Camaro...camaro...camaro...
here, let's just search for camaros...
for art research, yo...
but if I just happen to manifest one...
don't hate me... although a sports car everyone desires is also something I desire, I'm not really a sports car kinda person... I like to run people over...and I already have what I want, lol!
this energy really does whatever it wants...usually when I splurt off something mindlessly...
like what if a classic shiny older model camaro (or mustang, or shelby, or anything sporty with a foreign name) just showed up in my driveway...
and it could happen...mainly because I said something similar...
or I could also say that loads of unexpected monetary funds arrive every month.
...I did manifest my house because of mindless and borderline rude comment...
...and maybe my mind and words will stop manifesting things, like all the tiny little rinky-dinks in the past week I mentioned and 'poof' there it is... or at the very least mirrored and mentioned by others.
(it IS fascinating for sure though!)
it's 2am-ish...
all I can think about other than the youtube vid I'm listening to...
is book 6
book 6 characters
book 6 events and happenings and feelings and all the other things...
and I'm trying to find a way to NOT make my MC's sister a bad person...
...and I've only thought of one way... which won't come onto the scene until the end of the book ....which in turn will be proof of a book 7...
(and when is this going to end???!!)
I guess making my characters practically immortal, wasn't in my best interests...
they are not even vampires! doh!
so bed and sleep....
or with a more truthful aspect... book 6 viewing...
(yes, I watch it... it's a long ass television drama... with numerous reruns)
later peeps
you know what I like...
that jamaican rap music... with the accent and shit...
and krispie creme doughnuts.. wouldn't something exactly like that be great to stop in for a visit. ;)
Friday, July 12, 2019
you know a dream is like a river...
A-Ma-Zing!
more like a-maze-ing
because when one step enhances momentum...
things fall from the sky that weren't available the moment before...
FLOW
it's called flow...
and all the proof of this energy and this flow and this trust and this universe...
lies right HERE
yesterday's words ring true
and we've found ourselves in this current...
this currency...
behold, let the river carry us
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I bet you want me to get literal and tell you what's happening in this realm..
but what good would that serve you?
what good would that serve me? considering all I 'do' is work with the aether world...
the happenings you see around you are secondary...
all parts of the past, even already as they appear...
knowing they were coming weeks before... if not months before they formed...
light is what creates the illusion of time....
and by the time the light hits your eyes, you are seeing the past reflection of an energy that was born long before you could see it... perhaps you weren't paying attention then...
and only now you see.... but the heart, the mind, the soul... knew all, and knows all...
let me tell you what is coming...
for even the energy is present with me now... even if it hasn't yet anchored to matter...
hmmm.... but how I see energy and process it and work with it...
is going to be different for you... decided by you... and discovered by you...
you create your own reality... and I create mine...
what's coming...is like the inner face of a wave...
it moves rapidly, so much that it lifts the water higher to the crest...
it forms a tunnel tube just before the ending energy allows the crest to drop downward
whereas, I see these things coming and use what I can from this energy...
others toss and turn and get beaten by the water's upward surge...
in other words... many people, go through tedious and distraught circumstances...
they get the same energy, but try to keep their pretty pretty fake worlds aloft in the sky for all to see...
but like an earthquake... many times those pretties fall to the ground
they run into things they've met before and fall into despair, sadness, depression, confusion
they see a whirlwind around them, like in that tube... grasping in their answer that consistantly fails them...as you can't grasp the water, nor can you grasp the energy...
you've got to surf, baby.
You've got to balance.
You've got to allow it to lift you. To carry you. To move you.
Allow it...
Fact: I've never been surfing on the ocean, nor in any replicated wave pool.
...and I'd probably fall on my face a few times, at least...
but energy waves... I can do that.
I'm telling you they are coming... there are some occurring now too...
but there's more.. there's always more.
there are a few massive ones I see in the distance...
and if you are unaware of their approach... your world is going to get tumbled
if you are trying to hold up your pretties... I'm telling you now... it's time to bring them in and find the foundation you truly stand on.
They will always keep coming... and you can learn to surf... or you can be at the mercy of them...
there's no standing on the beach when the all the universe is energy...
it's not the planets... it's not the moon... it's the energy that moves between everything...
and you can be the creator..or the created..
you can even choose to swim if you want... but don't try to hold your breath... let it go.. allow...
breathing energy is the same as breathing air...
just do it.
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I was going to say I have stuff to do...
but do I really?
meh...
they look like pretties up in the air... but I didn't put them there...
they are just hovering like drones...
hmm.. I wonder when they will fall?
when is the beach going to be here?
welcome to this mess of a post at 4:30pm-ish...
it maybe wasn't very kosher, but it's edible...
I'm off to be 'productive' LOL
it's fun to play human games at times...
more like a-maze-ing
because when one step enhances momentum...
things fall from the sky that weren't available the moment before...
FLOW
it's called flow...
and all the proof of this energy and this flow and this trust and this universe...
lies right HERE
yesterday's words ring true
and we've found ourselves in this current...
this currency...
behold, let the river carry us
__________________________
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I bet you want me to get literal and tell you what's happening in this realm..
but what good would that serve you?
what good would that serve me? considering all I 'do' is work with the aether world...
the happenings you see around you are secondary...
all parts of the past, even already as they appear...
knowing they were coming weeks before... if not months before they formed...
light is what creates the illusion of time....
and by the time the light hits your eyes, you are seeing the past reflection of an energy that was born long before you could see it... perhaps you weren't paying attention then...
and only now you see.... but the heart, the mind, the soul... knew all, and knows all...
let me tell you what is coming...
for even the energy is present with me now... even if it hasn't yet anchored to matter...
hmmm.... but how I see energy and process it and work with it...
is going to be different for you... decided by you... and discovered by you...
you create your own reality... and I create mine...
what's coming...is like the inner face of a wave...
it moves rapidly, so much that it lifts the water higher to the crest...
it forms a tunnel tube just before the ending energy allows the crest to drop downward
whereas, I see these things coming and use what I can from this energy...
others toss and turn and get beaten by the water's upward surge...
in other words... many people, go through tedious and distraught circumstances...
they get the same energy, but try to keep their pretty pretty fake worlds aloft in the sky for all to see...
but like an earthquake... many times those pretties fall to the ground
they run into things they've met before and fall into despair, sadness, depression, confusion
they see a whirlwind around them, like in that tube... grasping in their answer that consistantly fails them...as you can't grasp the water, nor can you grasp the energy...
you've got to surf, baby.
You've got to balance.
You've got to allow it to lift you. To carry you. To move you.
Allow it...
Fact: I've never been surfing on the ocean, nor in any replicated wave pool.
...and I'd probably fall on my face a few times, at least...
but energy waves... I can do that.
I'm telling you they are coming... there are some occurring now too...
but there's more.. there's always more.
there are a few massive ones I see in the distance...
and if you are unaware of their approach... your world is going to get tumbled
if you are trying to hold up your pretties... I'm telling you now... it's time to bring them in and find the foundation you truly stand on.
They will always keep coming... and you can learn to surf... or you can be at the mercy of them...
there's no standing on the beach when the all the universe is energy...
it's not the planets... it's not the moon... it's the energy that moves between everything...
and you can be the creator..or the created..
you can even choose to swim if you want... but don't try to hold your breath... let it go.. allow...
breathing energy is the same as breathing air...
just do it.
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I was going to say I have stuff to do...
but do I really?
meh...
they look like pretties up in the air... but I didn't put them there...
they are just hovering like drones...
hmm.. I wonder when they will fall?
when is the beach going to be here?
welcome to this mess of a post at 4:30pm-ish...
it maybe wasn't very kosher, but it's edible...
I'm off to be 'productive' LOL
it's fun to play human games at times...
Thursday, July 11, 2019
We have... lift off
That moment when you slip into a higher gear...
smoothly...
and everything flows effortlessly...
and the engines run quiet, and it's like flying..
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so there's that Humpty Dumpty story...
and I recently revisited it...
and told the story to 3 people in the last 3 days, lol...
and even having already known the story for a long time...
it found a nice little corner to fit into a complex puzzle I was recently working on...
which was a very important piece, btw.
in literal terms....
the story of Humpty Dumpty is the same words...
but the images are far different than what you may have ever seen...
and besides the person I heard this version from, I've never found it again...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjwpyZH4lvU
so that is the version...although there's more to it... and unless you follow the rest of his video's, some of that may be obscured for you... I think he has another one that adds to it somewhere... but I didn't look for it
basically...Humpty Dumpty is two (2 different people, 2 parts of yourself, 2 versions, 2 choices, all duality, all division)
Humpty fell on one side of the wall
Dumpty fell on the other
all the king's horses, and all the king's men, couldn't put Humpty and Dumpty together again
So Humpty thinks his whole side is the truth...
Dumpty thinks her whole side is the truth...
and they are both against each other because neither has the perspective of the other.
..but..
YOU have the perspective of both. And YOU can see that each one is caught in the trap of a lower perspective which dictates the only 'truth' they can see from where they are.
but you see... YOU have the higher perspective. YOU can see the greater truth from where you are, which is above the wall, above the story.
When you declare a truth for yourself, or for someone else... are you looking at it from your perspective of duality? (in other words, are you seeing from Humpty's view? or Dumpty's view?)
Or, are you looking at something from a higher viewpoint. One that is above duality and division?
Are you moving through life as one who is for or against something? or one who moves as if all are welcomed?
Are you in duality? Are you in division with yourself?
Is there something you're against?
All resistance is against yourself. Any division is the dividing of yourself...
YOU are BOTH Humpty AND Dumpty.
~ ~ ~ "Whatever it is that divides the world between you." ~ ~ ~
you know... I got those words when I asked the boss man what the heck I was supposed to 'do' or 'work on' or whatnot...with my life...
it was one of the only parables (besides the crow one) that didn't immediately fall into place
I often kept thinking the point had something to do with separating shit, like that wheat from tares, or the good from bad..or all that crap.... but no...
It was to pay attention to the thing that divided one from the other...
and that wall... although it at times was a tedious climb...
brings you to a higher perspective...
(I lie... I didn't climb it, I got a ride to the top)
but yeah... once you see... the view from up here... you can't really integrate back to the ground very well.... if at all... and all truth is relative to perspective and location...
and all in all.... nothing is true...
because everything is true...
and the neutral point... is knowing that neither exists...
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so the puzzle piece.... the cornerstone, if you will
(see what I did there)
is that whole story of Humpty Dumpty, brought into focus as I pieced together something I've been giving my attention to.
and if I told you I worked hard on things and strived to get this or learn that.... I'd be lying.
I give my attention and I already knew the answers would arrive on their own...
I just have to listen and be present and wait...
and from the visitation of a memory, the sharing of that story... 3 times, yo...
it solved a huge important part of me.
and if you can say that over here is this and over there is that... you would forget that you stand between them... you are the one separating them, you are the wall....
but oooohhhhh....
take a look at that handful of shit over 'here'.... and get bombarded with all of google about how you should look for the answers over 'there' ...but NO no NO no NO
the truth is inside of you...
you don't need to balance on top of this wall... and mix a little of 'this' to neutralize 'that'...
you don't need to 'do' any fucking thing...
rise up and see...
you are all you need...
and all you need is to know that all sides are not truth... but you are truth...right now.
and even though I already know for a fact that this matter I'm paying attention to will be completely resolved in a time sooner than I'm brave enough to admit....
and even though I'm hyper-aware of a huge outpouring of miracles approaching....
and even though my Mind has not yet come to terms or even fully understands the huge implications that having this corner piece entails...
I am slightly terrified and excited...
Finding that perfect balance point atop this wall... the barzakh between excite and terror...
even that is not needed... only awareness... the knowing that both of those are only sides
you are ALL
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I have a coach that I declared something to a few months back....
and I remembered what I had said today...
and I'm not sure why the universe plays these games with me and humors my whims far more than my grander egoic desires... but it is almost obvious that what I had said will be manifested right on schedule...
and my Mind is having a fit, thinking I should stop throwing out random fancies on a whim and actually take time to declare something more huge and amazing ... but...
Universe serves Soul...and Soul and heart doesn't know ego, nor time, nor whether or not it's 'important' or not.
Universe delivers regardless... if I click 'buy it now'... universe doesn't ask if I mean it, lol.
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eh, it's late...
and there's things I need to get lined up...
which I should have time to do...but I'm not sure where it keeps going...
besides those times I sleep in and meditate..
I did get things done today...little things... and watched a movie...
and tomorrow me and the youngest are going to pick up a slushie...
(at the only gas station that has the Dr. Pepper slushie flavor!)
(I do wish someone had root beer kind)
(do they make slushie machines?)
(shaved ice machines make great christmas presents....wait... shaved ice machines make great 'Christmas in July' presents.)
it is time to go to the beach yet?
oh... I adopted a new pet today. His name is Sebastian.
smoothly...
and everything flows effortlessly...
and the engines run quiet, and it's like flying..
_
_
_
so there's that Humpty Dumpty story...
and I recently revisited it...
and told the story to 3 people in the last 3 days, lol...
and even having already known the story for a long time...
it found a nice little corner to fit into a complex puzzle I was recently working on...
which was a very important piece, btw.
in literal terms....
the story of Humpty Dumpty is the same words...
but the images are far different than what you may have ever seen...
and besides the person I heard this version from, I've never found it again...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjwpyZH4lvU
so that is the version...although there's more to it... and unless you follow the rest of his video's, some of that may be obscured for you... I think he has another one that adds to it somewhere... but I didn't look for it
basically...Humpty Dumpty is two (2 different people, 2 parts of yourself, 2 versions, 2 choices, all duality, all division)
Humpty fell on one side of the wall
Dumpty fell on the other
all the king's horses, and all the king's men, couldn't put Humpty and Dumpty together again
So Humpty thinks his whole side is the truth...
Dumpty thinks her whole side is the truth...
and they are both against each other because neither has the perspective of the other.
..but..
YOU have the perspective of both. And YOU can see that each one is caught in the trap of a lower perspective which dictates the only 'truth' they can see from where they are.
but you see... YOU have the higher perspective. YOU can see the greater truth from where you are, which is above the wall, above the story.
When you declare a truth for yourself, or for someone else... are you looking at it from your perspective of duality? (in other words, are you seeing from Humpty's view? or Dumpty's view?)
Or, are you looking at something from a higher viewpoint. One that is above duality and division?
Are you moving through life as one who is for or against something? or one who moves as if all are welcomed?
Are you in duality? Are you in division with yourself?
Is there something you're against?
All resistance is against yourself. Any division is the dividing of yourself...
YOU are BOTH Humpty AND Dumpty.
~ ~ ~ "Whatever it is that divides the world between you." ~ ~ ~
you know... I got those words when I asked the boss man what the heck I was supposed to 'do' or 'work on' or whatnot...with my life...
it was one of the only parables (besides the crow one) that didn't immediately fall into place
I often kept thinking the point had something to do with separating shit, like that wheat from tares, or the good from bad..or all that crap.... but no...
It was to pay attention to the thing that divided one from the other...
and that wall... although it at times was a tedious climb...
brings you to a higher perspective...
(I lie... I didn't climb it, I got a ride to the top)
but yeah... once you see... the view from up here... you can't really integrate back to the ground very well.... if at all... and all truth is relative to perspective and location...
and all in all.... nothing is true...
because everything is true...
and the neutral point... is knowing that neither exists...
____
_____
so the puzzle piece.... the cornerstone, if you will
(see what I did there)
is that whole story of Humpty Dumpty, brought into focus as I pieced together something I've been giving my attention to.
and if I told you I worked hard on things and strived to get this or learn that.... I'd be lying.
I give my attention and I already knew the answers would arrive on their own...
I just have to listen and be present and wait...
and from the visitation of a memory, the sharing of that story... 3 times, yo...
it solved a huge important part of me.
and if you can say that over here is this and over there is that... you would forget that you stand between them... you are the one separating them, you are the wall....
but oooohhhhh....
take a look at that handful of shit over 'here'.... and get bombarded with all of google about how you should look for the answers over 'there' ...but NO no NO no NO
the truth is inside of you...
you don't need to balance on top of this wall... and mix a little of 'this' to neutralize 'that'...
you don't need to 'do' any fucking thing...
rise up and see...
you are all you need...
and all you need is to know that all sides are not truth... but you are truth...right now.
and even though I already know for a fact that this matter I'm paying attention to will be completely resolved in a time sooner than I'm brave enough to admit....
and even though I'm hyper-aware of a huge outpouring of miracles approaching....
and even though my Mind has not yet come to terms or even fully understands the huge implications that having this corner piece entails...
I am slightly terrified and excited...
Finding that perfect balance point atop this wall... the barzakh between excite and terror...
even that is not needed... only awareness... the knowing that both of those are only sides
you are ALL
________________________
______________________________
_______________________________________
I have a coach that I declared something to a few months back....
and I remembered what I had said today...
and I'm not sure why the universe plays these games with me and humors my whims far more than my grander egoic desires... but it is almost obvious that what I had said will be manifested right on schedule...
and my Mind is having a fit, thinking I should stop throwing out random fancies on a whim and actually take time to declare something more huge and amazing ... but...
Universe serves Soul...and Soul and heart doesn't know ego, nor time, nor whether or not it's 'important' or not.
Universe delivers regardless... if I click 'buy it now'... universe doesn't ask if I mean it, lol.
___
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___
____
eh, it's late...
and there's things I need to get lined up...
which I should have time to do...but I'm not sure where it keeps going...
besides those times I sleep in and meditate..
I did get things done today...little things... and watched a movie...
and tomorrow me and the youngest are going to pick up a slushie...
(at the only gas station that has the Dr. Pepper slushie flavor!)
(I do wish someone had root beer kind)
(do they make slushie machines?)
(shaved ice machines make great christmas presents....wait... shaved ice machines make great 'Christmas in July' presents.)
it is time to go to the beach yet?
oh... I adopted a new pet today. His name is Sebastian.
Tuesday, July 9, 2019
Navigation... check
This girl, the one with the fire red hair that reminds me of
a chieftess from the wolfrider tribe.
This daughter of Mars, or so she claims.
And this sword she handed me... as if I had lost my previous one...
and the mountain before me... is no more...
for it has been hacked to pieces...
pieces so small, they appear as ants at my feet...
~ you are in here with me... never forget that ~
that passage that came from Soul as she looked below at the defeated...
... god I love her...
and something often seen as difficult or challenging...
has fallen...
beneath my feet
and I am the god.
and Freya giggles, like this warfare brings her joy and entertainment
feeding her these carcasses..
the death toll has risen
and as fire fills my eyes as lust for death pulls me forward...
she giggles...
I think I like her.
I like this sword.
I like this war
I shall slaughter the landscape that impedes my journey
bow...
or die.
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today is action day...
following the path of least resistance...
and already I can feel the earth breaking away to make a path for my approach...
(possible upcoming earthquakes are not my fault...even if they happen on the 7/11)
or blame me.... I'll own that shit
so be prepared...
no, not for an earthquake... but the shifting of all things...
can you stand? can you keep balance?
where is your foundation?
shake, shake, shake it up... I've got you
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I'm currently in the middle of ZERO projects...
I don't know how long this will last.
probably a whole day or two
I'd like to think I'd be able to wait until the 24th or something...
but path of least resistance requires nothing but gravity... not even my consent...
I also thought maybe I should write about something like navigation...
but when you are on a path that forms just moments before you step upon it...
I don't think there's a way to tell anyone where you're headed...
It's a surprise!!! Even to me.
Thank god. Knowing everything gets rather boring after awhile...
The gps is set for awesome... and if you keep going around in circles...
I'm sure that means you're already there, yes?
Love where you are at. Love all of it. All of you.
All of the casualties... and the stench of demise...
All the newborns and the scent of victory.
You have two hands... take them both, or one of them will be cut off...
I kinda like it when it all goes suddenly dark...
like a power outage.
and people come together in the kitchen... and the piano still works...
and we can make up stories about why the power is out...
like zombies.. or aliens.. or government lockdown martial law..
suddenly dark... as if you had pretended all this time it didn't exist...
...ok...
got other things to do.
when the morning rings the bell of the church... and the people step from their confines and chains... we shall gather around the starlight of the ages and feast with the angels of old... there we will see and know, have and behold... and walk in the light of the mighty daystar...
wake up
a chieftess from the wolfrider tribe.
This daughter of Mars, or so she claims.
And this sword she handed me... as if I had lost my previous one...
and the mountain before me... is no more...
for it has been hacked to pieces...
pieces so small, they appear as ants at my feet...
~ you are in here with me... never forget that ~
that passage that came from Soul as she looked below at the defeated...
... god I love her...
and something often seen as difficult or challenging...
has fallen...
beneath my feet
and I am the god.
and Freya giggles, like this warfare brings her joy and entertainment
feeding her these carcasses..
the death toll has risen
and as fire fills my eyes as lust for death pulls me forward...
she giggles...
I think I like her.
I like this sword.
I like this war
I shall slaughter the landscape that impedes my journey
bow...
or die.
___________________________________
____________________________________________
__________________________________________________
today is action day...
following the path of least resistance...
and already I can feel the earth breaking away to make a path for my approach...
(possible upcoming earthquakes are not my fault...even if they happen on the 7/11)
or blame me.... I'll own that shit
so be prepared...
no, not for an earthquake... but the shifting of all things...
can you stand? can you keep balance?
where is your foundation?
shake, shake, shake it up... I've got you
_
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I'm currently in the middle of ZERO projects...
I don't know how long this will last.
probably a whole day or two
I'd like to think I'd be able to wait until the 24th or something...
but path of least resistance requires nothing but gravity... not even my consent...
I also thought maybe I should write about something like navigation...
but when you are on a path that forms just moments before you step upon it...
I don't think there's a way to tell anyone where you're headed...
It's a surprise!!! Even to me.
Thank god. Knowing everything gets rather boring after awhile...
The gps is set for awesome... and if you keep going around in circles...
I'm sure that means you're already there, yes?
Love where you are at. Love all of it. All of you.
All of the casualties... and the stench of demise...
All the newborns and the scent of victory.
You have two hands... take them both, or one of them will be cut off...
I kinda like it when it all goes suddenly dark...
like a power outage.
and people come together in the kitchen... and the piano still works...
and we can make up stories about why the power is out...
like zombies.. or aliens.. or government lockdown martial law..
suddenly dark... as if you had pretended all this time it didn't exist...
...ok...
got other things to do.
when the morning rings the bell of the church... and the people step from their confines and chains... we shall gather around the starlight of the ages and feast with the angels of old... there we will see and know, have and behold... and walk in the light of the mighty daystar...
wake up
Monday, July 8, 2019
Fuel... check
It's early and I just did that stupid thing and went on facebook...
I submitted myself to the atrocities of the world...
and exposed myself to ideologies that I just do not align with
...
so this is a rant post, in shorter words, but less eloquently put
which frankly does nothing for my need to satisfy a growing urge to use analogies...
Astrology is great and all...
it's fun to tamper with, fun to entertain yourself with, fun to talk to.
you know, like the planets and the stars...
it's fun to find comparisons and fit yourself into being this or that sign...
(but of course, don't forget your rising sign, which is more a match to me)
and heaven forbid mercury goes retrograde or at the moment five whole planets...
shut the fuck up already...
I'm going to do that thing and compare this to tarot cards...
which are also fun to tamper with, to play with, to pretend with...
So are magic rocks, or sage and essential oils..
Can these things bring your awareness into focus to you can actually get your fucking mind to comply...? yeah...that's legit.
But if you think these things are greater than you and have any power over you whatsoever...
than apparently they do... You are fucking weak...and I'm a bit appalled that not everyone has this warrior god inside of them that dares to say ...fuck that, I am god....and god is me.
please for the love of any god...of any universal power...of any earth energy...of your soul....
take responsibility for everything
everything....
or are you too weak for that too?
stop thinking anything outside of you is the answer
...
you don't need anyone else
you don't need a fucking 'tribe'
you don't need a shoulder to cry on
you don't need anything or anyone
you don't even need a prayer
you just need all of you.... stop giving that shit away
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I'll probably be back to write more later...
I'm in the middle of some huge event....
I submitted myself to the atrocities of the world...
and exposed myself to ideologies that I just do not align with
...
so this is a rant post, in shorter words, but less eloquently put
which frankly does nothing for my need to satisfy a growing urge to use analogies...
Astrology is great and all...
it's fun to tamper with, fun to entertain yourself with, fun to talk to.
you know, like the planets and the stars...
it's fun to find comparisons and fit yourself into being this or that sign...
(but of course, don't forget your rising sign, which is more a match to me)
and heaven forbid mercury goes retrograde or at the moment five whole planets...
shut the fuck up already...
I'm going to do that thing and compare this to tarot cards...
which are also fun to tamper with, to play with, to pretend with...
So are magic rocks, or sage and essential oils..
Can these things bring your awareness into focus to you can actually get your fucking mind to comply...? yeah...that's legit.
But if you think these things are greater than you and have any power over you whatsoever...
than apparently they do... You are fucking weak...and I'm a bit appalled that not everyone has this warrior god inside of them that dares to say ...fuck that, I am god....and god is me.
please for the love of any god...of any universal power...of any earth energy...of your soul....
take responsibility for everything
everything....
or are you too weak for that too?
stop thinking anything outside of you is the answer
...
you don't need anyone else
you don't need a fucking 'tribe'
you don't need a shoulder to cry on
you don't need anything or anyone
you don't even need a prayer
you just need all of you.... stop giving that shit away
______________
_________________
______________________
I'll probably be back to write more later...
I'm in the middle of some huge event....
Sunday, July 7, 2019
Engines... check.
WoW
the electromagnetic field is supremely powerful
I can feel it lock into synchronization at times
and consciously, I can feel it
not like super saiyan jedi power...
but ancient mystical power that can probably do anything
manifest anything
and I feel the part of me thinking I shouldn't be here..
in this alignment... while I'm in it...
but...
it's mine...
and I feel like a stranger in my own home...
and this paradox poses a conundrum for my mind...
..
because I'm not a stranger....I just haven't been here for a long time
and this place feels like the cleaning ladies just left...
lemon and blueberry scents, bright lights and sleek shiny tabletops...
this mansion on high...
far exceeding the levels of the wealthy
and I remember that I have forgotten this place...
it feels like Atlantis.
Where the pillars stand tall, and there's always a soft breeze.
The skies like sapphire and silk curtains rising high to the ceilings.
Fresh cut flowers would be brought to our rooms with breakfast and teas.
We'd have lilacs and lavender growing along the paths and gardens always maintained.
It smelled like heaven. And the warm sun kissed our darkened skin daily.
The children from the town would have new wreaths for us each time we entered the agora.
When we were called for council, we'd be escorted by soldiers with red sashes.
The people would line up to watch us, bidding us favors, flowers, and smiles.
And the stars... they weren't so silent in those times. It was often they'd be the ones playing the music.
...
oooh...
but let's return here...
where this field surrounds this me, this life, this time...
and it's ready to create...
and all I have to do is choose
and is this the same thing as having the infinity stones?
to where you may not blip out half the population...even if it sounds appealing...
but blip to a planet to retire on, lol.
what is that? retirement?
sounds a bit like death...
...
anyway... I'm rambling and losing focus... but I guess listening to a video and forgetting where I was going with this is almost inevitable.
...
I think I'll hang here in this space for awhile...
pay attention to those things in me that needs that attention...
I once talked to a great master... he said...
"You know the answers, but do you feel them? That is where understanding comes from.
Come back to me when you have learned this."
and I understand this...
so I may stop in for a chat again...
I've been informed that he hasn't forgotten me... and is waiting...
😬
oh oh oh!!
I learned something today...
"If you can see it, then it isn't you."
"It's just a reflection of you."
....
maybe some education on that will follow...
tbc
the electromagnetic field is supremely powerful
I can feel it lock into synchronization at times
and consciously, I can feel it
not like super saiyan jedi power...
but ancient mystical power that can probably do anything
manifest anything
and I feel the part of me thinking I shouldn't be here..
in this alignment... while I'm in it...
but...
it's mine...
and I feel like a stranger in my own home...
and this paradox poses a conundrum for my mind...
..
because I'm not a stranger....I just haven't been here for a long time
and this place feels like the cleaning ladies just left...
lemon and blueberry scents, bright lights and sleek shiny tabletops...
this mansion on high...
far exceeding the levels of the wealthy
and I remember that I have forgotten this place...
it feels like Atlantis.
Where the pillars stand tall, and there's always a soft breeze.
The skies like sapphire and silk curtains rising high to the ceilings.
Fresh cut flowers would be brought to our rooms with breakfast and teas.
We'd have lilacs and lavender growing along the paths and gardens always maintained.
It smelled like heaven. And the warm sun kissed our darkened skin daily.
The children from the town would have new wreaths for us each time we entered the agora.
When we were called for council, we'd be escorted by soldiers with red sashes.
The people would line up to watch us, bidding us favors, flowers, and smiles.
And the stars... they weren't so silent in those times. It was often they'd be the ones playing the music.
...
oooh...
but let's return here...
where this field surrounds this me, this life, this time...
and it's ready to create...
and all I have to do is choose
and is this the same thing as having the infinity stones?
to where you may not blip out half the population...even if it sounds appealing...
but blip to a planet to retire on, lol.
what is that? retirement?
sounds a bit like death...
...
anyway... I'm rambling and losing focus... but I guess listening to a video and forgetting where I was going with this is almost inevitable.
...
I think I'll hang here in this space for awhile...
pay attention to those things in me that needs that attention...
I once talked to a great master... he said...
"You know the answers, but do you feel them? That is where understanding comes from.
Come back to me when you have learned this."
and I understand this...
so I may stop in for a chat again...
I've been informed that he hasn't forgotten me... and is waiting...
😬
oh oh oh!!
I learned something today...
"If you can see it, then it isn't you."
"It's just a reflection of you."
....
maybe some education on that will follow...
tbc
Tuesday, July 2, 2019
You are... my fire....
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Sitting upon the throne, watching subjects hold out their fanciful offerings, unamused, dismissive, bored with the repetitive dance the commoners think will gain your graces.
And a wave of the hand, and the guards clear the room, knowing that the people outside will frown at not being able to please the one who rules over them.
The room is silent and the sun strikes out it's rays through the crystalline glass windows, adorned with colors from across the globe. A smile has finally arrived. The specks of dust in the air glitter like snowfall. A magical world encapsulated in this empty room.
It was never the fancy trinkets or the songs. Nor the dancing and the furs. The lute could play all day and the wine could be rich and red... yet... the captivating moment that gains the attention of the great one on the throne...is the silence, where a sword of sunlight...and dust mingle. Star dust.
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There has been an adoption. And a new member of the driveway sits on the cracked pavement designated as the place to park.
There has been a few shades of color splashed across Timothy's picture... another few days and the base colors should be finished... and then I'm sure detailing will be the next impossible thing to accomplish. Another project way too big, that is still going to be completed.
There has been manifestations tossed my way, and I'm sure I've been dubbed the catcher for the team, besides the Leo in the house, who is designated caretaker of our new member.
There has been a rearranging of the days, and reassurances. Plenty of flexibility has proven to be a winner for the most part, although one can appreciate a more stable design from time to time.
I found that list of six, I was on Level 58, back in February, and hadn't touched it since.
But I'm a different person than I was in February.
I don't think I need to use the list of 6 any longer, however I'm going to give it go once more to see if it still benefits me.
Right now manifesting powers are incredibly in tune and aligned like nobody's business... and even if I have a few things I'd like to have, none of them are soul callings... and frankly, I'm super bored of manifesting 'things'.
Yeah, I'd love a stainless steel wok, or a platform hitch mount bike rack for when it's not 100 degrees outside... or a go pro hero 7 black... or a new stereo for the 4runner... but all those things feel unsatisfying to my soul.... and she's holding something else she wants to show me...
(I'm hoping it's $40k or a huge significant amount of cash)
Mars is in Leo right now...and I listened to this meditation thing someone I know made... (really only because I wanted to find out what cards she was using, because they were awesome looking)... anyway... she was talking about Mars in Leo...and to imagine your solar plexus energy or some crap reach down to earth and reach out to Mars and wrap around Mars and pull it into you..
ok, a little woo woo... but remember something... I was talking to that Daughter of Mars not too long ago... and while I wasn't really doing that meditation ... guess who happened to stop back in and say hello...
Freya. This girl with the hair like fire, who has deemed herself the Daughter of Mars...and I am still pretty sure I should not be trusting her completely. She is the goddess of war and death too, you know. She brought a sword with her this time. I'm intrigued.
~ Freya dose not take part in the battle of Ragnarok but is one of the beings that survives war. Freya and the survivors of Ragnarok help the world when the great battle is over. ~
~ Ragnarok is the cataclysmic destruction of the cosmos and everything in it – even the gods. ~
The twilight and the destruction of the gods...
unless you look up the etymology of ragnarok which translates to ..
~ Ragna means “conjure” and is used metonymically to refer to beings, most notably creator-gods, who possess the power of conjuring as an attribute. The second word, rök, has several meanings, such as “development, origin, cause, relation, fate.” ~
Conjuring of fate, perhaps?
Isn't that the same thing as manifesting?
So I'm taking this class on ... uhh... science, physics, relativity, quantum reality, among a few other comparable topics...it is pretty enlightening, beside that one lesson on calculus that made no fucking sense.
ack... going to go see spiderman tomorrow... probably should assume I might need sleep...
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Sitting upon the throne, watching subjects hold out their fanciful offerings, unamused, dismissive, bored with the repetitive dance the commoners think will gain your graces.
And a wave of the hand, and the guards clear the room, knowing that the people outside will frown at not being able to please the one who rules over them.
The room is silent and the sun strikes out it's rays through the crystalline glass windows, adorned with colors from across the globe. A smile has finally arrived. The specks of dust in the air glitter like snowfall. A magical world encapsulated in this empty room.
It was never the fancy trinkets or the songs. Nor the dancing and the furs. The lute could play all day and the wine could be rich and red... yet... the captivating moment that gains the attention of the great one on the throne...is the silence, where a sword of sunlight...and dust mingle. Star dust.
_
_
_
_
_
There has been an adoption. And a new member of the driveway sits on the cracked pavement designated as the place to park.
There has been a few shades of color splashed across Timothy's picture... another few days and the base colors should be finished... and then I'm sure detailing will be the next impossible thing to accomplish. Another project way too big, that is still going to be completed.
There has been manifestations tossed my way, and I'm sure I've been dubbed the catcher for the team, besides the Leo in the house, who is designated caretaker of our new member.
There has been a rearranging of the days, and reassurances. Plenty of flexibility has proven to be a winner for the most part, although one can appreciate a more stable design from time to time.
I found that list of six, I was on Level 58, back in February, and hadn't touched it since.
But I'm a different person than I was in February.
I don't think I need to use the list of 6 any longer, however I'm going to give it go once more to see if it still benefits me.
Right now manifesting powers are incredibly in tune and aligned like nobody's business... and even if I have a few things I'd like to have, none of them are soul callings... and frankly, I'm super bored of manifesting 'things'.
Yeah, I'd love a stainless steel wok, or a platform hitch mount bike rack for when it's not 100 degrees outside... or a go pro hero 7 black... or a new stereo for the 4runner... but all those things feel unsatisfying to my soul.... and she's holding something else she wants to show me...
(I'm hoping it's $40k or a huge significant amount of cash)
Mars is in Leo right now...and I listened to this meditation thing someone I know made... (really only because I wanted to find out what cards she was using, because they were awesome looking)... anyway... she was talking about Mars in Leo...and to imagine your solar plexus energy or some crap reach down to earth and reach out to Mars and wrap around Mars and pull it into you..
ok, a little woo woo... but remember something... I was talking to that Daughter of Mars not too long ago... and while I wasn't really doing that meditation ... guess who happened to stop back in and say hello...
Freya. This girl with the hair like fire, who has deemed herself the Daughter of Mars...and I am still pretty sure I should not be trusting her completely. She is the goddess of war and death too, you know. She brought a sword with her this time. I'm intrigued.
~ Freya dose not take part in the battle of Ragnarok but is one of the beings that survives war. Freya and the survivors of Ragnarok help the world when the great battle is over. ~
~ Ragnarok is the cataclysmic destruction of the cosmos and everything in it – even the gods. ~
The twilight and the destruction of the gods...
unless you look up the etymology of ragnarok which translates to ..
~ Ragna means “conjure” and is used metonymically to refer to beings, most notably creator-gods, who possess the power of conjuring as an attribute. The second word, rök, has several meanings, such as “development, origin, cause, relation, fate.” ~
Conjuring of fate, perhaps?
Isn't that the same thing as manifesting?
So I'm taking this class on ... uhh... science, physics, relativity, quantum reality, among a few other comparable topics...it is pretty enlightening, beside that one lesson on calculus that made no fucking sense.
ack... going to go see spiderman tomorrow... probably should assume I might need sleep...
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