Choice is the act of hesitation that we make before making a decision. It is a mental wobble. And so we are always in a dither of doubt as to whether we are behaving the right way, or doing the right thing, and so on and so forth…and lack a certain kind of self-confidence. And if you see you lack self-confidence, you will make mistakes through sheer fumbling. If you do have self-confidence you may get away with doing entirely the wrong thing.
You have to regard yourself as a cloud, in the flesh. Because you see, clouds never make mistakes. Did you ever see a cloud that is misshapen? Did you ever see a badly designed wave? No, they always do the right thing. But if you would treat yourself for a while as a cloud or wave, and realize you can’t make a mistake, whatever you do, cause even if you do something that seems to be totally disastrous, it will all come out in the wash somehow or other.
Then through this capacity, you will develop a kind of confidence, and through confidence, you will be able to trust your own intuition." ~Alan Watts...
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totally disastrous...
yet it all washes out...
evening out the blood stains
the mishaps
the things snafu'd
and we see our indestructability
our immortality
the eternalness of expansion and progress
"What makes you think you are further behind than when you began?"
and what fears lie hidden that tell you there is anything wrong at all?
or could ever be wrong?
What is this grand scheme ideal of who we are 'supposed' to be?
This righteous begin who oozes in goodness?
What the fuck is goodness?
Intergrity, humility...
who wrote these fucking words and dictated they should be at the top of the scale?
What scale are you living by?
The one preimposed upon you...
the saint?
the one without sin?
what the fuck is sin?
the sinner?
playing along with these scales...
because it's the 'right' thing to do?
the highest of the high?
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you haven't met me, my friend....
you haven't met the fire and walked through it
the lower you go on the scale... pssh...
makes the scale disappear...
the higher you go on the scale...
makes the scale disappear...
because you can't dictate with words and images what the truth is
no one can
Microwaves serve a purpose just as much as x-rays...
both on opposite sides of a certain scale...
and who is it that judges these things?
they both could kill you... so which is the more righteous wavelength?
maybe the one that kills you slower, giving you more time?
or the one that kills you faster, sparing you the suffering?
and the vibrations that you carry
that you think
that you act upon
that you witness....
the 'lower' ones that feel like ick...
the 'higher' ones that feel amazing...
both serve a purpose
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don't know where I was going with that...
maybe no point to it...
use what you want and discard the rest...
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3 orders to go...
1 in process to ship Tuesday or Wednesday
2 more ready to be cut out to ship by next Monday
... almost ready to paint the wall
book on chapter 25
I may take a break tonight and just meditate...
cause I haven't done it in a while... at least not effectively...
probably why the manifesting skills are not as good as they could be...
this irritates me, lol
I like my snap of the finger instant gratifications....
(maybe not that instant...but it certainly looks that way compared to recently)
and instant is totally possible too!
Ya know...
some spicy jambalaya
a warm blanket
and a good movie...
...and some cookies...
that's not hard to manifest.....but the actions steps are obvious
all the other things are not hard either...
however, the action steps are incredibly good at remaining anonymous.
people fall short...google falls short...tried efforts fall short...
and the answers, are not answers at all
even the effort and action isn't needed...
knowing this is one thing
allowing it is another...
and even the aether never tells you how long patience will need to be...
but you know the answer... you are the answer
(patience in etymology = suffering)
just sit and stay home...
stand in your center
reach the core
breathe
and remain steady
stand true
your hands want to react to 'do'
but you must remain steady
remain strong
and let the world crumble around you
let it fall...
then... when your hands move on their own...
build whateverthefuck you want with the wreckage
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be the whirlwind and the eye within it
grow stronger and wreck havoc
stay on the throne of your kingdom
and know know know.... the king doesn't do the work
he leads the work
by mere words, mere thoughts, mere intentions, mere desires....
(mere in etymology = pure: undiluted)
~Thy will be done... on earth as it is in heaven...~
be the king, or be the servant...
and know both... serve a purpose
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"If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you."
~Gospel of Thomas
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