A rant and a deluxe piece of engineering.

 

2023 Porsche 911 gt3 rs
But I prefer matte black....
the design software didn't have that option...

Just putting this here.
I exchanged the cybertruck for this...
because SPEED
and the new 4runner is already on the list when my current one expires

So I'm writing this book on Atlantis.
It's a collection of interviews from Atlantians.
Hope it makes the cut, haha.

Haven't wrote in the other lately, but it will come when it comes.
That one will take awhile, as it's not up to me...
It's up to the aethers what comes through...
and if I ever get some fucking time to meditate and have a chat.

I just wanted to rant today...
but while I'm speaking of books...
Just yesterday I had this huge influx of shit for book 8 of Angel of MidKnight...
and fuck me if this story ever ends...
Book 8 wouldn't be due til 2024...and here we are not even having stepped into 2023 yet.
son of a bitch...
son of a bitch...

Anyway...rant...
about this time constraint I'm still suffering from.
Suffer as in annoyed, not awfulness.
...
meditation...
that place I get all this awesome intelligence and genius from.
Where insights and unfathomable intuition grows out of.
where I meet the best people ever!!
   hence why real world people are so fucking boring...
so... I'm having the hugest irritation with being consistent.

'They' say to do meditation in the morning...
but that hasn't worked for the millionth time I've tried to do that.
My soul isn't even here...and then you want me to have a conversation or gather up cool stuff...
while I'm half asleep...
NO. I literately fall back asleep... or don't remember one second of whatever was going on..
so that does not work for me in any shape or form.
So mornings are a NO.
There's the afternoons. I love meditating in the afternoons...cause I don't fall asleep, I get to have chats with the aether peeps, or myself, or whatever... I remember it all. Easily can consciously delve into any issue or challenge to bring a solution to it. Manifesting powers are honed here.
  but...guess what... I've got shit to do.. errands, work, other work stuffs... I could do it a few days..
but a few days is not considered consistent.
   I do my workout more consistent than a few fucking days...
So unless I give up the jobs... which what's even wrong with that? (oh yeah.. *money)
the afternoons are a 'great time, but damn it if you aren't always available'.
Evenings... evenings are writing time. Networking time...
  I have gotten in a few meditations in the evenings.. but like the afternoons... not consistent. I get 3-4 on a good week...and that's not getting into the depths.
It's like eating fresh baked bread, but only the end piece... not the center....where it fucking matters...
I get my workout in more than that even!
FUUUUUCK...
I can't stay up til 2am all the time... *sigh.
And there is no such thing as cutting into writing time...I'd just be bombarded with book scenes the whole time...
Fuck me.. I don't even have art time... What the actual FUCK!?!?!?
Now I'm kinda pissed now that THAT realization has hit me...
wtaf...

I want it all.
Every fucking thing.

Especially that Porsche.

now..let's have a inner dialogue...
Say there was money to pay all the basics off and shit..
and buy the car and 4runner.. and hubs a new truck.. and the airstream...
Would I write? Absolutely! More so!
Would I meditate? Oh hell yeah! All the time!
Would I art? Certainly!
Would I workout? Yes! And go hiking at all the national parks, duh!
Would I pet sit?
   HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!  No....
   It's a no.
I already set my Rover account to 'away' so I don't pick up any new clients...
and truthfully I can give current clients to Skylar to handle.
No biggie... I do it for the money and ease and play time with pups/kits and I can run errands while I'm out and about. But yeah.. it buys gas and pays a few bills.
Would I still sew?
   That's a no too.
   Right now I only work one day every two weeks cause slow season... which is rather great.
  But *money
   ....but time...
time to do my stuffs....

We will rearrange my list and just do it.
Create the happening.
I can do what I want.


Peace out.

Nah.

 I've tried 3 times to come here and actually write.
So noww I have a sentence, so I guess that's a win.

When you channel other souls and they want to argue with you while you are writing a book...
that's fun...
when they gotta be draggin you into the story, when you don't want to be in the story to where people
know you're in the story.
But that's what Thoth does I suppose.
Tyrant.
Just like me.
Kuddos.
I may just edit it all out. idk yet.

Words are falling short in other aspects lately, unless you count the book I'm writing.
Which has a title already....and I'm so proud...
   *huffs on fingernails and buffs them on shirt cause it's all that and more.
Hoping it will be a short book, aiming for 10 interviews.
  which may bring it to 100 pages if I'm lucky....
  but that mind probe is saying it needs to be longer... argh... might just yank that out
  cause what's wrong with 100 pages... *sigh

I have a few intentions I've thought about... to up my game.
adding back the focused meditation has already paid off and I will be continuing such expenditures.
Think I'll do a kylego too... cause why not... last time I did that, it also paid off pretty well...
just like the time I posted all those pics of my future 4runner.... *which I also still LOVE.
 and the pool pics *thumbs up... even though we have to relevel it for next year...

so let's start now...
waiting until the new year is for losers.



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Kylego 12/22/2022

   I remember... when the properties we listed for sale sold in the same week for our asking price. It was amazing, one sold and then boom, a few days later the others did. Everything went smoothly and quickly and that ignited our finances to clear out the rest of the debt soon after.
   Things moved SO FAST! and everything shifted amazingly in our favor! We scored some awesome opportunities for quick chunks of massive cash and enhanced our finances for the long term.
It was so fun and exciting to get the publishing contract and finally earn huge checks for writing! That was a great start to an actual career that pays better than all things combined.
Oh! It even sparked my artwork to start working again and made big bucks with that, selling all the originals and still selling multiple prints of past pieces.
Also got an outstanding payment check for the next book that is already in the works! I'm so excited!
I just loved that everything aligned perfectly. I loved it made life so simple and easy.
I loved how quickly things unfolded and how expanded it made things.
I love how beautiful things grew more and more and more.
I love that the older kids found a great place to move that was perfect and affordable and safe and nearby. I love that Teir found a job he really likes and is thriving.
I love that hubs is going hiking and growing his hair out.
I love that I'm rich and the garage is cleaned out so that when I get my porsche, it has somewhere to go.
I love that Tesla stocks went to $1000 per share...and still growing.
I remember when I saw the future and it came true....and I saw the past and it met me again.

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just minor updates so you don't think I forgot about you.

 
So I've been writing this other book...if that's what it's called?
and today revealed a huge dimension of information and insight into some sciency worldly stuffs...
   and I'm not sure if I can write about it... if I can share about it...
and there are no minds around me that are willing to dive into quantum physics..
at east not on a serious level... *sigh.
it totally has to do with some things that are highly controversial...ya know, like flat earth.

Anyway...
besides all those happenings from the aethers which are in my new project book...
   I'm really just trying to get my 'art' to start back up and turn on...
  cause it's not looking good besides the ideas...the images... but absolute ZERO motivation to begin.
and maybe it will one day...but I'll need to reconsider giving handmade gifts... argh.
  which would be great if I had money.

Speaking of money..
what even is that...? cause yeah...
I quit sewing at home...shadowdragon dreams
   even if I am still actively fighting off mind invasions of doing this or that for pay...
   really ignoring and redirecting that nonsense of doing for money...
   rather than doing because I fucking WANT to.
   so far I'm winning....cause I'm writing ... and that's what I WANT to do...
   *I also want to get paid for such too, thanks..
I still have the alterations job at the bridal place...
  still learning stuffs, but only working 1 day a week right now, slow season
   which is fine, cause I like staying home.
////speaking of... still watching pets too...
   have one client I check on twice daily... every weekday almost.
   It's meh... but it's money...
   but like I said, I like staying home....sooo.. I may drop that come Feb.
   I already turned off booking new clients on Rover..soo.. meh...
Otherwise...
  house stuffs, christmas stuffs...facebook stuffs...
...and...
   whateverthefuck...

I was hoping something interesting would come out to play...
but it looks like that only works with books...

bored...gonna go...
can't promise I'll be back here anytime soon, but no plans to quit anything here ;)