Day 47 of 100 of WTFIW....F
1. What are your goals?
2. I have / I am ___?___?
3. Kylego past the wall.
I have nothing else to write on yet because MS Word key code is somewhere and I don't have it at the moment to see if it will work on this laptop.
So... because Notepad and I are not in agreement with each other, I have to write it here, as I'll never find it again on google docs.
I will not post this, however, if you find yourself here, it's all rambling as I carve out something from whatever it happens to already be. My rambling attempt to gain traction and refocused clarity.
Pay no attention.
1: What are your goals?
I don't have any. Not a single one. I have a few intentions, but truthfully if I were to find something else I wanted to do more/first, I would do it instead. No commitments here. No forced follow-through, and certainly no obeying anything other than whatever my highest calling may be at any given moment. I've unschooled myself too, yo.
But intentions... let's delve into this...
Because I intend to finish this piano art project I have going here and gaze upon the gloriousness of all the colors. All the colors. I intend to write another screenplay even though now is not the time apparently. I'm now leaning towards Sky Thunder, since the other one I partially outlined came to a dead stop.... although I did think up a better possible way to go forward. idk. I'll get there.
I intend to get the credit card debts paid off this year. All of them. Even if the possibility seems impossible. But only to everyone else on the planet, besides me that is. Wait...I'm on the planet?
Which brings me to another intention. To be more in my body. Not in that 'I am more present' kinda way. But in the 'holy fuck, god is on earth' kinda way. I'm not joking.
I intend to just be me. Like whole complete truth of me... but without the word 'truth'. Because that has come to feel like it is excluding the other parts of me that can not align with such a word as 'truth'. Like my rude sarcasm everyone hates. Like my disassociation from societies problems, because I can not relate. Like my unending efforts to be understood, even though I am so used to not being understood. Like all the crap my other self tries to hide from me, because it is ashamed of those things.... and I just love them, and her. And fuck 'truth'. You will not divide me from myself.
If I've learned anything from all these angels and guides and very good friends.... it is that all is One. Even the shadow and the light.
Nothing it 'true'. Everything is permitted. Even me, motherfucker.
2: I have / I am ___?___?
This is one of those stupid things where you list off who you are and what you have, as if you already are and have them. I guess like positive affirmations... but you see.... I know the truth.... that there is NO truth. Sooooo.......
I have clarity. I have support. I have understanding. I have joy. I have bliss. I have ecstasy. I have truth. I have wisdom. I have love. I have wealth. I have everything. I have all things. I have unity. I have other stuff. I am joy. I am truth. I am wealthy. I am healthy. I am wise. I am wisdom. I am everything. I am all things. I am whole. I am complete. I am fullness. I am heaven. I am hell. I am light. I am shadow. I am unity. I am chaos. I am rage. I am beauty. I am space. I am breath. I am nothing. I am found. I am known. I am seen. I am heard. I am tasted?? lol..... there was this hot ass dude in my dream last night.... LOL! But I woke up way too soon!
This is for people who need to write these things out... not me. So I'll do the third one.
3: Kylego past the wall.
Kylego is where you talk about the future as if it has already happened. I can't say whether or not this works as well or as a compliment to manifesting does.... but I did kylego my 4runner while I was doing the manifesting thing too... so I can't dismiss it. I haven't kylego'ed since then, sooo... I guess it wouldn't hurt to continue on. And going past the wall is going further than what your mind can see or comprehend. That may be difficult for me, as I'm a seer and can see really fucking far when I'm paying attention. This might be long, but if it happens, this will be here and will be proof... like my awesome ass 4runner is proof!!! HA! I still swoon a bit when I look at it. <3 *googly eyes
I remember.... when I paid off the last credit card. It was so exciting and simple and easyAF! Better yet, I didn't tell anyone! I didn't tell them how quickly I got them all paid completely off. I didn't tell them where all that money had come from! I didn't tell anyone jack shit about it all and used that energy as momentum! And I proved I never needed their understanding or their trust or approval or whatever the fuck. I certainly didn't need their shame or blame either. I had it all paid off like lightning! I even had cash stored away and money pooling every place I could stick it! I filled my life with all the glorious blessings money can provide. For all of myself and my family. Fuck yes, I spent it on whatever brought joy and ease, without explaining to anyone how money just appeared and made all of these wonderful things possible! -- It wasn't long after the mortgage began getting paid off faster and faster. Did I tell anyone about that? Heck NO! The deed came in the mail like no big deal. Just the fabulous me doing my magic shit, pay no attention. I love that money came from all these amazing events and sources and still does! Wow! Things got paid off, things got repaired, things got easier, and intentions became more clear and focused! There was no stopping all this magic flow that echoed throughout the year 2019! Do you believe in magic now, because I still do.
Dude, I also remember getting more screenplays written just after I found out that mine made it to the final rounds of a competition! Then, my favorite one WON! I got the rewards, I got a sale, I got more eyes on all of this awesome story shit I can produce! I don't know what to do with myself, it's amazing and I'm learning so many new things, just from all that has happened! I got to speak with Pixar producers! They want me to write for them! Disney was so jealous, until I sold them a screenplay too! Hold the phone, did I tell you that I also get to work as a consult on other scripts! Holy shit! And I get to do it from home! The other screenwriters/people out their struggling and whining were wrong! I can have it my way!
I can have everything my way. I remember when I not only believed it, but began acting like it was completely true... and you know what, it became true. I totally learned that people do buy screenplays from me. I learned that money is given to me all the time for sometimes no reason at all. I learned that people will pay a lot of money for my art and have multiple times! I learned that we all have the power to heal ourselves and others too. Inwardly and outwardly. I learned that all things are possible, even in a split second miracles and blessings can unexpectedly and surprisingly fall into your path and your lap! Like 'here ya go, the universe wants to give you energy' magic bonus rounds and level-ups, extra lives, and support that has completely and fully been given to me. I have always been supported and loved. I have always been seen and heard and understood. I have always been debt free and appreciated and known. Fuck yes. I love how this year has poured out the universe to me.... and how I received it. <3
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well anyway....
My youngest and I chatted until about 3:30 am the other night.
He wanted more knowledge of the otherworlds.... even though I think he has a deeper understanding than even I do... he totally said I had went way further than he ever has... O_O
anyway... the world is moving for him lately... and he has events that are planned for his life... so that's cool I guess.
got to go.
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