You hate me cause you ain't me.

I'm giving up gardening for the means to grow food.
But I do like flowers... and I think I could become a master at greenbeans... so we'll see how it goes.
I managed a few cantaloupes this year that were really good too.
Fuck everything else except zucchini and asparagus which grew themselves.

I'm having a conflict of interest today. This sewing gig...
Like the shot of death strolled past today and I've been blinded from the 'why'.
I couldn't buy even 1 share of Tesla and I've got work still needing done.
Imma sew this 'ground' on this dress...and then do something else.
Like manifest a fuckton of money so it will suffocate the why of sewing.
and then buy shares of whateverthefuck I want.

Invoke, evoke that WILL and just make it so.
It's easier.

________________________

I'm in the middle of an upgrade or channel shift.
closer to the end of it...
things got static-y and whacked up...and now things are settling again.
still fuzzy, but it's clearing.

Good. Ready for some fun. Whatever that means.
The Alchemist has been lingering off to the side, quietly. Just waiting this shift out mostly.
He doesn't even try to make an effort to communicate when I can't hear clearly.
But it's becoming into something broader, expansive...something... idk, just pulling words.

things just are
and I am


___________________________


speaking of...

Some old energies came up last night that I actively transmuted...
things I didn't think were such a big deal, but my nervous system still believed they were...
so we handled those...
I can't seem to activate them today, so I'm guessing they've been cleared..
we'll see, eh

The Alchemist just prodded me to deal with them now and not analyze why they were popping up all of a sudden...so I did.
It's certainly part of the upgrade process...and that, even if it was a small thing to my mind, needed to be left behind us. All good.
I'm a bit crabby too....so I'm going to include this symptom as an ascension thing too. Why not.
Could be because it's Scorpio season too... who knows...

And I can already foretell of some things that will be cut off, cut out...and significantly changed in the near future... nothing physical...but I'm sure there's things...
I'm fine with that. Let's do this.
___________
seriously though, going to finish this thing, listen to some Joe Dispenza and go veg out on tik tok.
peace and chaos

I can't write without a topic apparently

 It's been over a month since I wrote a real blog post.
And even now, I'm learning neuroscience and watching some of Joe Dispenza's stuff.

Let's get this shit out of the way...
Still sewing, have 1 dress right now and 2 on the way to be made.
have 3 still on order sometime...
Visiting fam in a few weeks.
Have lots of yard work to do, but back is not having it right now.
Writing stuff for FFS

just did this.. https://www.patreon.com/JenniferCoots

art... it's there... finished those star wars ones and the Vegeta/Piccolo ones...
and nothing since... there's 'plans'...but that doesn't mean shit

I have a book to write still
2 of them...but one's not til next year
I will start this... I will..
Lots of things to do or get done...and yeah...

all else good.

______________________

The Alchemist was a kid last time we chatted.
So maybe he's finally opening up his inner child, haha
That was interesting and highly unexpected.
He certainly smiled a bit more... as in... smiled period... a lot
whaaatt...

I have not one idea on anything about any of it. Just moving along.

___

I have a meditation to do...but I wanna finish this.
I just realized I have like $600 coming my way.
Like...of course I do.
But surprise! Money!
I love money! Money loves me!
We are best buds.

There's a canvas in front of me, but I ain't got no clue what to do with it yet.

so this is fantastic... I want to finish this, but I don't want to write nothing...and I want to do the meditation video...so...shit...
I gotta go...
cause I know what's best for me

I'll be back, probably tomorrow.

I also just initiated an abundance activation challenge in my Financial Feng Shui group ...
so this will be fun!... or it will pay off really well anyway!
Mercury going direct and all.
Yes, you get to use astrology to your advantage.
No shame.

laters._____________

__________________________________________
_____________________________________________________________

FFS stuff - credit game

The Credit Card Game - Part I - Basics

This juicy game.
It's using someone else's money to buy or pay for something and paying them back later.
Sometimes you have to pay them back what you borrowed, plus interest for the time it took you to pay it back.
Sometimes they charge you a fee to even use their card. Usually once a year.
If you are using it for a balance transfer, they will charge a transfer fee which is around 3-5% of the balance transfer.
Many times you get benefits and/or extra cool things for using their card. Cash back, airline miles, free stuff at the corresponding store, discounts, waived interest fees, special coupons, etc.

Most everything is plain and simple and laid out. There's really no confusing factors about how your card works and what they expect from you, and what you expect from them. Simple, because the more people who understand, the more customers they get! User friendly is the name of the game!

They set you up with a credit limit, often based on the income level you provided them when you signed up or applied for the card. If you bring in $10k yr....you most likely will be declined. If you say $30k, your credit limit often ranges around $1k-5k, higher income levels get approved for higher credit limits.
They don't want customers to default and not pay their bills, so they want reputable people.
They will do a credit check which includes looking at your past loans/balances/financial performance.
This helps them determine if you are trustworthy for them to give you credit.

If you already have high balances or were late on any credit reporting loan, card, or mortgage, you often will be declined. They don't want to offer more credit to someone who isn't financially prepared to handle more.
   ***  If you are already behind - this is when you work on repairing your credit IF you intend to use this system in the future. Most negative hits of being late will fade from your report in 2 years. If you have a default it stays until it's paid and/or cleared. (Even if it was a false or fraudulent charge! Your attorneys are slow, so don't hope it will be fixed overnight, but certainly get on the ball about having it removed.)
--- You can see your own credit report for FREE (even without sharing any payment info many sites ask for)  -- I have used  -- Annualcreditreport.com -- it is free and they don't ask for money or pay info.

____
Once you begin to use your credit, it starts to build a report that gives creditors information on whether you are handling your credit wisely. If you get a card and never use it, they don't care about you. If you use it and pay it off all the time, you are one of their favorite people....even if you never have to pay them interest fees. They still want you as a customer.

Remember, the companies aren't all out to get interest and charges and people paying them. (Yes, they are) but they also need reputable customers to pay on time so they have circulating use/supply/base.
Even those who pay on time every time will occasionally need to pay interest for a month or two. No big deal.
The more savvy you are at being responsible, the more they 'care' about you, and they often won't hesitate to offer you more credit. So your $3k card is now $5k, and 6 months later it might be $8k
...and a year later if all else looks good, they could up you to $12k if your income is in line with that.

You'll also get about 10 other offers in the mail every week.
The trick is to ignore them.

*** Only use the card(s) that you are enjoying. That are easy to work with. That have some sense of friendly customer support, and has the benefits you are benefiting from.
              (My favs are Citi (they have offered me higher credit limits, and always offer balance transfers for 0% for 18mo or more) and Bank of America (cause they will send cash to my bank account with a balance transfer and not only to a company/loan/card like most everyone else.)
            
If you pay for a cruise with your Old Navy card, be prepared to have $300 in Old Navy bucks....which is great until you don't need any more damn clothes.
If you spend $500 on your Lowe's card for a new water heater, they aren't going to be nice and send you a coupon or give you anything but 5% off or 6mo no interest... lame.
If you paid for that same water heater with your Amazon Prime card, you'd get about $50 or so in Amazon cash.... so technically it's a better deal if you plan to pay it off before interest hits.

Be aware of what they are charging you! Some companies charge upwards of 29% interest! OUCH!
  Better to choke on a log.
Some are only 12%, so that's at least better if you have to carry a balance for a few months before you can pay it off.
Capitol One once had a card that was 0% for 3 months on all purchases....that was a great thing until they closed that program down. (They are my least favorite company, fyi)

So know what you are using, who you are playing with, what they are getting out of you, what you are getting out of the deal, and make sure you are playing the game with sensibility, and not doing it 'because you have to'.
Close cards that feel like shit or treat you like shit.
Hold onto those that feel light and free and are easily supported by your income level.
   ** If you have 5 cards with $30k in credit and you only make $20k yr.... and you struggle to maintain your finances, it's better to cut those back to half $10-15k so you don't dig yourself in a hole you may carry for decades. I'm not even joking. Credit card companies are not your mortgage or marriage! They are more like romantic flings. Use them when you need, get your benefits, and then make them to sit and wait until next time.

The credit card companies are only you're friend, until you're not. If you fuck up, they know about it.
If you're late on a payment, they know about it. If you are late twice or over extend your credit, they will cut you.
They may give you grace the first time, cause sometimes you thought the payment went through, but it didn't....and it does happen.... but once you get 'marked' as a repeat offender...game over.

_________________________________


__________________________________________

The Credit Card Game - Part II - Debt and it's Dog

Some of us have debt.
Sometimes it is things we can handle, sometimes, not so much.
Often times it takes forever to get cleared.
Other times, it doesn't move, or it moves higher.

This doesn't mean anyone is out there buying $8000 dining tables and eating off sterling silver plates.
It could, but the majority of those who carry debt is because their income rarely catches up to their needs.
Many times it could simply be the car insurance, the health insurance, the tires you had to buy because you have children and a bald tires are fucking dangerous. Things you got to have or you're leaving the door open for possibly worse things.
THIS is why noone should ever judge someone else's story about money or debt.

No matter how we got it...it's all about the now. Now it's here, let's handle it.

Throw it out there on the table. Know what it is, how much it is, how much you have to pay every month, the interest rate, or when the interest rate will hit, and the invoice dates.
Easy, just look at it. Not always enjoyable, but we have to know what we are dealing with.

* There's the whole tried method of looking at it all, estimating your income and debts, and doing it the mathematical way.
Must pays first. Housing, food, car, gas, utilities.
Then the other shit, in order of importance. Blah blah blah...
But often the energy doing it that way carries the energy of trying to stretch funds, lack, struggle, worry, overwhelm, more lack, sadness, no freedom, and not taking one fucking look at yourself or who you fucking are.
Let's put all the energy into this crap thing and hope it goes away, gets fixed, or feels better....
Please.
How many times have you done this?
Sometimes it does work, it does make 'sense', it can be an easy fix....
every other time...it never really is. It just proves to you that you still have things you don't want.

Try throwing you all on the table instead.
This debt here...helped me replace the water heater. We have hot water. I like hot showers and clean dishes. This debt put new tires on the car. My children ride in that car. I get to work in that car.
These things helped me. I'm appreciative of the needs being met when I needed them.
I get to pay the house payment. I love having a warm safe place to live.
The electricity is da bomb, how useful can it get!
Full tank of gas, cause we are blessed.
Food for my family. Don't tell anyone, but I kinda like spaghetti night the best. Oh wait...homemade tacos, nevermind.
I really want to pay the Amazon card first, cause they are my favorite card...and I already have $300 in amazon cash stored up to use for Christmas shopping....and I like not having to worry about the holidays and keeping up with the Kardashians. Actually, I really appreciate the boxes I get from my shipments too....the kids and the cats always liked them best anyways. We could make an elf house!
Oh yeah...that card I had to put my car insurance on, I can't pay it all off, but I will make the minimum. I'm glad I had it when I needed it. I might even add an extra $10...
I know I should put some back to save...and there's not much left...but I know that it'll be there whenever I may need it. It is safe to store anywhere I please, even in the checking account or in my pocket.
My check will be smaller next month, what are we.... ... no... actually, I can handle everyfuckingthing that comes up, whenever it comes up. Being in the place we are right now, feels good, so right now is good. I will stay here.
Feeling cute, might even pick up a chocolate shake later.

____________

The point is... if you constantly find yourself in the energy of shit over debt or money....
you become the dog of the system.
The dog does what the master says.
The dog looks to the master for it's needs.
The dog is afraid to make the master angry and often times works for the master to make them happy.

But you are the one in control!
You are the master.
That credit should be pleasing you to have the credit to even use.
Those debts should be relevant in having a hand in benefiting you.
No matter what pricetags are attached, you have complete control over the emotions and energy you reflect from them.
You can move one shitty feeling over the debt into a feeling of appreciation or at least calmness.
You can take control of all your energy. Your thoughts and emotions...
And you can step back from the cage and see yourself as the keymaster.

*** Listen up.... there's no excuses here about choosing to feel like shit every time you look at money.
 (((((In my personal experience, we had an injury to the breadwinner, an eventually the loss of the job, we were without a real income for 2 years. 2 YEARS, yo! We used those fucking credit cards like eating Doritos.
We went on government assistance, we borrowed from family for the mortgage because Well Fargo, no matter what shit they tell you, will NOT help you out. We maintained what normalcy we could for the kids, we kept them in their activities, although less of them. I tried to take on a 'job'...like 3 times... and quit relatively soon after because they were costing us more financially and emotionally to keep them.
We still paid everyfuckingthing and racked up some wonderous incredible amount of credit card debt and family debt too... it was like holiday lights on a tree...20 strands...at least...very pretty and a bit blinding....probably a huge fire hazard too.
But what broke through was just letting go of the struggle and allowing the flow.
I even got fed up oneday and booked a trip for a 'fuck this bullshit' vacation. Paid the minimum downpayment with a credit card.
Cause I wasn't going to feel fucking bad for any of it. IT was shitty but I wasn't going to be.
We just let all the the shitshow happen and then it fixed itself when we fixed ourselves. Money came in 2 months before that vacation. We cleared the main debts and caught up on things that had to go by the wayside.
We still have some debt though. We still owe family. But everything is without interest.
I could have paid it off with those stimulus checks last year...but I started to invest instead....cause it felt better. I made the money back twice since then in stocks/crypto alone...and although I still haven't decided to just pay off the debts (they are still 0% interest mind you so they aren't costing me anything to carry)... I could. There's not one fucking thing that I can trust besides myself and how I feel about it all.
The world can go to shit tomorrow and forever and I(we) will still be A-okay and probably bring in twice as much income....cause when the economy crashes, we actually do better...it's weird, idk exactly how that works out. Maybe because we work outside the system.

That system is my dog. I tell it when to bring me the quarry. I tell it what benefits I need and use it accordingly. If I need a plane ticket, I know which card to use to pay my car insurance, so I can get a free ticket. I use Amazon card all the time to even pay my electric bill...cause like I mentioned... now gifts for the holidays are paid for....or if I decide to buy books, or art supplies, or flea meds for the pets... paid for, because I use the benefits...and those companies don't benefit off of me....unless I carry a balance...and even if I did, it's about 12% interest rate.

You've got to step out of the lower victimization realm and take a stand.
Stand for yourself and who you are.
Choose with a conscious aware understanding and walk.
Debt may be heavyAF at times, but it is NOTHING compared to YOU and YOUR ENERGY

Look at it, check yourself inwardly, and take actions that FEEL LIKE A BADASS CEO of system operations.
Don't let it tell you how to feel.
You tell it how you're going to feel and then move from THAT space.
Make space for things you desire to come into your life. Clear space. Clean up your shit thoughts.
DO the work on the pdf files in the course I have posted. OWN it. Follow through.
You'll never know what's possible if you fall short on even one step, on even one journal prompt.
No excuses. Those who are masters and CEO's do not make excuses, they make moves. And they move according to their energy. And they keep that energy clear and filled with all the good things, the good thoughts, the good emotions...and yeah..... 'you can't just sit back and smile your way out of debt'. But you can walk through it with it on a leash, and you giving the commands.
If you are having anxiety and fear....that travels through the leash and gives your dog anxiety and fear. I mean haven't you seen those dog training shows. Even they teach that.

I could go on.... but you gotta do this work.
You have to step into it with more than your fears and lack.
No one can just tell you stuff and it fix everything. Only your presence in your life and energy can truly make any difference. So change your energy into something more and move with actions that carry that energy. Know, appreciate, trust, fill it with love and joy and ease, and effortlessness....and if you want to just manifest $100k.... get on it. Cause it will never come with you still looking at the shitshow and feeling how the shitshow tells you to feel....or you doing the same old things the same old ways.
I fucking believe in you and know you can do this and you can make debt your bitch.


My rant for the day. I cussed a lot in this one, apologies.
___________________


Want a crash course into debt? (...more like a wrecking ball... and you'll still need to clean it up...)
Drop into my inbox. I'm always happy to kick the system to the curb and you back in the driver's seat.
I'm not offering a sales pitch or going to send you some fucking sheet of my 'pricing'. Fuck that. This is an open door policy. Take what serves, give what serves.
I want to see you thrive and BE ALL OF WHO YOU ARE regardless of anything the system, the money, the world, the economy, the covid....can present up as a challenge.


_________________
___________________



The Credit Card Game - Part III - Become the GameMaster.

Actions and some steps you could take regarding debt.
This is if Dave Ramsey's way has failed you.
This is if your tried and true way you learned isn't working.
This is if the snowball method or the bulk method isn't budging the debt.
This is if you are so fucking done.

You know how much already, how much debt is costing you.
You know how much the system is feeding off of you and your energy.
So let's fuck it up. Throw it into confusion and create doors through the cage.
______________

Interest is the siphoning tool they use to suck your energy.
Know who you're paying interest to and how much they are taking.
We want to cut the heads off of that first and foremost.

Balance transfers are a huge tool in defeating the high interest charges.
   (If you plan to apply for a mortgage or big bank loan in the next year or two, don't do this process)
This depends if you have a card already that has an offer available, or if you are able to open up another account that has an offer available.
You literately can google, 'best balance transfer cards' and pick the one that looks favorable.
(I recommend any Citi card or if you have a local credit union that has card offers. Discover often only provides a low limit, and Capitol One will only offer you the one transfer and then never again, in my experience anyway.)
This doubles as a bonus if you have a spouse and they can apply too, AND you are both okay to share in the financial burdens of one another. I know many keep yourself separate from your spouse, and that's okay if you are going it alone. Do your thing.
* Also, this only usually works if you have okay credit or better. If you were already late or behind on payments to any creditor, this process will not work. They will not approve you to open another account. So if you have negative hits on your report, don't bother.

If you get approved, move your highest interest debts to this card. Pay off the ones costing you. Even if it's only one other debt, or 4.
0% is better than any other percentage.
There will be a fee of 3-5% of the transfer and that is fine if you couldn't pay it off in a few months anyway.
So everything past 2 months is interest free and now you've given yourself some breathing room for maybe 12 months.
** Don't take extra cash, or 'hold onto' the excess, or even ever plan to use the actual card for anything.
When the actual card comes in the mail, put it away in a drawer. You CAN NOT use it. It is only for holding and paying off the transfer debt.
If you use it, now your new purchases will rack up interest! Cut it up if you have to.
You will still at least pay the minimum.... and if you are serious, you will pay the minimum plus rounding up to the nearest $100 or $500, whatever you can rightfully afford.
DO NOT let any of these debts or companies pull energy from the energy you have to give yourself first. There are no regulators on debt, just you, so set boundaries and healthy intentions.

Some people go the debt consolidation route.
I'm going to recommend against this too.
They help sometimes, I guess.... but those companies charge interest too.
And they don't take away your credit cards....so guess what... now that they don't have a balance...and you're payments are a bit less... you live in this space of having more breathing room for a short time..
and then... something pops up and there's a credit card right here...wow....
Please don't.
If you can't do this yourself, every time and be fully responsible...
how are you going to incorporate and learn....and then be able to handle it forever?
Don't let someone else save you and you not know how to escape if it ever happens again.

I'm not saying sometimes bankruptcy isn't the answer (sometimes it can be)
but when you are IN the process and work... you learn a fuck ton of skills and organization and all the things that will strengthen and support you forever.
You don't help a butterfly out of their cocoon... they will die... and for those in debt, they will often suffer the same situations again and again.

_________

Loans....
There's something about asking for a loan from a person, like a bank loan officer, or even family.
There's a keg of perception and judgement all over it. Good or bad.
Unless you've got family with money and is really awesome and supportive to loan you money, and you have great communication about repayment and follow through trust... you ask the bank man. And the bank man can only go by what he sees on paper....on your credit report.
And you'll know if the words start with 'I have something I can offer you.' in a vibrant mood versus 'There seems to be a lot of ___ or ___ on your credit.' doubtful mood...
If the bank man's energy is dull... that's probably not a good sign about what they can offer you, if anything. Interest is not your friend, even if it's the bank man and not a credit company.

29% interest down to 23% interest might save you $100 a month, but it's a joke... and the system is still playing you. Don't fall for the crumbs on the floor.
If you aren't eating at the table, then don't agree to anything that doesn't feel relieving and refreshing.
29% down to 10% might be more up your alley if you are feeling free about it.

*Keep the 30% rule.
    30% of your money goes to you FIRST.
   Then handle your needs.
   Then your bills.
   Then your debts.

You're interest should drop down to only 30% of what it was if you are holding true to this standard.

Soul will have your back if you carry this standard throughout everything.
It's a really scary thing to attempt at first, but do it for a handful of weeks and the world will drop to your feet.
__________________


Maybe you already have shit credit and are locked out.
No worries.

If it's huge debt and you are ready to let go of everything. Look into bankruptcy.
No shame or guilt here. Sometimes if your income disappears overnight, you can't always keep the things you had.
You could sell out and make the money to pay your debtors yourself, or you can get the other people all up in your business to do it for you. (Whereas you no longer have control)
Both are okay. Do what you need to do.
Nothing in life is worth stressing over, especially regarding money or finances or the shit you have.
Relieve yourself, your family, your health from turmoil if things are beyond your control.
The system is there to use when you need to.
Don't let the bank take your house without first trying to sell it or contract out the loan. There are people able and willing to take over payments and hand you some upfront cash to keep the bank's hands off the property.
There are ways to cull your debt in an instant if you are in collections. Usually bargaining for a bulk payment for less than what you owe. You have to call them. You can also set up where you only pay $20mo to them. You get to call the shots about that no matter what they tell you, don't let them. You have complete control regarding the pay back of debts. However you can't just decide 'not to'.

Sometimes you can cut back, even significantly. But no one can hold that energy of cutting back forever. Have a plan and a deadline. Don't mistreat yourself or deny yourself basic joys in life.
__________

Here's the google tips for 'saving money' (a.k.a. bullshit + commentary)
Cut the things you don't need.
   (I always find this weird advice, because I don't have much I can even cut out of my own life. Maybe 3 things, and that's only maybe $60 max.... sooo... I guess this is more for those who still pay for cable and the newspaper and wasteful spending.)

Find a cheaper car insurance.
   (I have a young adult driving and 3 people/cars... there is nothing cheaper. And my insurance company has to have the cars and the house bundled...and no one else will accept the house because the roof is too old...fuckers...like we all can just put a new roof on our house overnight... I'm still waiting for a big storm to fuck it up so the insurance will pay for it. Until then, we patch it ourselves.)

Cheaper health insurance
   (LOL!!!! Remember that time they tried to make us pay for not having it. Yeah right. Try living in a state that hasn't expanded medicare and you live in the gap of not being able to buy it and not being able to get it for free. I went without for about 15 years and it was still cheaper to pay out of pocket when I actually did go to the doc. I have it now, but I haven't used it since I even got it...lol)

Buy cheaper food, shop small.
  (just no. Buying the cheaper brand will only create more waste because there's a reason why you don't buy it. Not on everything, but many things. Fruity O's taste nothing like Froot Loops and you know it. Organic apples have taste, while 'apples' often do not, or taste like pesticides... go organic for 4 weeks and tell me how you can ever go back...because you can't...because you taste the other stuff in the non-organics now. I also have 3 apple trees in my backyard (planted to save money and get free apples!yay) and I haven't been able to harvest any for going on 3 years now....so I'm living the dream... LOL.)

Staycations
    (we are going places? My last 'vacation' was New Year's of 2018 (I think)... it was a cruise, and it kinda sucked.  I'm visiting my niece soon...is that a vacation? I'm going to a concert in Feb. so maybe that counts...? I like staying home actually.)

Pack your lunch...
   (....I work at home... I'm always at home. I like my own food and kinda don't really even eat lunch...but I don't really get up til almost noon anyway....soooo)

You know what.... stay off of google.

_____________________________

Searching for answers is way different than receiving your answers.
Check your energy.
Tune into it.
Listen to what's coming through YOU and not what's coming from the world.
The world can help define, but it can't lead.
There's no trickety-trick. There's no effortless way through the muck.
There's just tools and your knowing how to use them.
There's trust in your own skills and the honing of those skills.
There's learning and getting your mindset clear.
There's building a support and trust with yourself and what you inwardly know and feel.

Debt is a tool and sometimes that tool gets out of hand. (like a chainsaw!)
But we can reassess and learn with new tools and new processes and sometimes just walk away.
Cut the emotional ties you have to the debt.
Heal and resonate with freedom and abundance.
And stay there, no matter how ugly the world is looking.
When you stay centered and focused on the best feeling outcomes..
it all has to come into resonance with you.
Don't forget who you are and what you are capable of.
You are always in control, even if you have handed control over to the system for a time.

I've seen people soar straight out of debt and lack and move into wealth within days.
I've seen people simply meditate and realign and things shifted overnight for them.
I've seen people let go of the struggle energy and quickly open up into receiving.
You got this!
You are beautiful and able and have everything you need.
I know that whatever obstacles or challenges you face are often only illusions and the pathways through them are already there. The tools are already there.
I fucking believe in everyone of us to be abundant and thrive in our lives. <3 <3 <3
I believe in YOU. Believe in you too!

_______

 

FFS stuff

Breaking Free - Part II - Ditching the job

This is solely for those of us who despise their job.
Those who simply are dying inside and dragging themself there.

You hate it. You don't want to go, or be there, or even be a cog on the wheel.
You're done.
   BUT.... yeah...the money. You need it.

You might not know what you want to do, or what other job you might want.
So you haven't applied to other places or positions.
You just know, right now, you are not happy, you are not thriving.
You feel trapped, because you don't want to start at the bottom at some other place you also probably won't like.
You already have obligations and responsibilities that rely on the money you do make.
Other people, your livelihood, all of it requires your income.
You are fucked and you know it.

We could just quit and let it all fall apart.
   BUT that hurts, often a LOT if you've got important things to uphold.
We could go somewhere else, but we always carry ourselves with us.
   When our energy is the same, we create the same situations, just with different faces/places.
We could take a hiatus and breathe for a bit... IF we have something/one to carry our load for us.
We could meditate and focus and align and make our world better all of a sudden....
    I totally believe wholeheartedly in energy... but....no... nothing often comes 'all of a sudden'....especially if we are in a lack mindset or feeling trapped in our situation.
  --- Please don't ever jump with dismay on your heart....cause it will travel with you to the ground.

Instead...
Step back from yourself for a moment.
What is he/she (your body/character) doing that YOU don't want to do?
   Is it the actual work, or is it the character he/she is playing while at work?
   Is it the time structuring? The quality of environment? The energy of the workplace?

1. Define what it is that YOU don't like about what your body is participating in.

What about the responsibilities this person has?
   Is this what YOU have agreed with?
   Do YOU like these obligations? Do YOU have to keep them? All of them?
   Is there any that could be made easier/lighter/funner?

2. What loads can be lightened? What can be simplified?

What do YOU like about where you are and what you are doing?
   What does feel good for you right now?
   What works?
   What is EASY?

3. Define what YOU do like.

If you could choose just 5 important things to uphold... what would they be?
   What's most important for you?
   What matters most for your family?
   What feels (fills) joyful?

4. What can be enhanced and built upon.

And then.... what can YOU do NOW with where you are and what you have.
   You have one step to take just for today, what is it?
   If the world stopped moving, what would you do NOW?
   The answer to that often points directly to an open door (an answer)

5. Take the step and do exactly what YOU said. (No hurting anyone or anything obviously)
    It may sounds ludicrous and highly implausible, especially if you said something like "fly to St. Lucia and lie on the beach all week..."
***    But if you can manage a trip to any beach, or the lake...and lie there all day....FOR REAL regardless of every expectation.... (on the next free day/weekend, don't quit your job today)
***    Your next step will set fire to your ass....
cause now you broke the pattern (program) and tasted sovereignty for a whole day by DOING what YOU chose.
This following-through with YOUR TRUE SELF.... wakes him/her up.

       NOW what are YOU are going to do?

       Do it again...

I'm not saying it will take a week of some badass sticking through to your word with your higher self....
but do this quickly and close together...and you won't have a shitty job anymore.
You might have the same job that isn't so bad all of a sudden, and you're USING IT like you want to instead of it using you...
You might open so many doors that one drops loads of cash in your lap.
You might gain some clarity on your course of action that will move you into your own path of abundance and sovereignty.
A thousand doors. A thousand paths. Make sure YOU are walking it and you're not getting pulled along by the streams of society.

If you feed your sovereignty, if you choose yourself.... you'll never go hungry or without.
He/she has everything of yours already.... you just keep looking at society to give you their leftovers.
Stop looking that way.
Real abundance doesn't come from who gets the most scraps, or who can follow along the best.
It comes from walking forward with intent and that abundance following you.
Get yourself right side up and stop playing that game of 'earning' or 'please give me things I need in trade for my hours'

"I'm doing this."
    and act. 

    The energy of sovereignty.... will never fail you.
Stay here long enough, that job will fall off of you.
That character you play will no longer fit.
It will be easier to cash in your abundance by 'being' you, rather than anything you can get by 'doing'.

    (not joking....the more I 'try' to 'earn' money, the more it goes away...the more I just don't...the more it comes. I literately could make more money sitting by the lake than 'doing'.... my mind is still at odds with this and fights it all the time...to my detriment. But at least I have the awareness. That's why when I went out to the pool this whole summer, I called it 'working'...because I was doing whatever my higher self wanted and it created the abundance through me, through my energy.)

IT WILL do the same for YOU!

_______________





Breaking Free - Part III - Off-grid Income

(Disclaimer! cause I am not a financial accountant, I'm just sharing shit which may or may not be relevant to this reality.
Do what you need to do within the laws of your state and/or country.
Financial Feng Shui 101 (or moi) does not hold any accountability with anything posted here or elsewhere, or said or implied, or construed, or whatever other fancy words needs to be here to keep my ass out of 'trouble'.
Everything here is participated in at your own risk.)

 
Off-grid income....
It's NOT receiving a W2 form from your employer.
It's NOT receiving a 10-99 form, for subcontracting.
It's NOT receiving whatever form it is for capital gains on your stocks, gambling winnings, or whatnot.

It's just money in it's many forms.
Cash.
Paypal, Venmo, Cashapp,
sometimes we consider trades of goods and services income.
   I wired my brother's garage shed for free, from bare nothing to outlets and lights....
  and he dug a flat spot in my yard for my fire pit patio.... trades for the win.

We have yardsales, do gigs, freelance....sooooo many outlets and inlets for receiving money.
Literately unlimited. I can't possibly name every way people make extra money.
It could be from the obvious yardsale, or the old Nintendo NES and games you sold on ebay for way more that you ever thought....but now you wish you didn't....cause you just want to play Super Mario Bros 3....and Tetris...
Or that aquarium you found on the side of the road and resold for $100 not even an hour later.
Or when you deliver flowers for Mother's Day because the florist is way over busy and needs the extra drivers. Or when the lightbox people pay you to go to the mall and take pictures of their advertisements.
Or when you sell quail chicks....or when you watch someone's pets when they are on vacay...
Or when you design a logo, or paint a picture, or sew a dress, or repair a table leg....or taking pictures of this weird wedding back in the boonies of a nature park and they offer you a joint.
Like.... unlimited...

So we go about our lives with this money system entering into it and exiting out of it.
Different forms, different amounts.


The DOWNSIDE of off-grid income:
- IF you need a loan, a mortgage, proof of income for something.... there isn't one, unless you have your income tax returns and you've been doing it long enough to establish an income level. Society does not like this, they will give you the side eye and often immediately mistrust you.
The car dealership doesn't care if you pay cash (they like it), but Wells Fargo wants to know where you got the money for your down payment....just saying. Keep records if you are going to use the system anytime in the future. Even applying for assistance...they want to see your bank account info. Be aware of what you are doing, what is being recorded, and how you are using it.
- If you don't have a qualifying child, you often need to pay taxes on your income. So unless you are putting back specifically for that, it can cost you a chunk at tax time....IF you make more than the deductions you get. And also IF you are filing at all, or even need to, depending how much you make.
- It often times can be inconsistent. Huge chunk this month, bare minimum next month. Seasonal side gigs are tricky when they are not in season. Be smart about how you allocate and stretch/spend your money. Flows can be in floods or trickles.
- When asked 'what do you do'....there's no easy answer. Ever. You can simplify it into saying a freelancer or business owner, but that leads to follow-up questions....and what does it matter what you do over who you fucking are.... damn etiquette is a bitch sometimes. I still don't know what I do...besides 'whatever I want'.
- If you are making a killing and it's over the income limit for taxation....you really need to take a crash course in business licensing and permits and taxes....and then learn all that jazz. Good luck. You can also hire someone to do it for you.
- Getting trapped in the hustle. It can take over and run you over if you don't set limits and boundaries with your work. You think you can fit it all in, but the point is to fit it around YOU.
- Taking on too much. You can take on more than you should, and you'll know when you do.... You can also undercharge and feel like you're working for less than you deserve. Or things take longer than expected. It can be overwhelming if it gets away from you and you aren't changing along with it.


The UPSIDE of off-grid income:
- It can come in FLOODS! That's a fun time!
- It gives you the freedom and control over your time, your flow, your effort, your procrastination game, your location, your skills at multi-tasking, your life....most of the time.
- Flexibility. You get to change it up, tweak it, move it, switch it, shake it, add to it, lessen it, etc. Don't like something, you are in control. Need to work around your family, you get to do that.
- Growth. You not only learn and gain knowledge as you go, you can expand on what you want and even go do something completely different when your ADD kicks in and is getting bored of working on 'this' thing. You learn what works for you and get to change it when it isn't working.
- You get to walk away from it when you're done with it. It's like quitting a job, but there's no one to disappoint. (don't quit on a job you were paid for though, follow through or refund)
- Freedom.
- Vacation/days off when you want, when you set healthy boundaries and schedule it in just like you would with a job.
- A plethora of knowledge and insights on all facets of the work and life. Because you are THERE for it and not trapped away somewhere you don't want to be and shut off/down.
       (Not that it can't be a drag sometimes, but you change it when it gets that way. I used to hate one of my 'gigs' and actually quit. Took a year off and reframed what I wanted out of it and started it back up. I still want to do more with it.)


When we build streams of income, it provides us with more options.
We can leave the job, we can focus on one or two or three...we can go all in for one...
It relies on just us and our choices and our abilities to navigate through them.

Some things can turn into assets and deliver us cash flow without much effort on our part.
This would be things like interest income, rental income, book sales, online courses, things we do once or twice and they keep paying over time. All you do is manage them for the most part.
Keep in mind some things take marketing and telling all the people about your cool thing to get it going and keep it going....so don't believe the "I'll design a t-shirt and make millions" hogwash, unless you already have a brand and a huge following.
*** Be real about things, not delusional.
And certainly don't quit your job without the income coming in from a reputable and reliable source.

The energy you allow affects the quality and amount of income you receive.
Your hum drum lazy mood will create hum drum flow. Your energetic flow will create energetic flow. The point is to maintain a balance and raise it little at a time. We don't want burn out trying to maintain a high vibration right away....and we don't want to start off without momentum and try pushing our projects up a hill. Start where you are, and one step at a time. Balance, and then another step. Slow and steady wins the race in this aspect, even if we hit waves of fast and slow in between.
Your centered-ness will echo out through your work and world.


Overall....sometimes we do go completely off-grid and don't want no one in our business.
We create an income that is supportive and can be flexible, regardless of the economy or society... (that also means it doesn't rely 99% on facebook (mine is guilty of that, but I'm also okay with it going away forever too, no biggie, I've learned that I can create on the go anytime, anywhere.))
It provides what we need and more and we get to live our lives without question or explanation.
You do you.
Do what is right and keep going. Keep practicing and building and learning.
You always have a say in how you live and what you decide to interact or engage with.

Society has it's paved roads, but we can take the offroad path, or even cut out our own fucking hiking trail. Wear your snake boots and be sensible with what you can handle and what you WANT to handle and/or do.

** There are no rules in the wilderness. **

______________________







Breaking Free - Part IV ~ Structures and the Matrix

Crash course in recognizing the structures, corrals, and cages of the matrix.

We can't break free from what we don't see.
There are layers and layers of the structures and cages, so whereas we may see one part and understand it, there are often undefinable strands that still connect us and it together. Sometimes they are grabbing and holding onto us, sometimes we grab and hold onto them.

** If we are choosing it, then we are the one in control. There is absolutely nothing wrong with enjoying and using the systems when we are benefiting and expanding from them.

These layers often span across many fronts.
The financial systems, educational systems, economical, psychological, physical, etc. and often bind us to them through emotional, mental, and many exoteric identifiers.

The top layers include things like...
The whole 9-5 rhetoric.
The get good grades and graduate, go to college.
Look at these famous people.
Believe everything the media tells you.
All the obvious stuff to many.

Then the layers beneath them...
Work for a paycheck. Pay your bills.
You're one step ahead of everyone else, you'll get hired faster.
These people are in the know, so they know.
Here's the other news channel telling you other stuff.
The kinda obvious.

Then another layer, a bit deeper...
Look at this lifestyle, you know you want it...keep working.
Look at you and your fancy career, all that time you worked hard for.
Here's some other people agreeing with those people.
Here's another channel pointing out the wrongness of those others, now you're certainly on the right side!
Are we suspicious yet?

Want to go deeper?
Look at you, all living the dream. Now teach your kids the same things.
You can't quit, all this time you spent will be in vain!
We've changed what we said, now believe this new thing we are saying.
We are your friends.
O_o
You have to comply to this. These doors you have to walk through, there's no other way. If you don't do this, then you are ___ ____ ___... You've worked hard, good job, now work harder. Mental health isn't an excuse to not show up for this thing you need to do. You have to pay your bill...if you don't then ___ ___ ___. Here's some more fear. Do as we say. Your children have to comply. This is the way, come with us. That's crazy, that's unsafe. We will keep you safe. Look, here's this new thing to talk about. Look at these people complying, they will show you how. Look at what they do for the cameras, look how happy they are, following the rules. Show this to your children. Look at these things we decided to love and now you have to too. We're going to show your children while you're not looking. This is what you're 'supposed' to do. We're going to take away these things we can't even take away, but we're going to make you believe we can. No soup for you!

And this spans across all areas, everywhere, deeper and deeper through the layers.

However.... once you step into your own clarity and begin to uncover these layers, not even able to get to the very bottom.... you can begin to create your own world and reality, apart from the stories, the structures, the cages of the matrix.
They will still exist. They will still be there and often try to sway you in through a corral here and there and over there... but eventually you begin to see them.
It's kinda like the rabbit hole, but also knowing there's no end to the rabbit hole and there are hundreds of rabbits and holes... so even spending time there is a corral to keep you locked into discovering the answers and hidden agendas...

*** Start connecting and discovering yourself instead. ***

You can still connect on facebook, or telegram, or instagram, or all those fancy apps.
We don't have to give anything up.
We merely just need to use them and then always reconnect back to ourselves when we are done.

You know when you are sucked into something. You know when you are delving so deep you can't see which way is where. You know when things aren't making sense or lining up....
And THAT is the only clue you need to take back control of your time and attention and move back into you and yourself and your real actual life that's right in front of your face.

We have each our own true frequency. And while we can move into joining the stream of all the frequencies of the world...
WE HAVE THE SOVEREIGNTY and the ABILITY to come back home into ourselves and literately tune out the shit show out there.
It will still be there, but we don't have to stay. We don't 'have to' participate.
We can negotiate and handle it when we feel the need or desire, but we are NEVER obligated to consent, agree, or partake in the ideology of someone or something else.

_____________

If you are done with the job system, make your fucking door already. PLAN. Get behind yourself.
There are tools, outlets, opportunities, people, and unlimited amount of untapped areas you could very well excel in and enjoy. What is your true work?

If you are done with the education system, make the door. Leave or change the system you are involved with, almost all the information you ever need is available for FREE out there. There are already doors out there too. Enough people make a scene, changes have to come. There are tutors, co-ops, groups, support, and tools littered all over the place. Even creating a school and an alumni is possible, you don't have to give up the football or cheer teams EVER! Are you actually waiting for them to do something about what you want? Who cares about your children or your future more? Them or you?

If you are tired of the things they talk about or show on the news, stop watching. You can try others, but they all have their leans and ideologies they want to express in their own ways. What's yours?
Information gathering is one thing, but agreeing to their rendition of it is another. Facts are facts, but facts topped with some emotional sprinkles on top and how often they use the terms 'possible, could, might, should, maybe, depends, etc..." often get overlooked to where many believe they mean 'IS, WILL, DOES...' and then spread that further about how they 'are going to do this...' when in FACT it was just someone's bad interpretations... or covering up....
* just like "Let's Go Brandon!" when we all know that's not what was actually happening or being said.

Don't trust those who have 'connections' or 'in the know' or 'because my so-and-so is involved' and they tell you what to do or what they see...  Do you realize how many people simply want attention and followers? They want to be the next big influencer and 'get it right' so they can be idolized... pssh...
Look at these scary things I found out and you better start collecting this and that...
If you never heard that from any source, what would you be doing really? Do you think that person knows better than you? If so, it's time to make efforts to change that.
(( I buy food in bulk because I have 6 people to feed. And we used to live on a mountain that got snowed in and I'm used to having extra food...so really my cabinets being full is because I like having what I like and not getting stuck having to choose between the beans I don't know how to even cook and the rice my family doesn't really like to eat. Heaven forbid we are out of snack food and only have real healthy choices! I'll have to listen to that reminder until I go to the store...I mean you should have been here when we were out of the dinosaur chicken nuggets O_O !!! Mind you, the youngest person in this house is 17...and it wasn't him. I buy extra to 'keep the peace', not because it disturbs MY peace.))

*** Don't let it disturb yours!

See the cages, understand how to avoid them, know when you are entering a corral, and always always always know you have the ability to pick and choose and disconnect from anything that isn't serving you.
_____________


If you ever would like some crash course advice, hit up my inbox or post your questions. If you want to just fuck the system and grab the reigns overnight, there are ways to do that too.... I'm no stranger to living beyond the system, or navigating the wilderness, surviving years without income, racking up and paying off credit card debt, or even manifesting cold hard cash....all it takes is desire and focus. The tools are everywhere. I'm here to help you find the ones that are right for you.
This is my work, at least a part of it. I want you all to succeed and to be a badass creator and leader in your life! <3



_______________________
______________________________

Breaking Free  Part V - From Fear to Fabulous

So you just charged another $300 to your credit card and know there's not enough cash to cover it in your bank account. You weren't buying a go pro, no... it was just groceries, just a car part, just that thing you had to pay for now, because it is important now.

-- First off. Don't shame or guilt yourself about buying the things you need or the things you need to pay for. This is all just part of life for most of us. It's neither a bad thing or a good thing, it just is. Don't overwhelm yourself with an emotion that neither is supporting you or benefiting you. Guilt and shame are not very supportive, believe me.

So you have that grand plan of paying it off next month. Which may mean that the future is set in stone and you know you can.... OR it means you'll try, have every intent on getting ahead of that debt...but unless money falls in your lap from somewhere, it's going to not get paid off fully and/or will probably be more than that $300 by then, because you're going to have to eat next month too.

-- Second off. Don't blame, shame, or guilt yourself here either. The system is not created to support those who just don't bring in enough income, often punishes those who don't, and is built intentionally to keep them in 'their place'. You have the good intentions, you are not a criminal or a thief... and truthfully you know that you would pay off all your debts in an instant if you had the funds to do so. No one wants to choose to be late or behind on their debts. No one. So do not ever blame yourself.
Even if you made a bad decision and are racking up debt, you have learned that it doesn't feel very good to be late or behind on your payments. Be gentle with yourself, but also be serious.
This system is a tool, and you can definitely use it wrong and be used by it if you fall into the blame or shame game.

You get a bit worried. Fear creeps in. Things look overwhelming. You are frustrated. Maybe angry. Your energy is chaotic and tense. Your sights are narrowed and now what are you going to do?
We could say to relax and pay what you can. This may give you some breathing room and clarity for now, but that isn't going to move you to where you want to be. You don't WANT to be behind on bills or debts.
We could say to go all gung ho on it and fight to get it back in control. Take an extra job, do side hustles, fix fix fix! But that could only create more chaos and stress and even more debt, possibly take a toll on your health.
We could offer a plan that is different from your usual and you'll make progress, but it still isn't going to fix that fact that next month you need to buy groceries again.
We could cut back, not pay for things we usually pay for, reduce some of the stress...but that's not a fix, that's a cushion. It helps, but it isn't going to make it go away.
Fear still lingers and you feel trapped, suffocated, still angry, still holding onto shame or guilt and sometimes directing blame onto yourself or others.

** Looking for a fix outside of you with action basically creates a vibration that creates more of the problem.

*** When our attention and focus goes to fixing or fighting against something we don't want.
The energy repeats and builds upon that attention and focus. Thus creating more fixing and fighting.

The first action you need to take when that feeling of fear or worry arises, is to catch it, observe it...and move directly face first and all eyes ahead straight into the solution you want to see and witness.

When you look at your bills and you see them piling up.
Stop and connect to your energy.
Visualize that energy flow pouring out and covering those bills.
Feel that energy move out from you and make the debts fade away.
You energy is a never-ending stream, so IT is the river.
It all comes from within you.
When you focus on lack or struggle or worry, it closes that stream off and you can't give anything. Or what you can give is echoing the vibration of fear, worry, or lack.
When you turn your focus back on your true source within, let it first fill you up, then let it move outward and fill the spaces in your life you want that energy to go.
Keep your channel open, your river clear. (Keep your thoughts in control and your emotions in check, YOU are the captain, not anything else.)

Then... after you've connected and focused that energy. And it is feeling light and in alignment...
Take an action that sets it on course.
You can still stick to the old plan, or take the side gig, or relax..... but now your energy stream is going to move along with you through that action. And no matter what action you choose, IT HAS TO flow with the matching frequency.

Every time before taking an action, make sure you fill that action with the energy you want it to carry.
Visualize it, meditate it, yell words of wisdom in the mirror, etc.
It doesn't' matter HOW you do it, but just that you connect your Source to and through YOU and then to and through the actions and towards the focus at hand.

When it begins to flow and you don't up and stop it or muck it up with shit thoughts and unstable emotions...it builds momentum... and when it gets moving and you fall into trust with your Source energy.... it carries a fuckton of money with it....and/or the equivalent of your desires.
I rarely get $$$$ checks in the mail, but I have everything I want in regards to material things.
I may not get $$$$ to pay off a credit card overnight, but I am free to begin building on a new project.
I may even get $$$$ tomorrow, but I still intend to show up and do my work, because I like it what I do and even though some of what I do doesn't earn money....I'm still showing up for me and my energy.

Your energy doesn't have to rely on others or things out there.
Your money doesn't have to rely on others or things out there.
But in order for it to be received and included in your life, it does rely on you and your stream and whether you are cultivating that stream or not.
Make sure you're putting all the good things in your thoughts.
All the good things carried through your emotions.
Drown yourself in worth, in abundance, in love. Even your dark corners, douse them with more love and allowing and understanding...
Because when you love you, energy loves you.
And money is energy.