It's raining...and oh how I love the rain...the pangs and pongs and ticks and taps on the roof....and the splattered wet spot in the hallway. And the urge of sleeping in until noon while the sky is littered with grey clouds...well, one grey blob of mush cloud.
I really don't like that wet spot in the hall though. And I won't have to deal with that for more than a few days anyway. As I'm being brought to another home....with a quiet roof, and no leaky splatters. And the grey cloud(s) it doesn't matter when they come or not...it'll be all sunshine on the inside.
I didn't quite let myself sleep in either....mostly because I HAD to finish 2 outfits that were supposed to be mailed out today. I did finish sewing them...and now just need to paint on the details and they will be done. Can I tell you how much I hate my job lately?
Let me do so anyway. I'm like super behind on orders. I have these 2 to finish today! I have another dress that needs finished this week. I have 4 other orders that are so late it's pitiful and I wouldn't doubt if those customers bash on me for it. I'm all freaking out cause it's not that I just didn't do them, it's the fact I haven't had time to do them, I haven't been able to focus on them, and if I force myself to make them, there's a huge chance I'm going to mess it up.
No excuses though, I just haven't got to them yet...even though in my mind I would love to finish them all super efficiently and without tears. In reality however...I feel slower than I used to be, and although I haven't cried since yesterday about this job, and I will have to get them done if I expect to make any more money. I can't sell anything until I finish what I have waiting.
Sigh
And photography! I just want to go take pictures!! Making a buck or two for gas would be great too. And that sliding glass door downstairs at my new house....is ever so wonderful for a mini studio if ever the need arises.....just sayin'.
And yes, I still have that blog post I'm going to write about once I get in my new house...I still need to get those pictures first. Lots to talk about in that one. I'm sure it will be lame and boring, and probably spiritually overshadowed. Maybe some awesomeness in it too, but truthfully...I think He overshadows everything anyway, so you'll have to get over it. Things are fixing to go crazy! And I get to be a part of it ;)
Need to go cook dinner and then finish those sets, so at least I can spend an hour playing bejewelled on facebook so I feel like I had some time to myself anyway, lol. And No, writing this blog does not count!I write to you....so you can maybe find something to take along with you before I leave. So it is work...in a way. Just cause I like to write and I like writing a bunch of nothing, and I like having a reason to procrastinate, does not mean it is fruitless.
Later gators....don't get bitten by the swamp beasts....they have those shifty eyes ya know.
Monday, September 17, 2012
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Stars, bunnies, and craftiness
It is a Tuesday night. Late night darkness with a thousand stars littering the curved land above the earth. Stars apart from eyes that search for heaven's gate.
I once saw a map that wrapped around the earth. A star map that layered itself upon the lands and seas. Stars covering the earth like a blanket. Where the stars shone like little glowing lanterns. Many thousands of them lay scattered across the land. Little lamps, shining bright.
Are those stars supposed to be Us? Are we your stars that shine out like a beacon in this darkness? Flickering in the harsh winds, ever burning bright unmoving, or even burning out with nothing but smoke rising from our soles....souls.
Stars placed among the heavens....these heavens...here on the dark and cold ground...placed here to bring light to those in the dark....heaven on earth.
The fog rolls in...clouds coming never ceasing, but we shine on. Where will you be taken if this is your inheritance? Are you planning to sit back and relax while those who are left to struggle...struggle on alone? Are you not meant to burn bright in the dark places? Do you plan to hide yourself in the sunlight??? You silly stars........no one gets lost in the sunshine....
You silly stars....
It's a Tuesday night. And I have 7 fully packed boxes stacked high in 3 piles....and seemed to only gain one trash huge trash bag....3 if you also count the pile of stuff I removed after repacking 3 boxes of the girls stuff. Craft paper bats do not qualify as something to bring to the new house....we do have more craft paper...always have craft paper, silly.
So I finally finished book 2....but can't focus enough to start on book 3 until I at least get another sewing order finished....which I should have worked on today...but didn't. And now it's too late to start writing anything other than this blog...which I'm only writing because I feel tired.
I do have a very excellent blog post coming up here in about 10 or so days...which I will also count as something Mr. OMG, INCREDIBLE has ordained. Because it is in fact all His fault :) I do need to take pictures first to go along with it, so you can see :)
And I bet that in a year's time you will see at least some of the bounty wrought forth from this...this amazingness of His.
But do not blame me if it involves pink fluffy bunnies and/or the FBI. I promise it is not as illegal as it sounds. ;) But I totally freaked myself out just yesterday about this 'idea' of what I will call 'Ours'. Because me and my big mouth said something along the lines that if He wanted me to even 'consider' something like this crazy idea, He would have to show me 'this'...well...3 days later, I saw a post about something close to 'that' and said to myself, that if He sent that and really wanted me to actually think about 'that other thing' I'd need a confirmation...like 'this thing that would be so freaking obvious'.....
So yeah...next webpage I go to...cause I wasn't smart enough to get off the computer while I was being a smartass to the boss man to 'get out of' Our awesome idea....I see 'that thing that would be so freaking obvious'....and I freaked out, naturally.
UGH! Why do I do this to myself!? I need to stop thinking! This is only something so huge that its awesome and funny and crazy and ridiculously doomed to failure so bad that it won't fail because Mr. OMG,INCREDIBLE just helped think it up......and me and my wayward smarts said 'hahaha, I accept!'
Pray for me. I will blame it on Him. It's His fault. And anything that occurs related to anything is His doing, just so you know....but we all know it's nothing but awesomeness anyway :) just because I am involved does not mean I had anything to do with it. You have been forewarned.
So today I got to do a photoshoot! Yay! Still didn't get paid though....bummer....but that's okay...that's ok. Harvesting isn't until next month anyway...patience. Patience.
I haven't sold anything sewing wise either, which is bad because I am broke. like broke broke $30 in the bank broke....
Payday is Friday, but bills....oh yeah, they get first dibs...
So money driven me does not want to sell something sewing wise (cause I'm freakin busy enough!) but wants to sell something so I can not feel totally broke! These are the times I should have premade awesome stuff to post for sale....but of course, I do not. Way to think ahead Jennifer.....well, actually I just thought of that. :P
Well, I'm outta here monkeys! I have a date with the pillow.
And I really hope you'll stay my friend....even pretend friend....cause real ones are hard to find.
Lu'ke te sahn
I once saw a map that wrapped around the earth. A star map that layered itself upon the lands and seas. Stars covering the earth like a blanket. Where the stars shone like little glowing lanterns. Many thousands of them lay scattered across the land. Little lamps, shining bright.
Are those stars supposed to be Us? Are we your stars that shine out like a beacon in this darkness? Flickering in the harsh winds, ever burning bright unmoving, or even burning out with nothing but smoke rising from our soles....souls.
Stars placed among the heavens....these heavens...here on the dark and cold ground...placed here to bring light to those in the dark....heaven on earth.
The fog rolls in...clouds coming never ceasing, but we shine on. Where will you be taken if this is your inheritance? Are you planning to sit back and relax while those who are left to struggle...struggle on alone? Are you not meant to burn bright in the dark places? Do you plan to hide yourself in the sunlight??? You silly stars........no one gets lost in the sunshine....
You silly stars....
It's a Tuesday night. And I have 7 fully packed boxes stacked high in 3 piles....and seemed to only gain one trash huge trash bag....3 if you also count the pile of stuff I removed after repacking 3 boxes of the girls stuff. Craft paper bats do not qualify as something to bring to the new house....we do have more craft paper...always have craft paper, silly.
So I finally finished book 2....but can't focus enough to start on book 3 until I at least get another sewing order finished....which I should have worked on today...but didn't. And now it's too late to start writing anything other than this blog...which I'm only writing because I feel tired.
I do have a very excellent blog post coming up here in about 10 or so days...which I will also count as something Mr. OMG, INCREDIBLE has ordained. Because it is in fact all His fault :) I do need to take pictures first to go along with it, so you can see :)
And I bet that in a year's time you will see at least some of the bounty wrought forth from this...this amazingness of His.
But do not blame me if it involves pink fluffy bunnies and/or the FBI. I promise it is not as illegal as it sounds. ;) But I totally freaked myself out just yesterday about this 'idea' of what I will call 'Ours'. Because me and my big mouth said something along the lines that if He wanted me to even 'consider' something like this crazy idea, He would have to show me 'this'...well...3 days later, I saw a post about something close to 'that' and said to myself, that if He sent that and really wanted me to actually think about 'that other thing' I'd need a confirmation...like 'this thing that would be so freaking obvious'.....
So yeah...next webpage I go to...cause I wasn't smart enough to get off the computer while I was being a smartass to the boss man to 'get out of' Our awesome idea....I see 'that thing that would be so freaking obvious'....and I freaked out, naturally.
UGH! Why do I do this to myself!? I need to stop thinking! This is only something so huge that its awesome and funny and crazy and ridiculously doomed to failure so bad that it won't fail because Mr. OMG,INCREDIBLE just helped think it up......and me and my wayward smarts said 'hahaha, I accept!'
Pray for me. I will blame it on Him. It's His fault. And anything that occurs related to anything is His doing, just so you know....but we all know it's nothing but awesomeness anyway :) just because I am involved does not mean I had anything to do with it. You have been forewarned.
So today I got to do a photoshoot! Yay! Still didn't get paid though....bummer....but that's okay...that's ok. Harvesting isn't until next month anyway...patience. Patience.
I haven't sold anything sewing wise either, which is bad because I am broke. like broke broke $30 in the bank broke....
Payday is Friday, but bills....oh yeah, they get first dibs...
So money driven me does not want to sell something sewing wise (cause I'm freakin busy enough!) but wants to sell something so I can not feel totally broke! These are the times I should have premade awesome stuff to post for sale....but of course, I do not. Way to think ahead Jennifer.....well, actually I just thought of that. :P
Well, I'm outta here monkeys! I have a date with the pillow.
And I really hope you'll stay my friend....even pretend friend....cause real ones are hard to find.
Lu'ke te sahn
Monday, September 3, 2012
Long and Boring Long and Boring
Still have a load of work to do....
Still have school to get prepared for this week and next....
Still have 5 chapters that need edited/proofread on book 2....
Still waiting to hear back from house people to know whether or not said seller will fix what the loan people need fixed, so we can start our new adventure....
Still need a shower too, lol....but of course the girl just got out of one and I must wait for fresh hot water..*sigh
Still....
I think there are things in the works that have yet to be revealed. Still believe that even though the whole world has forgotten....that I remember....and those memories are all I have that mean anything. No matter what else comes or goes...no matter of all eternity...to those are what I cling to....not the memory...but the one in it.
Not very insightful today or enlightened...no...just caught in the trap of hoping to come across something that reminds you of such a presence...yet knowing it isn't right to hope for one.
Not very inclined to happiness today either. No, not sad, but more along the lines of tired, weak, in need of peaceful rest. The walls are shaking and I can't remember how I found myself inside.
I need set free. Though even though I hold the key, I can't find the blasted door....ugh, yes, this is my life at the moment.
Looking in into the inside...seeing what is happening, understanding what is happening, even knowing why it is happening, yes, accepting what is happening too....but not sure you want it to happen.....at least not until another footprint reveals itself...so I know it's not all a big bad joke.
And of course....the boss man isn't talking lately. So I can either pound on His door and feel like I'm being a bother (yes, I know, stupid to think that really), I can wait it out (I hate waiting), or I can just be...still. Which in fact is the most easiest and the most rewarding......although that is barely on the line with waiting...and even though it might have been a week or 2 (or 3?) .....any day that goes by without that meeting is forever....
Ok, so you don't know what I'm talking about. I don't care. I'm not here to please you, lol. Not even here to please myself for that matter, so don't feel all neglected.
Just feel like something huge is on the way....like really freaking big...and even though I can't see it or have the faintest idea what it is or will be.....I know that once it gets here, that I'll need to be ready for it, cause nothing will be the same.....the work begins, and that work we cannot fail at.
Be prepared....is the motto of the month....
Did I mention that hubby had a dream about a nuclear missile last night....yeah, that totally made my day, lol...not!
And I'm really bummed that my Stellarium program is no longer working :( so I can't get the date of when the Sun leaves Virgo....ugh....yeah, you are probably thinking I'm a looney, lol....but get this....
The Sun is exiting the womb of Virgo...while Saturn is waiting just below waiting to devour her child....sound familiar? Yes, the woman clothed in the sun with the moon under her feet, about to give birth to a son...but the dragon is waiting to devour it....I think this happens in the constellations this month on Rosh Hashana (yes, Rosh hashana which is the day and hour no man knoweth)....I think we all enjoy a little bit of education in astronomy and revelation.
But I can't for the life of me remember when the sun moves through the horns of Taurus....grrr...stupid Stellarium program!!! I tried to find another one to download, but the last time I tried that I got a virus...ugh. So I'm stuck without the stars...boo.
Well.....if you want to think positively, stars only shine in the dark. :P
And blah blah blah....nothing much else to rant about....no idiots to throw under the bus or complaints about anything really. No great happenings that have freaked me out...boo. But I have the feeling that I will get to write about that big huge something here soon....well.....unless its something so cool that I won't be here to write on this stupid lame blog that no one reads anyway.
I sometimes wonder who actually reads this dumb thing anyway, but I only get to see how many views, not who...awwww :( sad panda!
But if you are feeling generous, feel free to leave a lame or not so lame comment in the comment section below :) that'll give me something to read for once!!! :) My youtube video people I watch haven't posted lately, and the only other blog I read hasn't written much either, so I need some form of entertainment, lol. ....How about this, I'll write about you if you post below (unless you post 'don't write about me') that'll be fun!!! well, fun for me anyway, LOL!!!
Ugh...I'm bored, can you tell...I could go cut out more applique designs, but I don't want to....and I'll go edit more of book 2 after dessert.....which is cheerios, btw.
But then again, I'm kinda really freakin tired! Maybe I'll take that shower first then just go to bed....zzzzzzzz
Oh, but don't sleep too long, tomorrow is the 4th! Which means absolutely nothing :) Be joyful nonetheless.
Goodbye.
Still have school to get prepared for this week and next....
Still have 5 chapters that need edited/proofread on book 2....
Still waiting to hear back from house people to know whether or not said seller will fix what the loan people need fixed, so we can start our new adventure....
Still need a shower too, lol....but of course the girl just got out of one and I must wait for fresh hot water..*sigh
Still....
I think there are things in the works that have yet to be revealed. Still believe that even though the whole world has forgotten....that I remember....and those memories are all I have that mean anything. No matter what else comes or goes...no matter of all eternity...to those are what I cling to....not the memory...but the one in it.
Not very insightful today or enlightened...no...just caught in the trap of hoping to come across something that reminds you of such a presence...yet knowing it isn't right to hope for one.
Not very inclined to happiness today either. No, not sad, but more along the lines of tired, weak, in need of peaceful rest. The walls are shaking and I can't remember how I found myself inside.
I need set free. Though even though I hold the key, I can't find the blasted door....ugh, yes, this is my life at the moment.
Looking in into the inside...seeing what is happening, understanding what is happening, even knowing why it is happening, yes, accepting what is happening too....but not sure you want it to happen.....at least not until another footprint reveals itself...so I know it's not all a big bad joke.
And of course....the boss man isn't talking lately. So I can either pound on His door and feel like I'm being a bother (yes, I know, stupid to think that really), I can wait it out (I hate waiting), or I can just be...still. Which in fact is the most easiest and the most rewarding......although that is barely on the line with waiting...and even though it might have been a week or 2 (or 3?) .....any day that goes by without that meeting is forever....
Ok, so you don't know what I'm talking about. I don't care. I'm not here to please you, lol. Not even here to please myself for that matter, so don't feel all neglected.
Just feel like something huge is on the way....like really freaking big...and even though I can't see it or have the faintest idea what it is or will be.....I know that once it gets here, that I'll need to be ready for it, cause nothing will be the same.....the work begins, and that work we cannot fail at.
Be prepared....is the motto of the month....
Did I mention that hubby had a dream about a nuclear missile last night....yeah, that totally made my day, lol...not!
And I'm really bummed that my Stellarium program is no longer working :( so I can't get the date of when the Sun leaves Virgo....ugh....yeah, you are probably thinking I'm a looney, lol....but get this....
The Sun is exiting the womb of Virgo...while Saturn is waiting just below waiting to devour her child....sound familiar? Yes, the woman clothed in the sun with the moon under her feet, about to give birth to a son...but the dragon is waiting to devour it....I think this happens in the constellations this month on Rosh Hashana (yes, Rosh hashana which is the day and hour no man knoweth)....I think we all enjoy a little bit of education in astronomy and revelation.
But I can't for the life of me remember when the sun moves through the horns of Taurus....grrr...stupid Stellarium program!!! I tried to find another one to download, but the last time I tried that I got a virus...ugh. So I'm stuck without the stars...boo.
Well.....if you want to think positively, stars only shine in the dark. :P
And blah blah blah....nothing much else to rant about....no idiots to throw under the bus or complaints about anything really. No great happenings that have freaked me out...boo. But I have the feeling that I will get to write about that big huge something here soon....well.....unless its something so cool that I won't be here to write on this stupid lame blog that no one reads anyway.
I sometimes wonder who actually reads this dumb thing anyway, but I only get to see how many views, not who...awwww :( sad panda!
But if you are feeling generous, feel free to leave a lame or not so lame comment in the comment section below :) that'll give me something to read for once!!! :) My youtube video people I watch haven't posted lately, and the only other blog I read hasn't written much either, so I need some form of entertainment, lol. ....How about this, I'll write about you if you post below (unless you post 'don't write about me') that'll be fun!!! well, fun for me anyway, LOL!!!
Ugh...I'm bored, can you tell...I could go cut out more applique designs, but I don't want to....and I'll go edit more of book 2 after dessert.....which is cheerios, btw.
But then again, I'm kinda really freakin tired! Maybe I'll take that shower first then just go to bed....zzzzzzzz
Oh, but don't sleep too long, tomorrow is the 4th! Which means absolutely nothing :) Be joyful nonetheless.
Goodbye.
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