...
I'll post a video whenever I find the right equipment
__
LOL
Firefox message reads...
" ~ Internet affirmation #872: just because you had to search for the answer doesn't mean you didn't know it all along. ~ "
Don't wait your turn
Don't ask
Don't share
Be radical
...or
be tame
____________________
and the world has enough tamed beings
living within the conditions they see fit
creating conditions for lack of them
always following where other's have led
.......
you are too heavy for me
___
___
___
I tried to educate another today...
on the matters of physics..
about constructive and destructive wavelengths..
I'm not sure they got it... but it shouldn't be that hard to understand
and it's okay if you and another are creating destructive interference...
eventually, you'll be coherent and constructive again... even for a time
It's like someone playing note C on a piano... and the other playing note G
...but we all float between all the notes all the time...
and sometimes we are in tune with one another...
and sometimes not...
it's all good.
We can create a chord... and play together at times
Or we might end up both on note F for a time... in different octaves.
That's when it's all constructive... and we are in sync... in love... in coherence.
So when we are on F minor and B... and there's no appreciating that mess...
it's a fun time to just sing your own tune...loudly
___________________
__________________________
I kinda wish there was more to write about...
I could go work on the outline more...
or I could tell you secrets...
or I could throw a bunch of information your way...
or some more insights...
or a rant, that really isn't a rant at all...
or tell you all the plans...
of which I haven't done yet...nor am I obligated to do
it's 11:11.... (choose the door in the middle)
I invented this game called 'Ring-Around-The-Dog'
but I can't remember what I used last time I played it... ???
I'm thinking it was an embroidery hoop... but I don't think we actually have one big enough
sooo... I need to find a substitute...
I'll post a video whenever I find the right equipment
__
LOL
Firefox message reads...
" ~ Internet affirmation #872: just because you had to search for the answer doesn't mean you didn't know it all along. ~ "
Sunday, September 22, 2019
Your heart is not in your chest
Intuition is a fucking BEAST!
it's like...
'Here...Imma throw all this magical wisdom at you and you're gonna try to catch as much as you can!'
and it laughs as you get smacked in the face with
POW!
something obvious... but isn't it always something obvious, once you SEE it!?
God, I love all these things so so so so so much!!
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"The amount of chaos you allow in your life for your ideals is wild to me."
is it always a struggle to you?
who or what are you fighting against?
there is no enemy
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Everything is energy.
Everything holds a value. A charge. A unit of that energy.
Every interaction, every action, every vibration...
is all determined by the relationship you hold with it.
Your relation with friends
your relation with family
your relation with money
your relation with work
your relation with fun
your relation with truth, or honesty, or work, or animals, or fun, or food, or weight, or height, or color, or age, or race, or spouse, or kids, or old people, or strangers, or bills, or whateverthefuck....
Relation-SHIP
It's all on the same fucking ship...
different decks maybe...
but the same vessel.... you
The problem you have in one area, on one deck...
affects the overall value of the entire ship.
One single load of craptastic energy keeps your ship from being pristine.
One single bad vibe horseshit issue you have in one of your relations...
makes the value of your entire ship decrease.
and you wonder why you are _____ (fill in the blank)
one of your decks need attention... and it may not be the one you are having issues with...
like with a leak!
if it leaking onto deck 7... it's not deck 7's fault, now is it?
it's that jackass deck 6
(I was conflicted on how ship decks are numbered... so I looked it up...
according to google... cruise ships are numbered from bottom to top...
however, spaceships are numbered from top to bottom...)
(thus, it is no surprise, I've chosen the spaceship numbering pattern... duh)
so go fix your shit... I mean ship.
~ this shouldn't be hard to understand
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so I haven't updated anyone on anything...
and that's the point.
HA!
but I have plans tomorrow...
lots of action based goodies
and I drew out this amazing piece of artwork, that I get to paint!
(yeah, it's for the art show.... but I luvs it)
and I'm pretty sure blueberry muffins must be birthed
hahaha....
there's soooo much I've done and have to do..
but I'm not gonna tell you!
Every bit of it makes me happy, so there's that...
and that's all that matters
I like doing rehabs... especially on starships!!
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“Drop the mind that thinks in prose; revive another kind of mind that thinks in poetry.
Put aside all your expertise in syllogism; let songs be your way of life.
Move from intellect to intuition, from the head to the heart, because the heart is closer to the mysteries.”
― Osho
it's like...
'Here...Imma throw all this magical wisdom at you and you're gonna try to catch as much as you can!'
and it laughs as you get smacked in the face with
POW!
something obvious... but isn't it always something obvious, once you SEE it!?
God, I love all these things so so so so so much!!
___________________________________
"The amount of chaos you allow in your life for your ideals is wild to me."
is it always a struggle to you?
who or what are you fighting against?
there is no enemy
____________________________________
Everything is energy.
Everything holds a value. A charge. A unit of that energy.
Every interaction, every action, every vibration...
is all determined by the relationship you hold with it.
Your relation with friends
your relation with family
your relation with money
your relation with work
your relation with fun
your relation with truth, or honesty, or work, or animals, or fun, or food, or weight, or height, or color, or age, or race, or spouse, or kids, or old people, or strangers, or bills, or whateverthefuck....
Relation-SHIP
It's all on the same fucking ship...
different decks maybe...
but the same vessel.... you
The problem you have in one area, on one deck...
affects the overall value of the entire ship.
One single load of craptastic energy keeps your ship from being pristine.
One single bad vibe horseshit issue you have in one of your relations...
makes the value of your entire ship decrease.
and you wonder why you are _____ (fill in the blank)
one of your decks need attention... and it may not be the one you are having issues with...
like with a leak!
if it leaking onto deck 7... it's not deck 7's fault, now is it?
it's that jackass deck 6
(I was conflicted on how ship decks are numbered... so I looked it up...
according to google... cruise ships are numbered from bottom to top...
however, spaceships are numbered from top to bottom...)
(thus, it is no surprise, I've chosen the spaceship numbering pattern... duh)
so go fix your shit... I mean ship.
~ this shouldn't be hard to understand
___________________________________
so I haven't updated anyone on anything...
and that's the point.
HA!
but I have plans tomorrow...
lots of action based goodies
and I drew out this amazing piece of artwork, that I get to paint!
(yeah, it's for the art show.... but I luvs it)
and I'm pretty sure blueberry muffins must be birthed
hahaha....
there's soooo much I've done and have to do..
but I'm not gonna tell you!
Every bit of it makes me happy, so there's that...
and that's all that matters
I like doing rehabs... especially on starships!!
__________________________________________
__________________________________________
__________________________________________
“Drop the mind that thinks in prose; revive another kind of mind that thinks in poetry.
Put aside all your expertise in syllogism; let songs be your way of life.
Move from intellect to intuition, from the head to the heart, because the heart is closer to the mysteries.”
― Osho
Friday, September 20, 2019
Yur(t) kidding, right?
You don't realize how vulnerable you are...
until you are being attacked
...whether intentionally or unintentionally
...but either way...
you can sacrifice yourself...
or choose not to.
and I choose not to
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_____________________________________________
so I live with a guru master who is most likely 7th di....maybe 8th
and me, who's 5th, maybe 6th...
is completely intrigued by all the things of the 7th and 8th
and completely unable to grasp and retain all the grandiose knowledge
that leaks out in slight increments from said guru master...
but I'm learning...
and Ego is having a fit about the slowness
and how forgetfulness shows up
but alas....
you haven't met Soul
and Soul keeps laughing...
every time we linger in heart space...
forgetting all the lower realms...
all the lower dimensions...
Soul laughs...
now whether it's in joy or some underlining of a coup....
is tbd
probably both...
Pisces sun, Scorpio Moon...
my life... in the depths
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_________
________
_______
______
_____
____
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__
_
private vacation..
perhaps solo
...
I also re-discovered these things....
like a yurt, but more affordable and easier (hahaha, sure it is..) to assemble
Glamping!!!
you just need a way to haul the parts and decor, eh
cause what good is it if it's 'just a tent' ?!
it needs a colorful rug..and a mattress... and all the other little luxuries
you probably won't really use... but it ties it all together...
______________
remember yesterday's rant...
it's over there in the archives... named 'what's the password?' ---->>>
...
get this...
some people just don't fucking take the hint
the same exact thing happened today...
and I swear if I hear that shit tomorrow...
something will die
and it won't be me
I am not the sacrifice...
however I will slay your ego without mercy...
be forewarned my friend
I've got some high vibes up in this kingdom
and ain't none of your filth coming in...
stop your knocking
like the song...
until you are being attacked
...whether intentionally or unintentionally
...but either way...
you can sacrifice yourself...
or choose not to.
and I choose not to
_________________________________
_______________________________________
_____________________________________________
so I live with a guru master who is most likely 7th di....maybe 8th
and me, who's 5th, maybe 6th...
is completely intrigued by all the things of the 7th and 8th
and completely unable to grasp and retain all the grandiose knowledge
that leaks out in slight increments from said guru master...
but I'm learning...
and Ego is having a fit about the slowness
and how forgetfulness shows up
but alas....
you haven't met Soul
and Soul keeps laughing...
every time we linger in heart space...
forgetting all the lower realms...
all the lower dimensions...
Soul laughs...
now whether it's in joy or some underlining of a coup....
is tbd
probably both...
Pisces sun, Scorpio Moon...
my life... in the depths
___________
__________
_________
________
_______
______
_____
____
___
__
_
private vacation..
perhaps solo
...
I also re-discovered these things....
like a yurt, but more affordable and easier (hahaha, sure it is..) to assemble
Glamping!!!
you just need a way to haul the parts and decor, eh
cause what good is it if it's 'just a tent' ?!
it needs a colorful rug..and a mattress... and all the other little luxuries
you probably won't really use... but it ties it all together...
______________
remember yesterday's rant...
it's over there in the archives... named 'what's the password?' ---->>>
...
get this...
some people just don't fucking take the hint
the same exact thing happened today...
and I swear if I hear that shit tomorrow...
something will die
and it won't be me
I am not the sacrifice...
however I will slay your ego without mercy...
be forewarned my friend
I've got some high vibes up in this kingdom
and ain't none of your filth coming in...
stop your knocking
like the song...
~ You better get back to your used-to-be
'Cause you're kinda love ain't good for me
I hear you knocking, but you can't come in
I hear you knocking, go back where you been ~
'Cause you're kinda love ain't good for me
I hear you knocking, but you can't come in
I hear you knocking, go back where you been ~
the 70's... ick... glad I skipped that mess <3
no really though... I'll drag you in...
but it's going to be painful until you surrender...
just sayin'
be forewarned my friend
I actually will sacrifice myself... a million times...
and that's what makes me crazy...
and worth it...
but I'm stronger than you...
and Soul devours ego's....
and yours is the only one out of line...
;)
remember that dream I wrote about.. about the sounds
the sounds that came from the center totem thing...
and echoed through the resonance chamber...
and all the others were either standing still...
confused,
or writhing in agony...
(cause we pushed the buttons too fast, thus raising vibrations too suddenly)
it's exactly like that...
dragging too fast, will hurt...
but you won't die..
it'll be supremely uncomfortable for a time...
but then you'll be with me...
once you acclimate...
and you'll see the amazing awesome things...
that I was telling you this whole time!
...
of course, I might not linger in that same vibe waiting...
and could change as well...
but still... there will be a time we can dance together..
in our yurt! <3
and then go take a dip in our pool! <3
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you know what I love
warm cool water...and sunshine
and cats
and the color black.... and FALL
tomorrow is the real first day of fall...
and I don't care what your calendar says
FALL!!!! Yay!
like death! and sleep! and warm sweaters! and earth colors!
and cats!
and fires! and snow...oops...no snow yet, that's winter
and blankets!
and leaves! and all the leaves from my trees that get all over the neighbors yards!!!
and stars!
and neptune!
and money!
and DisneyWorld!
and yurts! and airstreams! and colors! and all the things!
"Everything is taken care of."
(((words of wisdom I didn't have anywhere to put:
"Everything you are currently against blocks you from abundance.") Thursday, September 19, 2019
what's the password?
Rant ~
The boundary line.... just one...
is not drawn or made in sand
it's carved
like a mountain chain...
like a river...
all natural terrain to entice you to think before crossing
it's the gentlest way, my dear...
not a gate, or a wall, or a locked door...
no...
there's no building of barriers...
only reminders of what's already there
and you shall not pass...
not with those words
not with those actions
not with all those burdens
this kingdom is one of freedom
and magic
and possibilities
and unlimited means
all the things...
your filth will not be able to find it
until you wash yourself
...
...
the garden of Eden was hidden away...from sight...
it's a vibration
and won't find it with the load you carry
"You're too heavy for me."
___________________________________________
if you want to enter the kingdom...
surrender all that you carry
wash yourself
and rise...
____________
____________
____________
in other words... the failings of words...
threats will not be tolerated
low ass vibes or commentary will be denied access
feedback will be dismissed
have a good day
________________________________________________________________
The boundary line.... just one...
is not drawn or made in sand
it's carved
like a mountain chain...
like a river...
all natural terrain to entice you to think before crossing
it's the gentlest way, my dear...
not a gate, or a wall, or a locked door...
no...
there's no building of barriers...
only reminders of what's already there
and you shall not pass...
not with those words
not with those actions
not with all those burdens
this kingdom is one of freedom
and magic
and possibilities
and unlimited means
all the things...
your filth will not be able to find it
until you wash yourself
...
...
the garden of Eden was hidden away...from sight...
it's a vibration
and won't find it with the load you carry
"You're too heavy for me."
___________________________________________
if you want to enter the kingdom...
surrender all that you carry
wash yourself
and rise...
____________
____________
____________
in other words... the failings of words...
threats will not be tolerated
low ass vibes or commentary will be denied access
feedback will be dismissed
have a good day
________________________________________________________________
Wednesday, September 18, 2019
Never be enough
Stardust
a million stars...
a million wishes...
all the in-between is darkness
choose
_________________________________
I'm no longer available
...to share all the happenings...
but I can tease... and spill it all in words haphazardly on purpose...
words which are far too small to attain the meanings at which I sit
emergence
fear
iron
sunfire
capacity
the softness underneath the raging sea
power
soul
a falling out
a falling in
cradled
heartbeat
surrender
overcoming
dragonborne
breath
humming
those, but not those
tough and solid, malleable
a crying
a suffering
a willing
a coming
an owning
none of this means anything when you see the whole picture
it's like telling you where the water has been when you are swimming in the ocean
a clearing
a sounding
a movement
taking hold of the golden key and swallowing it...
bursting into a million stars that scatter like an explosion...
and all these are wishes coming true...
coming back together like the sands and like the rains
sometimes silence is the best method of communication...
ears perhaps, aren't meant to hear us all
they never could before... let's not assume they will now
and if eyes couldn't see... let's not assume they ever will...
alone is not a lonely road
it is all one
and only those who are part of that oneness will hear... will see...
everything else will fall into misunderstanding...
and I will not save you from it.
you forget who I am...
I did not come to bring understanding, or peace...
I've brought a sword, and a dragon...
and we can fly
(and totally burn the earth in fire!)
_____________
Think once on one decision... and GO!
The Universe likes speed.
and patience is the killer of all primed and ready powers...
Do the thing. DO IT!
Just do it!
why is there not a gif tab for this blog??? that would be so much easier!
I could talk in gif's all day!
a million stars...
a million wishes...
all the in-between is darkness
choose
_________________________________
I'm no longer available
...to share all the happenings...
but I can tease... and spill it all in words haphazardly on purpose...
words which are far too small to attain the meanings at which I sit
emergence
fear
iron
sunfire
capacity
the softness underneath the raging sea
power
soul
a falling out
a falling in
cradled
heartbeat
surrender
overcoming
dragonborne
breath
humming
those, but not those
tough and solid, malleable
a crying
a suffering
a willing
a coming
an owning
none of this means anything when you see the whole picture
it's like telling you where the water has been when you are swimming in the ocean
a clearing
a sounding
a movement
taking hold of the golden key and swallowing it...
bursting into a million stars that scatter like an explosion...
and all these are wishes coming true...
coming back together like the sands and like the rains
sometimes silence is the best method of communication...
ears perhaps, aren't meant to hear us all
they never could before... let's not assume they will now
and if eyes couldn't see... let's not assume they ever will...
alone is not a lonely road
it is all one
and only those who are part of that oneness will hear... will see...
everything else will fall into misunderstanding...
and I will not save you from it.
you forget who I am...
I did not come to bring understanding, or peace...
I've brought a sword, and a dragon...
and we can fly
(and totally burn the earth in fire!)
_____________
Think once on one decision... and GO!
The Universe likes speed.
and patience is the killer of all primed and ready powers...
Do the thing. DO IT!
Just do it!
why is there not a gif tab for this blog??? that would be so much easier!
I could talk in gif's all day!
Monday, September 16, 2019
I couldn't think of a better title
why do we forget who we are
where do those barriers and veils come from
why do they come
what is it that blinds us and blocks us from our true selves
fire
the sea
the howling wind
trembling earth
We will destroy whatever comes between me, myself, and I
we are all of creation
we are one
one
and desire brings us together
binds us, molds us, forms us into a single entity
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Desire = etymology speak = down star.
When you wish upon a star....
When you wish upon a star....
when you wish...upon a falling star....
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bunches of thoughts I could write about...
saying something, or saying nothing...
probably both failing...
there's some magic movement happening...
and I can't speak of it...
it all happens in the silence
there will be no breaking the silence that works perfectly without words...
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lol...so I have this 'I will actually pay her one day' coach...
and omg... I swear... if I just chat with her..
all the things align like nothing you've ever seen before...
because she's a perfect mirror for whatever I need to see/hear for myself...
and we will stay true to the path and know...
not with the mind... but with the soul...
because Soul won't forget... not even once...
"Tamed" is not a word we use to describe this kingdom.
We are Fire. We are the Sea. We are the howling Wind. We are the trembling Earth
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btw....
I started the outline for book 6!
like 7 pages of it O_O and that's just the beginning...
but I have to switch laptops and use my old one to write...
because windows 10 is a BITCH and wants me to sign in to microsoft..
but Noooo.... it won't connect for some reason....
and then it won't let me sign in, because that account is already used...
well, no fuck microsoft...! gah!!
why can't you just fucking work?
and stay working without having to sign in all the time...
I will not pay you for something I already own on the other computer!
but because it's not compatible for windows 10...you want me to buy it again...
um... no...
luckily my other laptop still works for anything except online stuff...too slow.
oh...and that Word program isn't snafu'd like the newer version...tyvm
and I suppose it keeps me on track since I don't have tabs open distracting me, haha
grateful, as usual...
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on a serious note...
I think humaning is not my gig
how awkward must one feel before removing themself from a particular situation...
where one doesn't seem too rude, or whatnot?
like... trying to be gentle and all...but dang... I just can't 'this type of people'
I can't SAY anything...cause obvious reasons...
and having to take baby gentle actions so as not to overly offend...
which will happen if not careful...
is completely in-fucking-sane
.
Like I'm trying to spare you from getting incinerated...
but you still get pissy if I singe you a tad...
YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA!!!
god, I hate people.
why did I come here again?????!!!!!
saving all my wild chaotic unruliness for something special I suppose
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where do those barriers and veils come from
why do they come
what is it that blinds us and blocks us from our true selves
fire
the sea
the howling wind
trembling earth
We will destroy whatever comes between me, myself, and I
we are all of creation
we are one
one
and desire brings us together
binds us, molds us, forms us into a single entity
_____
Desire = etymology speak = down star.
When you wish upon a star....
When you wish upon a star....
when you wish...upon a falling star....
_________
_________
________
bunches of thoughts I could write about...
saying something, or saying nothing...
probably both failing...
there's some magic movement happening...
and I can't speak of it...
it all happens in the silence
there will be no breaking the silence that works perfectly without words...
___
lol...so I have this 'I will actually pay her one day' coach...
and omg... I swear... if I just chat with her..
all the things align like nothing you've ever seen before...
because she's a perfect mirror for whatever I need to see/hear for myself...
and we will stay true to the path and know...
not with the mind... but with the soul...
because Soul won't forget... not even once...
"Tamed" is not a word we use to describe this kingdom.
We are Fire. We are the Sea. We are the howling Wind. We are the trembling Earth
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btw....
I started the outline for book 6!
like 7 pages of it O_O and that's just the beginning...
but I have to switch laptops and use my old one to write...
because windows 10 is a BITCH and wants me to sign in to microsoft..
but Noooo.... it won't connect for some reason....
and then it won't let me sign in, because that account is already used...
well, no fuck microsoft...! gah!!
why can't you just fucking work?
and stay working without having to sign in all the time...
I will not pay you for something I already own on the other computer!
but because it's not compatible for windows 10...you want me to buy it again...
um... no...
luckily my other laptop still works for anything except online stuff...too slow.
oh...and that Word program isn't snafu'd like the newer version...tyvm
and I suppose it keeps me on track since I don't have tabs open distracting me, haha
grateful, as usual...
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on a serious note...
I think humaning is not my gig
how awkward must one feel before removing themself from a particular situation...
where one doesn't seem too rude, or whatnot?
like... trying to be gentle and all...but dang... I just can't 'this type of people'
I can't SAY anything...cause obvious reasons...
and having to take baby gentle actions so as not to overly offend...
which will happen if not careful...
is completely in-fucking-sane
.
Like I'm trying to spare you from getting incinerated...
but you still get pissy if I singe you a tad...
YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA!!!
god, I hate people.
why did I come here again?????!!!!!
saving all my wild chaotic unruliness for something special I suppose
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When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires will come to you
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires will come to you
If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do
Fate is kind
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do
Fate is kind
Saturday, September 14, 2019
Howl. The earth moves.
The calendar said the full moon in Pisces was yesterday, or last night...at 12:30am EST
I don't know what google or certain websites say about the meaning of this...
because truthfully I find 99% of them off the mark...
(but I don't know what I'm talking about)
but what it 'means' isn't what you think it means...
So I already wrote about the chair....
and the mirror...
and there was a bunch today I received...
which, btw, I love receiving!
and Mind wants to play with these truths that came today...
even though I know it's going to be challenging for her...
...I will try to write this out...
but I can't bring words with me...they don't work where I'm going...
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Metichaiel
He's like light with gold...
there's a scepter of some sort he carries...
it has a planet on the tip that glows with bands of light that move around it...
like an armillary sphere...
almost exactly like that without the arrow, and a bigger planet/star in the center
He's been my guide lately, although we don't travel anywhere...
He's 'A casting light'... "Giver of clear sight."
and he's different than the others... younger...?
we've been having long conversations, but I don't always write them down...
today though... some new things came to the surface...or the deep?
things we...no, I ... am moving through...
and I always get that same question...
'Do you accept?'
and I don't know how to say, no....
so yeah... " I accept." the only bold thing that ever comes from these lips
and then all this...
with earth and trees, and roots and bones...
~ "The bones of Earth, and the flesh of truth of who you are.
Naked and bare.
It will be like the fall, and the bearing, the baring...
of what holds you upright and gives all that you are, strength." ~
and I can see the melting away of the coverings
and the Soul in the crispness of the birth
and these primal things that beat within the Earthly realms
heart beat and trees and roots and the standing of a god
what holds you up from the ground?
it was never the flesh, nor the skeletons, not even the heartbeating energy...
it was and is... the song
the movement of an arch from positive to negative.... like lightning...
vibration
electromagnetic static?
you are not what you think you are
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And the fall is coming... and the trees will sleep...
and if one was to learn about silence... the time would be upon us
So mote it be.
~ "If you can't say it in silence, there's no reason to say it in words. For Silence has always come first." ~
Oh, how this ruffles the Mind's feathers....
not even words can be heard half the time... how shall silence ever be received..?
and the trees...
if you can't hear them when they bloom.... what right do you have to hear them when they sleep?
(my god, I shall not recognize these words come tomorrow... are they even mine?)
how then, will I convey that which even words fail at?
~ "Speak yourself. Not in words, but in silence." ~
speak yourself... not the first time that phrase was given to me... not the first time...
and the trees... always speaking, just like the stars, like all the things...
and they are silent...or so it would seem...
but they tell us stories... all day... all day... they laugh, they sing... they know things...
they are speaking in their being...
'"The trees are not careful with their words... they are their words."
and I get thrown this analogy which we have all heard before...
'If a tree falls in the woods, and no one's around, does it make a sound?'
and some say, no, there's no receiver to interpret the sound vibrations...
some say yes, vibrations are made regardless whether it is received at all...
but...
~ "The tree itself knows. As do those that surround it.
Vibrations are not always interpreted by the sound the ears hear... but by the heart." ~
the fuck?
so when the trees speak... it is not received by the out of date 3d ears...
but by a better receiver... that interprets the vibrations a different way... yet still 'heard'.
the heart... or so I'm told
(((but fyi, you're heart is not in your chest....maybe I'll tell you about that adventure another time.
Or maybe I already have? "Your body is not what you see.", and "Your heart is not in your chest.")))
just some things I've 'heard' in the aether lands... *shrugs
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so this shit has got Mind in a frenzy of excitement
forget ESP and sixth sense phenomenon!
Is the heart an actual receptor, like the eyes, or ears, or skin, or tongue??
That would explain 'love'.
That would explain hearing trees 'talk'.
or for that matter everything.
...the... fuck...?
...
On the Dark Crystal series...
when Deet meets the tree thing... like episode 1 or 2...
and gets hurt or something by the narloc thing whatever...
and Deet wakes up.... and tells the others that the tree talked to her...
and they all gasp, and say "Trees don't talk!"
and the old sage lady stops, sighs, and says... "Trees don't talk.......until they do."
and she had that long pause int between those words...
Soul was having a field day with that. I laughed...
yep, all the goodness of the seven see's and the fortnight of a half a truffle
suckle upon the honey of the faithful and cradle those loyal to the guard
may you spring forth upon the meat of the dynasty
I don't know what google or certain websites say about the meaning of this...
because truthfully I find 99% of them off the mark...
(but I don't know what I'm talking about)
but what it 'means' isn't what you think it means...
So I already wrote about the chair....
and the mirror...
and there was a bunch today I received...
which, btw, I love receiving!
and Mind wants to play with these truths that came today...
even though I know it's going to be challenging for her...
...I will try to write this out...
but I can't bring words with me...they don't work where I'm going...
______
_______
__________
___________
Metichaiel
He's like light with gold...
there's a scepter of some sort he carries...
it has a planet on the tip that glows with bands of light that move around it...
like an armillary sphere...
almost exactly like that without the arrow, and a bigger planet/star in the center
He's been my guide lately, although we don't travel anywhere...
He's 'A casting light'... "Giver of clear sight."
and he's different than the others... younger...?
we've been having long conversations, but I don't always write them down...
today though... some new things came to the surface...or the deep?
things we...no, I ... am moving through...
and I always get that same question...
'Do you accept?'
and I don't know how to say, no....
so yeah... " I accept." the only bold thing that ever comes from these lips
and then all this...
with earth and trees, and roots and bones...
~ "The bones of Earth, and the flesh of truth of who you are.
Naked and bare.
It will be like the fall, and the bearing, the baring...
of what holds you upright and gives all that you are, strength." ~
and I can see the melting away of the coverings
and the Soul in the crispness of the birth
and these primal things that beat within the Earthly realms
heart beat and trees and roots and the standing of a god
what holds you up from the ground?
it was never the flesh, nor the skeletons, not even the heartbeating energy...
it was and is... the song
the movement of an arch from positive to negative.... like lightning...
vibration
electromagnetic static?
you are not what you think you are
___
___
___
And the fall is coming... and the trees will sleep...
and if one was to learn about silence... the time would be upon us
So mote it be.
~ "If you can't say it in silence, there's no reason to say it in words. For Silence has always come first." ~
Oh, how this ruffles the Mind's feathers....
not even words can be heard half the time... how shall silence ever be received..?
and the trees...
if you can't hear them when they bloom.... what right do you have to hear them when they sleep?
(my god, I shall not recognize these words come tomorrow... are they even mine?)
how then, will I convey that which even words fail at?
~ "Speak yourself. Not in words, but in silence." ~
speak yourself... not the first time that phrase was given to me... not the first time...
and the trees... always speaking, just like the stars, like all the things...
and they are silent...or so it would seem...
but they tell us stories... all day... all day... they laugh, they sing... they know things...
they are speaking in their being...
'"The trees are not careful with their words... they are their words."
and I get thrown this analogy which we have all heard before...
'If a tree falls in the woods, and no one's around, does it make a sound?'
and some say, no, there's no receiver to interpret the sound vibrations...
some say yes, vibrations are made regardless whether it is received at all...
but...
~ "The tree itself knows. As do those that surround it.
Vibrations are not always interpreted by the sound the ears hear... but by the heart." ~
the fuck?
so when the trees speak... it is not received by the out of date 3d ears...
but by a better receiver... that interprets the vibrations a different way... yet still 'heard'.
the heart... or so I'm told
(((but fyi, you're heart is not in your chest....maybe I'll tell you about that adventure another time.
Or maybe I already have? "Your body is not what you see.", and "Your heart is not in your chest.")))
just some things I've 'heard' in the aether lands... *shrugs
____
____
so this shit has got Mind in a frenzy of excitement
forget ESP and sixth sense phenomenon!
Is the heart an actual receptor, like the eyes, or ears, or skin, or tongue??
That would explain 'love'.
That would explain hearing trees 'talk'.
or for that matter everything.
...the... fuck...?
...
On the Dark Crystal series...
when Deet meets the tree thing... like episode 1 or 2...
and gets hurt or something by the narloc thing whatever...
and Deet wakes up.... and tells the others that the tree talked to her...
and they all gasp, and say "Trees don't talk!"
and the old sage lady stops, sighs, and says... "Trees don't talk.......until they do."
and she had that long pause int between those words...
Soul was having a field day with that. I laughed...
yep, all the goodness of the seven see's and the fortnight of a half a truffle
suckle upon the honey of the faithful and cradle those loyal to the guard
may you spring forth upon the meat of the dynasty
Friday, September 13, 2019
Stop trying to figure it out
What is up with the genies...
the djinn... the blue people...
there's one on the Dark Crystal series too...
and I'm thinking, why are Arabians always portrayed as blue?
then today, something about genes... ge-nes... genies... pops up on facebook...
ok...I'll humor this weird occurrence as something synchronized.. or orchestrated...
it'll help me procrastinate more, always a win for sure.
so Mind is having a good time swimming in all the puzzle pieces
that she's scattered haphazardly onto the floor...
and without any form of structure, she is trying to piece them together...
I'm frankly surprised she even found one match...
but I suppose, she is good at puzzles... sometimes too good...
how often does one look for a certain piece and then find it... even upside down?
well... anyway...
this will keep her distracted on some whirly-bird adventure for a time..
and all the while, Soul can do her work without Mind throwing a tantrum...
at least until she gets bored of the puzzle...*shrugs...
soo...something with genies/wishes/genes/and certainly dna...
that means proteins/electromagnetic waves/and blue...has something to do with something...
I'll let you know when Mind comes to some sort of conclusion...
most of the time the answer just kinda appears on it's own...
like finding the puzzle box and looking at the picture...
things are just easy like that.
of course Soul is smiling... cause she's sitting on the puzzle box...
but don't tell Mind that, we want her distracted while we go wreck some havoc of our own.
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there's a full moon in Pisces tonight...but my sky is all clouds...
art lion and joker ones done and sprayed...
dress cut out... will sew tomorrow...
nothing much else calls me to do except meditate and write...
and well... I'm here writing this blog... as a means to procrastinate really...
cause book 6... needs an outline? I suppose... do I ever outline?...hmmm...
I scribble a few sentences to basically say what happens when... but not a real outline..
I could go edit a script or something... that will take awhile...
I should go find some studios to query... for Victory and Laser Racers...
but have I?
no.
one: because I did do a search... the websites wanted a subscription and such...
two: when there's struggle and resistance... I call bullshit and cease and desist...
Soul will not have her kingdom wrought in slavery or struggle.
three: there's so much misinformation...I really don't care to involve myself in
it's like drama... and I don't do drama
I'll just post it online for free...and if someone steals it, that's fine.. I have the copyright.
I just want to watch them anyway.
facebook is rather boring...yet I just got lost on there for 30 minutes... damn..
it's like youtube... yesterday I watched a bunch of pregnancy reveal videos... ugh, kill me
and just now in the last hour...x factor auditions with arguing and crazy people from god knows when... fyi...don't bother... it was all bad
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Ego wants to write some stuff, but Soul is shaking her head no.
but she will let the reminder reveal itself instead...
...that we are not here to 'fix' what appears wrong...
remember.... we just need a new mirror
nothing is broken
not even yourself
<3
you don't even have to figure anything out...
"Everything is taken care of"
.... surrender ...
surrender etymology... in
sur= beyond render=restore
'beyond restoration'
or if you want to break it further...
sur=beyond ender= one at the conclusion/limit/boundary
'beyond the boundaries of self'
which is actually closer to the meaning I mean to convey
I should just speak in etymology... then maybe others might understand better...hmmm
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hmmm... there's something I want to describe, but there aren't any words capable of such
..bummer
the djinn... the blue people...
there's one on the Dark Crystal series too...
and I'm thinking, why are Arabians always portrayed as blue?
then today, something about genes... ge-nes... genies... pops up on facebook...
ok...I'll humor this weird occurrence as something synchronized.. or orchestrated...
it'll help me procrastinate more, always a win for sure.
so Mind is having a good time swimming in all the puzzle pieces
that she's scattered haphazardly onto the floor...
and without any form of structure, she is trying to piece them together...
I'm frankly surprised she even found one match...
but I suppose, she is good at puzzles... sometimes too good...
how often does one look for a certain piece and then find it... even upside down?
well... anyway...
this will keep her distracted on some whirly-bird adventure for a time..
and all the while, Soul can do her work without Mind throwing a tantrum...
at least until she gets bored of the puzzle...*shrugs...
soo...something with genies/wishes/genes/and certainly dna...
that means proteins/electromagnetic waves/and blue...has something to do with something...
I'll let you know when Mind comes to some sort of conclusion...
most of the time the answer just kinda appears on it's own...
like finding the puzzle box and looking at the picture...
things are just easy like that.
of course Soul is smiling... cause she's sitting on the puzzle box...
but don't tell Mind that, we want her distracted while we go wreck some havoc of our own.
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there's a full moon in Pisces tonight...but my sky is all clouds...
art lion and joker ones done and sprayed...
dress cut out... will sew tomorrow...
nothing much else calls me to do except meditate and write...
and well... I'm here writing this blog... as a means to procrastinate really...
cause book 6... needs an outline? I suppose... do I ever outline?...hmmm...
I scribble a few sentences to basically say what happens when... but not a real outline..
I could go edit a script or something... that will take awhile...
I should go find some studios to query... for Victory and Laser Racers...
but have I?
no.
one: because I did do a search... the websites wanted a subscription and such...
two: when there's struggle and resistance... I call bullshit and cease and desist...
Soul will not have her kingdom wrought in slavery or struggle.
three: there's so much misinformation...I really don't care to involve myself in
it's like drama... and I don't do drama
I'll just post it online for free...and if someone steals it, that's fine.. I have the copyright.
I just want to watch them anyway.
facebook is rather boring...yet I just got lost on there for 30 minutes... damn..
it's like youtube... yesterday I watched a bunch of pregnancy reveal videos... ugh, kill me
and just now in the last hour...x factor auditions with arguing and crazy people from god knows when... fyi...don't bother... it was all bad
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_
_
_
_
Ego wants to write some stuff, but Soul is shaking her head no.
but she will let the reminder reveal itself instead...
...that we are not here to 'fix' what appears wrong...
remember.... we just need a new mirror
nothing is broken
not even yourself
<3
you don't even have to figure anything out...
"Everything is taken care of"
.... surrender ...
surrender etymology... in
sur= beyond render=restore
'beyond restoration'
or if you want to break it further...
sur=beyond ender= one at the conclusion/limit/boundary
'beyond the boundaries of self'
which is actually closer to the meaning I mean to convey
I should just speak in etymology... then maybe others might understand better...hmmm
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hmmm... there's something I want to describe, but there aren't any words capable of such
..bummer
Thursday, September 12, 2019
You're in every song I hear...
May every road you take... always lead you home.
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Chiropractors can be rather awesome.
and inadvertently keep you from slouching the rest of the day
because things are straighter and not all funked up crooked like...
so comfort is easier to come by
and....
after a meditation on energetic minimums... revelations have come to the surface
and the kingdom has been rearranged and cleared out.
"There's only one chair here." Soul would say...
*as she also steps up and sits on the throne...
and Mind falls over gobsmacked in 'duh!'
and there will be no sharing of the universal kingdom for this spirit
Soul takes full responsibility now.
There will be no sharing.
Soul takes full monarchy now.
There will be no republic.
Soul will make all the decisions regarding the kingdom now.
There will be no council.
because...
The Universe doesn't just work through Soul....through you.
The Universe works AS Soul....AS you.
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and this is part of the promotion job requirements....
fyi... in case you ever decide to agree to some weird ass contract in the aether lands.
*shrugs
I don't know what I'm talking about ;)
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So the lion painting is done and got sprayed...and will get acrylic coating tomorrow...
Joker and Harley painting should be done tomorrow too...
Need to cut out a dress... which would be great if there wasn't a huge ass canvas in the way.
sew the dress...
prep another canvas for other art show stuff... not sure what I'll do next...
have Santa stuff to sew too...but that can be after the dress is done... so... Monday?
and...
wait for it...
Book 6!!! Eeeeek!
This thing is killing me in my head... it's a bit dark and sad...
and lovely and I just want to hang out with them...
so I might write it soon.
is it time yet? I usually get one done every other year...
last one was published in 2018...
so 2020 is the date...
and it's already September... so 3.5 months to go...
plenty of time to procrastinate!
and still publish it in 2020
not that there's ever procrastinating on writing the books... ever...
I procrastinate starting though... every time.... on every thing...
Haha! Truth
Like painting the hallway...
but buying 4 gallons of paint doesn't taste good in my mouth...
and anyway, my back was hurting...
and I'd have to drag the ladders into the house...
and at least four other excuses here ____, _____, _____,and ______.
but soon, I'm sure... waiting for that splurge of...
'this hallway will feel the bite of my wrath!'
and get it done in two days...
that's just how I roll
I'm always on time, not to worry
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I've already wrote...written..(?) too much without saying anything...except that first section...
the only 'real' stuff happening...
meditation... prompting of my 'coach I would love to throw money at'..
which also brought up a whole sackful of 'what the hell is this shit'...
but it definitely needed cleaned and cleared... so huzzah to the contrast and deep end healing
...what that all means or changes, who knows... but it needed seen and felt... soooo
I obliged.
ooh... it's 11:11pm...
like two doorways...
but there's one in the center... the one with the handles...
that's the only one that leads to where you want to go...
1 1:1 1
middle ground
center center enter enter
both worlds, both sides, both... like humpty dumpty...
which by now I've already told you that story twice on this blog...
so you should already know it...
the two become one....
the barzakh...
anyway... enough conspiracy theories for you today...
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book 6 - scene 212(?)
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"So who did you lie to?" Calynn asks him, now more relaxed and back to her normal smugness.
Kren stood silent, his lips unwilling to answer, considering who was standing beside him.
"He lied to me." I whisper.
Calynn's eyes shoot to me, surprised I even spoke. Perhaps more surprised my words weren't wrapped in an angry tone. She pauses, only to smirk a tad and huff a small laugh.
Kren looks my way.
"How long have you known?" He asks quietly.
I turn my head to him, his purple eyes contrasting with the orange sunset. I turn my body to face him and take a step closer to him.
"Since the words first fell from your lips." I say, keeping my stare.
His eyes flinch a tad as I step closer.
"But there's one problem." I mention.
He doesn't move, or maybe he can't, as I move face to face with him.
"It's not a lie anymore." I whisper.
Moisture coats his eyes in an instant as his breath stops.
I kiss him. Slowly. Intentionally. He breathes out as I pull away.
"Ew." Calynn breaks the silence.
Kren can't look away from me, but I turn my head to Calynn.
"You're just jealous you're not getting any." I say to her.
Her face drops from her smug grin to one of angry embarrassment. Ryvis snuffs a laugh and the rest of the others manage to keep their snickers to a minimum. I turn and head back inside, ignoring everyone standing on the balcony.
Tristan steps up beside Kren.
"Another chance to escape, and there you go and blow it." Tristan rolls his eyes and glances at Kren.
"Shut up, Calypsis." Kren tells him harshly.
...
...
_________________________
Chiropractors can be rather awesome.
and inadvertently keep you from slouching the rest of the day
because things are straighter and not all funked up crooked like...
so comfort is easier to come by
and....
after a meditation on energetic minimums... revelations have come to the surface
and the kingdom has been rearranged and cleared out.
"There's only one chair here." Soul would say...
*as she also steps up and sits on the throne...
and Mind falls over gobsmacked in 'duh!'
and there will be no sharing of the universal kingdom for this spirit
Soul takes full responsibility now.
There will be no sharing.
Soul takes full monarchy now.
There will be no republic.
Soul will make all the decisions regarding the kingdom now.
There will be no council.
because...
The Universe doesn't just work through Soul....through you.
The Universe works AS Soul....AS you.
_________
and this is part of the promotion job requirements....
fyi... in case you ever decide to agree to some weird ass contract in the aether lands.
*shrugs
I don't know what I'm talking about ;)
___________
___________
___________
So the lion painting is done and got sprayed...and will get acrylic coating tomorrow...
Joker and Harley painting should be done tomorrow too...
Need to cut out a dress... which would be great if there wasn't a huge ass canvas in the way.
sew the dress...
prep another canvas for other art show stuff... not sure what I'll do next...
have Santa stuff to sew too...but that can be after the dress is done... so... Monday?
and...
wait for it...
Book 6!!! Eeeeek!
This thing is killing me in my head... it's a bit dark and sad...
and lovely and I just want to hang out with them...
so I might write it soon.
is it time yet? I usually get one done every other year...
last one was published in 2018...
so 2020 is the date...
and it's already September... so 3.5 months to go...
plenty of time to procrastinate!
and still publish it in 2020
not that there's ever procrastinating on writing the books... ever...
I procrastinate starting though... every time.... on every thing...
Haha! Truth
Like painting the hallway...
but buying 4 gallons of paint doesn't taste good in my mouth...
and anyway, my back was hurting...
and I'd have to drag the ladders into the house...
and at least four other excuses here ____, _____, _____,and ______.
but soon, I'm sure... waiting for that splurge of...
'this hallway will feel the bite of my wrath!'
and get it done in two days...
that's just how I roll
I'm always on time, not to worry
________________
____________________
_________________________
I've already wrote...written..(?) too much without saying anything...except that first section...
the only 'real' stuff happening...
meditation... prompting of my 'coach I would love to throw money at'..
which also brought up a whole sackful of 'what the hell is this shit'...
but it definitely needed cleaned and cleared... so huzzah to the contrast and deep end healing
...what that all means or changes, who knows... but it needed seen and felt... soooo
I obliged.
ooh... it's 11:11pm...
like two doorways...
but there's one in the center... the one with the handles...
that's the only one that leads to where you want to go...
1 1:1 1
middle ground
center center enter enter
both worlds, both sides, both... like humpty dumpty...
which by now I've already told you that story twice on this blog...
so you should already know it...
the two become one....
the barzakh...
anyway... enough conspiracy theories for you today...
___________________________________________________
___________________________________________________
book 6 - scene 212(?)
...
...
"So who did you lie to?" Calynn asks him, now more relaxed and back to her normal smugness.
Kren stood silent, his lips unwilling to answer, considering who was standing beside him.
"He lied to me." I whisper.
Calynn's eyes shoot to me, surprised I even spoke. Perhaps more surprised my words weren't wrapped in an angry tone. She pauses, only to smirk a tad and huff a small laugh.
Kren looks my way.
"How long have you known?" He asks quietly.
I turn my head to him, his purple eyes contrasting with the orange sunset. I turn my body to face him and take a step closer to him.
"Since the words first fell from your lips." I say, keeping my stare.
His eyes flinch a tad as I step closer.
"But there's one problem." I mention.
He doesn't move, or maybe he can't, as I move face to face with him.
"It's not a lie anymore." I whisper.
Moisture coats his eyes in an instant as his breath stops.
I kiss him. Slowly. Intentionally. He breathes out as I pull away.
"Ew." Calynn breaks the silence.
Kren can't look away from me, but I turn my head to Calynn.
"You're just jealous you're not getting any." I say to her.
Her face drops from her smug grin to one of angry embarrassment. Ryvis snuffs a laugh and the rest of the others manage to keep their snickers to a minimum. I turn and head back inside, ignoring everyone standing on the balcony.
Tristan steps up beside Kren.
"Another chance to escape, and there you go and blow it." Tristan rolls his eyes and glances at Kren.
"Shut up, Calypsis." Kren tells him harshly.
...
...
Tuesday, September 10, 2019
Join the rebellion... go ALL IN
Where does one go to portray the wordings...
when everywhere eyes lurk about?
A simple place that's hard to find, but nowhere near impossible.
Where are the shadows when you are stricken with the light?
Where is the darkness when you can't even see it?
Hide me.
Looking for a place where my kind can dwell in peace...
where none other than myself can step upon...
A place hidden away from all the world and all the eyes...
where even voices and thoughts can not reach.
Stay away.
You are burdensome and loud and full of pain...
all that I do not want a share in.
Not even wanting your love or your whispers or your songs.
Release me.
___________________________
___________________________
I erased a whole 3 paragraphs or so...
you totally missed it
Movement you couldn't understand...
words falling short and failing to capture the essence of anything
a shame to send them out to bleed at the warfront...
when holding them close seems more comforting
it's the golden hour
and the night shifts close to the new day as the moon passes it's threshhold
tonight is when I shall summon the council
and even as I write here, unable to say much more...
I ask that you not hold judgement upon me
not today, not yesterday, not tomorrow...
for I hold none for you, nor could I ever.
these hands trembling in the cold damp darkness...
struggling to bring forth the fire...
begetting life within the mysteries, yet hidden from the masses...
I've claimed my throne
all hail our rising...
_________________________________________
_________________________________________
yeah, that ^^^ was a few days posts that didn't get anywhere
want another?
this time I actually have something to write about...
although I'm not positive that I have the same energy I did as when it first arose.
it's about the mirror I have downstairs
it's one of those taller ones...
but this one makes you appear thinner than in reality...which is nice and all
makes you look like other humans... tall and skinny..
not that I'm fat or super short... but a change in perspective is always nice
I'm not sure how it came to me... or what thoughts were running through my head at the time...
however, somehow the thing with the mirror...
and how it reflects back to you a higher value of some sort...
a higher worth...
a greater possibility and perspective...
an enhancement per se.... although it was always there...just now you can see it...
is exactly the problem we have when we relate to anything...
we only see our short fat selves...
in other words..
we only see our poorness... or brokeness... or lack... or limitations...
or hesitancy, or doubt, or ____________ fill in the blank...
but for god's sake...
you just need a better mirror
one that shows you taller and skinnier...
where we can see our value... our worth... our abundance.. our limitlessness
our clarity, and certainty, and confidence, and ___________ fill in the blank.
...
so this discussion Mind was having with itself...
remembered what Soul said... and remembered that there was no reason to choose...
to choose between this OR that.... here OR there... now OR later...
we get to have this AND that.... here AND there... now AND later....
We get to have it ALL
...
so this whole jump in the river kind of analogy....threw this in...for fun.
ALL IN
Stop wading....in the shallows...
Stop waiting... in the 'shall owes'...
one foot in, one foot out... neither hot nor cold... lukewarm
cowards that we are....
jump in...
go all in... wholly, fully, all of us... all parts of us...
both feet and your life too... into the 'deep ends'...
it all DEPENDS on you...
and BOOM! ... I didn't think that'd come out so amazing.
and... my 'I wish I could pay her' coach... helped solve this same perplexing dilemma...
not that she solved it...
but that when I chat with her, I solve it because of the prompts...
inadvertently usually probably... but still
Say "NO" without guilt... Say "YES" without fear.
because...
"Everything is taken care of."
All in.
________________________________
________________________________
may god have mercy on those around me that are easily triggered
________________________________
________________________________
...
I read some magazine article about spirit beings and djinns...
and I am honestly horrified that people who claim to be energy people..
or psychics... or whatever the fuck label they dance around with...
find themselves practiced enough to know, or to even share their so called 'expertise'
...... this article had so many obvious signs of 'this guy does not know what he's talking about'
all over the page.
I will mention the fact he even said 'I don't have much knowledge on this stuff I'm writing about.'
but yet, he sits there and writes out a 3 page article on things he can barely touch the surface on...
if anything I am triggered...
One....because even though spirit beings are something I converse with...
I would not sit there and write about how one kind of this or that is good or bad...because
Two.... I know the law of vibration...which this piss-ant obviously does not...
nor did it sound like he had any knowledge of such matters while he is supposedly
sharing about these beings (good) and entities...(which he deems 'bad')...
(obvious duality thought processing = lower vibration...and you shouldn't even be delving in such matters until you cleared your own filth first...)
and then he didn't even say anything about who they were, what they offered, why, or what, or how, or even if....
and for the love of all that is good.... stop writing about shit you know nothing about other than the shit you read off of google... IDIOT! The poor poor people who read that magazine... !!!
and Three....djinns are not evil entities, nor are they shadow people who crawl up the walls or stand in your bedroom at 3am...the fuck have you been drinking?
The only thing you can come in contact with that would be bad...is equal to your own lowest vibration. You are the mirror and the receiver of such energies... it is not bad...it is mirroring something inside of you that needs raised into a more beneficial vibration. This is the devil himself's job... yet you think it's all about him/them and their 'evilness'...
I'll even add that some other article I couldn't bare to read all of it explained how angels can't be seen... well, they can if you have a receiver that picks up images... you might only have an old AM radio, some people have am/fm radios..., but some people have box television sets... others HDMI Hi-def blu-ray LCD display systems....
stop telling people your lies
I've met angels... and they don't look human, some carry spears...or tridents...or swords...or scepters...or nothing at all... and seraphim...my god... not toys, not fancy I will make you feel all love and joy LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!! That is a big fat NO!
I've met other beings... and they don't look human either, lol... met one who looks like a demon...another with blue feathers...the old gods (planets) don't have images... Athena, Freya, ...they look like humans, but cooler *shrug
Christ... the highest vibrational being ever.... your possibility
God... energy... swirling light...with a never-ending consciousness... *shrugs... no explaining this ever
I've met a djinn before too...once... for what it's worth...he was actually blue....and he had gold jewelry on...(so maybe the Arabians knew something the article writer apparently lacks). He wasn't bad...but yeah, he felt kinda ...mmm... serious, not playing games or have time for nonsense?. I will say that he did not choose me... I was looking for a certain teacher and he was one of them called forth (by my guide at the time)... he declined to teach me and left... sooo *shrugs...
and for the sake of making my point...
everyone's world/experience/perceptions will be different...
there is not one way, certainly not my way either... mind your own path, yo
there are thousands of ways, like there are thousands of peoples...
but don't read stupid articles and believe things so blatantly naively...and don't ask google!
google is censored anyway....
better yet, stay out of the wilderness... it's 'bad' for you LOL
or
be
a
rebel
______________________________
____________________________________
__________________________________________
when everywhere eyes lurk about?
A simple place that's hard to find, but nowhere near impossible.
Where are the shadows when you are stricken with the light?
Where is the darkness when you can't even see it?
Hide me.
Looking for a place where my kind can dwell in peace...
where none other than myself can step upon...
A place hidden away from all the world and all the eyes...
where even voices and thoughts can not reach.
Stay away.
You are burdensome and loud and full of pain...
all that I do not want a share in.
Not even wanting your love or your whispers or your songs.
Release me.
___________________________
___________________________
I erased a whole 3 paragraphs or so...
you totally missed it
Movement you couldn't understand...
words falling short and failing to capture the essence of anything
a shame to send them out to bleed at the warfront...
when holding them close seems more comforting
it's the golden hour
and the night shifts close to the new day as the moon passes it's threshhold
tonight is when I shall summon the council
and even as I write here, unable to say much more...
I ask that you not hold judgement upon me
not today, not yesterday, not tomorrow...
for I hold none for you, nor could I ever.
these hands trembling in the cold damp darkness...
struggling to bring forth the fire...
begetting life within the mysteries, yet hidden from the masses...
I've claimed my throne
all hail our rising...
_________________________________________
_________________________________________
yeah, that ^^^ was a few days posts that didn't get anywhere
want another?
this time I actually have something to write about...
although I'm not positive that I have the same energy I did as when it first arose.
it's about the mirror I have downstairs
it's one of those taller ones...
but this one makes you appear thinner than in reality...which is nice and all
makes you look like other humans... tall and skinny..
not that I'm fat or super short... but a change in perspective is always nice
I'm not sure how it came to me... or what thoughts were running through my head at the time...
however, somehow the thing with the mirror...
and how it reflects back to you a higher value of some sort...
a higher worth...
a greater possibility and perspective...
an enhancement per se.... although it was always there...just now you can see it...
is exactly the problem we have when we relate to anything...
we only see our short fat selves...
in other words..
we only see our poorness... or brokeness... or lack... or limitations...
or hesitancy, or doubt, or ____________ fill in the blank...
but for god's sake...
you just need a better mirror
one that shows you taller and skinnier...
where we can see our value... our worth... our abundance.. our limitlessness
our clarity, and certainty, and confidence, and ___________ fill in the blank.
...
so this discussion Mind was having with itself...
remembered what Soul said... and remembered that there was no reason to choose...
to choose between this OR that.... here OR there... now OR later...
we get to have this AND that.... here AND there... now AND later....
We get to have it ALL
...
so this whole jump in the river kind of analogy....threw this in...for fun.
ALL IN
Stop wading....in the shallows...
Stop waiting... in the 'shall owes'...
one foot in, one foot out... neither hot nor cold... lukewarm
cowards that we are....
jump in...
go all in... wholly, fully, all of us... all parts of us...
both feet and your life too... into the 'deep ends'...
it all DEPENDS on you...
and BOOM! ... I didn't think that'd come out so amazing.
and... my 'I wish I could pay her' coach... helped solve this same perplexing dilemma...
not that she solved it...
but that when I chat with her, I solve it because of the prompts...
inadvertently usually probably... but still
Say "NO" without guilt... Say "YES" without fear.
because...
"Everything is taken care of."
All in.
________________________________
________________________________
may god have mercy on those around me that are easily triggered
________________________________
________________________________
...
I read some magazine article about spirit beings and djinns...
and I am honestly horrified that people who claim to be energy people..
or psychics... or whatever the fuck label they dance around with...
find themselves practiced enough to know, or to even share their so called 'expertise'
...... this article had so many obvious signs of 'this guy does not know what he's talking about'
all over the page.
I will mention the fact he even said 'I don't have much knowledge on this stuff I'm writing about.'
but yet, he sits there and writes out a 3 page article on things he can barely touch the surface on...
if anything I am triggered...
One....because even though spirit beings are something I converse with...
I would not sit there and write about how one kind of this or that is good or bad...because
Two.... I know the law of vibration...which this piss-ant obviously does not...
nor did it sound like he had any knowledge of such matters while he is supposedly
sharing about these beings (good) and entities...(which he deems 'bad')...
(obvious duality thought processing = lower vibration...and you shouldn't even be delving in such matters until you cleared your own filth first...)
and then he didn't even say anything about who they were, what they offered, why, or what, or how, or even if....
and for the love of all that is good.... stop writing about shit you know nothing about other than the shit you read off of google... IDIOT! The poor poor people who read that magazine... !!!
and Three....djinns are not evil entities, nor are they shadow people who crawl up the walls or stand in your bedroom at 3am...the fuck have you been drinking?
The only thing you can come in contact with that would be bad...is equal to your own lowest vibration. You are the mirror and the receiver of such energies... it is not bad...it is mirroring something inside of you that needs raised into a more beneficial vibration. This is the devil himself's job... yet you think it's all about him/them and their 'evilness'...
I'll even add that some other article I couldn't bare to read all of it explained how angels can't be seen... well, they can if you have a receiver that picks up images... you might only have an old AM radio, some people have am/fm radios..., but some people have box television sets... others HDMI Hi-def blu-ray LCD display systems....
stop telling people your lies
I've met angels... and they don't look human, some carry spears...or tridents...or swords...or scepters...or nothing at all... and seraphim...my god... not toys, not fancy I will make you feel all love and joy LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!! That is a big fat NO!
I've met other beings... and they don't look human either, lol... met one who looks like a demon...another with blue feathers...the old gods (planets) don't have images... Athena, Freya, ...they look like humans, but cooler *shrug
Christ... the highest vibrational being ever.... your possibility
God... energy... swirling light...with a never-ending consciousness... *shrugs... no explaining this ever
I've met a djinn before too...once... for what it's worth...he was actually blue....and he had gold jewelry on...(so maybe the Arabians knew something the article writer apparently lacks). He wasn't bad...but yeah, he felt kinda ...mmm... serious, not playing games or have time for nonsense?. I will say that he did not choose me... I was looking for a certain teacher and he was one of them called forth (by my guide at the time)... he declined to teach me and left... sooo *shrugs...
and for the sake of making my point...
everyone's world/experience/perceptions will be different...
there is not one way, certainly not my way either... mind your own path, yo
there are thousands of ways, like there are thousands of peoples...
but don't read stupid articles and believe things so blatantly naively...and don't ask google!
google is censored anyway....
better yet, stay out of the wilderness... it's 'bad' for you LOL
or
be
a
rebel
______________________________
____________________________________
__________________________________________
Thursday, September 5, 2019
A day in the life...
I'm not sure why I haven't visited here lately and wrote something.
Whether or not it will be something deep or otherworldly or...
any bit helpful at all...is tbd.
It's fascinating actually.
I'm happy to write nothing or something.
and I would like to start on my book... but I still don't have a first sentence...
and I'm still lingering with my MC.... she is not happy right now...
and I don't feel like spending time with her just yet, lol.
I kinda like my current vibe and no need to litter it with imaginary book characters
and all their problems they seem to run into.
Don't get me wrong, I *like my book characters...
but they get all bent out of shape in book 6... pssh... drama.
I am spending time painting...
art piece... one way too big as is the usual.
it's for the art showcase thing in October...
and maybe someone will buy it... and if not, I have a wall for it. ;)
it's not done yet, and might get done .... not this week...
it might be 1/3 kinda done... kinda...
there's paint all over it, let's say that... but layers...multiple layers... still on the agenda
So I haven't sold or even gotten any questions on my biz page...
and that's actually perfect....
whatever feelings I used to have regarding selling...or especially not selling...
are no longer there...
so that 18 months off really cleared my aura of some bullshit attachments.
This has also defined for me that this is definitely not a 10.
but complete and finished in it's rightful sense without any negative leftovers...
perfection.
I did pull out the 'Mom' card today....
and used it...
the youngest got dealt some 'rules' (GASP!) for the whole week....
(I find it intriguing that I haven't gotten any kickback from this besides a random comment.)
the oldest got a subtle lesson in cool-headedness and emotional control...
(now whether that sank in or not is also tbd.... but good lord, I don't 'do' drama in real life)
__________________________
___________________________
well....
what to write about tonight?......
...
...
...
all the wonderful things??
but then you would think I'm going crazy....
(short answer, hell yes I am!)
all the things to come??
but then if I tell you it will lesson the impact later.....
(short answer, hell no I won't!)
....
someone mentioned the 'galactic council' yesterday....
and I'm wondering if it's the same people I refer to as 'the council'.
those aether world beings who like to give you a hard time and check in with your advancement...
or whatever they do....
I don't deal with them anymore though... I got promoted!
I bet they still keep an eye on me....hmmmm.... I'll have to check
...this same person also has had encounters with angels and such...
and this makes it seem refreshing that I'm not the only one in today's world....
and I wish I could listen to his youtube videos... but they are long and boring....
I'm just not able to as of right now... lol.
maybe some other time...
I used to not be able to stand the person I've been listening to lately.... voice was too loud...
too screechy.... but I can now.... so maybe I can listen to this guy later.
...
you know...I had a revisiting memory with that council today...
in that dream, where I wasn't supposed to tell this guy how to solve all his problems...
''because he needed to learn for himself'' ...
and he found a step in the right direction and was relieved a bit...
but anyway... that dream memory came up while dealing with the oldest and their
horrific debilitating dilemma that was the end of the world today...
and how we aren't supposed to 'fix' other people's problems...
we can only guide... otherwise they won't really learn the lesson they need...
and I totally said that too.... out loud, yo.
...
but alas.... I got called a sociopath for not joining the freak-out club....
and heaven forbid if I believe everything will work out! Gasp!
Life goals, yo.
(I totally love this kid for affirming where I stand in regards to my alignment <3 )
(*Soul nods in approval)
(*I don't think it means what you think it means...)
(I don't 'do' labels either, yo.)
...
anyway.... daddy is the fixer and so they fed off each other's freak-out vibes...
and I maintained a rather decent boundary field.... and decided that not giving a fuck...
actually does work.
daddy fixed and the oldest chilled out....
and the only casualty of the day was the youngest...
because my vibe wasn't going to put up with that shit either....
(and for the record, I didn't fix...I informed and expected compliance)
(which I got... *too easily... and omg, I'm just loving this kid! <3 )
(is there a catch I need to be concerned about???)
____
ANYWAY.....
reading a book right now....so gonna go do that!
beware of the pumpkin spice lattes and the jagged rib-eye tigers...they like to have orgies in bushes and pee in the tea canisters... be sure to wash your hands after petting the star bucks and the moon does... there's no telling where those things have been.
Whether or not it will be something deep or otherworldly or...
any bit helpful at all...is tbd.
It's fascinating actually.
I'm happy to write nothing or something.
and I would like to start on my book... but I still don't have a first sentence...
and I'm still lingering with my MC.... she is not happy right now...
and I don't feel like spending time with her just yet, lol.
I kinda like my current vibe and no need to litter it with imaginary book characters
and all their problems they seem to run into.
Don't get me wrong, I *like my book characters...
but they get all bent out of shape in book 6... pssh... drama.
I am spending time painting...
art piece... one way too big as is the usual.
it's for the art showcase thing in October...
and maybe someone will buy it... and if not, I have a wall for it. ;)
it's not done yet, and might get done .... not this week...
it might be 1/3 kinda done... kinda...
there's paint all over it, let's say that... but layers...multiple layers... still on the agenda
So I haven't sold or even gotten any questions on my biz page...
and that's actually perfect....
whatever feelings I used to have regarding selling...or especially not selling...
are no longer there...
so that 18 months off really cleared my aura of some bullshit attachments.
This has also defined for me that this is definitely not a 10.
but complete and finished in it's rightful sense without any negative leftovers...
perfection.
I did pull out the 'Mom' card today....
and used it...
the youngest got dealt some 'rules' (GASP!) for the whole week....
(I find it intriguing that I haven't gotten any kickback from this besides a random comment.)
the oldest got a subtle lesson in cool-headedness and emotional control...
(now whether that sank in or not is also tbd.... but good lord, I don't 'do' drama in real life)
__________________________
___________________________
well....
what to write about tonight?......
...
...
...
all the wonderful things??
but then you would think I'm going crazy....
(short answer, hell yes I am!)
all the things to come??
but then if I tell you it will lesson the impact later.....
(short answer, hell no I won't!)
....
someone mentioned the 'galactic council' yesterday....
and I'm wondering if it's the same people I refer to as 'the council'.
those aether world beings who like to give you a hard time and check in with your advancement...
or whatever they do....
I don't deal with them anymore though... I got promoted!
I bet they still keep an eye on me....hmmmm.... I'll have to check
...this same person also has had encounters with angels and such...
and this makes it seem refreshing that I'm not the only one in today's world....
and I wish I could listen to his youtube videos... but they are long and boring....
I'm just not able to as of right now... lol.
maybe some other time...
I used to not be able to stand the person I've been listening to lately.... voice was too loud...
too screechy.... but I can now.... so maybe I can listen to this guy later.
...
you know...I had a revisiting memory with that council today...
in that dream, where I wasn't supposed to tell this guy how to solve all his problems...
''because he needed to learn for himself'' ...
and he found a step in the right direction and was relieved a bit...
but anyway... that dream memory came up while dealing with the oldest and their
horrific debilitating dilemma that was the end of the world today...
and how we aren't supposed to 'fix' other people's problems...
we can only guide... otherwise they won't really learn the lesson they need...
and I totally said that too.... out loud, yo.
...
but alas.... I got called a sociopath for not joining the freak-out club....
and heaven forbid if I believe everything will work out! Gasp!
Life goals, yo.
(I totally love this kid for affirming where I stand in regards to my alignment <3 )
(*Soul nods in approval)
(*I don't think it means what you think it means...)
(I don't 'do' labels either, yo.)
...
anyway.... daddy is the fixer and so they fed off each other's freak-out vibes...
and I maintained a rather decent boundary field.... and decided that not giving a fuck...
actually does work.
daddy fixed and the oldest chilled out....
and the only casualty of the day was the youngest...
because my vibe wasn't going to put up with that shit either....
(and for the record, I didn't fix...I informed and expected compliance)
(which I got... *too easily... and omg, I'm just loving this kid! <3 )
(is there a catch I need to be concerned about???)
____
ANYWAY.....
reading a book right now....so gonna go do that!
beware of the pumpkin spice lattes and the jagged rib-eye tigers...they like to have orgies in bushes and pee in the tea canisters... be sure to wash your hands after petting the star bucks and the moon does... there's no telling where those things have been.
Monday, September 2, 2019
....what
Remember those times when you get upgrades and updates...
and all the old software programs start locking up and crashing...
...
but you forgot where you installed the new applications...
so you try to use the old one, but now it doesn't work correctly...
and you have to search through the recently downloaded folder to find what you're looking for
and then reinstall, just so you can be sure to add a shortcut link to your desktop...
...
but this isn't about computers and software...
this is about all your fucking knowledge and wisdom and insights that are a junk of fumbled mess...
you know you have all the new shit that you need...
but where it is...
and how the hell to use it...
oy vey
it's like Poser.
Or Photoshop.
Renderman...or a Nikon D5000
or Windows 10
...
you know how to use all the basic shit.... easy, right...
but you can do so much more...
but youtube hasn't got the tutorials, and google doesn't know what you mean....
and user manuals are obsolete...and all the teachers are dead (literately)
...
geez...
it's like trying to find tutorials on a Nagoya Harp!!
which I now own ;)
and all the old software programs start locking up and crashing...
...
but you forgot where you installed the new applications...
so you try to use the old one, but now it doesn't work correctly...
and you have to search through the recently downloaded folder to find what you're looking for
and then reinstall, just so you can be sure to add a shortcut link to your desktop...
...
but this isn't about computers and software...
this is about all your fucking knowledge and wisdom and insights that are a junk of fumbled mess...
you know you have all the new shit that you need...
but where it is...
and how the hell to use it...
oy vey
it's like Poser.
Or Photoshop.
Renderman...or a Nikon D5000
or Windows 10
...
you know how to use all the basic shit.... easy, right...
but you can do so much more...
but youtube hasn't got the tutorials, and google doesn't know what you mean....
and user manuals are obsolete...and all the teachers are dead (literately)
...
geez...
it's like trying to find tutorials on a Nagoya Harp!!
which I now own ;)
Sunday, September 1, 2019
Follow your dreams...
I had a dream the other night...
Me and other people were checking out some ancient ruins.
This one room was circular, built of stones, with levels built around the inside...
they looked like amphitheater seating...
in the center of this room was a stone pillar like thing that had a carving on it.
Not sure what it was, but it had an open mouth...it was hollow and the whole pillar was hollow
We found some small triangle devices (they were tech looking)
and they would beep when pressed...
but I remembered...
"oh yeah...you have to press them in order!"
So we did, they had tones that raised in pitch in the correct order...
the whole room started to echo out sound and vibrate...out of the hollow pillar in the center with the open mouth carving.
some of the other people around the room fell down in agony, while others just stood in awe...
I remembered that we should have pressed the devices in a slower manner to raise the tones slower....
but it was too late... more people fell to the ground and started writhing in pain and disorientation...
others were trying to flee the room...some were still standing...
then my third-eye chakra started vibrating with the tone and I couldn't do anything other than let it.
...then I remembered,,, 'oh...this is one of those healing sound chambers, duh. We totally shouldn't have pressed the devices so fast.'
then it stopped (I think one guy covered the pillar's mouth, lol!)
and people were trying to get back on their feet, some were crying, some were intriguingly calm.
I knew the ones who were struggling did so because the lower tones weren't healed enough for them to raise to the higher tones just yet, so it did cause them suffering, and would until their lower aspects were done healing. Everyone began leaving.
The guy who had the devices came over to me and handed me all 4 of them.
He said. "You should hide these and put them away. It's not safe to use them right now because we do not know what we are doing. Probably should split them up too, just incase."
I took them and began putting them in my bag in separate pockets, trying to think where in 'time' I would 'hide' them?? ... and then I remembered...
'This is a healing room...these devices are linked to the specific tone that coordinates with an aspect of physical human beings. It tunes that part into perfection and then the next device moves to a higher tone to heal the next layer, the next part, the next aspect, until all 4 parts of the person are healed.
The room is built circular so the vibration echos back with constructive interference and amplifies the properties and is able to move through the physical body to all the cells within it.'
and then I woke up.
....
and I think all of that is true... on some level...
people do use tones and sound healing, but they are lacking the constructive wave interference that can reach deep into the tissues and cells of matter....
the ancients weren't stupid... they have this knowledge, they have this tech... the schematics and design and structures and information is all available.... it's there... right where they left it.
Ask yourself... then... Whose keeping it from us now?
Or was the information in fact, hidden in separate places/times....?
...just sayin'...
someone should totally look into that
______________________________
___________________________
_____________________
Today was epiphany day! Hooray!
ok, it was 3 of them! I am so lucky!
First:
The thought that it takes time to change your vibration and move to this or that vibration....
DOH! Um, hello in there *knock knock on the skull
Changing vibration isn't a practice and a hike in the woods....
Changing vibration is changing the fucking channel.... like in the blink of an eye.
Like pressing the button, and WAHLAH! Hello new world!
I'm not sure where the hell I dropped that during my hike... but I feel foolish not seeing that it was missing in the first damn place.
So clarity, yo!
Cause alignment... and I walked straight into that shit and do not want to leave!
Second:
Ahhh.... like a rain shower in the dessert...
Like a warm blanket placed around your shoulders...
Provision = Embodiment = Love = Fuck everything else.
Being cared for and supported and completely provided for....
There is a 'you' that knows nothing but complete support....
and your only job is to receive yourself... the you who has the knowing of that support/provision.
You can tune into that you...
then become them...er, I mean you...
Third:
these words...
"You're too heavy for me."
.... and all the obvious things weighing you down are wanting to be released as fast as possible...
because nothing is more important than that connection with Soul.
...and I won't be her anchor...
_________________
_______________________
_____________________________
___________________________________
_________________________________________
There's a temple where the seers are taken on the full moon when they are initiated.
This round temple stands with the tall pillars and the ceiling is the sky...
The moon lines up perfectly within the center and illuminates the entire temple.
The light reflects off the pillars and even the floor and everything becomes aglow
They call this the Temple of the Rising.
Silently, each seer is escorted by a single guard up the trail that leads to there.
It sits upon a hill that is covered in wildflowers and willow grass, with only an archway as one begins the walk up the path.
The initiate wears a cloak, in the color of their gift. A hood covering their head.
A gold clasp in front with intricate gold leaves with far too much detail.
The guard stops at the temple's entrance as the seer continues within.
...
and it glows... and the wind, and the flowers, and the voices, and the breath.
the guard outside kneels in silence, his head bowed...
and all the stars... and the moon...
all given freely, and in abundance, forevermore....
_____
___
___
___
___
___
repeat....
all given freely, and in abundance, forevermore....
forevermore
Me and other people were checking out some ancient ruins.
This one room was circular, built of stones, with levels built around the inside...
they looked like amphitheater seating...
in the center of this room was a stone pillar like thing that had a carving on it.
Not sure what it was, but it had an open mouth...it was hollow and the whole pillar was hollow
We found some small triangle devices (they were tech looking)
and they would beep when pressed...
but I remembered...
"oh yeah...you have to press them in order!"
So we did, they had tones that raised in pitch in the correct order...
the whole room started to echo out sound and vibrate...out of the hollow pillar in the center with the open mouth carving.
some of the other people around the room fell down in agony, while others just stood in awe...
I remembered that we should have pressed the devices in a slower manner to raise the tones slower....
but it was too late... more people fell to the ground and started writhing in pain and disorientation...
others were trying to flee the room...some were still standing...
then my third-eye chakra started vibrating with the tone and I couldn't do anything other than let it.
...then I remembered,,, 'oh...this is one of those healing sound chambers, duh. We totally shouldn't have pressed the devices so fast.'
then it stopped (I think one guy covered the pillar's mouth, lol!)
and people were trying to get back on their feet, some were crying, some were intriguingly calm.
I knew the ones who were struggling did so because the lower tones weren't healed enough for them to raise to the higher tones just yet, so it did cause them suffering, and would until their lower aspects were done healing. Everyone began leaving.
The guy who had the devices came over to me and handed me all 4 of them.
He said. "You should hide these and put them away. It's not safe to use them right now because we do not know what we are doing. Probably should split them up too, just incase."
I took them and began putting them in my bag in separate pockets, trying to think where in 'time' I would 'hide' them?? ... and then I remembered...
'This is a healing room...these devices are linked to the specific tone that coordinates with an aspect of physical human beings. It tunes that part into perfection and then the next device moves to a higher tone to heal the next layer, the next part, the next aspect, until all 4 parts of the person are healed.
The room is built circular so the vibration echos back with constructive interference and amplifies the properties and is able to move through the physical body to all the cells within it.'
and then I woke up.
....
and I think all of that is true... on some level...
people do use tones and sound healing, but they are lacking the constructive wave interference that can reach deep into the tissues and cells of matter....
the ancients weren't stupid... they have this knowledge, they have this tech... the schematics and design and structures and information is all available.... it's there... right where they left it.
Ask yourself... then... Whose keeping it from us now?
Or was the information in fact, hidden in separate places/times....?
...just sayin'...
someone should totally look into that
______________________________
___________________________
_____________________
Today was epiphany day! Hooray!
ok, it was 3 of them! I am so lucky!
First:
The thought that it takes time to change your vibration and move to this or that vibration....
DOH! Um, hello in there *knock knock on the skull
Changing vibration isn't a practice and a hike in the woods....
Changing vibration is changing the fucking channel.... like in the blink of an eye.
Like pressing the button, and WAHLAH! Hello new world!
I'm not sure where the hell I dropped that during my hike... but I feel foolish not seeing that it was missing in the first damn place.
So clarity, yo!
Cause alignment... and I walked straight into that shit and do not want to leave!
Second:
Ahhh.... like a rain shower in the dessert...
Like a warm blanket placed around your shoulders...
Provision = Embodiment = Love = Fuck everything else.
Being cared for and supported and completely provided for....
There is a 'you' that knows nothing but complete support....
and your only job is to receive yourself... the you who has the knowing of that support/provision.
You can tune into that you...
then become them...er, I mean you...
Third:
these words...
"You're too heavy for me."
.... and all the obvious things weighing you down are wanting to be released as fast as possible...
because nothing is more important than that connection with Soul.
...and I won't be her anchor...
_________________
_______________________
_____________________________
___________________________________
_________________________________________
There's a temple where the seers are taken on the full moon when they are initiated.
This round temple stands with the tall pillars and the ceiling is the sky...
The moon lines up perfectly within the center and illuminates the entire temple.
The light reflects off the pillars and even the floor and everything becomes aglow
They call this the Temple of the Rising.
Silently, each seer is escorted by a single guard up the trail that leads to there.
It sits upon a hill that is covered in wildflowers and willow grass, with only an archway as one begins the walk up the path.
The initiate wears a cloak, in the color of their gift. A hood covering their head.
A gold clasp in front with intricate gold leaves with far too much detail.
The guard stops at the temple's entrance as the seer continues within.
...
and it glows... and the wind, and the flowers, and the voices, and the breath.
the guard outside kneels in silence, his head bowed...
and all the stars... and the moon...
all given freely, and in abundance, forevermore....
_____
___
___
___
___
___
repeat....
all given freely, and in abundance, forevermore....
forevermore
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