The stars. That point of luminescent light that appears like a dot in the nighttime sky. The one you lock eyes with and zoom in and watch intently as it slowly begins to flicker ever so slightly...perhaps a flash of faint color. Is it even a star, a satellite perhaps? But you see it and there is nothing else when you look to it as it dances.
There was this book I looked up yesterday, and on amazon.com it will let you see a few pages inside it. So there was 2 or 3 pages that I read to see if this book was worth my time.....and then my mind was even more flipped upside down than it was just previously. A continuance of the spirit mind roller coaster I enjoyed just last week. I love how these things pile upon one another and like a child they point and go 'ooh, look, here's another one!'.
These....what do we call them....moments of time and events when you feel yourself being repaired so to speak. As we all are broken.....but these moments are when we feel one of the stitches mending us.
I think I might order this book, regardless of the $7 price tag attaches to it.
Now before, at the beginning of this roller coaster of healing......I was driving, to florida....it was a long drive indeed. But I just so happened to be flipping through radio channels, because thats what your supposed to do to keep entertained while driving for 9 hours. And out of the numerous stations, I stop on one...this christian radio station.....and you know I dislike christian music....at least 99% of it anyway. But I was lucky enough to hear someone who could sing and music that actually went with it all in the same song. Now I've heard this song before, but can't recall where/why/or why I can't recall it, but it was one of the 1% that I will stop to listen to. So I did.
Now while listening to this song, there were these signs along the freeway....I can't remember for the life of me what they were advertising, but they screamed out EXIT SOON, EXIT IS COMING, EXIT UP AHEAD, and so on and so forth for no less than 20 signs! Then there was this one on the other side of the freeway with Jesus on it....but I can't remember what it read, I think something about 'Have you made your decision?' or similar-ish....then those other signs were all like EXIT AHEAD, EXIT NOW, TAKE THE EXIT, EXIT EXIT EXIT!, DON"T MISS THE EXIT....and I found this rather intriguing to my simple minded self....I got a kick out of it, as they were advertising something lame really.
So anyway, that song was over and I begin flipping channels again, and came across Adrian Rogers sermon (ok, I'll admit, he's the only one I will choose to listen to if I had to) and he was talking about armor.
Not sure if I wrote about it on here, about the armor...and the helmet....and yeah...that stuff....but I found this and the song and the signs all exciting coincidences. Anyway, so I didn't take the exit off the freeway, as I wasn't even thinking about the actual exit ramp, lol...I was thinking more along the lines of exiting the world (or better worded, exiting being a part of the world (not like rapture junk)).... so Adrian goes on about fiery darts and very strange similar stuff that one of my adopted sisters talks about on youtube lately. So this freaks me out a bit, but I like it.
Now Anna (my adopted sister) just recently freaked me out regarding one of her videos that basically described the exact same thing in my head about the lamb in the thorns....and I was all like 'OMG!' (did I write about that here??? might have been on deviant art..hmmm) So this was all awesomesauce coinkidinkness!
So that book I read a few pages in....just added like the cherry on top...ok, no, I hate cherries...it added chocolate fudge....and now I'm trying to figure out how my brain is going to rewire itself with this new stitch in it.
So did I tell you what I found yesterday? of course, not I haven't written in forever!.... I solved all the problems in the world yesterday. Now the secret is not forgetting the resolution. I'm incorporating it.....and it;s going to be astounding....but a bigger word than that.
Let me tell you a story..... Once upon a time there was this little lamb. She pranced and danced in the fields while the sheep hurdled close to the shepherd....this little lamb ran to and fro and taunted the wolves that lingered near the forest edge. She was a happy little lamb, never afraid, never worried about getting eaten by the big bad wolves who always watched her playful prancing, hoping she'd fall and they could eat her.
Often times she would get lost, wonder too far away from the shepherd to where she couldn't see him. But he always came to find her and carry her back with him. Always patient was this shepherd. Often times she would get sick, and again her shepherd would find her frail and weak and carry her back to restore her. Often times she would dart in and out of the surrounding forest, sometimes in the dark, and again the shepherd would carry her back out to the daylight. Often times this lamb would just sit and grumble and avoid even looking at the flock, but the shepherd didn't mind, he would carry her so she wouldn't have to deal with those clumsy sheep.
Then one day....the lamb wondered too far into the forest. And there were briars...twisted thorns, darkness and shadows. Tangled vines. She was trapped. If she called out, the wolves would hear her and devour her. If she tried to escape the vines would pull tighter and she'd be entwined in a snare. If she tried to jump out, the thorns would cut her. The lamb laid down silent and waited. The shepherd would come. He would know she was trapped, he would come. He would find her and free her and carry her back out into the sun.
It took quite awhile, but the shepherd came. As always he smiled as he carried her back out into the field and into the sunshine. Ever patient is this shepherd, especially with this little lamb.
But now something was different after being freed from the thorns and briars and vines.... the shepherd carried her back with him but soon she was rolled into something else.... 'please don't turn me into one of those sheep' she thought. The shepherd smiled. She was rolled into something else....and placed into a pod... this pod was dark and warm and moist? There was some light that lightly smeared itself across the membrane around her. Sounds....although muffled echoed from the beyond. What is this?
The lamb was no longer a lamb....she looked at herself and could see hands, and feet and a nose, ears, slight hair upon her head....knees, elbows. What is this?! She was a child. A child in the womb, and she was growing fast and this pod was getting smaller....lights, sounds, what is this? There was darkness and shadows, but she was not afraid of them. The walls of her pod were getting smaller, but she is not afraid of them...the shepherd put her here, the shepherd will carry her out. But would he still be a shepherd then? Or a father?
She tilts and things squeeze tighter.... something will happen soon with this little child. And she is not afraid.
So you know where I'm at currently.....and I'm waiting for Anna to post something related to the womb...but so far all I've gotten is stuff about crowning, and completeness, and stitching, and stuff like that....close, but I prefer freak out stuff, naturally.
So have you ever went to see fireworks at Magical Kingdom in Disney World? They are pretty cool and all, but what is not so cool is when adults are piling up in the front blocking the view from smaller kids who keep getting pushed into the back so they are unable to see. Or worse, when there's a small space for a little kid to stand, and when the parent says to step in front so they can see...a larger taller kid steps up theirself after hearing someone else was going to move forward..... Or when taller adults press past others so they can get a good picture of a part of the parade, because they have a fancy camera.... I will never do this...its just a parade, really people? These were the only idiots I saw in the parks...besides the one mom who was angry because her kid was hot and tired...well duh lady it is hot and even I'm tired, lol. Get a grip.
So the whole entire idea is that people are denying others a gift so to speak. Denying them. Denying them access, denying them respect, love, kindness.....denying them. People are denying others access to things that are gifts. People even deny themselves gifts.... and this is the world's problem's all wrapped into one. -- People deny themselves love, and they dislike themselves, or doubt or feel unworthy...they are denying themselves love, denying themselves acceptance. therefore they are denying their spirit what it needs, they are denying gifts, denying God. They are standing in the way of the light, just like those adults are standing in the way of the children who weren't tall enough to see the fireworks. They are shadows... they have denied themselves and denied the light and refuse to let it shine past themselves. People deny others those same gifts of love and acceptance. 'You are a bad boy, you're not trying hard enough, don't do that, no, stop, do as I say, so on and so forth...they are denying freedom, denying acceptance, denying love. They do it to themselves, others, even their own children. they are again denying the light to shine past themselves for someone else.
Step out of the way. Do not deny yourself love. Do not deny anyone else that same love. Be the beacon.
This is how the world's problems are solved. Do not deny it.
Anyway....frequencies are awesome....even though I have yet to figure out how to alter a low one to a high one, or vice versa....you can only predict the future so far ahead, but not in detail when you consider frequencies. I might be on to something.
The boss man said that my very good friend is awesome!!! :) This is good news. Deposit for rental house has been gathered, good news again. Motorcycle sold, good news, kids will most likely get their green belts this week, good news even though those pads are expensive. More sales sewing wise are on the horizon, also good news. Told you it was going to be a great week, solved the world's problems and everything :) can't wait to be born!! Lol. yeah I know you think I'm nuts and have no clue what I mean :)
I'm sure there's more to share, but it will have to wait, I need to go cook dinner and then get to sewing work work and edit some pics later tonight :) FUN!
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