hmmmm....disheartening...I got kicked out of a group, even though I'm part of the group too... go me!
However did I manage that....by doing nothing, lol. See the world just flings me away like a nothing, or whatever, and people think they know me, but really...truly only one person knows me and it certainly isn't myself.
Want to hear some 'wow, this is such a coincidence' info....considering I don't believe in coicindence, lol.... Remax just sent me a card in the mail for a referral if I, or anyone I know is interested in buying or selling real estate.
It's gangstalking!! Electronic vibes they send out on certain people to make them believe in a god, but are in fact a conspiracy to get people to do what they want....
Ha. Because if the boss man had sent it, He would've signed the bottom....
Oh, shit....holy crap....He signed the back of the damn card....wtf?! I had to look so I would be sure.....and on the back it reads...God bless America....wtf...
I know its close to July 4th, but it says GOD on it...lol.....these freaky omg, incredible moments make my day.
Well....I guess I can at least give them a call....nothing like getting something done that may or may not produce a result...but who doesn't like gambling every once in a while. But at least it is either no result, or a OMG, INCREDIBLE result, haha.....anyway, I'm moving to Valleybrook soon, haven't you heard....once the boss man gets all this footwork done for me.
Well...that was rather awesomely freaky...
Other news....I did not screw up yesterday when I did 2 photoshoots...one with one lady and one with a very talkative 5 year old! (bug obsessed five year old!) But they went great and got quite a few good shots, so I get to edit them today! YAY for fun work for a change, lol. Plus I get to practice using photoshop which is double great. Tonight I do have to sew up more Lion Kings and Doc, McStuffins appliques, but that's okay...I get to stay home today! (yes, this makes me rather happy!)
Going to go lay in the hot hot sun first, so I can get my tan on before going on vaca to the beach.....which is still so freaking far away! argh!
I feel all broke too, but I blame facebook...but paycheck comes tomorrow...and other big paycheck comes next week...and hopefully my other idea to avert facebooks moronic actions will save ShadowDragon Dreams from the poor house.
Have to do the kids school registration still and order next years books for 6th and 4th grades (yikes!) and I think I will make time to paint this fancy old chair that has been severely neglected and always pushed to the bottom of my to-do list....so...I think I'll let the last come first today.
Have to go get busy! WheeeEEeeEEEEeeeee
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Laughing at chaos.....
Props are going to be the death of me.
One of my clients (yay, I get to say client!) wanted some props for her photoshoot (yes, the free photoshoot) and found a chair she liked on craiglist....she said she will buy it and give it to me since she has nowhere to put it anyway, lol.
I offered to pay her for it (it's only $20) but she said no...well...there are some awesome people out there after all.
I have 2 photoshoots tomorrow!!! One at 6:45 am in Chatt. and another at 6:30 ...in Chatt....
so you know where I'll be.
Yes...in the other town that has more people....the town that I'm slowly debating moving to, because even though there's more people, Publix and Greenlife is closer...so is my mom's pool. So is more business, which equals more money, so is hubby's work. And I can take my work with me ;)
And saving money on gas...
However...I need a house that is finished. with an updated kitchen, hardwood floors (I hate carpet!), a nice neighborhood, a yard big enough for a dog and a garden, double garage, 3 bed, 2 bath, and either an extra room or a full finished basement for my work. Lots of windows, but not lots of walls (I hate walls!), and a paved driveway because we are going to need somewhere to do art class and rollerskate and ride bikes. Minimum of 1200sq.ft. ch/a and a fenced in yard.
Problem with all the above is that a house like that is over $150,000.... or more like over $175,000.... and we are not that rich yet. And then I'd have to lock my door when I leave home, and we couldn't shoot guns in the yard or have loud annoying guineas.....(which btw, I have I think 11 keets!!! they keep moving, so at least 10) but I think I'm ok with that.
But....then I'd need a better vehicle....and a place to put my props....But....being closer to town, I could open up a shop and store my props there, lol. But then I'd have 4 jobs....and no time....But....they'd be sparatic and would actually help my adhd issues, so I would actually work less and make more and not get bored.
But...then I would have more money to take vacations....which in turn is bad because once I go to Australia, I may not come back at all....or the Maldives. I can stay there and make island clothing and take pictures for the tourists....
Anyway...let's wake back up and share a thought.
Hmmm...I'm thinking I need a freaking cell phone once I am able to make any sort of money off taking pictures....dang it...how I don;t want to pay for something...ugh!
I'm thinking my to-do list is manageable, but I don't want to do any of it except the easy stuff I can't do yet (I have no money to do it). I'm thinking that I have to get up early and there is probably zero chance that once I lay down I will actually go to sleep. I'm thinking this life out here in the boonies are for hillbilly's and hicks and I'm neither...nor do I want to be. I'm thinking this house needs so much work done, that it will never get finished and it makes me frustrated that it isn't. I'm thinking I'm getting bored writing about nothing too, lol.
I have other things to say, but they would be un-understandable, and some peoples would take them the wrong way, and I'd have to delete this post eventually because I might feel bad later about sharing my real thoughts.
Fuck it, let's do it anyway...it's the least I can do after you bravely managed to read all that other crap I wrote above.
I'm frustrated. Not at people (well, besides the idiot people who don't know jack from shit) but about more higher up there issues. Like the big man upstairs..who's not upstairs...but we say that because our minds have been warped since birth to believe that. Frustrated that He is here, but not, there, but not, and not here yet, and is. Frustrated that our mind continually tries to look outside of ourselves to find Him, but knowing He is not there...He is in here. Frustrated that our brains continue to forget that too. Frustrated that we still think to start our prayers with something like writing a letter than talking face to face. Frustrated that saying papa or father isn't how one would really talk to their father....frustrated that I don't even know how that would really be anyway. Frustrated that He's being all silent and crap, besides his laughing fit he had the other day, and wondering what the hell was so funny...cause the boss man's not talking these days. So frustrating!!! Lol.
I don't think it's funny...I'm not even sure what was supposed to be funny. Last time He played this silent treatment on my ass, it may have been like a few weeks, but dang, it felt like for-freaking-ever! I can't even remember how long it really was...heck, it could have been a week.
Well, anyway, now it's been a long freaking time...I'm not sure..but it feels like it! And all I have gotten from Him, is His laughing.....argh! I think He is messing with me and I don't like it!.....well, I don't like it yet.
See my dilemma, do you see my frustration!? if you had any clue how is feels to be able to talk to the boss man and see the boss man and such...then you would understand how intolerable it feels when He's being all quiet and invisible and far away like...it sucks ass...and there's no telling why until it's all over with.....until this lesson, or test, or whatever He's planning has come to fruition...and at the end of it....you go 'oh'...like you really are an idiot and you know you knew, but forgot sometime between now and when you were 2. And then you laugh...cause yeah, it was funny.... but it's not so funny when He's laughing and you're in the dark. Argh!
I have got to get prepared for tomorrow and get to sleep, and stuff.
Wish me luck for tomorrow....even though I don't believe in luck, lol. I don't believe in wishing either. hmmm.... Pray I don't screw up! That sounds better :)
One of my clients (yay, I get to say client!) wanted some props for her photoshoot (yes, the free photoshoot) and found a chair she liked on craiglist....she said she will buy it and give it to me since she has nowhere to put it anyway, lol.
I offered to pay her for it (it's only $20) but she said no...well...there are some awesome people out there after all.
I have 2 photoshoots tomorrow!!! One at 6:45 am in Chatt. and another at 6:30 ...in Chatt....
so you know where I'll be.
Yes...in the other town that has more people....the town that I'm slowly debating moving to, because even though there's more people, Publix and Greenlife is closer...so is my mom's pool. So is more business, which equals more money, so is hubby's work. And I can take my work with me ;)
And saving money on gas...
However...I need a house that is finished. with an updated kitchen, hardwood floors (I hate carpet!), a nice neighborhood, a yard big enough for a dog and a garden, double garage, 3 bed, 2 bath, and either an extra room or a full finished basement for my work. Lots of windows, but not lots of walls (I hate walls!), and a paved driveway because we are going to need somewhere to do art class and rollerskate and ride bikes. Minimum of 1200sq.ft. ch/a and a fenced in yard.
Problem with all the above is that a house like that is over $150,000.... or more like over $175,000.... and we are not that rich yet. And then I'd have to lock my door when I leave home, and we couldn't shoot guns in the yard or have loud annoying guineas.....(which btw, I have I think 11 keets!!! they keep moving, so at least 10) but I think I'm ok with that.
But....then I'd need a better vehicle....and a place to put my props....But....being closer to town, I could open up a shop and store my props there, lol. But then I'd have 4 jobs....and no time....But....they'd be sparatic and would actually help my adhd issues, so I would actually work less and make more and not get bored.
But...then I would have more money to take vacations....which in turn is bad because once I go to Australia, I may not come back at all....or the Maldives. I can stay there and make island clothing and take pictures for the tourists....
Anyway...let's wake back up and share a thought.
Hmmm...I'm thinking I need a freaking cell phone once I am able to make any sort of money off taking pictures....dang it...how I don;t want to pay for something...ugh!
I'm thinking my to-do list is manageable, but I don't want to do any of it except the easy stuff I can't do yet (I have no money to do it). I'm thinking that I have to get up early and there is probably zero chance that once I lay down I will actually go to sleep. I'm thinking this life out here in the boonies are for hillbilly's and hicks and I'm neither...nor do I want to be. I'm thinking this house needs so much work done, that it will never get finished and it makes me frustrated that it isn't. I'm thinking I'm getting bored writing about nothing too, lol.
I have other things to say, but they would be un-understandable, and some peoples would take them the wrong way, and I'd have to delete this post eventually because I might feel bad later about sharing my real thoughts.
Fuck it, let's do it anyway...it's the least I can do after you bravely managed to read all that other crap I wrote above.
I'm frustrated. Not at people (well, besides the idiot people who don't know jack from shit) but about more higher up there issues. Like the big man upstairs..who's not upstairs...but we say that because our minds have been warped since birth to believe that. Frustrated that He is here, but not, there, but not, and not here yet, and is. Frustrated that our mind continually tries to look outside of ourselves to find Him, but knowing He is not there...He is in here. Frustrated that our brains continue to forget that too. Frustrated that we still think to start our prayers with something like writing a letter than talking face to face. Frustrated that saying papa or father isn't how one would really talk to their father....frustrated that I don't even know how that would really be anyway. Frustrated that He's being all silent and crap, besides his laughing fit he had the other day, and wondering what the hell was so funny...cause the boss man's not talking these days. So frustrating!!! Lol.
I don't think it's funny...I'm not even sure what was supposed to be funny. Last time He played this silent treatment on my ass, it may have been like a few weeks, but dang, it felt like for-freaking-ever! I can't even remember how long it really was...heck, it could have been a week.
Well, anyway, now it's been a long freaking time...I'm not sure..but it feels like it! And all I have gotten from Him, is His laughing.....argh! I think He is messing with me and I don't like it!.....well, I don't like it yet.
See my dilemma, do you see my frustration!? if you had any clue how is feels to be able to talk to the boss man and see the boss man and such...then you would understand how intolerable it feels when He's being all quiet and invisible and far away like...it sucks ass...and there's no telling why until it's all over with.....until this lesson, or test, or whatever He's planning has come to fruition...and at the end of it....you go 'oh'...like you really are an idiot and you know you knew, but forgot sometime between now and when you were 2. And then you laugh...cause yeah, it was funny.... but it's not so funny when He's laughing and you're in the dark. Argh!
I have got to get prepared for tomorrow and get to sleep, and stuff.
Wish me luck for tomorrow....even though I don't believe in luck, lol. I don't believe in wishing either. hmmm.... Pray I don't screw up! That sounds better :)
Monday, June 25, 2012
Cheerios are for Fruitloops
I've got babies!!!!!!
Baby guineas that is :) Not sure how many, as momma want to hiss and threaten to maul me if I get too close. Hoping she will come out of her spot in the next day or so.
And I'm busy too, with sewing work and photography work and every other kind of work as well. What else is new right...
I hcome to you today not only to share my new babies that have arrived, but to complain....
Why is it, people with money that buys $100+ outfits from me never give me problems...well, at least 99% don't....and people who pay for something are more than willing to, ya know....set up appointments without you having to track them down.
On the other hand, people who pay like $20 or so...are the pickiest idiots I have ever met! And when you offer a free service, they just seem to be complete idiots!
I really do think rich people are smarter than poor people....
I'm not talking poor in money or stuff...I'm talking poor to the point they want stuff for free and think they are entitled to it. So poor that they throw themselves at any and every 'free' thing that comes along just so they can 'have' it. Even if they would never pay for it if they had to.
Poor people need to die....or at least stay away from me.... I don't care if you have money or not, but I do care if you take advantage of things just because you can.
And people....please...school doesn't teach intelligence or common sense, but do not come to me thinking I will feel sorry for your sorry ass. You make your own life and I have no compassion for idiots or people who think others should go out of their way for them.
FYI: I'm going to move somewhere where there's rich people....and closer to a pool...because it's hot outside....and closer to the store, so my butter doesn't melt on the way home....and closer to the gun store, so I can buy bullets to repel morons....and somewhere along the beach, so only one side of my view is covered in idiots. An closer to the boss man's house. So when I complain, He can make me a detour around stupidity without telling them they are sorry asses to their face.
Got to go, have too much to do! YAY! Later!
Baby guineas that is :) Not sure how many, as momma want to hiss and threaten to maul me if I get too close. Hoping she will come out of her spot in the next day or so.
And I'm busy too, with sewing work and photography work and every other kind of work as well. What else is new right...
I hcome to you today not only to share my new babies that have arrived, but to complain....
Why is it, people with money that buys $100+ outfits from me never give me problems...well, at least 99% don't....and people who pay for something are more than willing to, ya know....set up appointments without you having to track them down.
On the other hand, people who pay like $20 or so...are the pickiest idiots I have ever met! And when you offer a free service, they just seem to be complete idiots!
I really do think rich people are smarter than poor people....
I'm not talking poor in money or stuff...I'm talking poor to the point they want stuff for free and think they are entitled to it. So poor that they throw themselves at any and every 'free' thing that comes along just so they can 'have' it. Even if they would never pay for it if they had to.
Poor people need to die....or at least stay away from me.... I don't care if you have money or not, but I do care if you take advantage of things just because you can.
And people....please...school doesn't teach intelligence or common sense, but do not come to me thinking I will feel sorry for your sorry ass. You make your own life and I have no compassion for idiots or people who think others should go out of their way for them.
FYI: I'm going to move somewhere where there's rich people....and closer to a pool...because it's hot outside....and closer to the store, so my butter doesn't melt on the way home....and closer to the gun store, so I can buy bullets to repel morons....and somewhere along the beach, so only one side of my view is covered in idiots. An closer to the boss man's house. So when I complain, He can make me a detour around stupidity without telling them they are sorry asses to their face.
Got to go, have too much to do! YAY! Later!
Monday, June 18, 2012
whoa is me!!!
So you know what I'm doing....I'm writing on 'notebook' instead of directly on my blog :(
Do you want to know why...because I cam home to absolutely no internet....
Can anyone say gosh darn it? (LOL!!!)
But at least I know why....and it is mainly because the wire that goes from the phone cmopany to my router has been eaten in half...
Yep, you guessed it....little bunny.......so I am patiently waiting for my wonderful sweet hubby to get home, so he can put those itty bitty tiny little wires back together, lol.....
And let me tell you how really awful it is not to be able to check my emails...(Icould have customers asking me stuff!) or whether or not someone paid me so I can write up their order, or the fact that I need to print off a shipping label tonight for this Princess Leia Star Wars dress I just finished :) ...and well, paypal has the address.... ugh
Even the less important stuff of facebook crap (or the fact that I have to unsubscribe to all those friends I've been schmoozing)
Or if one of the youtubers I follow made a new video...(a good one anyway) I think they are all getting boring! boo!
Or if there is something happening in the world I haven't heard about...since I don't have television and I don't listen to the radio except in the car.
Kinda feels all lonely when you don't have access to the world wide web...and I can't even google something and learn all about it....or find where something is....or download free music, or upload pics I took today...
Though of course by the time you read this, that means hubby in fact did fix the wire and I am back in business..... the scary thing is my entire business is only possible online, lol. So I'm kinda in that place of relying on it.
Yay for mind control and the mark of the beast, eh?
After all.....you can't buy or sell without it....or at this point, I can't sell without it....I can still buy (with very limited options only) though. It's just the way it is. And if people in town were rich and spoiled their kids, then I could sell in town...but they aren't and they don't, and I don't want to anyway...so I'll stick with what works.
Did you know that cruises to the Carribean are only about $350 per person for a 7 day trip.......unless of course you are like me and want the room with balcony...(yes, because if it is sinking at nighttime, I can swim out, duh!) and it seems December is awfully more expensive than other months...what the heck!
I guess it's good to know I'm not the only one trying to escape the Christmas bullshit.
But now that I think about it...December 21st is supposed to be the end of the world....hmmm....maybe thats why its so expensive then....nothing like dying in the middle of the Carribean islands, no?
It's like that saying....'Money doesn't buy happiness, but it's much more comfortable to cry in a Mercedes than on a bicycle."
Though I have to disagree partially...because have you seen the prices of real bicycles!!!!?????
Anyway.....I'm listening to my full list of itunes music...and that song American Pie is playing..... and I find it rather coicidental that it started playing when I was writing about the end of the world, lol. But I no longer believe in coicdence....so I'm apt to just take everythign as either A: Wow, this is freaky...or B: this is stupid..... or C: I just don't care.
And it happened to mention a fallout shelter....which reminds me of my nuclear detructions dreams. And I have found very similar things relating to my last nuclear power plant explosions in my last dream to the one where the rocket was shot from the moon and we blew up there too....and I had to go in something like a decontamination chamber.
I'm just saying....
And in the Book of the Dead...Osiris took off the chosen people and rescued them from the cataclysm....but afterward returned them...and that is eerily similar to the last dream where I died...but was alive after in the same place...but of course everything was destroyed....
So........I had to stop work for a bit, cause I was tired of standing and I had to let the paints dry anyway...and since I can't get on the internet...I had to sit, so I decided to write about my dilemma. But I don't have anything interesting to write about *sigh
I have an hour left....until hubby gets home....and I am tired too...and *yawn
I have 11 orders left...not including ones that are on waiting list, cause people haven't paid yet or need more time, or whatever.
No more combat drone alien mind probes either that I have noticed. But I looked up some pics on google of what that funky plane was we saw the other day when we heard that weird noise and the birds were all freaked out....its a combat drone. with the skinny wings and a wider nose. Maybe that's what's kililng the blackbirds every new year's eve.
We could hear something (like gargled radio signal with high and low pitched sounds) and the guineas freaked out and the ducks freaked out enough to almost run us over to get inside their box thing. I'm telling you, it is not right.
We officially have 2 more days of school technically, but the way they are arguing and bickering and yelling the last 2 days says otherwise. We shall see. we shall see.
We shall see, with our own eyes, the plan laid out and folded barren against the darkened skies. We shall see Him upon the strands of the glass and within our own selves. We shall see the rains pour down upon parched earth and fires rise from pits of snow. Thunders and lightnings and waves roaring. Troubled tides in the midst of the whirling skies. Shall we find our footing in the day that the land quakes and the rivers bleed out from their banks. Shall we know whom protects us, who protects our throne. Shall we not see Him upon the eyes of those who know him like they know sight. Shall He not cause the rocks to break away and fall upon the enemy, shall He not shelter His home, His own.
Follow what calls out for your forward facing steps and breath deeply into the air. Shadows crawl up upon the stones and span across devastation and ruin. All shall fade within the darkness and be brought into submission and into death, all that is found to be without light, without sight, and without love. And all else....all else is His
There are 4 questions that are important in life...
What is sacred?
Of what is the spirit made?
What is worth living for?
And What is worth dying for?
The answer to each is the same..... It is love.
Lol, what the world needs now is love, sweet love...it's the only thing that there's just...too little of... :) YES I do have this song that just played on itunes! there are no coincidences!!
oh heck, now its 'Girls just want to have fun'...lol, let's see what we can find in this song.... that's what we can do...I'll write what I think about when I hear a song, lol...can anyone say ADHD hahaha....reminds me of Jessica Frech's ADHD song she made, *love!
Ready? It's sure to be long....
and I want to say how awesome it is that my 10 year old can bake a cake for us :) while I write crap on my stupid blog,...truely blessed right here. :) Amen.
Here we go, I'll write the name and what I think...
1:yikes.... 'Just Dance' - Lady Gaga... oh gosh...I think its old and eh....lets pass please!!
2: lol...Sk8er Boi - Avril .... I think it's cute... let me tell you that my hubby was the poorest of the poor back in school...and this reminds me of how different he was (though I was kinda poor too) but he always gave me a hug in the hallway every now and then for no reason, lol. He wasn't ever in the same classes as mine either....but he did work next door to where I lived...and I loves him so so much and especially when he comes home to repair the wires....he's very handy and can build me anything I would ever want. Me just really loves him now that I'm thinking about it, lol....I am a sap, I know, but he still makes me smile when I think about him.
3:Time for Change - Motley Crue..... I actually really love this song. Reminds me of my teenage days when I hated the world and loved all the good and hated all the bad and noone else cared...and still don't....heck and I still feel that way! Motley crue was so good back in the day, but I would not recommend seeing them nowadays...they old, lol.
4: hahahahaha!!! Like a Virgin - Madonna! didn't know how lost I was until I found you....hahahaha!!!! sometimes when you haven't been ya know...close in a while.... it still kinda feels like your a virgin, lol!!!!... *facepalm!!
5: oh!! She Loves You -the Beatles.... now I like the Beatles....this one isn't my fav...but I used to have a friend (Lori) who's dad collected Beatles memorabilia....and I was like 10 or something and I said I thought they were dumb (I didn't realize what they sang at the time!) but her dad overheard and got upset (sad) and I think I really hurt his feelings :( ... I'm like really sorry Lori's dad!!! dang this song was short...
6: Cracklin' Rosie - Neil Diamond....... awwww didn't he die not to long ago? I like it that there are some older guys that can sing. Yay for a multitude of talent in the world! I appreciate certain talents. You got the way to make me happy.....
7: I Love you Always Forever - Donna Lewis...... I can actually sing this song really well myself...and its nifty.....and no, I will not sing to anyone except to the unfortunate prisoners in my car while driving...and well, I sang to the kids when they were little.....they are still little....hmmm..... the most stumbling blue eyes, I've ever seen....I saw those once..on an angel
8: wow...My Friend of Misery - Metallica......I love Metallica because they would be really really awesome if they composed songs....yes, like for symphonies and orchestras! They rule....and you know it! and I can totally (used to) be able to play this song (well, all their songs) on guitar.
9: Hey Jude - the Beatles....yes, I have a lot of Beatles songs....I actually like many of the ones they remade in the movie Across the Universe too...namely this one...cause now I think of that movie every single time I hear this song, lol
10: YAY!!! Song of the South - Alabama! .... song song of the south, sweet potato pie and I shut my mouth....!! I like the part where they moved and bought a washing machine and a Chevrolet, lol ...reminds me of how people can move to a better place in their lives then before. :) Happiness!!! :)
11: ew...Tik Tok - Keisha.....no thank you...next
12: Another Night - Real McCoy.......makes me wonder who the fake McCoy was...at first I always thought of Dr. McCoy from Star Trek!! But I love this song...because I was the same way...dreaming of greater things....kinda thing...long time ago....love!
13: Come Go With Me - The Vikings......yes, I have a lot of oldies...so glad though.....they were so happy back then...too bad we couldn't keep it.
It's midnight...hubby should be home soon to fix my internet, lol!!!! I guess we can go on to 15 songs......
14: Faith - George Michael...... well, at least his other song didn't pop up...lol....I know not everybody, has got a body like you.....cause I gotta have faith....babe! say please please please don't go away, lol....spunky...we'll leave it at that
15: oooohh...Lay Your Hands on Me - Bon Jovi......... My first concert was Bon Jovi....and I went by myself....friends are great eh? I still like Bon Jovi....so long as he doesn't try to go back and sing his older songs.....I do like some of his other songs better though.
16: Blue Berry Hill - Fat's Domino......was he really fat?.....
17: Life's a Dance - John Michael Montgomery....yes, I do have some older country songs on here too....lots of styles...I'm awesome like that. Don't worry about what you don't know.....lifes a dance, you learn as you go......
18: Paralyzer - finger Eleven.....I loved the video more than the song itself....funky dancing stuff...awesome!
19: Will You Be There - Michael Jackson......hmmm. I like some of his songs, I don't care what you think about it. this one is from Free Willy...and um...super sad awesome like... :0
20: hahaha....hubby's home! and I had to stop writing to supervise the procedure... :) all fixed now, so I'll go post this....hope you had a fun time reading my ramblings of yuletide cranberry streamers :)
Do you want to know why...because I cam home to absolutely no internet....
Can anyone say gosh darn it? (LOL!!!)
But at least I know why....and it is mainly because the wire that goes from the phone cmopany to my router has been eaten in half...
Yep, you guessed it....little bunny.......so I am patiently waiting for my wonderful sweet hubby to get home, so he can put those itty bitty tiny little wires back together, lol.....
And let me tell you how really awful it is not to be able to check my emails...(Icould have customers asking me stuff!) or whether or not someone paid me so I can write up their order, or the fact that I need to print off a shipping label tonight for this Princess Leia Star Wars dress I just finished :) ...and well, paypal has the address.... ugh
Even the less important stuff of facebook crap (or the fact that I have to unsubscribe to all those friends I've been schmoozing)
Or if one of the youtubers I follow made a new video...(a good one anyway) I think they are all getting boring! boo!
Or if there is something happening in the world I haven't heard about...since I don't have television and I don't listen to the radio except in the car.
Kinda feels all lonely when you don't have access to the world wide web...and I can't even google something and learn all about it....or find where something is....or download free music, or upload pics I took today...
Though of course by the time you read this, that means hubby in fact did fix the wire and I am back in business..... the scary thing is my entire business is only possible online, lol. So I'm kinda in that place of relying on it.
Yay for mind control and the mark of the beast, eh?
After all.....you can't buy or sell without it....or at this point, I can't sell without it....I can still buy (with very limited options only) though. It's just the way it is. And if people in town were rich and spoiled their kids, then I could sell in town...but they aren't and they don't, and I don't want to anyway...so I'll stick with what works.
Did you know that cruises to the Carribean are only about $350 per person for a 7 day trip.......unless of course you are like me and want the room with balcony...(yes, because if it is sinking at nighttime, I can swim out, duh!) and it seems December is awfully more expensive than other months...what the heck!
I guess it's good to know I'm not the only one trying to escape the Christmas bullshit.
But now that I think about it...December 21st is supposed to be the end of the world....hmmm....maybe thats why its so expensive then....nothing like dying in the middle of the Carribean islands, no?
It's like that saying....'Money doesn't buy happiness, but it's much more comfortable to cry in a Mercedes than on a bicycle."
Though I have to disagree partially...because have you seen the prices of real bicycles!!!!?????
Anyway.....I'm listening to my full list of itunes music...and that song American Pie is playing..... and I find it rather coicidental that it started playing when I was writing about the end of the world, lol. But I no longer believe in coicdence....so I'm apt to just take everythign as either A: Wow, this is freaky...or B: this is stupid..... or C: I just don't care.
And it happened to mention a fallout shelter....which reminds me of my nuclear detructions dreams. And I have found very similar things relating to my last nuclear power plant explosions in my last dream to the one where the rocket was shot from the moon and we blew up there too....and I had to go in something like a decontamination chamber.
I'm just saying....
And in the Book of the Dead...Osiris took off the chosen people and rescued them from the cataclysm....but afterward returned them...and that is eerily similar to the last dream where I died...but was alive after in the same place...but of course everything was destroyed....
So........I had to stop work for a bit, cause I was tired of standing and I had to let the paints dry anyway...and since I can't get on the internet...I had to sit, so I decided to write about my dilemma. But I don't have anything interesting to write about *sigh
I have an hour left....until hubby gets home....and I am tired too...and *yawn
I have 11 orders left...not including ones that are on waiting list, cause people haven't paid yet or need more time, or whatever.
No more combat drone alien mind probes either that I have noticed. But I looked up some pics on google of what that funky plane was we saw the other day when we heard that weird noise and the birds were all freaked out....its a combat drone. with the skinny wings and a wider nose. Maybe that's what's kililng the blackbirds every new year's eve.
We could hear something (like gargled radio signal with high and low pitched sounds) and the guineas freaked out and the ducks freaked out enough to almost run us over to get inside their box thing. I'm telling you, it is not right.
We officially have 2 more days of school technically, but the way they are arguing and bickering and yelling the last 2 days says otherwise. We shall see. we shall see.
We shall see, with our own eyes, the plan laid out and folded barren against the darkened skies. We shall see Him upon the strands of the glass and within our own selves. We shall see the rains pour down upon parched earth and fires rise from pits of snow. Thunders and lightnings and waves roaring. Troubled tides in the midst of the whirling skies. Shall we find our footing in the day that the land quakes and the rivers bleed out from their banks. Shall we know whom protects us, who protects our throne. Shall we not see Him upon the eyes of those who know him like they know sight. Shall He not cause the rocks to break away and fall upon the enemy, shall He not shelter His home, His own.
Follow what calls out for your forward facing steps and breath deeply into the air. Shadows crawl up upon the stones and span across devastation and ruin. All shall fade within the darkness and be brought into submission and into death, all that is found to be without light, without sight, and without love. And all else....all else is His
There are 4 questions that are important in life...
What is sacred?
Of what is the spirit made?
What is worth living for?
And What is worth dying for?
The answer to each is the same..... It is love.
Lol, what the world needs now is love, sweet love...it's the only thing that there's just...too little of... :) YES I do have this song that just played on itunes! there are no coincidences!!
oh heck, now its 'Girls just want to have fun'...lol, let's see what we can find in this song.... that's what we can do...I'll write what I think about when I hear a song, lol...can anyone say ADHD hahaha....reminds me of Jessica Frech's ADHD song she made, *love!
Ready? It's sure to be long....
and I want to say how awesome it is that my 10 year old can bake a cake for us :) while I write crap on my stupid blog,...truely blessed right here. :) Amen.
Here we go, I'll write the name and what I think...
1:yikes.... 'Just Dance' - Lady Gaga... oh gosh...I think its old and eh....lets pass please!!
2: lol...Sk8er Boi - Avril .... I think it's cute... let me tell you that my hubby was the poorest of the poor back in school...and this reminds me of how different he was (though I was kinda poor too) but he always gave me a hug in the hallway every now and then for no reason, lol. He wasn't ever in the same classes as mine either....but he did work next door to where I lived...and I loves him so so much and especially when he comes home to repair the wires....he's very handy and can build me anything I would ever want. Me just really loves him now that I'm thinking about it, lol....I am a sap, I know, but he still makes me smile when I think about him.
3:Time for Change - Motley Crue..... I actually really love this song. Reminds me of my teenage days when I hated the world and loved all the good and hated all the bad and noone else cared...and still don't....heck and I still feel that way! Motley crue was so good back in the day, but I would not recommend seeing them nowadays...they old, lol.
4: hahahahaha!!! Like a Virgin - Madonna! didn't know how lost I was until I found you....hahahaha!!!! sometimes when you haven't been ya know...close in a while.... it still kinda feels like your a virgin, lol!!!!... *facepalm!!
5: oh!! She Loves You -the Beatles.... now I like the Beatles....this one isn't my fav...but I used to have a friend (Lori) who's dad collected Beatles memorabilia....and I was like 10 or something and I said I thought they were dumb (I didn't realize what they sang at the time!) but her dad overheard and got upset (sad) and I think I really hurt his feelings :( ... I'm like really sorry Lori's dad!!! dang this song was short...
6: Cracklin' Rosie - Neil Diamond....... awwww didn't he die not to long ago? I like it that there are some older guys that can sing. Yay for a multitude of talent in the world! I appreciate certain talents. You got the way to make me happy.....
7: I Love you Always Forever - Donna Lewis...... I can actually sing this song really well myself...and its nifty.....and no, I will not sing to anyone except to the unfortunate prisoners in my car while driving...and well, I sang to the kids when they were little.....they are still little....hmmm..... the most stumbling blue eyes, I've ever seen....I saw those once..on an angel
8: wow...My Friend of Misery - Metallica......I love Metallica because they would be really really awesome if they composed songs....yes, like for symphonies and orchestras! They rule....and you know it! and I can totally (used to) be able to play this song (well, all their songs) on guitar.
9: Hey Jude - the Beatles....yes, I have a lot of Beatles songs....I actually like many of the ones they remade in the movie Across the Universe too...namely this one...cause now I think of that movie every single time I hear this song, lol
10: YAY!!! Song of the South - Alabama! .... song song of the south, sweet potato pie and I shut my mouth....!! I like the part where they moved and bought a washing machine and a Chevrolet, lol ...reminds me of how people can move to a better place in their lives then before. :) Happiness!!! :)
11: ew...Tik Tok - Keisha.....no thank you...next
12: Another Night - Real McCoy.......makes me wonder who the fake McCoy was...at first I always thought of Dr. McCoy from Star Trek!! But I love this song...because I was the same way...dreaming of greater things....kinda thing...long time ago....love!
13: Come Go With Me - The Vikings......yes, I have a lot of oldies...so glad though.....they were so happy back then...too bad we couldn't keep it.
It's midnight...hubby should be home soon to fix my internet, lol!!!! I guess we can go on to 15 songs......
14: Faith - George Michael...... well, at least his other song didn't pop up...lol....I know not everybody, has got a body like you.....cause I gotta have faith....babe! say please please please don't go away, lol....spunky...we'll leave it at that
15: oooohh...Lay Your Hands on Me - Bon Jovi......... My first concert was Bon Jovi....and I went by myself....friends are great eh? I still like Bon Jovi....so long as he doesn't try to go back and sing his older songs.....I do like some of his other songs better though.
16: Blue Berry Hill - Fat's Domino......was he really fat?.....
17: Life's a Dance - John Michael Montgomery....yes, I do have some older country songs on here too....lots of styles...I'm awesome like that. Don't worry about what you don't know.....lifes a dance, you learn as you go......
18: Paralyzer - finger Eleven.....I loved the video more than the song itself....funky dancing stuff...awesome!
19: Will You Be There - Michael Jackson......hmmm. I like some of his songs, I don't care what you think about it. this one is from Free Willy...and um...super sad awesome like... :0
20: hahaha....hubby's home! and I had to stop writing to supervise the procedure... :) all fixed now, so I'll go post this....hope you had a fun time reading my ramblings of yuletide cranberry streamers :)
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Pour it on...it smells wonderful!
I've been waiting all weekend to tell you about my weirded out OMG moment!! LOL
...So you know that inside discussion I mention quite often on here about the barbeque party that we are going to have real soon. With all us awesome people and the boss man, and my really good friend...and all my adopted family....and I call it 'the barbeque party' remember...
Well...friday...I was cruising along Dayton Blvd...and pass up Dub's ice cream shop...and on the sign...it reads.... "The Barbeque Party" Sat Jun 23....(Jun 23 in red letters/numbers) ...and I had a holy cow moment...because after all....this is an ice cream shop...and now all of a sudden they sell barbeque.....(yes, I know they are now under new management) but still..... it said 'the barbeque party' and so when I read it I was like...how do they know about the barbeque party, lol!!
I guess they are invited too :)
So this situation...made me recall this youtube guy I sometimes watch johnathankleck who also has had some weird things coming from ...you guessed it...an ice cream shop too, lol...now I feel all weird, cause I don't want to be weird like him, lol...just weird like me :)
You see...I am not crazy.....er..than you. :P lol.
And no, I did not hear any more weird alien mind probes.
So yesterday we cut up the trees we cut down...most of them anyway...still have about 1/4 left to get done....and no, this doesn't take into account the others that are still standing....
today bike riding and creek walking at fall creek falls...and I tried out my new camera bag (even though I still need to make the inserts for it.
And I think I got my first (well second) client for photography....yes, I'm still working for free, so you had better get on the list if you want some pics! Anyway, have to do that next week or later this week (ugh, like this week isn't overfull enough and I still have a buttload of sewing work to do!!!) Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday are taken...and Saturday is yardsale day. Sunday is something outdoorsy day or cutting more trees day...unless it rains....then it is sewing day. Maybe photoshoot on Thursday (heck, why not get it done, right?) i have to go out to Hancock fabrics (*despise) to find fabric for the other photoshoot (yay!!)
So I am almost finished with this Princess Leia dress....but you see what I'm doing...darn internet. But gosh, I think I got a rabbit cage($120) for $40!!!
Soooo...not that I have $40....but still.
Anyway, what else is so cool...besides all what I wrote a minute (or 20) ago... hmm......I lost a stupid quail...dumb ass bird! They like to get right next to the door when I feed them in the morning...and the idiot creature jumped out when I opened it...I tried to catch it but it just flew further away the more I tried...the dog tried too, but she couldn't get it either...so now its gone and I'm down to 14 quail now...
Which is totally ok...because I found where our only female guinea is sitting on her eggs (yes, I followed her!) and later went over there when she finally got up again....and she has 24 eggs shes nesting on....which according to google should hatch 26-28 days after...and well it's been at least 3 weeks...so I'm thinking sometime this week or early next they may start hatching (assuming they actually got fertilized) and need to keep an eye on them to catch them after hatching so they don't get eaten by the cats, dogs, snakes, or any other predatory animals that live in the woods. Yay for babies! Maybe for once I'll get some hens instead of a bunch of male idiot birds!!
And let me just say that my 3 bunnies are the bestest bunnies in the world!! They are so good! and appreciative, and spoiled, and when I move them to their little cage thing in the grass, or inside to play...the hop right into the carrier thing like they just know they are getting to go somewhere fun, lol. Such good bunnies!!! and they had better be considering I feed them a huge plate of goodies each and every day!
SPOILED!
I guess that's all I have to write about....lol...no more procrastinating...it's past 11pm....so I'll go have some dessert...and maybe sew on some letters to the Princess Leia dress so tomorrow morning I'll only have to sew her and the robots on...and it won't be so much....and anyway...I still have that "You can't finish it, if you never start." thing running through my head.....thank you very much my very good friend...
Much love and blessings to those awesome people.....I hope you'll be at the barbeque party.....which evidently has been scheduled for the 23rd of the month! LOL! See you there my friends. ;) better make sure you got an invitation......which btw....I totally got a total confirmation in my email inbox relating to just that...and I kinda had a little freak out, but a omg, laugh thing going on too at the same time...because you can't be crazy unless the world is providing everything to prove your insanity...right? there is no way any other way that these 'weird' situations and things just get laid out in front of your eyes all perfectly like this without someone like the boss man making it so....I'm just saying! it's freaking me out and I only have like 3 people to tell my freak outs too and it's no fun that way if they never get freak out moments too...cause it makes me think they are asleep on the inside...and I want you to wake up!!!
Ugh, gotta go! Bye!
...So you know that inside discussion I mention quite often on here about the barbeque party that we are going to have real soon. With all us awesome people and the boss man, and my really good friend...and all my adopted family....and I call it 'the barbeque party' remember...
Well...friday...I was cruising along Dayton Blvd...and pass up Dub's ice cream shop...and on the sign...it reads.... "The Barbeque Party" Sat Jun 23....(Jun 23 in red letters/numbers) ...and I had a holy cow moment...because after all....this is an ice cream shop...and now all of a sudden they sell barbeque.....(yes, I know they are now under new management) but still..... it said 'the barbeque party' and so when I read it I was like...how do they know about the barbeque party, lol!!
I guess they are invited too :)
So this situation...made me recall this youtube guy I sometimes watch johnathankleck who also has had some weird things coming from ...you guessed it...an ice cream shop too, lol...now I feel all weird, cause I don't want to be weird like him, lol...just weird like me :)
You see...I am not crazy.....er..than you. :P lol.
And no, I did not hear any more weird alien mind probes.
So yesterday we cut up the trees we cut down...most of them anyway...still have about 1/4 left to get done....and no, this doesn't take into account the others that are still standing....
today bike riding and creek walking at fall creek falls...and I tried out my new camera bag (even though I still need to make the inserts for it.
And I think I got my first (well second) client for photography....yes, I'm still working for free, so you had better get on the list if you want some pics! Anyway, have to do that next week or later this week (ugh, like this week isn't overfull enough and I still have a buttload of sewing work to do!!!) Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday are taken...and Saturday is yardsale day. Sunday is something outdoorsy day or cutting more trees day...unless it rains....then it is sewing day. Maybe photoshoot on Thursday (heck, why not get it done, right?) i have to go out to Hancock fabrics (*despise) to find fabric for the other photoshoot (yay!!)
So I am almost finished with this Princess Leia dress....but you see what I'm doing...darn internet. But gosh, I think I got a rabbit cage($120) for $40!!!
Soooo...not that I have $40....but still.
Anyway, what else is so cool...besides all what I wrote a minute (or 20) ago... hmm......I lost a stupid quail...dumb ass bird! They like to get right next to the door when I feed them in the morning...and the idiot creature jumped out when I opened it...I tried to catch it but it just flew further away the more I tried...the dog tried too, but she couldn't get it either...so now its gone and I'm down to 14 quail now...
Which is totally ok...because I found where our only female guinea is sitting on her eggs (yes, I followed her!) and later went over there when she finally got up again....and she has 24 eggs shes nesting on....which according to google should hatch 26-28 days after...and well it's been at least 3 weeks...so I'm thinking sometime this week or early next they may start hatching (assuming they actually got fertilized) and need to keep an eye on them to catch them after hatching so they don't get eaten by the cats, dogs, snakes, or any other predatory animals that live in the woods. Yay for babies! Maybe for once I'll get some hens instead of a bunch of male idiot birds!!
And let me just say that my 3 bunnies are the bestest bunnies in the world!! They are so good! and appreciative, and spoiled, and when I move them to their little cage thing in the grass, or inside to play...the hop right into the carrier thing like they just know they are getting to go somewhere fun, lol. Such good bunnies!!! and they had better be considering I feed them a huge plate of goodies each and every day!
SPOILED!
I guess that's all I have to write about....lol...no more procrastinating...it's past 11pm....so I'll go have some dessert...and maybe sew on some letters to the Princess Leia dress so tomorrow morning I'll only have to sew her and the robots on...and it won't be so much....and anyway...I still have that "You can't finish it, if you never start." thing running through my head.....thank you very much my very good friend...
Much love and blessings to those awesome people.....I hope you'll be at the barbeque party.....which evidently has been scheduled for the 23rd of the month! LOL! See you there my friends. ;) better make sure you got an invitation......which btw....I totally got a total confirmation in my email inbox relating to just that...and I kinda had a little freak out, but a omg, laugh thing going on too at the same time...because you can't be crazy unless the world is providing everything to prove your insanity...right? there is no way any other way that these 'weird' situations and things just get laid out in front of your eyes all perfectly like this without someone like the boss man making it so....I'm just saying! it's freaking me out and I only have like 3 people to tell my freak outs too and it's no fun that way if they never get freak out moments too...cause it makes me think they are asleep on the inside...and I want you to wake up!!!
Ugh, gotta go! Bye!
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Probing for something other than .....
Finally finished that one outfit...but I don't think I have much relief from completing it. Maybe it's because I have more things lined up that I have to do. Just one that is on the must finish before Saturday and one that is a must finish before Monday...then maybe the others won't be so bad...haha....yeah right.
Today there was a weird sound outside, not sure what it sounded like, but there was also a weird looking plane circling in the clouds above us....wonder if it was one of those alien mind probes, lol. The birds got all upset over the sound though, dogs and cats didn't seem to notice. Strange...but what else is new in todays craptastic world.
Not that my world is crap, as its not really, just I feel like crap, but not sick feeling like crap, but mushy crap. I don't know really, just weird. I think I'm gonna blame the alien mind probe for my altered state of emotion.
The stars and moon....have all been blown out....and left me in the dark....
I like that song....of course I had never heard of it before I was searching on one of my quests to find out what everything means, lol. And since I'm on the subject (even barely).....
Do you know when you kinda talk about a certain topic or ask a certain question...and the next day it is like 'BOOM' right there in your face as if fate wrought it. Or God brought it...just for you. Cause, yeah, this is my life, and it is wonderful....and this stuff happens all the time! Its crazy beautiful.
I saw this today....Because this is always it: All my brokenness is a whisper that I don’t belong, and every time I don’t feel like I belong, the Scarred and Rejected God whispers, “Come here, my beloved.” And the longer I live, the more I feel like an exile. This is a gift. The exiled make His extravagant love their home. We were made for heaven and Him and our heart beats hard for it.
Exiled....following me from birth to the day that we set foot in the garden...where the trees are more green than you could imagine, and the land spans forever, and a river runs through it. Family together, food served upon a picnic table, and Him....there dressed in blue and gold...arms wide open to lift up this never forgotten child. This is who He is....and everything else is .
So I watched this youtube video today...a quite disturbing one at that....about mind numbing control kinda stuff, lol.... I think I'm all messed up in the head now....ugh. Not saying I wasn't messed up before, but now it's gonna be at the forefront of my mind quite often!
Here's the video...but start the time at 3:48 and listen to the guy who's speaking (the rest of it!!!).... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bBr7Sjrovzk
I'm going to put the resistance to death and get off the computer...
Later bunnies of sundrop and pickleberries.......oh and zucchini bread which I made today and its really quite good...
Today there was a weird sound outside, not sure what it sounded like, but there was also a weird looking plane circling in the clouds above us....wonder if it was one of those alien mind probes, lol. The birds got all upset over the sound though, dogs and cats didn't seem to notice. Strange...but what else is new in todays craptastic world.
Not that my world is crap, as its not really, just I feel like crap, but not sick feeling like crap, but mushy crap. I don't know really, just weird. I think I'm gonna blame the alien mind probe for my altered state of emotion.
The stars and moon....have all been blown out....and left me in the dark....
I like that song....of course I had never heard of it before I was searching on one of my quests to find out what everything means, lol. And since I'm on the subject (even barely).....
Do you know when you kinda talk about a certain topic or ask a certain question...and the next day it is like 'BOOM' right there in your face as if fate wrought it. Or God brought it...just for you. Cause, yeah, this is my life, and it is wonderful....and this stuff happens all the time! Its crazy beautiful.
I saw this today....Because this is always it: All my brokenness is a whisper that I don’t belong, and every time I don’t feel like I belong, the Scarred and Rejected God whispers, “Come here, my beloved.” And the longer I live, the more I feel like an exile. This is a gift. The exiled make His extravagant love their home. We were made for heaven and Him and our heart beats hard for it.
Exiled....following me from birth to the day that we set foot in the garden...where the trees are more green than you could imagine, and the land spans forever, and a river runs through it. Family together, food served upon a picnic table, and Him....there dressed in blue and gold...arms wide open to lift up this never forgotten child. This is who He is....and everything else is .
So I watched this youtube video today...a quite disturbing one at that....about mind numbing control kinda stuff, lol.... I think I'm all messed up in the head now....ugh. Not saying I wasn't messed up before, but now it's gonna be at the forefront of my mind quite often!
Here's the video...but start the time at 3:48 and listen to the guy who's speaking (the rest of it!!!).... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bBr7Sjrovzk
I'm going to put the resistance to death and get off the computer...
Later bunnies of sundrop and pickleberries.......oh and zucchini bread which I made today and its really quite good...
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
never starting to finish.....seems like it lately, lol
Today is Tuesday and I still haven't gotten started on what I'm supposed to be doing.
But as one of my really great friends said just yesterday.... "You can't finish it, if you never start." ....and well, I sewed up 7 appliques onto a skirt after that...
I still need to detail their faces and make the last applique on the top (which I should be doing now) and I will totally get to that here in a minute...I want to tell you of 'yet another odd' occurrence.
Well...remember last time I mentioned something about thinking about someone and then they just kinda 'popped' up out of nowhere and there they were...as if my thoughts had brought them into my path...
Well, that happened again today...and involving the same exact people. How freaking odd is that!!? And mind you I was in the same place I imagined meeting them at....really??!! This is so weird!
Well, I actually went over to their house and hung out with them for a bit too and let the kiddos play. Came home with a list of homeschool curriculum, a recipe, and some zucchini and squash too. Lol.
This also means I didn't get anything done at home though. I made dinner and checked email and schmoozed some more facebook friends, successfully filling my quota for the 3rd day in a row.
Didn't make any sales...which I am blaming entirely on facebooks new idea that only 17% of your fans are allowed to see what you post...wtf...ever since they started that bullshit I haven't sold but one thing....when prior to that I was selling at least 5-10 in a 2 week period.
I really wouldn't mind a break, but in the boutique world, buyers who are willing to pay $100+++'s will go elsewhere if you don't post...and well..I am posting, just they aren't seeing it...ARGH!
This is why I'm schmoozing.
So...other than being entirely swamped under loads of work that I know has to be done sooner than I would like, I'm really trying to catch the owner of those horses there oneday.....he has a big horse and a little pony that looks just like Epona from the legend of zelda...and it would make a perfect prop for a photoshoot....I'm almost considering writing a letter and taping it to his gate, lol. But I think it would be better to ask in person first...or at the least include a business card with my letter...and well, I have no business card made up for my photography biz yet...*sigh.
I would totally have that and the other list of things I need to do done if the list of 'things I better get done first' wasn't so stinkin full.
Nothing else new...kinda la la boring around here...I think...I'm not really sure, just been going through the motions since vacation ended....and next vacation isn't until the end of August.... :( oh gosh, that is so far away!!!! I need to think this stuff through more and make sure that every 6-8 weeks I have some escape time or something.
I have got to go and do something productive so I don't feel like the whole day was wasted...it wasn't, but still....you can't finish it if you never start.
But as one of my really great friends said just yesterday.... "You can't finish it, if you never start." ....and well, I sewed up 7 appliques onto a skirt after that...
I still need to detail their faces and make the last applique on the top (which I should be doing now) and I will totally get to that here in a minute...I want to tell you of 'yet another odd' occurrence.
Well...remember last time I mentioned something about thinking about someone and then they just kinda 'popped' up out of nowhere and there they were...as if my thoughts had brought them into my path...
Well, that happened again today...and involving the same exact people. How freaking odd is that!!? And mind you I was in the same place I imagined meeting them at....really??!! This is so weird!
Well, I actually went over to their house and hung out with them for a bit too and let the kiddos play. Came home with a list of homeschool curriculum, a recipe, and some zucchini and squash too. Lol.
This also means I didn't get anything done at home though. I made dinner and checked email and schmoozed some more facebook friends, successfully filling my quota for the 3rd day in a row.
Didn't make any sales...which I am blaming entirely on facebooks new idea that only 17% of your fans are allowed to see what you post...wtf...ever since they started that bullshit I haven't sold but one thing....when prior to that I was selling at least 5-10 in a 2 week period.
I really wouldn't mind a break, but in the boutique world, buyers who are willing to pay $100+++'s will go elsewhere if you don't post...and well..I am posting, just they aren't seeing it...ARGH!
This is why I'm schmoozing.
So...other than being entirely swamped under loads of work that I know has to be done sooner than I would like, I'm really trying to catch the owner of those horses there oneday.....he has a big horse and a little pony that looks just like Epona from the legend of zelda...and it would make a perfect prop for a photoshoot....I'm almost considering writing a letter and taping it to his gate, lol. But I think it would be better to ask in person first...or at the least include a business card with my letter...and well, I have no business card made up for my photography biz yet...*sigh.
I would totally have that and the other list of things I need to do done if the list of 'things I better get done first' wasn't so stinkin full.
Nothing else new...kinda la la boring around here...I think...I'm not really sure, just been going through the motions since vacation ended....and next vacation isn't until the end of August.... :( oh gosh, that is so far away!!!! I need to think this stuff through more and make sure that every 6-8 weeks I have some escape time or something.
I have got to go and do something productive so I don't feel like the whole day was wasted...it wasn't, but still....you can't finish it if you never start.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
The Tree and the Dragon
I'm Waiting
I was waiting, waiting for a long time
In the dark shadow of grey towers
In the dark shadow of grey towers
In the dark shadow of rain towers
You will see me waiting forever
You will see me waiting forever
One day it will come back
Over the seas, over the lands
Over the lands, over the seas
To steal me on the trunks
It will come back full of spray
In the dark shadow of the black towers
Will come back the blue wind
To breathe my wounded heart
I will be pulled away by its blow
Far away by its stream to another land
I will be pulled away by its breath
Far away by its stream, wherever it wants
Wherever it wants, far away from this world
Between the sea and the stars
Love that song...and it's not even in english. But The blue wind part really is hitting on that 'holy cow' nerve....because it's very eerily similar to the part in my last messed up dream that had to do with the blue smoke...and well, nuclear disaster...and oh yeah...death. And now that I read it again...the song basically says the same exact thing....and I had this song for quite awhile on itunes, but never knew what the lyrics were saying (cause it's in french maybe? it looks weird and I know some french, so no clue really) and just happend to go look today and saw the translation....hmmm...now why has this come to me is the question...
Now I just know I'll be sent on another goose chase, like every other time something freaky comes my way...I'm telling you it happens all the time!...and I still have no clue what any of it means!
and now...Bad Moon Rising is playing on itunes, lol......and I should be working..which I was, I just printed out 8 disney villainesses..so I am working...just so happens to be on the computer, lol. Oh, and need to post those Cinderella dresses on facebook..maybe someone will buy one, cause I am feeling poor.
There was this youtube video I saw the other day that one of my adopted sisters posted (okay, she's a weird one, but no weirder than my other weird sister, lol), about someones dream of getting pulled up out of the ground...like a carrot...and like the dirt was like the earth's atmosphere is, but when pulled out, everything was like a huge garden.... I wonder if this would be like a garden of eden...all part of it, just not harvested yet. Not yet able to see our fruits, our uses, our possibilities, our treasures.
Of course this also could mean we might get eaten by zombies..in a stew or something...at that barbeque party.
What else..what else...since I already told you about my conversation with my most awesome friend......
The neighbors had a stupid street light put up on their lot/yard...great...just one more stupid light in the neighborhood...bad enough the one that shines directly through our bedroom doors is too far to shoot out. I despise lights at night. I can't see in the dark with all that brightness.
I'm feeling insightful and rather thought provoking...would rather be nice to have someone to chat with at 11pm. Besides the kids that is.
That song 'Eyes Open' is playing now..., I love that song too lately. even though Taylor Swift is not one of my favorite singers.
The song reminds me of all the people in the world who are asleep and how few there are that are actually awake...and not lost in amusement. :( A very lonesome world this is.
Ever have one of those dreams where you see someone you haven't seen in forever and you are excited and happy to see them? Then you wake up.... yeah that kind of lonely. And these people (yes, they are real, if you are wondering) just have no clue that they make you smile. Or worse when it's the boss man in your dream and then you wake up and find yourself back in 'time' and wonder if you'll ever again get to visit once more.
Half of you sighs and goes yay, that was life-altering awesome and freaky and totally mind warping experience....the other half wails in agony because of the re-separation....like it is when you're born...yeah....wonderful these things are....so they say....well, maybe I just say, as I can't find but a very very small handful of people who even have the slightest clue what I'm talking about...and even then, I'm not really sure about them....cause like I said before....it's a very lonesome world...and well...I haven't talked to them in awhile either...and this makes me sad somehow...and a piece of sadness clings somewhere on the inside and I carry it with me.
Ugh, I'm such a sap....but at least I'm an honest sap, lol :)
We are the trees. Standing tall, strong, solid, brave. Reaching up high into the greater broader skies. Reaching, striving, hoping, wishing, dreaming. Growing outward and beyond as far out as we can, as far away as our strength allows. Our triumphs and our excellence shows upon our branches. Our best features by far are that which we display and stretch out for the revealing of our glory.
Our trunk holds up our lives and bears our truths, our souls, our ambitions, and hope.
Then there's the roots....our parts which we bury beneath the world. Hide away from the sight. Our twisted and mangled fingers that reach down down down into the dark to keep from the light. Our regrets, our shame, our impossible fears. The dark part of ourselves, hidden where none can look upon them.
It's a shame that so many deny the roots and only nourish the branches....what could become of this other than a wilted and rotten tree. Death, due to neglect of a part of you that you must also tend to.
It is the roots that need tended to, in order for any of the branches to grow, in order for any petals to bloom or leaves of green to shade our peace. It is a part of the tree...a part of ourselves...
Would He cut down the tree to take you home? Even He knows we must retain roots to thrive. The roots must come with us, must be a part of us......however, it's a river of life that we will drink from instead of a river of darkness
The tree is us, our whole selves, of our life and our death, our good and our bad, our light and our dark...it is us as we are attached to this world, but yet reach out for something greater, something beyond ourselves....
The dragon flies, it's body curving with the winds, life breathing through its veins. It is real and it is not real. Intertwining with the breeze and carried along like a river through the clouds.
This too is a part of us. Where we are asleep and dancing upon a dream....yet we are alive and awake, ever moving and flowing with life.
It is us, as we are simple earthly creatures, yet we know we are something more than just that....we are creatures of divine design....and we are more than that too.
A trail from the physical....into the spiritual....from earth to sky, from water to air, from dream...to life. Or if you would have it...from life, to a dream.
And this is The Tree and the Dragon story...but not quite a real story...more like an explanation.
You know at the end of that song (posted above...J'attends)...at the end it says. "I will see you again...but not yet."...in english... I think I likes. but I guess I should watch the movie, huh..maybe that has something to do with it, lol.
well, I think i've been on here for far too long tonight...and I did already write a lot already for my second blog post of the day, lol....not that anyone ever reads this crap, but still....sometimes I have something to write...and sometimes I'm just wasting time...cause I don't want to go cut out disney people. and I don't like taking pictures of random ho hum boring every day la la stuff....and I already prepped the zombie clothes and there's not much else I'd rather do besides take a long hot shower...but waiting for my most awesome hubby to get home first.
Actually I would like to work on the last part of my book! Argh! but I have to set aside at least 2 hours for that...and I always forget until I'm going to bed...geesh...
Anyway...
Long day tomorrow...
goodnight lovely trees trembling in the crisp night air. the sun shall shine on.
I was waiting, waiting for a long time
In the dark shadow of grey towers
In the dark shadow of grey towers
In the dark shadow of rain towers
You will see me waiting forever
You will see me waiting forever
One day it will come back
Over the seas, over the lands
Over the lands, over the seas
To steal me on the trunks
It will come back full of spray
In the dark shadow of the black towers
Will come back the blue wind
To breathe my wounded heart
I will be pulled away by its blow
Far away by its stream to another land
I will be pulled away by its breath
Far away by its stream, wherever it wants
Wherever it wants, far away from this world
Between the sea and the stars
Love that song...and it's not even in english. But The blue wind part really is hitting on that 'holy cow' nerve....because it's very eerily similar to the part in my last messed up dream that had to do with the blue smoke...and well, nuclear disaster...and oh yeah...death. And now that I read it again...the song basically says the same exact thing....and I had this song for quite awhile on itunes, but never knew what the lyrics were saying (cause it's in french maybe? it looks weird and I know some french, so no clue really) and just happend to go look today and saw the translation....hmmm...now why has this come to me is the question...
Now I just know I'll be sent on another goose chase, like every other time something freaky comes my way...I'm telling you it happens all the time!...and I still have no clue what any of it means!
and now...Bad Moon Rising is playing on itunes, lol......and I should be working..which I was, I just printed out 8 disney villainesses..so I am working...just so happens to be on the computer, lol. Oh, and need to post those Cinderella dresses on facebook..maybe someone will buy one, cause I am feeling poor.
There was this youtube video I saw the other day that one of my adopted sisters posted (okay, she's a weird one, but no weirder than my other weird sister, lol), about someones dream of getting pulled up out of the ground...like a carrot...and like the dirt was like the earth's atmosphere is, but when pulled out, everything was like a huge garden.... I wonder if this would be like a garden of eden...all part of it, just not harvested yet. Not yet able to see our fruits, our uses, our possibilities, our treasures.
Of course this also could mean we might get eaten by zombies..in a stew or something...at that barbeque party.
What else..what else...since I already told you about my conversation with my most awesome friend......
The neighbors had a stupid street light put up on their lot/yard...great...just one more stupid light in the neighborhood...bad enough the one that shines directly through our bedroom doors is too far to shoot out. I despise lights at night. I can't see in the dark with all that brightness.
I'm feeling insightful and rather thought provoking...would rather be nice to have someone to chat with at 11pm. Besides the kids that is.
That song 'Eyes Open' is playing now..., I love that song too lately. even though Taylor Swift is not one of my favorite singers.
The song reminds me of all the people in the world who are asleep and how few there are that are actually awake...and not lost in amusement. :( A very lonesome world this is.
Ever have one of those dreams where you see someone you haven't seen in forever and you are excited and happy to see them? Then you wake up.... yeah that kind of lonely. And these people (yes, they are real, if you are wondering) just have no clue that they make you smile. Or worse when it's the boss man in your dream and then you wake up and find yourself back in 'time' and wonder if you'll ever again get to visit once more.
Half of you sighs and goes yay, that was life-altering awesome and freaky and totally mind warping experience....the other half wails in agony because of the re-separation....like it is when you're born...yeah....wonderful these things are....so they say....well, maybe I just say, as I can't find but a very very small handful of people who even have the slightest clue what I'm talking about...and even then, I'm not really sure about them....cause like I said before....it's a very lonesome world...and well...I haven't talked to them in awhile either...and this makes me sad somehow...and a piece of sadness clings somewhere on the inside and I carry it with me.
Ugh, I'm such a sap....but at least I'm an honest sap, lol :)
We are the trees. Standing tall, strong, solid, brave. Reaching up high into the greater broader skies. Reaching, striving, hoping, wishing, dreaming. Growing outward and beyond as far out as we can, as far away as our strength allows. Our triumphs and our excellence shows upon our branches. Our best features by far are that which we display and stretch out for the revealing of our glory.
Our trunk holds up our lives and bears our truths, our souls, our ambitions, and hope.
Then there's the roots....our parts which we bury beneath the world. Hide away from the sight. Our twisted and mangled fingers that reach down down down into the dark to keep from the light. Our regrets, our shame, our impossible fears. The dark part of ourselves, hidden where none can look upon them.
It's a shame that so many deny the roots and only nourish the branches....what could become of this other than a wilted and rotten tree. Death, due to neglect of a part of you that you must also tend to.
It is the roots that need tended to, in order for any of the branches to grow, in order for any petals to bloom or leaves of green to shade our peace. It is a part of the tree...a part of ourselves...
Would He cut down the tree to take you home? Even He knows we must retain roots to thrive. The roots must come with us, must be a part of us......however, it's a river of life that we will drink from instead of a river of darkness
The tree is us, our whole selves, of our life and our death, our good and our bad, our light and our dark...it is us as we are attached to this world, but yet reach out for something greater, something beyond ourselves....
The dragon flies, it's body curving with the winds, life breathing through its veins. It is real and it is not real. Intertwining with the breeze and carried along like a river through the clouds.
This too is a part of us. Where we are asleep and dancing upon a dream....yet we are alive and awake, ever moving and flowing with life.
It is us, as we are simple earthly creatures, yet we know we are something more than just that....we are creatures of divine design....and we are more than that too.
A trail from the physical....into the spiritual....from earth to sky, from water to air, from dream...to life. Or if you would have it...from life, to a dream.
And this is The Tree and the Dragon story...but not quite a real story...more like an explanation.
You know at the end of that song (posted above...J'attends)...at the end it says. "I will see you again...but not yet."...in english... I think I likes. but I guess I should watch the movie, huh..maybe that has something to do with it, lol.
well, I think i've been on here for far too long tonight...and I did already write a lot already for my second blog post of the day, lol....not that anyone ever reads this crap, but still....sometimes I have something to write...and sometimes I'm just wasting time...cause I don't want to go cut out disney people. and I don't like taking pictures of random ho hum boring every day la la stuff....and I already prepped the zombie clothes and there's not much else I'd rather do besides take a long hot shower...but waiting for my most awesome hubby to get home first.
Actually I would like to work on the last part of my book! Argh! but I have to set aside at least 2 hours for that...and I always forget until I'm going to bed...geesh...
Anyway...
Long day tomorrow...
goodnight lovely trees trembling in the crisp night air. the sun shall shine on.
Musings of imaginary friends and a fancy black car
Sometimes its very difficult. Sometimes its hard to hear, hard to see, sometimes, even hard doesn't describe the level of difficulty. Hopeless maybe, useless, though knowing never impossible. Just yourself gets in the way, you are the problem, you are the cause of the barrier, you are the one making it difficult.
So me and a good friend of mine were chatting yesterday...and so I asked why it was so difficult for me to talk to the boss man, hard to hear, excruciatingly non-easy to even see. When I can easily talk to my friend just fine.
So he says that it is because I build walls. And I go on to argue the fact that I wouldn't build a wall to keep me from seeing Him. I wouldn't put things between me and Him so I couldn't be with Him. That would be stupid, duh.
He smiles at me..."I don't think you are building walls to protect you from Him. I mean the other way around."
So I think about that for a moment...Building walls to protect Him from me?...maybe...cause I'm the bad one, I'm the messed up one, I'm the one who isn't clean. I'm the one who could stain Him. Perhaps my friend was right.
Swallowed up in the idea that what I say to Him and how I say it are important, when in fact it is all a joke that we should behave ourselves when talking to the boss man. It should be without any care in the world. It should be with all the love, all the pain, all the anguish, all the ache, all the spirit that we have....and nothing less. Unafraid if we say it right, if we say enough, if we say anything at all. Unafraid if we stain Him with our shortcomings and failures and imperfections.
He would not judge us by those things, but only that we would give all to come to Him.
Does He listen otherwise?
This is why my friends are awesome.
Kinda like alchemy...in a way.
Anyway. I'm bummed that it hasn't been warm this week, nor really sunny. I need some vitamin D. and a nap.
Finished the other cage today and put my quails in it, hope they are okay to be outside, although I am letting them keep the heat lamp for a while longer. Still have bunches of trees that need cut up/picked up in my yard. Hope to do that this weekend....after the photoshoot and some bike riding.
Need to go thrift store hopping tomorrow to find something in particular for another photoshoot....or at the least some lacy curtains or tablecloth, lol...and a blazer....and I'm gonna need a blanket too, cause I know that water will be freezing at 9am in the morning....(yes, I am a bit overly passionate of my photoshoots, I'm warning you now)
And for future reference I ***NEED!!!*** to find someone with a super fancy black car (super new or super old) cause there's this carwash thing I must create sometime this summer if at all possible.
Lots of work to do....gotta cut some villainesses out tonight and hopefully get them prepped to sew on tomorrow...ugh, that seems like a lot! (well, it is actually!) Then a whole Star Wars dress sometimes just after that...and then so on and so forth. yay....wouldn't be so bad if my paypal account still had money in it, lol.
So besides all a bunch of nothing....I will come back later and write more, just need to break away from the puter for now and be productive....goodbye shiny pennies of coppertone.
So me and a good friend of mine were chatting yesterday...and so I asked why it was so difficult for me to talk to the boss man, hard to hear, excruciatingly non-easy to even see. When I can easily talk to my friend just fine.
So he says that it is because I build walls. And I go on to argue the fact that I wouldn't build a wall to keep me from seeing Him. I wouldn't put things between me and Him so I couldn't be with Him. That would be stupid, duh.
He smiles at me..."I don't think you are building walls to protect you from Him. I mean the other way around."
So I think about that for a moment...Building walls to protect Him from me?...maybe...cause I'm the bad one, I'm the messed up one, I'm the one who isn't clean. I'm the one who could stain Him. Perhaps my friend was right.
Swallowed up in the idea that what I say to Him and how I say it are important, when in fact it is all a joke that we should behave ourselves when talking to the boss man. It should be without any care in the world. It should be with all the love, all the pain, all the anguish, all the ache, all the spirit that we have....and nothing less. Unafraid if we say it right, if we say enough, if we say anything at all. Unafraid if we stain Him with our shortcomings and failures and imperfections.
He would not judge us by those things, but only that we would give all to come to Him.
Does He listen otherwise?
This is why my friends are awesome.
Kinda like alchemy...in a way.
Anyway. I'm bummed that it hasn't been warm this week, nor really sunny. I need some vitamin D. and a nap.
Finished the other cage today and put my quails in it, hope they are okay to be outside, although I am letting them keep the heat lamp for a while longer. Still have bunches of trees that need cut up/picked up in my yard. Hope to do that this weekend....after the photoshoot and some bike riding.
Need to go thrift store hopping tomorrow to find something in particular for another photoshoot....or at the least some lacy curtains or tablecloth, lol...and a blazer....and I'm gonna need a blanket too, cause I know that water will be freezing at 9am in the morning....(yes, I am a bit overly passionate of my photoshoots, I'm warning you now)
And for future reference I ***NEED!!!*** to find someone with a super fancy black car (super new or super old) cause there's this carwash thing I must create sometime this summer if at all possible.
Lots of work to do....gotta cut some villainesses out tonight and hopefully get them prepped to sew on tomorrow...ugh, that seems like a lot! (well, it is actually!) Then a whole Star Wars dress sometimes just after that...and then so on and so forth. yay....wouldn't be so bad if my paypal account still had money in it, lol.
So besides all a bunch of nothing....I will come back later and write more, just need to break away from the puter for now and be productive....goodbye shiny pennies of coppertone.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
twinkle twinkle little buttheads
You'd think I wouldn't get so excited about photographing zombies....but I am, lol.
You'd think I wouldn't get excited at all about designing either, but I am....cause today I saw someone else's disney dress that lights up...cool...but I have these little song recorder thingies...and I bet you I could make a dress sing...and if I can find some lights too...heeheeheehee...evil plan evil plan...LOVE!
Of course, all this would be more great if I wasn't swamped (like treading water swamped) in orders already. Cause I do not have time for any new things to add to the list....boo.
But zombie photoshoot is going to happen sometime before Monday....need tripod...and a sunny morning...or dark and cloudy...either is good :)
Then only because the 10 year old mentioned something about that old song "working at the carwash, carwash yeah." I wonder if we could do a carwash photoshoot....it would be funny with zombies, lol, but wet face paint may not go too well....
So I have officially gone nuts...I have 2 dogs, 3 cats, 1 gerbil, 6 fish, 3 bunnies, 3 male guineas...plus the 1 female who comes back once every other day to eat?? (I suppose she is nesting on eggs or something in the woods??), 15 baby quails, and if I don't get my sanity back rather quickly I'll have 10 more guinea keets....this is not including the possible chance of our female guinea hatching babies and bringing them home.....this also does not include anything I may find that needs help....that doesn't count anyway...until I decide it has lived with us long enough to become ours, lol.
So you ask...if I'm so busy, why am I writing a stupid blog?...well....I just finished ironing 13 Cinderella appliques to the backing...and I'm taking a break! But here in a minute, I have to cut them out...them sew them on...and if I was rational, I'd be doing that now and remembering I left the iron on too...but nope, I have to write, cause it makes my brain work better and helps me type faster the more I do it...so there :P
Other news...hmmm... The ten year old has given up violin lessons and is just going to take piano now, but is wanting to try out the jr. roller derby that starts next week. The eight year old is wanting to try out taekwondo...I still need to call and find out when exactly that is....hopefully on Mondays just after the other, or before....either is good.
May try to go to camera club next week too, I've missed it the last 3 times....just been way too overbooked. Ugh.
Let me also throw a tissy fit as well...since I'm here and all...
Why is it people get all pissy and add stipulations and unneeded stress on things when it is not necessary? Really? So you don't use so-and-so object for oh about 10 years or more...then when someone wants to borrow it longer than a day...it's the most precious thing to you? Ugh.
No one helps out anyone nowadays without strings attached....when Jesus comes back, he's going to leave your ass here cause you tied yourself down like an anchor to objects. Just sayin, lol. And yes, I really do like to use silly religious crap to make a point. Been a long time too, so thank me for sparing you as long as I have.
Well, I want to get a tattoo.....and I've decided on a tree (cherry blossom) and a dragon (chinese style, but not outrageously frilled)...tree with 1 blossom only.
.So that story about the tree and the dragon I'm going to post oneday....is technically based on the tattoo design I want...of course I don't have this drawn out the way I want it yet though...I did some sketches, but nothing for keeps so far..maybe I can find someone else's rendition, since I'm so hard on myself, lol.
Well....today is not a story day since my eyes are hurting and I have Cinderella stuff to cut out...yay, but maybe soon :)
I'll come visit again soon. Later.
You'd think I wouldn't get excited at all about designing either, but I am....cause today I saw someone else's disney dress that lights up...cool...but I have these little song recorder thingies...and I bet you I could make a dress sing...and if I can find some lights too...heeheeheehee...evil plan evil plan...LOVE!
Of course, all this would be more great if I wasn't swamped (like treading water swamped) in orders already. Cause I do not have time for any new things to add to the list....boo.
But zombie photoshoot is going to happen sometime before Monday....need tripod...and a sunny morning...or dark and cloudy...either is good :)
Then only because the 10 year old mentioned something about that old song "working at the carwash, carwash yeah." I wonder if we could do a carwash photoshoot....it would be funny with zombies, lol, but wet face paint may not go too well....
So I have officially gone nuts...I have 2 dogs, 3 cats, 1 gerbil, 6 fish, 3 bunnies, 3 male guineas...plus the 1 female who comes back once every other day to eat?? (I suppose she is nesting on eggs or something in the woods??), 15 baby quails, and if I don't get my sanity back rather quickly I'll have 10 more guinea keets....this is not including the possible chance of our female guinea hatching babies and bringing them home.....this also does not include anything I may find that needs help....that doesn't count anyway...until I decide it has lived with us long enough to become ours, lol.
So you ask...if I'm so busy, why am I writing a stupid blog?...well....I just finished ironing 13 Cinderella appliques to the backing...and I'm taking a break! But here in a minute, I have to cut them out...them sew them on...and if I was rational, I'd be doing that now and remembering I left the iron on too...but nope, I have to write, cause it makes my brain work better and helps me type faster the more I do it...so there :P
Other news...hmmm... The ten year old has given up violin lessons and is just going to take piano now, but is wanting to try out the jr. roller derby that starts next week. The eight year old is wanting to try out taekwondo...I still need to call and find out when exactly that is....hopefully on Mondays just after the other, or before....either is good.
May try to go to camera club next week too, I've missed it the last 3 times....just been way too overbooked. Ugh.
Let me also throw a tissy fit as well...since I'm here and all...
Why is it people get all pissy and add stipulations and unneeded stress on things when it is not necessary? Really? So you don't use so-and-so object for oh about 10 years or more...then when someone wants to borrow it longer than a day...it's the most precious thing to you? Ugh.
No one helps out anyone nowadays without strings attached....when Jesus comes back, he's going to leave your ass here cause you tied yourself down like an anchor to objects. Just sayin, lol. And yes, I really do like to use silly religious crap to make a point. Been a long time too, so thank me for sparing you as long as I have.
Well, I want to get a tattoo.....and I've decided on a tree (cherry blossom) and a dragon (chinese style, but not outrageously frilled)...tree with 1 blossom only.
.So that story about the tree and the dragon I'm going to post oneday....is technically based on the tattoo design I want...of course I don't have this drawn out the way I want it yet though...I did some sketches, but nothing for keeps so far..maybe I can find someone else's rendition, since I'm so hard on myself, lol.
Well....today is not a story day since my eyes are hurting and I have Cinderella stuff to cut out...yay, but maybe soon :)
I'll come visit again soon. Later.
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Zombies....coming to a town near you ;)
Well, hello my long lost blog!! ...okay, so not long lost, but the week I neglected to write seems like a long time, right?
Let's do a fun update and then I'll tell you a story...cause stories are fun, right? Right.
So we went on vacation...whitewater rafting in NC. The water was cold...like freezing cold, but I had fun and didn't reinjure my rib, yay for me. Kids though it was scary , but fun, but cold and they didn't want to do it again, lol....little do they realize we will do it again maybe next year...cause it is fun right? Right.
And sometime soon, I will get the pics uploaded to the computer.....yes...the pics off my brand new Nikon D7000!!!! Cause I have the most wonderfulest hubby ever!! :) !!!!
And I got 4 outfits for my first real photoshoot with my new camera!!! :) from Goodwill...for less than $15...cause yeah...I'm gonna cut them up, lol....to make them more awesome...and well...it IS in fact going to be a zombie family photoshoot....to prepare for the Zombie Apocalypse....duh! It's already happening in Florida, if you ever read the news....or watch the news...or youtube, lol.
Yay, for creativity!!!....but crazy me forgot to get the tripod for the camera at my mom's house...and also the halloween make-up she should have too....dang it!
So instead of taking pictures tomorrow...I'll be rebuilding a chicken house into a quail hutch....cause I have 15 new little baby pharaoh quails that need to go outside as soon as possible!
Then there's work....I have like a ton of sewig work to do, yikes! Namely 11 outfits....4 of which my wonderful mother is helping with....so looks like I will be making some Disney Villainesses tomorrow to get prepared, some Star Wars appliques, and also finish sewing up 2 Cinderella dresses as well....and then hopefully by Wednesday I can cut out and make all those Cinderella appliques too...gah! Then at least 2 more sets of Lion King appliques, 2 more sets of Alice in Wonderland....(omg, I hate Alice!) Then 2 Ariel sets as well...and if these 2 possible other orders go through....I'll have to add 3 more to that list....which include 2 more Lion Kings....oh yeah...but that's okay, cause I have to pay for that fancy camera.....and then save up for that super wide angle lens...cause even though I won't have it for my zombie shoot...I will have it for later....
Let's see.....hmmm....I am in dire need of a name for my photography business....help....no lame crap...has to be cool...but not scary, not prissy, not stupid....awesomeness only please. And I don't like my name, so NO, it can not be my name...but I'm okay with initials, (cause yes, they are JC and that's also 'OMG,INCREDIBLE's' initials too!!) but not just JC, as that is boring...no boring allowed either....and not JC Awesomeness....since awesomeness is not a real word.....LOL.....though JC Superstar is kinda funny...but NO to that too.
Story time! Ready? Ready...
She sat there in the dusky twilight as the sun set and the darkness rose from the shadowed ground. Stillness and silence surrounded her and filled the spaces around where she waited.
Alone, alone. She thought as she continued to wait in the midst of the night. Thoughts pounding through the silence. "Where has He gone? What is He doing? Is it something I have done? Why after only a short time do I feel about in the dark thinking He'll never return? I am so impatient. Even though I know He will return, I still feel the separation like it has lasted years instead of mere days. Patience, patience."
All these echoing louder and louder as if restlessness could become a giant.
It wasn't long...at least not after He returned, it didn't seem as long as it had when He was too far to see.
Why do you struggle?
The question....the answer all in one. Why do I struggle within myself as if He would ever leave. Silly girl. Still such a child....always...barely growing beyond a mere teenager. Always forgetting.
Listen...He would say...
People look around them trying desperately to see Him....grasping desperately in the darkness trying to hear Him....trying to feel Him....trying to gain anything that would give them relief from being alone.
He knelt down in front of me as I still sat on the ground...ever gazing into His eyes.... He placed His hand on my chest over my heart...where when the silence covered us, the sound of it would beat louder and louder in the night.
The only place you ever need to look is not out there in the darkness, nor in the place before your eyes...nor that which your hands can grasp.....but here....within the heart, within the light....as this is where the light remains. Always.
Yeah, kinda a lame story...sorry, I'll do better next time :) when I tell about 'The Tree and the Dragon'.
Okay...other news....besides my hubby being awesome, the house being clean, the animals being happy, the kids being great, me being fantastic, and work on a schedule that is not at the level of 'holy crap this needs mailed out yesterday!'. I love the bank people too...cause in fact, all the bills are paid....and it's feels kinda awesome.
I do have some business I need to take care of this week, which involves that issue with 'If you're not on the top 10 list, you're outta here' thing... so please don't hate me come Tuesday. I have a beach vacation to go to in August...which seems really far away....but it's booked and we got a freaking great deal! I am also evidently 1 guinea short...as our one and only female has been missing...so either someone shot and ate her, she got eaten by some predator, she's lost, or she's laying on some eggs somewhere in the woods....I haven't seen her in awhile. Stupid bird!
Anyway...I hope your lives are full of much wonderfulness and grace. And be assured that I am always making sure that those things come your way...cause I'm just awesome like that.
And btw...if you are willing to get a little creative and want to join in on a photoshoot of awesomeness, then don't hesitate to yell at me for one....I need to build a portfolio! And Yes it is free! I just hope you'll like pay for gas to get there for me, or buy me something cool...like markers, or goggles, or something useful like a whistle or some of those powdered doughnuts they sell over in the bakery section at wal-mart....or maybe something awesome like one of those potato peelers, or anything with Wolverine on it. I'm pretty simple. I do like colorful stuff too, like stickers and post-it notes, or pens, I love fancy colorful pens! Or maybe those little journal books. (I never really write in them, I just like to have them ,lol) I like craft supplies too, like feathers, or glitter, or acrylic paints, or I have a fetish for fancy buttons....Or if you really want to be the most awesomenest ever....I'm looking for a wedding dress (vintage look with lots of lace/beads...it can be white or off whitish....my sizeish, doesn't have to be perfect as I'm going to cut it up anyway :) Or if you are just wanting pictures for absolute free....without even offering me a cup of coffee or a cold root beer, or some good laughs, then you can go stick it you know where....I only do free stuff for fun...and you are no fun. :( No pink bunnies for you.
Oh, and I got me a girl bunny! Named her Cappuccino, Cappa for short (since she likes sticking her head in the coffee cups) and she's so sweet! The boys are being buttheads to her right now, but maybe when she's older they will get along better. She gets her own little area to herself for now.
So....no bad dreams lately, no weird happenings, no strange sounds....we are all good. The meds made my sinus stuff go away finally! And my rib only hurts if hubby hugs me the wrong way, lol. But now its almost midnight...so I guess I'll go to bed, cause I've got a quail coop thing to build tomorrow and some sewing and some villainesses to cut out! God bless Sundays, cause I think they are like "the last chance to get it done before the rest of the world finds out on Monday" days.
Jumping jellybeans Batman! There's a snake in your boot!.....can we eat it?
Let's do a fun update and then I'll tell you a story...cause stories are fun, right? Right.
So we went on vacation...whitewater rafting in NC. The water was cold...like freezing cold, but I had fun and didn't reinjure my rib, yay for me. Kids though it was scary , but fun, but cold and they didn't want to do it again, lol....little do they realize we will do it again maybe next year...cause it is fun right? Right.
And sometime soon, I will get the pics uploaded to the computer.....yes...the pics off my brand new Nikon D7000!!!! Cause I have the most wonderfulest hubby ever!! :) !!!!
And I got 4 outfits for my first real photoshoot with my new camera!!! :) from Goodwill...for less than $15...cause yeah...I'm gonna cut them up, lol....to make them more awesome...and well...it IS in fact going to be a zombie family photoshoot....to prepare for the Zombie Apocalypse....duh! It's already happening in Florida, if you ever read the news....or watch the news...or youtube, lol.
Yay, for creativity!!!....but crazy me forgot to get the tripod for the camera at my mom's house...and also the halloween make-up she should have too....dang it!
So instead of taking pictures tomorrow...I'll be rebuilding a chicken house into a quail hutch....cause I have 15 new little baby pharaoh quails that need to go outside as soon as possible!
Then there's work....I have like a ton of sewig work to do, yikes! Namely 11 outfits....4 of which my wonderful mother is helping with....so looks like I will be making some Disney Villainesses tomorrow to get prepared, some Star Wars appliques, and also finish sewing up 2 Cinderella dresses as well....and then hopefully by Wednesday I can cut out and make all those Cinderella appliques too...gah! Then at least 2 more sets of Lion King appliques, 2 more sets of Alice in Wonderland....(omg, I hate Alice!) Then 2 Ariel sets as well...and if these 2 possible other orders go through....I'll have to add 3 more to that list....which include 2 more Lion Kings....oh yeah...but that's okay, cause I have to pay for that fancy camera.....and then save up for that super wide angle lens...cause even though I won't have it for my zombie shoot...I will have it for later....
Let's see.....hmmm....I am in dire need of a name for my photography business....help....no lame crap...has to be cool...but not scary, not prissy, not stupid....awesomeness only please. And I don't like my name, so NO, it can not be my name...but I'm okay with initials, (cause yes, they are JC and that's also 'OMG,INCREDIBLE's' initials too!!) but not just JC, as that is boring...no boring allowed either....and not JC Awesomeness....since awesomeness is not a real word.....LOL.....though JC Superstar is kinda funny...but NO to that too.
Story time! Ready? Ready...
She sat there in the dusky twilight as the sun set and the darkness rose from the shadowed ground. Stillness and silence surrounded her and filled the spaces around where she waited.
Alone, alone. She thought as she continued to wait in the midst of the night. Thoughts pounding through the silence. "Where has He gone? What is He doing? Is it something I have done? Why after only a short time do I feel about in the dark thinking He'll never return? I am so impatient. Even though I know He will return, I still feel the separation like it has lasted years instead of mere days. Patience, patience."
All these echoing louder and louder as if restlessness could become a giant.
It wasn't long...at least not after He returned, it didn't seem as long as it had when He was too far to see.
Why do you struggle?
The question....the answer all in one. Why do I struggle within myself as if He would ever leave. Silly girl. Still such a child....always...barely growing beyond a mere teenager. Always forgetting.
Listen...He would say...
People look around them trying desperately to see Him....grasping desperately in the darkness trying to hear Him....trying to feel Him....trying to gain anything that would give them relief from being alone.
He knelt down in front of me as I still sat on the ground...ever gazing into His eyes.... He placed His hand on my chest over my heart...where when the silence covered us, the sound of it would beat louder and louder in the night.
The only place you ever need to look is not out there in the darkness, nor in the place before your eyes...nor that which your hands can grasp.....but here....within the heart, within the light....as this is where the light remains. Always.
Yeah, kinda a lame story...sorry, I'll do better next time :) when I tell about 'The Tree and the Dragon'.
Okay...other news....besides my hubby being awesome, the house being clean, the animals being happy, the kids being great, me being fantastic, and work on a schedule that is not at the level of 'holy crap this needs mailed out yesterday!'. I love the bank people too...cause in fact, all the bills are paid....and it's feels kinda awesome.
I do have some business I need to take care of this week, which involves that issue with 'If you're not on the top 10 list, you're outta here' thing... so please don't hate me come Tuesday. I have a beach vacation to go to in August...which seems really far away....but it's booked and we got a freaking great deal! I am also evidently 1 guinea short...as our one and only female has been missing...so either someone shot and ate her, she got eaten by some predator, she's lost, or she's laying on some eggs somewhere in the woods....I haven't seen her in awhile. Stupid bird!
Anyway...I hope your lives are full of much wonderfulness and grace. And be assured that I am always making sure that those things come your way...cause I'm just awesome like that.
And btw...if you are willing to get a little creative and want to join in on a photoshoot of awesomeness, then don't hesitate to yell at me for one....I need to build a portfolio! And Yes it is free! I just hope you'll like pay for gas to get there for me, or buy me something cool...like markers, or goggles, or something useful like a whistle or some of those powdered doughnuts they sell over in the bakery section at wal-mart....or maybe something awesome like one of those potato peelers, or anything with Wolverine on it. I'm pretty simple. I do like colorful stuff too, like stickers and post-it notes, or pens, I love fancy colorful pens! Or maybe those little journal books. (I never really write in them, I just like to have them ,lol) I like craft supplies too, like feathers, or glitter, or acrylic paints, or I have a fetish for fancy buttons....Or if you really want to be the most awesomenest ever....I'm looking for a wedding dress (vintage look with lots of lace/beads...it can be white or off whitish....my sizeish, doesn't have to be perfect as I'm going to cut it up anyway :) Or if you are just wanting pictures for absolute free....without even offering me a cup of coffee or a cold root beer, or some good laughs, then you can go stick it you know where....I only do free stuff for fun...and you are no fun. :( No pink bunnies for you.
Oh, and I got me a girl bunny! Named her Cappuccino, Cappa for short (since she likes sticking her head in the coffee cups) and she's so sweet! The boys are being buttheads to her right now, but maybe when she's older they will get along better. She gets her own little area to herself for now.
So....no bad dreams lately, no weird happenings, no strange sounds....we are all good. The meds made my sinus stuff go away finally! And my rib only hurts if hubby hugs me the wrong way, lol. But now its almost midnight...so I guess I'll go to bed, cause I've got a quail coop thing to build tomorrow and some sewing and some villainesses to cut out! God bless Sundays, cause I think they are like "the last chance to get it done before the rest of the world finds out on Monday" days.
Jumping jellybeans Batman! There's a snake in your boot!.....can we eat it?
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