I'm not sure why I haven't visited here lately and wrote something.
Whether or not it will be something deep or otherworldly or...
any bit helpful at all...is tbd.
It's fascinating actually.
I'm happy to write nothing or something.
and I would like to start on my book... but I still don't have a first sentence...
and I'm still lingering with my MC.... she is not happy right now...
and I don't feel like spending time with her just yet, lol.
I kinda like my current vibe and no need to litter it with imaginary book characters
and all their problems they seem to run into.
Don't get me wrong, I *like my book characters...
but they get all bent out of shape in book 6... pssh... drama.
I am spending time painting...
art piece... one way too big as is the usual.
it's for the art showcase thing in October...
and maybe someone will buy it... and if not, I have a wall for it. ;)
it's not done yet, and might get done .... not this week...
it might be 1/3 kinda done... kinda...
there's paint all over it, let's say that... but layers...multiple layers... still on the agenda
So I haven't sold or even gotten any questions on my biz page...
and that's actually perfect....
whatever feelings I used to have regarding selling...or especially not selling...
are no longer there...
so that 18 months off really cleared my aura of some bullshit attachments.
This has also defined for me that this is definitely not a 10.
but complete and finished in it's rightful sense without any negative leftovers...
perfection.
I did pull out the 'Mom' card today....
and used it...
the youngest got dealt some 'rules' (GASP!) for the whole week....
(I find it intriguing that I haven't gotten any kickback from this besides a random comment.)
the oldest got a subtle lesson in cool-headedness and emotional control...
(now whether that sank in or not is also tbd.... but good lord, I don't 'do' drama in real life)
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well....
what to write about tonight?......
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...
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all the wonderful things??
but then you would think I'm going crazy....
(short answer, hell yes I am!)
all the things to come??
but then if I tell you it will lesson the impact later.....
(short answer, hell no I won't!)
....
someone mentioned the 'galactic council' yesterday....
and I'm wondering if it's the same people I refer to as 'the council'.
those aether world beings who like to give you a hard time and check in with your advancement...
or whatever they do....
I don't deal with them anymore though... I got promoted!
I bet they still keep an eye on me....hmmmm.... I'll have to check
...this same person also has had encounters with angels and such...
and this makes it seem refreshing that I'm not the only one in today's world....
and I wish I could listen to his youtube videos... but they are long and boring....
I'm just not able to as of right now... lol.
maybe some other time...
I used to not be able to stand the person I've been listening to lately.... voice was too loud...
too screechy.... but I can now.... so maybe I can listen to this guy later.
...
you know...I had a revisiting memory with that council today...
in that dream, where I wasn't supposed to tell this guy how to solve all his problems...
''because he needed to learn for himself'' ...
and he found a step in the right direction and was relieved a bit...
but anyway... that dream memory came up while dealing with the oldest and their
horrific debilitating dilemma that was the end of the world today...
and how we aren't supposed to 'fix' other people's problems...
we can only guide... otherwise they won't really learn the lesson they need...
and I totally said that too.... out loud, yo.
...
but alas.... I got called a sociopath for not joining the freak-out club....
and heaven forbid if I believe everything will work out! Gasp!
Life goals, yo.
(I totally love this kid for affirming where I stand in regards to my alignment <3 )
(*Soul nods in approval)
(*I don't think it means what you think it means...)
(I don't 'do' labels either, yo.)
...
anyway.... daddy is the fixer and so they fed off each other's freak-out vibes...
and I maintained a rather decent boundary field.... and decided that not giving a fuck...
actually does work.
daddy fixed and the oldest chilled out....
and the only casualty of the day was the youngest...
because my vibe wasn't going to put up with that shit either....
(and for the record, I didn't fix...I informed and expected compliance)
(which I got... *too easily... and omg, I'm just loving this kid! <3 )
(is there a catch I need to be concerned about???)
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ANYWAY.....
reading a book right now....so gonna go do that!
beware of the pumpkin spice lattes and the jagged rib-eye tigers...they like to have orgies in bushes and pee in the tea canisters... be sure to wash your hands after petting the star bucks and the moon does... there's no telling where those things have been.
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