Training... a train... ?

 No one ever said that Dyson stick vacuumers sound like futuristic laser blasters.
Like dude... I would have brought one home long before now, had I known that!
You have no idea how THAT would have sealed the deal alone.
I mean picking up stuff from the floor is great and all...
but ... it sounds like a laser blaster.
I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!


Let me tell you what else I love!
Allowing all of myself.

and the wheel, and the rotation
and all the things, big and little
and water, and the forest
and ten bajillion other instances
and becomings

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I recently was offered a publishing contract
but I am declining the offer...
thanks, I guess, but no thanks!

We have recently become certified and accredited for spiritual life coaching
and currently progressing to get certified for other practices
we got pushed onto this whole jumbo jet train by the Alchemist...
not that there's a complaint in any of this..
but it kinda was not anything like I was expecting...nor would outright choose...


The Overseer popped her little head in yesterday...
and we heard her pleas, but smothered them out quickly.
I'm thinking this girl is like how Ego is often times portrayed (by others, not by me, we love Ego!)...
....as something to destroy...
and although she's causing more problems than in any way helpful...
I feel a bit of compassion for her.
We may take her in.
...in other words... alchemize and transmute her into being with us, instead of against us.
So... there's that... her concerns were legit for her perspective... but she can't see what Soul sees if she's standing in the dark...
And Soul says we need to go find her and give her a hug...

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I have 1 dress to sew and all it's appliques...
and I really am not going to dribble around here all day
...really...

word for the day....
'don't wait, do it now if you can'
delayed trains go out of commission, or other ways,
and make the passengers upset...
and you're the passenger, yo.

hahahahaha!
I guess I can go cut out and sew a dress...

fuck




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meatburglers lie in wait until the sun is high, so they can blind you with their multimillion dollar spatulas and toasted tomato toppings. use your shields of bread to deflect their onslaughts...and when they get close... snatch them up into a glorious feast of delectable protein.





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I just typed in the title to this post...because I always do that last...
and I'm like wtf! O_O
because the Alchemist is (not) trying not to laugh so fucking hard about this whole analogy
I MADE UP
about getting pushed onto the train...
BUT IT IS THE WHOLE POINT
and I swear I'm not doing it to myself....
and he's like...
"I like your train of thought."
AAAAAHHHHH!!!!
WHY?!
"I got you back on track...that's all."
he smiles because he KNOWS I both love and hate puns....
especially when I MADE IT ALL UP... and he's the one ...
"...pulling you along..." He laughs.   ('train' in etymology means to pull;draw)
"...into that whole drawing...coaching thing...?" He shrugs with a huge smirk...
AAAH!!!!  
"And guess what?" He smiles like the devil...
...I can't even... I glare at him..
"Guess who the conductor is?" He closes his eyes...awaiting my eventual realization.

FUCK!!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

I throw a fit in the aetherland... while the Alchemist devours joyfully in my 'knowing what I know' tantrum

"You didn't think she showed up out of the blue for nothing, eh?" He jests.
....
I go look up the etymology...(because I am obsessed)
- to bring together...
- one who leads or guides
- having the power or property of leading

I cradle my head in my hands...
I am on this thing and the Overseer is the conductor...

He steps up beside me...
"It was just a little push... want to jump off?" He asks...
I peer out from behind a finger... the train is moving... fast... really fucking fast...
The momentum is not waning, in truth, it's gaining speed...
I did say a jumbo JET train..

He smiles... again pleased with his efforts.

He turns and walks off.
"There's a bar car." He reminds me, happily, satisfied... a small snicker under his breath...



sigh...

and maybe this whole train is me... the cars, the people, all the things...
and we ride together, our perceptions dependent on which car we are riding in at the time
...and this Overseer... she's where we all think we want to be...
But we just need her to be a part of us... so we can see her car... we need to know what she's doing and where she's taking us...
We need her too...

who's in the bar car? I wonder...
ugh... probably Ego... She's celebrating right now...
of course

of fucking course...
<3

DO NOT SIGN UP FOR EMPATHIC ABILITIES

 Want to see something fucking crazy...

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That was my welcome screen as I opened this fucking laptop... (it shows random images..at random)
Ok...so either facebook and windows are in cahoots...
as well as with blogger.com...
Or the Universe is going fucking crazy!
YAY!

Cause today was fucking crazy.
and the fucking fucking fucking empath bullshit I have to deal with is incredulous!

Look... I KNOW absolutely for sure this is another one of those fucking shift upgrades
And I KNOW all the things and all the feels and all the processes
and I KNOW it's all fucking good...

but good fucking god...
I got nothing done today... without a bit of effort on my part
I did get my fucking dyson ordered... but not from the place I was planning to get it from.
I did do a few minor tasks, not including the yard stuff I was gonna do......
ugh....intentions are fuckers.

I feel fucking great! That I ordered the dyson and the vessi's and the shirt from zulily, and I bought some courses for the fun of it.
And I feel fucking great! That I KNOW empath bullshit is only temporary and I can kill people another day. And I KNOW whatever fucking upgrade we're going through is gonna be so fantastic that I get that fucking fantastic monetary match to go with it.

I just want to fucking SCREAM!!!!

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In the meantime...while I'm expanding into fucking awesomeness fuckery...
Sao Paulo must be in this same weird funky vibrational zone.
And shit is literately getting thrown at me...
I'm glaring at the Alchemist like he's a fucking bitch
asshole did not say it was going to be this kind of bitch fuckery I'd have to deal with.

That asshole is fucking laughing.
ARGH!
He likes to see me mad. 

there is not enough emojis I can possibly post to express my disdain and huge temper tantrum I'm throwing.

He slaps me on the back shoulder... hard. A huge smirk on his little grubby ass face.
"You'll be fine." He mentions causally, as if nothing means nothing means nothing.

"I want my paycheck." I clarify...harshly.

He leans back in his chair. Kicks his feet up on this imaginary desk...
"You just spent it on all that crap you ordered. It'll be here, what...next Wednesday..." He smiles.

I scream. Cause he's fucking right.
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Hey! Imma go take a hot shower and hang with the Alchemist for a little bit
He makes me laugh... at myself... but still... it's the thought.

:)

Dark Knights don't follow the rules

 We are sufficiently getting some things done and a whole lot of NOT


I had this dream last night ...
We were in Sao Paulo, Brazil.
... and there was a walking parade group handing out little crispy horn-like crackers...
    (not like bugles... but if those were stretched longer and way way skinnier... and they were tan)
and they'd hand them out to people saying if you eat them you ask for forgiveness for a sin or something..

So I was handed some and ate them
     (they do just crunch easily and taste pretty good... assuming dream tastes are similar)
anyway, I hate them and was like...

"Forgive me for the times when I act like a jerk."
        LOL  because I couldn't think of a damn thing!
all the people there thought that was lame, but I swear I couldn't recall anything I needed 'forgiven for'

...sooo yeah... I was clearing out the hotel room at this rather luxury hotel (we had 2 rooms, yo!)  
    and I was going to bail on the group of people/family I was with and not tell them.
   they were planning to drive 11 hrs or something...
   but I was not going to join them and take a plane instead, cause I'm not stupid...
    and I was done with their vibe.
One of my friends there said, that it would be scary to go alone, cause she'd get lost.
   I said, "I'm not scared. I've been to L.A..."
     (like that means anything at all *insert eye roll)

So... Sao Paulo... which I kept calling 'San Paulo'...
   WHICH in fact is the same exact thing, just different languages... for the win! (Saint Paul of Tarsus)

I kept trying to look it up on my phone in my dream and I was upset that google wouldn't let me
as it didn't understand what SAN Paulo even was... *sigh
   but I was spelling it correctly in dreamland.. for once!

AND now that I just wrote this out, I'm thinking it has something to do with St. Paul...
As in St. Paul Minnesota... the twin cities... (20 20)
You saw it here first, if anything happens regarding asking for forgiveness...or crackers....

(I wonder if their election was rigged... ssshhh  )

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so that was fun... I got to travel, see a rather gorgeous dreamland city, with a fancy hotel, friendly parade people, I got forgiven for being a jerk, had some cracker horn things, walked with a friend, and got to use my phone...


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Your authority is not something you need to ever negotiate.
There's nothing outside of you that requires you to hand it over.
And even if you have, it's refilled every moment.
Authority belongs to you, flows through you.
It's something that comes to you freely...unending...
You can hand it out all day every day, 
but you don't have to give it away.
You get to keep it and use it for yourself if you choose
And there's nothing to justify about it, to anyone, ever.

There's appreciation for you rule keepers. Those of you who assert that this line is the correct one, for those who don't know.
And there's appreciation for you rebels. Those who devour the barriers and constraints, for those who know better.
We can be wild, we can be free.
We can be safe in the zoo too...with all that free food...
Both places can be nice at times, and both can be not so nice at times...
We all can play in between the two too.
But you get to choose.
Don't let anyone choose for you.
You're the author...and it comes from you, through you, into being.

PS: Don't be a jerk and spew it over others. They don't have to listen to you.

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Batman doesn't follow anyone else. He does his own thing.
He maintains his authority...
    (and I am in no way whatsoever condoning Ben Afl-ACK playing a good batman)
                      (why don't I own a batman costume...hmm?)


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I got hired for a job...and I don't think I can do it...
like I don't want to do a certain aspect of it...
or...can't do it... so there's that...
conundrum...




for some more weirdness...
my grandma dropped by last night.
Yeah...
okay then...
She says hello. Asked how everyone was doing.
I asked if she was coming back.
She sighed and begrudgingly said...'probably'
'but not yet. I'm trying to talk them out of it.'

I'm assuming her council/guides/whatever are getting on her ass...
Lol.

I have no idea.

But if someone becomes pregnant next year in my family....
you've probably got my grandma in you!!

just saying... O_O

you heard it here first.

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I really should be working...



but I don't 'should' on myself.


OH wait!!
There was a second dream, I forgot until just now!!

I owned a raft. It was motorized. You could drive it with your phone.
And I left on the raft...but these people/family were with me until I could safely get to the Mississippi River. Then I had to say goodbye, and I hugged this guy and told him I would miss him.
Then left on my raft, but the river police wouldn't allow you to have more then 12 animals on your raft or something... and I was worried I had too many! LOL
I kept trying to think of how many pets I actually had on my raft, but I didn't know. Some other guy on his raft, let me put some of my pets on his, so I wouldn't get in trouble.
And the river was moving only because some monkeys and some deer/goats were at the beginning of the river, running, making the water move....  ???? idfk

Anyway...
Maybe that's why authority given to others is a bad thing.
I wasn't doing anything wrong or anything that negatively affected others.
Or affected others at all.  period...

Can we not play this game...
We are not against you.


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So monkeys and kittens and bright colored mittens..
water and stackers and parades with small crackers..
Warm sunny days that melt your ice creams...
These are a few of my favorite dreams...

Bingo was his name-O

 SHUT THE FRONT DOOR

like... this path, or whatever one wants to call it...
is the shit.
the good shit, of course.
     (the kind that flows out, not too fast, not too slow..
          smooth, without all the chunks.
                 relieving kind...and leaving with you wondering what the heck you ate.)

besides the point

so random things... things we are not going to divulge
         (because the actual physical reality of it, is irrelevant...
                 and frankly moot.)
as the energy is just deciphered specifically for each individual...
These random things... appeared... not out of nowhere...but out of nowhere...
and they were here ALL ALONG.
   and that whole vibrational reality and receptivity of our frequency is spot on
 

and yes, we're being vague, cause we don't have to be anything else. HA!

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AND

yes, there's an AND

A moment happened today... where you get fired up to respond to a facebook post.
   (but not the perceived bad kind!)
and we posted... but we was skerd cause maybe we were too passionate...
  but we weren't...
and the universe said it was just source building up inside you so you could express the fuck outta it.
   (and no.... we didn't elaborate on politics or anything like normal people...)
 So we had lots of likes.... (as if those mean anything...)
   because we got to explain eight grade quantum reality to third graders...
                   (disclaimer: not actual grades...just an analogy)
               (and we were glad our writing skills came out in a way that were understood)
...

in smaller words... we provided a clear and balanced perspective of 'ego' and how trying to kill it, is in no way at all helpful to anyone.
      (Please do not harm the egos)


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This is in fact the second blog post of the day.... but we gonna just let it hang out with the tab open for another day or so, lol... no use in thinking we are actually gonna write more often.

I'm busy proofing and editing screenplays right (write!) now. ;)

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I feel like a coach... and I'm not getting ____...
     (DOH!
                I just realized a HUGE thing I shifted the other day...
                People do not provide for me...
                The Universe provides for me... sometimes through people and sometimes other)

I advised two people today alone. And that doesn't include the instance I posted above.
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not procrastinating...but waiting until the invoice is paid, got some work to do...
cut out some canvas for 3 of the frames... and need more...
could probably go cook... kinda hungry
edited a screenplay yesterday and need to add a scene... but almost finished with that one.
then reread the other and make sure what was changed works

you know those times when you are just looking around at  all the things you want or should or could do...
but you aren't enticed to do any of them...
that's this place right now, lol

and I'm blatantly just writing to be writing, with nothing to really say.
good practice for the typing kill, I suppose.

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So ...

Body is good and wants to eat simpler things. She just wants rice, and yogurt, and some meat. She's been whining when there's anything more than that on the plate...

Mind is not impressed by any of the tasks we've offered her. She wants a new toy to play with. I think it might be a dyson. ... 'Be sure to get that dishwasher too." she scowls at us.

Brain is tapping the schedule she laid out, trying to get us to initiate something towards the inevitable goal.

Ego is kinda thrilled that we called the Overseer a bitch and not her. We told her we wouldn't fire her, and she just feels all loved and shit. She's been complimenting Soul's ability to comment on facebook without sounding like a douche.

The Kid is taking a nap.

Soul is not worried at all about Brain's schedule and completely believes we will be ahead of schedule after we've sufficiently filled our very important laziness quota. She's been pondering some things and reevaluating some old beliefs. Probably will be a purge soon. That'll be fun.
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Day after....cause that's how we roll
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"We should have something of our own..."
   She looks at us, as if we ever had answer for her.
Perhaps, child...
   But if we resonate with all the things we love...
how do we choose just one?
   How do you eat just one meal? forever?
Eat only at the same restaurant? forever?
   The same cuisine? Shall we only eat tacos? Only spaghetti? Only steak?

"How about...just me?"  She stares at all the creations...
               (not 'eat' her... gah!) (but create regarding her...ugh)
wtf...
WHAT THE FUCK!
She reminds me of two of my favorite people.
   The Christ and my son...

And we all glance at each other and simply...and without resistance... nod.

God, we love her.

Ego reminds us once again... that she's the one who found this little spirit.
We again acknowledge that...just to shut her up.

The Kid dances off with one of her stuffed creatures in her hand, flopping erratically.
Satisfied...
So easy to satisfy a child...
To satisfy us all.

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So...
give in to your inner child.
GIVE IN
Give them whatever they want.
And it's best to do it sooner, rather than later...

And ...

give in to your children
GIVE IN
Give them whatever they want
And it's best to do it sooner, rather than later...

Or you can require obedience...
You can require they fill your needs first...
You can manipulate and hold something apart from them...

But you're only doing it to yourself... denying yourself like you deny them, like you deny heaven

So
Love your kids.
Love them.
Love yourself.
Love you.
Love all of you... which is all of the ALL.


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I wasn't gonna post this one...
but now that we've gone all kid-friendly... lol
I get to.

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The 2020 bingo card is almost full...
the season finale is coming late next month...

I need one of these to win...

Alien Disclosure/Arrival    (they are already here...)
Asteroid Impact     (please kill us all)
Revolution/Civil War       (Patriots <3)
Shut Down of Media and Social Media   (gonna happen anyway eventually for an overhaul)
Country of Texas   (hope you like bugs)
Nesara/Gesara    (conspiracy, don't bother looking it up)
Murder for not wearing a muzzle    (aka a mask...self-explanatory)
Martial Law    (snitches get stitches)
Zombies   (not deer... people)
Food Shortages   (ummm....this may have already began)
Revelation   (yes)


Stay tuned for the next episode

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And something with tetrahedrons.... for Dec. 21, 2020
this is new...   
                            (yes, I was attempting to connect to my future self on that date... this is what I got
                                from myself...)  (of course... the transmission and receiver are different, because
                              reception is strange when actively doing this on purpose) (But more or less...
                                   it's a let down...so don't have high hopes about it.) (Things have shifted clearer)


     (The Tetrahedron represents the element of Fire and is linked to the Solar Plexus; the center for personal power and acceptance. It creates the natural balance between the physical and spiritual. Each side sits flat, no matter how it is turned, making it the perfect symbol for balance and stability.)
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Balance, stability, power, acceptance, FIRE...
ok...

so the asteroid, LOL
The great reset? HA!
It is 2012 anyway... so maybe...
Hooray!
Why is this exciting?!

wait...the asteroid causing the reset!!
and then the food shortage causes the revolution... oh wait...
or causes zombies...
or the aliens... try to 'rescue' us...what's left of us...
but people are afraid and don't want to go with them cause they watched the movie where they get eaten

HaHA!!!

Sounds fun. Who else signed up for this skit here on earth at this time?

Dude....some dude just referenced Martial Law on the news channel...two seconds ago
because people are listening to the other people in charge... willingly..
pssh.... whatever...   not my circus

wait... maybe Trump does win and the election is overthrown...
Or doesn't... and Texas leaves the union.... so the reptilians can't control them/us.
wait...
I've lost track HAHAHAHAHA!
This is fun, bullshitting about the 2020 season finale...







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Are Hawaiian's allowed to laugh loudly...
    Or just a low ha....?

We've killed the overlord

~ Overseer ~

noun: overseer; plural noun: overseers
person who supervises others, especially workers

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This bitch....
let me tell you about her...

she likes those little words, the ones that come out all snide like
the ones that keep you cradled close to the small little things
only the things where you are kept in line
out of trouble
out of sight
out of mind...

saw her the other day...maybe a week ago
and she was dismissed.
this overseer... this over see-er....
who likes to tell you all the things she sees possible...
which in every case is a small piece of the universe...and she's also fucking blind.
so it wasn't much...
but we heard her little words and saw her little ruse...
fucking rule-followers...
there's no way to even describe the annoying perception I have of you.

and then we dismissed the rules...
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And today... a few simple words shifted the entire trajectory of possibilities into this lane.
"As an initiate of the Universe..."

those words... especially once we did this weird thing of Joe Dispenza's...
(which truthfully cut off short and left you floating in space without any aim whatsoever, lol)

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HOLD THE PHONE!
so it's like 2 days later since I wrote that above ^ ^ ^
   (I'm wonderful at stopping when the feeling dies out...
           or starting when the feeling actually finally comes)
But things...glorious things...
big big shifts...
and not just the energetic kind.

There's a struggle here unfortunately.
As even if there's a way to describe and attribute, or even analogy-ize the explanation...
which there is... and for once words do exist...
There's something here that begs not to be disclosed.
And Ego is shaking her head confused, saying 'It's not me, yo.'
   even if she probably would if she wanted to...

A strange thing.
To become mightily aware of a specified and glorious aspect...
and not divulge...
not divulging the secret....which is not a secret at all...
but the commoners.... would only ravage the garden if you told them...

so...
I'll have to save it for those who are brought hither.

And it is something....

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luckily the Alchemist is here too.... which is great, because he's invested now, lol.
Signing up for the next round perhaps.
God love him.
Signing contracts and shit so as to see this through for awhile longer.
"Taking on more responsibility." He grumbles slightly.
but would it be any fun if you knew it would be simple and easy...
"Yes." He assures me. "The payoff however..."

and asking about what equals success in the aetherlands...
"Walking the path. Especially with you."

awwww😭

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Body is nodding. Satisfied with outcomes and ease. She thinks it would be a great time to start exercising from time to time, only to immediately follow those thoughts with a huge belly laugh. She really just wants to take a hot shower and read.

Mind is chill. Still high. She hasn't been back down for a while now.

Brain is thrilled that tasks are coming into view and all she wants to do is schedule them out in the correct order....only to hope for once that the rest of us listen to her itinerary.

Ego is kicking her feet... waiting for something to cling to....but only because it would be fun to do the old things every now and then... just to fuck with us... She thinks it's funny.

The Kid is waiting for us to get the new canvas frames wrapped...so we can start painting stuff. She wants colors. Lots of colors.... but more or less just eagerly waiting to play with some magical rocks tomorrow.

Soul is almost about to demand things, giving us the hard stare. She wants us to meditate in the afternoons....IMMEDIATELY, she stresses. So.... we know that she'll lose her shit if we don't oblige... and we do not want that.

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I think we're done here...
ttyl


Bring home mountains of spring water and drink to your heart's delight... but know that the water isn't just water and your heart is more than what you have in your chest. All things are replenished, all things are filled, and all things are brought forth as puddles under your feet. Be sure to were your water boots and splash that shit. It's fun.