Removal of blocks.... LOL... oh the synchronicities!

 "ALL things... and No thing"
 
The atmosphere of totality within both Soul and Fire.

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When an earthquake happens, and he debris falls
there's still remnants of scattered pieces that tumble off in unsynced timeframes.
until it's all fully settled... at least until the rains come, or the ice.
or the aftershocks...
where then even more unsettled chunks find their way to their resting place.

That's what all this feels like.
Pieces of you, or what you thought of as you... relentlessly removing themselves
another chunk here, another bit there... the fall away
maybe the whole damn city crumbles and falls into the void.
and you stand watching it dissipate, having acknowledged it's passing...
and also having chosen it's demise.

Maybe you'll build a new world on the graves of the last...
but as I realize the luxury of having this experience...
I find no reason to build a new world...nor save the last.
~I want to be free.~

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These things are falling away on their own accord...
but perhaps Thoth's little visit perpetuated the onset to be something more perceivable...
there wasn't an earthquake
there wasn't an initiation of anything that shook lose the foundations
there wasn't even a desire, a voice, an anything...

but here I stand, watching it dissolve.
a beautiful demolition
one of my favorite places... this view of destruction and chaos
and the dying of falsehoods.... of filth

and this time...
there won't be a rebuilding
a redesigning...
the wilds will take over...
and life will regain it's sovereignty
~I will be free.~

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this also comes with a huge 3d reality dose of...
maybe I will delete my whole profile and all the things that go along with it on every social media account
maybe I will also toss in the fire pit all the art, all the books, all the writings, all the pictures, all the everything
maybe I will

and I often refrain from using the word 'I' in tons of what I write...
because it feels too abrupt and personal...
but the others don't exist anymore... the 'we'... the 'she' ... the 'us' ...
all the world has been devoured
and all of everything

and only I stand
and I AM the wilderness
~I am free.~

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Dream:
rather irritating dream trying to reconnect with son who was held away by forces...
not in ill intent, but just making it difficult...
anyway... we finally got back together ..
he was saying something about
"Germany.... something something something... Ganesh."
and I knew in this dream that it was something to remember...
"Germany.... something something something.... Ganesh."
     (yo, sorry, but I can't write shit down and bring it back with me! I tried that before, it doesn't work)

so.... I don't know what that means...
Germany... obvious... I'm guessing the country, or the philosophy, or the culture...
Ganesh... also known as Ganesha.... is the hindu god, Lord of the People
     ~ readily identified by his elephant head. He is widely revered, more specifically, as the remover of obstacles; the patron of arts and sciences; and the deva of intellect and wisdom. The god of beginnings... son of Shiva and Parvati


I liked leaving the dream....
so... maybe we are getting overrun by Nazi's... who knows.

now that I think about it, I had previous dreams with Germans taking control, years ago...
I probably wrote them here on this blog.... lol

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anyway... that's it for today

later

 

Apples of GOLD

 Thoth made an intentional visit last night.
   out of the blue, I did not initiate that in any form.
It was helpful though, as I had some inquiries I was fumbling with.
   those involving publishing contracts and recognition...

"Are you a producer?" He asks outright...in his usual tone of 'let's get straight to the blunt point'.
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"Ummm... a creator...?" I replied hesitantly, having already associated those as being the same thing.

"Are you a producer?" He asks again... a micrometer slower...enough to dull the sharp edges.
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"No...?" I say...slowly..unsure...cause it didn't sit right, but wasn't it almost about kinda the same?

"The Apple tree produces apples." He throws me into a view of clarity.
"It produces that which is consumed. It get all the recognition. It gets all the glory. It receives attention and cause.
But it is the Creator that has formed the tree, the sky, the wind, the breeze, the seed, the leaves...the apples." He speaks softly.
"Creators are those who design and mold the powers into flesh. It is us who are are what is unseen, unheard, unspoken, unwrought. Yet we are the becoming of all things."

   ... and you wonder why I find earthly humans less than mediocre and downright boring...

this convo went on for a bit, leaving me in a state of complete wonderous solidity with self
  we discussed the recent truth bomb of the chakra system and how they relate to elements...
like Base chakra is Earth
Sacral is Water
Solar Plexus is Fire
Heart is Air...
Throat is Sound.... and it was confirmed that Sound is an element...
3rd eye is... Electricity... I had it as 'thought' for a short time, but it's more than that.
Crown just so happens to be Will.

above that would be Consciousness ( I think? and the creation white diamond above that)
below Base at the real Root would be Atoms and Cells....but there's a word for this we didn't discuss. It has more to do with the breakdown and disassembly of what was created to be sent back out into uncreation below that (there's a black diamond there)

Thoth responded that as creators... that
     "Say what you Will" is as true as it was when the moon was set in place.
     That speaking through our Sound throat chakra what our crown Will chakra desired was how we incorporated the 'unhindered energies into solid matter and visible form"....
      That the heart chakra of Air (the lightest taught element in a sense) used the heartbeat magnetic resonance to move it through the portal of uncreation into creation... (not a real portal, but a vibrational substance trigger...we didn't get too far into it. But it's like the 'breathe' of life or something... )


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You know..... I don't know how much of this is relevant to any other being on the planet....
or whether current 'science' can back any of this up in a mutable way...
but... yo... I have no reason to doubt Thoth, as there was a real reason he was on the council in Atlantis with us. Dude is lit.


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Wow... Biden has been talking on tv for like a whole 30 minutes thus far...
is he allowed to do that?  it's almost queue time for him to mumble something unintelligible

I have a list of stuff to tackle today...
it's 2pm... and I'm still here... but I did make a smoothie this morning... so that's 1!!
am not going to do outside stuff...it's raining...so that's 5 not gonna happen...
that leaves 3 possibles... or whatever else might pop up...

anyway...gonna go...
here's a pic








"Letting it go doesn't mean it leaves forever. It only allows it to grow to fullness, ripening to sweetness and returning in a form that is meant for you."

Super men create their own stories...

 The 'new' Justice League was just the old Justice League with added scenes.
... fat batman was still in it
Aquaman was in it, but we didn't get to see enough of him :(
Wonder Woman seemed much stronger/faster than when she was in her own films...
The Flash still only talks about love...just like the series I also don't watch.
Cyborg still sucks and has no real emotional value.
I still only liked the part when Superman went berserk and laser eyed them.

Superman doesn't get enough credit...
and I wish Marvel would write for him... rescue him from the toilet rim of DC writers...
Batman too...and get a better actor, either go back to CB, or get someone with some personality
Wonder Woman too.... she has more potential than the shit show of 1984...and we don't need to see her smiling at some kid in every scene...good god enough, we already KNOW she's the good guy. Who's writing for you people!!?
And fix that crap ideology of Atlantis in Aquaman. It's not some fantastical city like Harry Potter under the sea shit. NO. And do a huge overhaul of the red haired Ariel wanna be girl...
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Soooo
re-cap... of the multi-universal projects littering the horizon...
quails... are 5 weeks old.
coop is almost done. The hard stuff is anyway.
weather is not freezing or pouring down with water (well...a little rain today)
I literately bought a kickboxing bag stand thing on a whim.
I already had the gloves....so... ya know how it is...
still waiting for stimmy money
still waiting for tax return money
my cash stash is like more than halfway to the top of the box I have it in
Imma bid on another storage auction Wednesday....
which might also be the day the coop gets mostly finished.
still waiting for feedback and updates/responses on a few other things I did...
    these are secret...
garden is ready for stuff.... but weather...
will need mulch and other stuff for garden soon.... but weather...
    and we're already busy, so that's fine.
need to find/borrow/fix a tiller for other garden...
I promise I am not a homesteader....even if I like being at home
the house is a mess and needs cleaned.... need maid.
I still hate cooking... need chef
   (but was awfully happy when the oldest brought home groceries!, Like new stuff, yay!)
Isaac is getting all ornery... poor old dog who can barely walk
kids are doing good, oldest is taking another trip to DC
youngest is doing his thing... and maybe we are close to considering a job(?)
no art, no time/focus/momentum for such creative endeavors
only minimal writing... getting there...
     still have book 7 gelling...it's busy, still some screenplays wanting attention, and here....
     none of this includes random facebook posts and comments....
   

anyway.....
gonna go ghost soon
be sure to miss me

pic, cause I gotta get that in here



You know...
there's a blog post I wrote a few years ago about Superman...
 It's titled... "What I learned from Superman." 
   <<<HERE>>>
and ugh... for someone who doesn't like him how he's portrayed in the movies so much...
I hold onto that huge sliver of hope that one day the creators will get it right
I like Henry Cavill playing him, (the chin is tolerable, ok)
but the story...the plot, the everything else... severely lacking for such a potentially incredible hero

Heaven help me that I bought more crypto today...  cause it dropped...
like dude... stimulus money is not here yet yo!
but do I listen... no.
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* whole paragrapheses I deleted...cause you don't need to know

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I'm sure there's something really deep to share...

but I got places to be
I might be back tomorrow...or later...or never...or next week...

I only stream consciousnessssss.... i promisssssssss

 I wondered what it would take to inspire a post strong enough to get me to write once again.

It was seeing the dying of the light within another's eyes.

My dear...
I see you trying to comfort yourself as you do things...
    ...all the while screaming in silence a resounding NO!
I see you hiding behind your masks...even though it doesn't fit correctly...
I see your fear and pain and that ache...
    ...the one that prays someone...something will grasp you from your slumbering nightmare.

You can't hide your eyes, even if you hide your hesitance behind that muzzle.

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Someone was telling me about what they would do... "if they had to" obey this or that rule.
    something particularly loud in today's world...
But my dear...
You never ever ever have to do anything you genuinely do not want to do.
Don't prepare yourself to do it,
don't think about the how,
don't pretend how brave and well thought out your ruse will be.

Bravery doesn't arise from conquering yourself and pretending you were strong....

Bravery comes with resolving to uphold yourself... and BEING strong.

Stop getting those ass backwards.
We are tired of seeing you die inside.

It doesn't matter what you choose...
But if you are killing yourself to make a certain choice fit...
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It's been a few weeks, eh...
since I actually came here to write, AND post it and NOT delete it...
Lots of acclimating to some new space lately.
Projects passing through and some coming to an end.
Many others still in the energetic world.... and yet to be revealed...
   many of which will remain a secret...as long as possible...
...it's a personal challenge for me...so don't take it personally, lol.
I'm sure you'll be able to feel the echoing of their presence if they travel through my world

The Aethers are jumbly...like there's a signal, but the signal is flickering...
you see what's coming in, but it's not smoothly received.
static in the skies...
all it takes is a bit reconfiguring of your own reception rod...
but you gotta realize that's what you need first, lol.
Blah...
all good now, but the world is still bleeding out with redirectives and demoralized distractions of every kind
The world is at the edges... if you haven't been paying attention, btw
tipping point... or also what we call the turning point...
It will all be worth it, just stand true.
I could probably go into specific details and explanatory foresights... but why ruin your movie.
That is the fun of a movie though, correct?
To take you on some whirlwind of a journey... to evolve your character... to test your resolves...
to write you a story when you refuse to write your own


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These quail... are so close to being 100% outside... but that wind is being a bitch
I'm eagerly waiting for tax returns and stimmy money to grace my presence....
   I've got investments to make YO! and to restock my savings account...and pay for my cow.

pic before I forget... or lose interest...




kinda bored
and I ran out of things to write...


Raya and the last dragon wasn't too bad...
I like the cultural references... I didn't like the my little pony version of dragons...

Chaos walking was...kinda meh... short.. a few funny parts...

oooh... Justice League is up... might watch that...
WTF.... 4 hours... good god... *insert overwhelming emoji
     I don't know if I want to tolerate fat batman again...
...  but Aquaman is in it...yeah?...

ooooh, they have the mandalorian season 2... oh dang...
....I wonder if the quality is watchable...

decisions...

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