Lies......

OMG......
The world has literately ended....
just wow....
It is amazing the information available out there on the world wide web...and you do have to use a hefty dose of discernment while perusing such worlds....
But alas....I no longer think that the world wide web is as much riddled with lies and half-truths as much so as the television news or the paper, or all the horseshit that pours out of these people who lie. Such filth.
Dirty rotten filth and half the world is asleep and get sucked into believing this huge obvious lie. They have been duped. .....and find it rather ironic that the only place you can even get a glimpse of the actual reality is the one place that was deemed 'unfit'.

My God....the world belongs to none other than Satan himself. And those who sleep belong to it....dancing with the devil in slumber, unwilling to open their eyes.....he's dancing you into a dream...a false shadow luring you into the pit.

Today was great and very freaking weird. But first I must tell you of my dream the night before last.

I can't remember all of it...but it involved a socialist nazi type scenario. You had to be where you had to be at a certain time. You couldn't just do as you please. There were these white wolves in this sanctuary type place and one was not doing well. I climbed in anyway and began feeding it. I was constantly looking over my shoulder while the person I was with kept telling me to not get caught. I knew I had to be careful what I fed this wolf, as for some reason there were peeled oranges around and knew that if I gave the wolf any at all I could go to jail. They were like sacred or rare or something. then I picked the wolf up and carried it out, all the time fearing that I would get caught by the 'military'.
Me and the person I was with, along with the wolf I was carrying made it to our apartment where more of our friends were. I stuck the wolf in the back corner in a box...everyone was freaking out and telling me to be careful what I fed it (as if food was rationed and you would go to jail if you wasted any). After feeding it, I went to sit down on the couch with my friends.....
Suddenly these 2 men in military uniforms just walked into our apartment....we all immediately stood up. I noticed some of my friends also had on uniforms as well, but they were careful to 'fix' them to hide what they were truly doing from the men who walked in.
In my dream I had the idea of 'nazi' while being there...however, these men did not have an accent or look foreign at all....more normal american. Their uniforms were a dark green with medals/patches/etc on them. The one in front had on his hat and he was the main one in charge. He had gray hair with a mustache. The one with him searched my friend to my left first and then me to make sure we were unarmed.
I was thinking they had found out about the wolf I was helping...but as they went to search the friends to my right, another man in a tan/brown suit poked through the door quietly, took hold of my hand and led me out of the room to outside. Once outside he held up 2 brown satchels and told me to pick one. I picked one as I tried to figure out what in the world he wanted. He handed it to me and led me along side the road. As we walked, I opened the satchel and saw it had a huge bundle of papers (looked like large 8x11 sized receipts), but there was this one smaller note that I knew was the thing I actually needed....(never got to read it though :( )
So we walked and he tried to hail a cab that was passing by, but it was full...it started to drive away but ended up slowing and pulling over and making the passenger in the back get out. The cab let us get it.... (the cab had a man driving and a woman in the passenger seat...these people looked like the man and woman from Les Mis that sold the little girl) anyway, we quickly drove away from town.....
I remembered that I had left my friend at the apartment and the wolf and was afraid they would get in trouble if the military men found the wolf in the box so I pleaded with the man in the brown suit to take me back so I could get the wolf out! I didn't want it to starve if no one else would feed it....so we began driving back, but I was so afraid that the military men would find me...and while we were headed back I was trying to figure out a way to get to the wolf without getting caught! Than I woke up.

The idea of this dream wasn't the fact we were living in a socialist crap type country, but that it already is happening here in reality. And to beat it all, i saw a picture today of a military man from china wearing that exact same freaking military uniform in my dream!! Argh! The ones in my dream weren't chinese though.... it was a very unsettling dream for sure, but at least I didn't wake up suddenly...as those are the ones that come true rather abruptly. Hate those!

Anyway....back to today..... went to an interview for a photography job, will find out next week if that results in anything new. Went to pick up a table from people giving one away (yay!)....but this morning I witnessed some rather sad scene.
There was traffic, but not bad traffic....Was coming up to a red light and this person was pulling out of the gas station in front of me to my left... (I was in the center lane, this guy was already mostly pulled out into the right lane) ....the person in front of me pulled forward past him...this guy trying to pull out started like cussing and yelling toward the guy in front of me who pulled forward....He was yelling and jabbing his finger and just being ignorant. I'm not even sure why he was mad, the guy in front of me didn't do anything and probably didn't even know the guy pulling out was yelling at him....but I could see him just fine as his window was down...he was yelling but I could only make out quite a few f words, s-o-b words, a hole words...among others....with my own radio on mind you. This mad guy was already in the right lane (crooked) and I'm not sure if he wanted across to the next lane or what...but still.....it's amazing how well you can see people's struggle and pain by the way that they act.....
I wonder if there's hope for such creature's. I felt sorry for him....that he couldn't control his actions...his anger...that he didn't have something 'better' to cling to other than his pain.

This leads me back to Les Mis....having something to cling to.
Our hope, our ever growing longing for a better place. Even if it's not here....it 'has' to be somewhere. Some call it heaven....some say it is found through teachings and books, and through the giving and showing of love....but I say its only found in one place...one place that stretches beyond all boundaries....in Him. And I only say that because the only time ever that you will ever be complete and without a want or care is when you are in His arms.
And you might come back here to this desolate place and realize that even everything EVERYTHING here.....cannot amount to even a glimpse of what you know to be there. Nothing here can fill that void, that incompleteness. All the love and peace and glory and beauty and amazing miracles of every moment in time still would not be enough.


Anyway.....Back to my beginning paragraph.....I was advised not to mention certain 'cue' words here on this stupid blog....so I will take that advise and use pseudonyms in their place....kinda like I do the boss man (love Him), or my very good friend, who by the way is most awesome... or batman....or Mr. Clean, or Mr. OMG, INCREDIBLE.... :) you'll know what I mean and if you don't oh well.
So for now....I am going to see how this all plays out and watch the kingdom fall. I'm going to witness and take account. I'm going to remember. I'm going to remain on the side lines and see what happens. Unless for any reason my selfish self decides to assist in the progress.


In other news. I'm not sure how one goes about day by day by dying day not feeling whateverthehell is in the air. There's this thick heavy deep vibration and I wouldn't doubt if there will be a time very soon that something incredible happens. Now whether that will be a good or bad thing is yet to be determined. What is it?! for all that I relearned today....it is manna. Something to do with wintery white powder.....
can no one else feel it? Or am I stuck out here on my own yet again, while the other sheep huddle in the haystack where the wolves like to hunt.....argh!. Do you realize how frustrating it is not to have someone in this dimension to talk to about otherworldy stuff? Lol....no not aliens...I hate aliens! But more deep earthbound spirituality about stars and rivers and frequencies relating to atomic particles that directly involve His Voice..... aaahhh...but what do you know..

You sleeping creatures....Can't wait forever for everyone to wake up....
I heard a prediction today about how this culture will only rediscover itself at the end of a barrel....hmmm.....just wanted to document that. Not mine, but I heard it today.

I'm also somewhat astonished people stick their kids in school. what a joke. a joke almost as rotten as 'the company' that runs it. And if you don't know who 'the company' is....it starts with a gov.....ends in ment....and has ern in the middle. What did I say about cue words?...exactly...that has to do with the first paragraph too.....filthy liars that make you believe the lie!
Just my opinion.... but I like my opinion ...me and my selfish ass self. And I saw about 3 too many videos today...as the first one already worked its magic by the time I got the the 5th.... incredible....but I can't say what it's about other than I bet you could figure it out if you happened to hear about it on the news....


Well.....I am freaking going to get out of here, you may stay if you'd like, but me and my house are leaving and going somewhere better. I no longer care who else I see there other than the boss man and my very good friend. Maybe you can come too if you stop believing that horseshit you see on the news.
I'm outta here. Goodbye.