It's been darker lately.
Even the light of the tiny windows I pass doesn't give this dark tower any joy.
He's been here with me...every step.
"Do you want to go on?" He asks.
"Yes." ....because there's something at the top I want to see...I want to feel...I want to be.
I struggle. Like an old record...I take step after step...and each one is hard. Each one bring more pain.
"Do you want to stop and rest?" He asks.
I pause, wondering if I want to rest in this place....
"No." ..... because I'd rather at least rest by a window...any sort of light is better than none.
Sometimes I hate these steps...and these steps burn.
"Is it the step you hate?" He asks. "Or is it the pain it causes you when you take it?"
So it can't be the step.....now can it.
My weak burning muscles....my inability to climb without feeling the burn.
It's something in me that I hate...not the step. This step is only telling me to look to the inside...for it is in the inside that suffers.
And this presses me deeper...farther...higher. I can't form words to tell of the broken parts of myself. But these steps have chosen to reveal them. These steps I love.
"Is he your Lord?" He asks me as I'm caught up in a series of memories.
"No." I shake my head. "You are."
"Then let me be." He kneels down to me with more unspoken words that race through my thoughts like sunbeams. I understand.
"Do you want to continue?" He asks.
"Yes." I nod.....knowing it's darker ahead. Knowing...and loving it still.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
So ....my other life...
this one...a small part perhaps...but most people think of it as my only one.
There's a crack on my mini laptop's screen..... I know who used it last....it still works, thankfully....
Sewing work.... I hate sewing. This job is not very satisfying lately. I'm unenthused and rather bored with it. I need a long vacation. Too bad there's this reliance on some sort of income from it.
The Hobo Patch......waiting on everyone else to do their jobs.... I'm ready when I get certain things from certain institutions.....bummer.
Photography.... I have a job next weekend.
Bills.....hahahahahahaha! I'm really trying hard to find excuses not to pay them. I have failed successfully. I currently own $15 and haven't made a sale in a long time.... please buy something from me.
Kids..... I work too much to plan decent projects/outings/educational activities......however...one has found a liking to an after school program although I guess it will be over in a few weeks....and the other is going to a robotics class this summer....
Weather....rain...nothing but rain. Boooooooo!!!
Garden.... wet and muddy at the moment.
House....the places I use most are clean....does that count.
Me....I'm fine. yeah. whatever. No, I'm dying inside. But I'm happy too....that make sense?
Pets....the cat will not shut up! and the dogs are shedding....the bird is so cute, but likes to pick my zits....the other birds are fine. The ferret is good too.
Dreams....nothing good....
Hubby....let's just say he's that #!$%@# step I love. :)
what else do I do..... lots of stuff....but I find that most of it is not something I would choose.
....... perhaps at another time I'll find something more exciting to write about! :)
My very good friend.... he said that ."....even if we are on different paths, it doesn't mean we won't end up at the same destination...."
Sunday, April 19, 2015
The Architect built the lighthouse.
But alas... why do we even need them anymore.
Many are abandoned and forgotten. Left to become a symbol of neglect.
They are cute, perhaps a mirage of design from the past. Towering spires with a flame atop its head.
But nonetheless neglected. Cracking....fading....
Did the Architect think of how it'd be left to face the world alone.
I can't remember when I wrote this.....it was awhile ago....and ..it was a window.
But alas... why do we even need them anymore.
Many are abandoned and forgotten. Left to become a symbol of neglect.
They are cute, perhaps a mirage of design from the past. Towering spires with a flame atop its head.
But nonetheless neglected. Cracking....fading....
Did the Architect think of how it'd be left to face the world alone.
I can't remember when I wrote this.....it was awhile ago....and ..it was a window.
Friday, March 13, 2015
Stairs make your heart beat harder than if you were walking on a field.
Sometimes I forget. I forget that lighthouses are towers and that towers have many steps....
Steps that seem unending and go on and on and on.
Steps that are cradled in darkness.
Steps that seem like the same step over and over again.
These tiring steps.
I didn't think about how hard it was going to be when I asked to be a lighthouse.
I didn't even realize how dark this flight of spiral stairs was going to be...I didn't even think about the steps....maybe I thought I could just fly to the top. I'm not sure what I was thinking.
Oh yeah...I was thinking of the blinding light that stretches out over the seas and thrusts the darkness into oblivion.... I was thinking that the waves could never break it open or make it tremble. I was thinking of the swirling colors of joy I'd paint it.
Oh but these steps.... they've made me want to surrender.
I was there in the spiral, struggling to force one leg upward, in the dim damp dark. Cursing these steps.
He was there just a step ahead of me. He turned back to me.
"Where do you go? Where do you go when I can't find you?" I had asked him. A bit of rage upon my tongue, because I hate it when he does that. I was grumbling...with honesty.
"Where do you think I go, when I'm not here?" He asked me in return.
and he always answers the real questions with real questions that give real answers. My heart echoed the answer and I no longer feel the need to grumble...or even ever ask that again.
............ I go to prepare a place for you.........
Well, obviously I should have thought of that before asking the question, but I didn't. Maybe I thought he was just watching me freak out a bit every now and then from afar....for unendless reasons...but simply, no...he was doing something important for me....duh.
I can't remember now...but these steps...these steps I love. They told me a story the past few days. No, they wrote me a story. And I seem to find that taking the next step is easier. Turning up the next spiral is fulfilling. Slowly watching the darkness turn to a dim light is perfection....and we are almost to the top...or perhaps a window. I will accept either. I will accept a thousand more steps....a thousand more after that...so long as I can take them with you.
......and that song ...it played in my head today and those words seem more beautiful. And I laugh, because I know he has a sense of humor and he sends me these songs for no other reason than to see me smile....and to remind me that we are more than what we can imagine...and so is he.
"But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who walks a thousand miles
To fall down at your door"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZ4Ib-7fJqY
"You are the ocean. And you are the forest, and the river, and the mountain. You are the sun, and the moon. You are the wind, the field, the earth, and the sky. You are the stars, and you are the fire."
This is what we are. All different, each of us. But we are one.... we are won.
He told me that the other day....thought I might share.
He speaks like a poet.
Anyway.... what's been happening in the other world in which I live...?
Sewing work. But I happen to like sewing work...most of the time.
Business stuff, like paperwork, and bills, and post office errands.
painting a table....that needs a second coat still.
Making a leprechaun costume...
Get to do cage stuff tomorrow I think for the boy. And if not raining, a parade.
Other plans....but I'm really just satisfied that I got the chance to write this blog post finally. It's been hanging with me for a week now. Although I wouldn't have gotten that song unless I was forced to wait...hmmm.
Been missing my very good friend. Just haven't been able to chat lately.
But grateful the boss man is present recently.
Universal vibes have been giving me a sense of something exciting is on the way. ....well, I say universal vibes...but the boss man is chilling with me and everything is exciting when he's here. And there's totally some light up ahead..I can see it.
Not like I see this weird 4th dimensional stuff, but really....awesomeness is approaching.
And I feel like writing a book.... and playing a song...
..yep...that's it.
Steps that seem unending and go on and on and on.
Steps that are cradled in darkness.
Steps that seem like the same step over and over again.
These tiring steps.
I didn't think about how hard it was going to be when I asked to be a lighthouse.
I didn't even realize how dark this flight of spiral stairs was going to be...I didn't even think about the steps....maybe I thought I could just fly to the top. I'm not sure what I was thinking.
Oh yeah...I was thinking of the blinding light that stretches out over the seas and thrusts the darkness into oblivion.... I was thinking that the waves could never break it open or make it tremble. I was thinking of the swirling colors of joy I'd paint it.
Oh but these steps.... they've made me want to surrender.
I was there in the spiral, struggling to force one leg upward, in the dim damp dark. Cursing these steps.
He was there just a step ahead of me. He turned back to me.
"Where do you go? Where do you go when I can't find you?" I had asked him. A bit of rage upon my tongue, because I hate it when he does that. I was grumbling...with honesty.
"Where do you think I go, when I'm not here?" He asked me in return.
and he always answers the real questions with real questions that give real answers. My heart echoed the answer and I no longer feel the need to grumble...or even ever ask that again.
............ I go to prepare a place for you.........
Well, obviously I should have thought of that before asking the question, but I didn't. Maybe I thought he was just watching me freak out a bit every now and then from afar....for unendless reasons...but simply, no...he was doing something important for me....duh.
I can't remember now...but these steps...these steps I love. They told me a story the past few days. No, they wrote me a story. And I seem to find that taking the next step is easier. Turning up the next spiral is fulfilling. Slowly watching the darkness turn to a dim light is perfection....and we are almost to the top...or perhaps a window. I will accept either. I will accept a thousand more steps....a thousand more after that...so long as I can take them with you.
......and that song ...it played in my head today and those words seem more beautiful. And I laugh, because I know he has a sense of humor and he sends me these songs for no other reason than to see me smile....and to remind me that we are more than what we can imagine...and so is he.
"But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who walks a thousand miles
To fall down at your door"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZ4Ib-7fJqY
"You are the ocean. And you are the forest, and the river, and the mountain. You are the sun, and the moon. You are the wind, the field, the earth, and the sky. You are the stars, and you are the fire."
This is what we are. All different, each of us. But we are one.... we are won.
He told me that the other day....thought I might share.
He speaks like a poet.
Anyway.... what's been happening in the other world in which I live...?
Sewing work. But I happen to like sewing work...most of the time.
Business stuff, like paperwork, and bills, and post office errands.
painting a table....that needs a second coat still.
Making a leprechaun costume...
Get to do cage stuff tomorrow I think for the boy. And if not raining, a parade.
Other plans....but I'm really just satisfied that I got the chance to write this blog post finally. It's been hanging with me for a week now. Although I wouldn't have gotten that song unless I was forced to wait...hmmm.
Been missing my very good friend. Just haven't been able to chat lately.
But grateful the boss man is present recently.
Universal vibes have been giving me a sense of something exciting is on the way. ....well, I say universal vibes...but the boss man is chilling with me and everything is exciting when he's here. And there's totally some light up ahead..I can see it.
Not like I see this weird 4th dimensional stuff, but really....awesomeness is approaching.
And I feel like writing a book.... and playing a song...
..yep...that's it.
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
Random conversation with my crazy child on the same computer
no...I would LOVE to!
I do not want to go to the gym, thank you. But I do want to join a 15k race! Let's do it!
I would rather go skydiving
ME too! but you're too young..... boo hoo...grow up
why don't YOU grow up?!
My bones won't stretch any taller!!!
I have seen teenagers taller than you!
Me too!
Buy me a lollipop
The bank gives them away for free :)
I mean the big colorful round ones that are like 5 inches across
YOu mean with a 5 inch diameter?
......YES.
find one and I'll buy it for you, but I have to warn you that you probably will not finish it
I do not really care if i finish it or not.
why? it will go bad. Or do you plan to cover it with mod podge? If so you can just make one out of something like pipe cleaners or clay!!
No, i want to eat it and whatever i don't eat will either be thrown away or saved until later.
whatever....
NO
Good night skylar, I love you so much you make me crazy!
Does that mean you have a mental disorder? If you are going crazy then you need to see a therapist.
I'm not really crazy, I just say that to make other people think I'm aware of my special antics..... it makes them feel safe....yeah...safe
Are you going to murder them later that day?
No.
Lol i don't trust you
that's your choice...
So you're saying i should trust this weirdo?
You can trust me...I have your best interests at heart
You sound sinister. What are my interests then?
warm home, good food, freewill...computer time....and stuff for your birds....et al.
What does et al mean? And the rest is just good quality of life. You were the one who let me have the birds in the first place!
Et al....is latin. It means 'and others' or similar to etcetera. Etc.
Go to bed
Why
i need to go to bed
but you are writing a blog. do not lie to me MUAAHAHAHAHA
I'm not, I have to go to bed because I have to go to the gm in the morning.... and I was going ot write a blog post, but someone has taken over my plan ...and now I am TIRED!!!!
What kind of grammar is that??!!?!?
You could just give this a title and publish it as "random conversation with my crazy child on the same computer"
whateve..I can do that if you think it will work....but I had something grandeous to write about and something deep and insightful....now it's all got to wait until next time....
Who cares? this is better anyway!
ok
Great, now i'll give it a title and you can hit the button that says "Publish" OK?
Sure, why not.
Brilliant.
I do not want to go to the gym, thank you. But I do want to join a 15k race! Let's do it!
I would rather go skydiving
ME too! but you're too young..... boo hoo...grow up
why don't YOU grow up?!
My bones won't stretch any taller!!!
I have seen teenagers taller than you!
Me too!
Buy me a lollipop
The bank gives them away for free :)
I mean the big colorful round ones that are like 5 inches across
YOu mean with a 5 inch diameter?
......YES.
find one and I'll buy it for you, but I have to warn you that you probably will not finish it
I do not really care if i finish it or not.
why? it will go bad. Or do you plan to cover it with mod podge? If so you can just make one out of something like pipe cleaners or clay!!
No, i want to eat it and whatever i don't eat will either be thrown away or saved until later.
whatever....
NO
Good night skylar, I love you so much you make me crazy!
Does that mean you have a mental disorder? If you are going crazy then you need to see a therapist.
I'm not really crazy, I just say that to make other people think I'm aware of my special antics..... it makes them feel safe....yeah...safe
Are you going to murder them later that day?
No.
Lol i don't trust you
that's your choice...
So you're saying i should trust this weirdo?
You can trust me...I have your best interests at heart
You sound sinister. What are my interests then?
warm home, good food, freewill...computer time....and stuff for your birds....et al.
What does et al mean? And the rest is just good quality of life. You were the one who let me have the birds in the first place!
Et al....is latin. It means 'and others' or similar to etcetera. Etc.
Go to bed
Why
i need to go to bed
but you are writing a blog. do not lie to me MUAAHAHAHAHA
I'm not, I have to go to bed because I have to go to the gm in the morning.... and I was going ot write a blog post, but someone has taken over my plan ...and now I am TIRED!!!!
What kind of grammar is that??!!?!?
You could just give this a title and publish it as "random conversation with my crazy child on the same computer"
whateve..I can do that if you think it will work....but I had something grandeous to write about and something deep and insightful....now it's all got to wait until next time....
Who cares? this is better anyway!
ok
Great, now i'll give it a title and you can hit the button that says "Publish" OK?
Sure, why not.
Brilliant.
Saturday, February 28, 2015
what am i doing.... ? who knows anymore.
It's been what...5 or 6 days. I have a few dreadlocks, but have yet to do the rest of my hair....though I'm starting to not like the unbound strands, lol. There's a few I need to tighten up too, so luckily I did the type that can be taken out and redone if needs be. So live and learn, yes.
I quit that unfullfilling job! I'm happy, though I need to kinda go there to shop and don't want to just yet, lol. Waiting for them to forget me maybe, idk.
I'm almost done with Volume 1 of that book I'm reading...1 more volume to go....and then I might write a story. idk.
I'm having those fits of ''ideas to make money'' which is so detrimental...as they all require time, effort, or money.....And even though most don't require much money at all, I'm rather stuck at not wanting to put too much time or effort into them just to 'see if they will work out'. I need to get to an unstuck point in which to focus and attack. I know how this story goes and I know I have to love it in order for it to work.... and i don't know why I bother contemplating ways to see if they would, when I could just not.
I'm still on the hunt, although I admit that I haven't spent very much time at all...or effort... into searching. Hardly any actually. I will need to plan a date for sure, otherwise it will not be a priority...when it really should be.
I'm watching the twilight series... and this makes me either want to turn into a vampire, or write a book. Ugh.
I'm sewing and sewing lately...and still need to edit pics, and paint tables, and paint dresses even. I have a to-do list, but now that I have all this time, I feel kinda great about the outlook of things, lol. So for the record, the best way to find time is to add something to your list....and then after awhile, drop it :) like a job.
You know what.... I don't have any complaints other than my useless rambling and theories. I like this hippie/viking lifestyle. Problem is I want to be a rich viking/hippie. Lol.
I quit that unfullfilling job! I'm happy, though I need to kinda go there to shop and don't want to just yet, lol. Waiting for them to forget me maybe, idk.
I'm almost done with Volume 1 of that book I'm reading...1 more volume to go....and then I might write a story. idk.
I'm having those fits of ''ideas to make money'' which is so detrimental...as they all require time, effort, or money.....And even though most don't require much money at all, I'm rather stuck at not wanting to put too much time or effort into them just to 'see if they will work out'. I need to get to an unstuck point in which to focus and attack. I know how this story goes and I know I have to love it in order for it to work.... and i don't know why I bother contemplating ways to see if they would, when I could just not.
I'm still on the hunt, although I admit that I haven't spent very much time at all...or effort... into searching. Hardly any actually. I will need to plan a date for sure, otherwise it will not be a priority...when it really should be.
I'm watching the twilight series... and this makes me either want to turn into a vampire, or write a book. Ugh.
I'm sewing and sewing lately...and still need to edit pics, and paint tables, and paint dresses even. I have a to-do list, but now that I have all this time, I feel kinda great about the outlook of things, lol. So for the record, the best way to find time is to add something to your list....and then after awhile, drop it :) like a job.
You know what.... I don't have any complaints other than my useless rambling and theories. I like this hippie/viking lifestyle. Problem is I want to be a rich viking/hippie. Lol.
Monday, February 23, 2015
Hold on tight.....everything that drowns me...makes me wanna fly.
Today, today, live like you wanna.
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire.
Live like a warrior.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qf-DOEim250
what was that I wrote last time about burning....?
Oh yes, this is just something awesome. I don't even have to look for these awesome things, they look for me. Sweet. We are blessed.
First day of not brushing my hair, hahahaha. I think I'll do the neglect and see what happens type of dreadlocks. For now.
First day of not working for someone else. I called and told them I was done, take me off the schedule, sorry, but not sorry. I hope they don't call me tomorrow to find out why.
My tree house has been approved and simplified. Hell yes.
I'm going to go part viking, part hippie.
And still thinking on that tattoo.....I need a very good artist.
I'm thinking of going skating (again) even though I earned a blister on my foot today.
This year is going to be great. I need skates..... knee pads.... warm weather....
I think I've been adopted by my daughter's cat. She won't leave me alone....but with this much awesomeness, I don't blame her. She even tells me when it's time to quit sewing and go upstairs to check emails or read before bed. She tells me when it's wake up time too. And when it's time to go downstairs, and when it's time for everything else I can't understand.
Sewing work.... need to paint 7 shirts tomorrow.
Then finish 2 dresses
Then loads more of tees.
Then more after that including a bunch of Tangled stuff.
NEED to actually put stuff for sale in my etsy shop, lol. Now that I don't have to divide up my focus, I can do just that. Sweet. Going to make it tons more efficient and hopefully make a few sales.
Still thinking there's something I can do with some new stuff....but not sure of a plan of attack just yet.
Painting a table within the next few days too....or tomorrow if I get the urge.
And....I'm on the hunt. Since I can't make my way to Burning Man anytime soon.... I'm going to hunt for them here. Maybe my unbrushed hair will attract them....or my awesome aura....cause it just got a layer of muck seared off of it.
But, I need to take little purposeful deliberate steady careful meaningful steps.... oh yeah.
Time to start counting stars * * * * * * * *********************************** * * ** *
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Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire.
Live like a warrior.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qf-DOEim250
what was that I wrote last time about burning....?
Oh yes, this is just something awesome. I don't even have to look for these awesome things, they look for me. Sweet. We are blessed.
First day of not brushing my hair, hahahaha. I think I'll do the neglect and see what happens type of dreadlocks. For now.
First day of not working for someone else. I called and told them I was done, take me off the schedule, sorry, but not sorry. I hope they don't call me tomorrow to find out why.
My tree house has been approved and simplified. Hell yes.
I'm going to go part viking, part hippie.
And still thinking on that tattoo.....I need a very good artist.
I'm thinking of going skating (again) even though I earned a blister on my foot today.
This year is going to be great. I need skates..... knee pads.... warm weather....
I think I've been adopted by my daughter's cat. She won't leave me alone....but with this much awesomeness, I don't blame her. She even tells me when it's time to quit sewing and go upstairs to check emails or read before bed. She tells me when it's wake up time too. And when it's time to go downstairs, and when it's time for everything else I can't understand.
Sewing work.... need to paint 7 shirts tomorrow.
Then finish 2 dresses
Then loads more of tees.
Then more after that including a bunch of Tangled stuff.
NEED to actually put stuff for sale in my etsy shop, lol. Now that I don't have to divide up my focus, I can do just that. Sweet. Going to make it tons more efficient and hopefully make a few sales.
Still thinking there's something I can do with some new stuff....but not sure of a plan of attack just yet.
Painting a table within the next few days too....or tomorrow if I get the urge.
And....I'm on the hunt. Since I can't make my way to Burning Man anytime soon.... I'm going to hunt for them here. Maybe my unbrushed hair will attract them....or my awesome aura....cause it just got a layer of muck seared off of it.
But, I need to take little purposeful deliberate steady careful meaningful steps.... oh yeah.
Time to start counting stars * * * * * * * *********************************** * * ** *
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Wednesday, February 18, 2015
thinking...I'm thinking....yeah, no..wait, what?
Its that time of year I suppose.That time where you want to release everything that is not you....to step into the scalding fires of Hades and thank Lucifer for burning off the impurities...
Yeah.That time is now.
I'm thinking of getting dreadlocks started this year. I'm currently working on growing my hair out, but if I do dreads it will shorten it up quite a bit. Thinking of trying out those fake dreads first.
I'm thinking I'll go get a tattoo too. Yeah, a big one with a tree and a dragon and maybe the flower of life.
I'm thinking of putting in my notice at society work for the end of March. I have gardening to do and other things....anything else, even sleeping or sitting in the sun, that is a better use of my time. I don't know why I'm still there....besides maybe a bit of obligation. Oh curse that damn people-pleasing side of me. Shall the surface of the sun burn that shit away too, please.
I'm thinking of building a tree house, but I'm unsure if there are any building codes in Dunlapia. Not that it truly matters.... I will not ask permission or say I'm sorry.... on either terms. I just have to find a way to put really big 8x8's in the ground straight. And find lots of windows....lots of windows....and wood...that might help too.
I'm thinking of going all viking or something. Anything other than what I am now. That should be fun.
I'm thinking of many possibilities. Of many adventures, of many dreams, of many rendezvous in the night. I'm thinking that I'm alone.... no one else seems to be thinking at all. What a conundrum.
I'm thinking Netflix is like a drug. How can there be nothing on tv, when everything is on tv? It's as bad as watching cat videos on youtube....my god there is no end. BUT you realize that after the first wasted night watching them, you can logically decide not to even go there the next day. It's sort of like the same reason to avoid pinterest.....unless you are looking for something of course. Netflix however is harder to avoid...at least by certain individuals.
I'm thinking....of a way to make $500 a month, without any huge monetary investment up front. It must take less than 40 hours a month. It must not require early hours or late nights. It must not require cooking or door to door sales. It must provide a creative outlook though and ability for a minimum number of employees....like 1. It must be home based, cause I'm going to look funky for a little while once I get those dreads, lol. And it should not require too much in-person customer involvement. I'm a bit of an empath and I can only take so much.
And no sewing = NO
And no portrait photography = NO
late, going now, bye
Yeah.That time is now.
I'm thinking of getting dreadlocks started this year. I'm currently working on growing my hair out, but if I do dreads it will shorten it up quite a bit. Thinking of trying out those fake dreads first.
I'm thinking I'll go get a tattoo too. Yeah, a big one with a tree and a dragon and maybe the flower of life.
I'm thinking of putting in my notice at society work for the end of March. I have gardening to do and other things....anything else, even sleeping or sitting in the sun, that is a better use of my time. I don't know why I'm still there....besides maybe a bit of obligation. Oh curse that damn people-pleasing side of me. Shall the surface of the sun burn that shit away too, please.
I'm thinking of building a tree house, but I'm unsure if there are any building codes in Dunlapia. Not that it truly matters.... I will not ask permission or say I'm sorry.... on either terms. I just have to find a way to put really big 8x8's in the ground straight. And find lots of windows....lots of windows....and wood...that might help too.
I'm thinking of going all viking or something. Anything other than what I am now. That should be fun.
I'm thinking of many possibilities. Of many adventures, of many dreams, of many rendezvous in the night. I'm thinking that I'm alone.... no one else seems to be thinking at all. What a conundrum.
I'm thinking Netflix is like a drug. How can there be nothing on tv, when everything is on tv? It's as bad as watching cat videos on youtube....my god there is no end. BUT you realize that after the first wasted night watching them, you can logically decide not to even go there the next day. It's sort of like the same reason to avoid pinterest.....unless you are looking for something of course. Netflix however is harder to avoid...at least by certain individuals.
I'm thinking....of a way to make $500 a month, without any huge monetary investment up front. It must take less than 40 hours a month. It must not require early hours or late nights. It must not require cooking or door to door sales. It must provide a creative outlook though and ability for a minimum number of employees....like 1. It must be home based, cause I'm going to look funky for a little while once I get those dreads, lol. And it should not require too much in-person customer involvement. I'm a bit of an empath and I can only take so much.
And no sewing = NO
And no portrait photography = NO
late, going now, bye
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